Layout:
— Individual Team News + Stone’s Cold Takes
— Miscellaneous/Other NFL News
— Restaurant of the Week - Pittsburgh
Arizona Cardinals:

• RB James Conner likes being an underdog
• HC Jonathan Gannon wanted to move forward with who was all in on the team when asked about DeAndre Hopkins
• Gained $4.21m in cap space after June 1st deadline
• QB Clayton Tune could work his way into a starting spot
• Potentially interested in moving on from LB Isaiah Simmons

This team cannot unload folks fast enough it seems. They are now looking to potentially move on from LB Isaiah Simmons who in many folks eyes has not lived up to the hype from the draft. WE shall see if they can get anything for him if they do decide to move on. The storyline I am most interested in watching this year here is first how long Kyler Murray will be out and second how rookie QB Clayton Tune is developing. It seems like they took him so they could try out a young QB in the interim while Murray is working his way back. Apparently thus far he has been doing well in OTAs.
Atlanta Falcons:

• Team expects TE Kyle Pitts to be ready for season opener
• Ditching gradient uniforms and will wear throwbacks 3 times

Not too much news from the Falcons but many will be excited to hear about Kyle Pitts expected to be back for the season opener. Hopefully this is the year he can really break out but a lot will depend on the QB Desmond Ridder actually being able to throw him the ball unlike the past quarterbacks he has had who have not made things easy.
Baltimore Ravens:

• WR Zay Flowers is impressing with his route running capabilities early on

Good news here because receiver seems to be a position where the Ravens have struggled to get good production. With new OC Todd Monken that should start to change and with an added emphasis on the passing game it inevitably should change as more throws are made.
Buffalo Bills:

• Rumored that QB Josh Allen will be featured on the cover of Madden
• Signed:
  
  • DT Ed Oliver to a 4-year $68m extension with $45m guaranteed
  • WR Marcell Ateman
  • OT Brandon Shell
• Supposedly out on WR DeAndre Hopkins
  
• Expect Edge Von Miller to be back for the season opener
  

Great move here signing Ed Oliver to his extension. He is a key piece of that d-line and helps hold them together. I personally don’t believe they or really any of the other teams that have said they are out on DeAndre Hopkins actually are. To me it appears more to be a message saying they are not going to be paying him the money that WR Odell Beckham got earlier this offseason. Only time will tell. Great news for the team that EDGE Von Miller should be back by the season opener. Personally though I would take my time with him and would be overly cautious to make sure he is fully healthy. Hopefully that is by week 1!
Carolina Panthers:

• QB Bryce Young is already impressing with his poise
• Plan to use some Deebo Samuel-like packages for WR Laviska Shenault

The hype appears to be real for the Bryce Young but it is what every team says about their rookie quarterback who is a top pick so hard to decipher how folks are actually feeling. I am excited about how Frank Reich will use WR Laviska Shenault because I have always been impressed with his athletic ability and expected him to break out more. It seems this could have been the type of role he has been waiting for.
Chicago Bears:

• Have other sites in mind potentially for a new stadium besides Arlington
• QB Justin Fields donated $10,000 to the special olympics
• WR DJ Moore has been performing well in OTAs
• Stadium is at risk after property tax assessment

A lot of news around the future stadium of the Bears. It appeared a couple weeks ago that everything was moving along as planned and no issues had come up. This week there was nothing but concerns and problems. I wonder if these are all real storylines or if it is something they are using to try and negotiate more with the government to get help with the stadium. In more football news is appears that WR DJ Moore and QB Justin Fields are enjoying working together and developing a good connection. This is important to give Fields someone he can trust like he did his receivers at Ohio State.
Cincinnati Bengals:

• WR Tyler Boyd feels they one-upped the Chiefs signing Orlando Brown Jr.
• DE Sam Hubbard excited for what’s next this season
• Will hold joint practices with the Packers

Not too much football news here but they appear to be ready to take on the Chiefs again this year and make a deep playoff run. Also, it appears at this point that the team will keep RB Joe Mixon based on comments from the team and HC Zac Taylor. This offense per usual will be an exciting one to watch.
Cleveland Browns:

• Strong possibility that WR DeAndre Hopkins ends up here
  
  • QB Deshaun Watson is working hard to recruit him
• DC Jim Schwartz sees a benefit in d-linemen playing fewer snaps to stay fresh
  
• Gained $10.9m in cap space after June 1st release deadline
  

Good news and good vibes are finally coming out of Cleveland. Feels like it has been while. QB Deshaun Watson appears to be benefitting from having a full offseason and getting work in with his new receivers. He has been pushing hard for Hopkins and the Browns would make sense as a good landing spot for him given the prior relationship Watson and Hopkins had during their time in Houston. I have been pleasantly surprised by how well things appear to be going so far this offseason.
Dallas Cowboys:

• Started long-term extension talks with CB Trevon Diggs
• WR Antonio Callaway was arrested Saturday in Miami
• Micah Parsons is more concerned with making impactful plays on defense
• Supposedly out on WR DeAndre Hopkins
• RB Tony Pollard is a little ahead of schedule with rehab
• Gained $10.9m in cap space after June 1st deadline

Similar to the Bills I don’t think the Cowboys are actually out on Hopkins but probably sending a message that he needs to bring down his asking price. I wonder sometimes if they are still saving room for RB Ezekiel Elliott to come back here and play especially with them gaining the $10.9m in cap space after the deadline. Also, hopefully the team can get something done with CB Trevon Diggs sooner rather than later because he has been an impactful piece on defense despite the big plays he occasionally gives up because he can change a game with one of his interceptions.
Denver Broncos:

• HC Sean Payton puts a heavy emphasis on the importance of Guards in the NFL
• Released RB Jacques Patrick
• Gained $3.75m in cap space after June 1st deadline
• Signed:
  
  • K Elliott Fry

Not too much news here but they did find their replacement for K Brandon McManus in Elliott Fry. I would say less news from this team this offseason is better because ever since QB Russell Wilson struggled it seemed like the media was out to get him and the team any chance they had. HC Sean Payton must be running a pretty tight ship.
Detroit Lions:

• OC Ben Johnson expects offense to take a huge step forward this season
• RB Jahymr Gibbs has been standing out in practice running and catching the ball
• OT Penei Sewell is embracing leadership role
• S Tracy Walker expects to be fully cleared for camp

All good news this week which should be good for morale. Seems they have strung together a couple good weeks during their OTAs. Great to see that RB Jahymr Gibbs is getting some reps in and showcasing his abilities that made the team feel the need to spend a high draft pick on him. Great to see as well that Penei Sewell at the young age of 22 taking on a leadership role and getting good work in as well. With that said OC Ben Johnson could be prepping and is expecting for the offense to have a big year.
Green Bay Packers:

• WR Romeo Doubs doesn’t think there will be a regression with QB Jordan Love
• OL David Bakhtiari says disrespectful to say they are rebuilding
• Will hold joint practices with the Bengals

It appears that it may be a bit tough in the post Aaron Rodgers era as expected. However, it does sound like there is less front office drama now that they are not having to work with him in the offseason. Time will tell whether the drama was more caused by a lack of good communication as Rodgers claimed recently or by the former Packers QB himself.
Houston Texans:

• QB CJ Stroud is ahead of where the team expected him to be at this point
• RT Tytus Howard is in line for a big extension
• Released DT Taylor Stallworth with injury settlement
• Will hold joint practices with the Dolphins and Saints

Good news about CJ Stroud but again as I mentioned with Bryce Young it is hard to find a team that drafted a top QB in the draft not raving about their quarterbacks progress at this point. The joint practices they have setup will be great for QB CJ Stroud. The Dolphins and Saints should each have tough defenses this year and will give Stroud a bit better of an idea of what to expect from an NFL defense in a real game.
Indianapolis Colts:

• QB Anthony Richardson is looking really good overall
• Worked out WR Breshad Perriman

Looks like the Colts are trying to get receiver help but haven’t decided on any yet. This is the team that should go out and get Hopkins. They need a true #1 receiver and Josh Downs while I think he will be really good would benefit from having a big bodied possession type receiver in Hopkins. Also, it would give QB Anthony Richardson more of a safety net in terms of a WR that can help him progress and see things that he may not have picked up on otherwise.
Jacksonville Jaguars:

• K Brandon McManus called special teams coach to express interest in the team after being cut
• EDGE Josh Allen is the only player under contract not attending voluntary OTAs
• Being cautious with WR Calvin Ridley during OTAs
• Plan to have a RB committee approach

I am really excited for the Jaguars this season. They are kind of the forgotten team in the NFL most years but appear to be poised to make a deep playoff run this year. WR Calvin Ridley is going to be a huge difference maker this year and should benefit from QB Trevor Lawrence continuing to progress going into his 3rd NFL season.
Kansas City Chiefs:

• Wife of Chiefs owner Norma Hunt passed at the age of 85
• Supposedly out on WR DeAndre Hopkins
• WR Justyn Ross has the trust of QB Patrick Mahomes

Sad news to hear about Norma Hunt’s passing as the whole league mourned and sent their condolences. They are also supposedly out on Hopkins which I believe means they are really saying we need you to come down on price. The Chiefs though per usual have revealed though their secret weapon in WR Justyn Ross who many had forgotten about due to him sitting out with an injury his rookie year. It looks like Ross may be back to prior form when he was making plays at Clemson with Trevor Lawrence.
Las Vegas Raiders:

• Open to listening to trade offers for WR Hunter Renfrow
• HC Josh McDaniels is not worried about QB Jimmy Garoppolo’s foot surgery

Even though the media and some fans were starting to worry about Jimmy G’s foot surgery it does not appear McDaniels has any worries about him missing time because of it. Will be interesting to see what the team ends up doing with Renfrow with all signs from earlier in the offseason pointing towards a release or trade.
Los Angeles Chargers:

• WR Quentin Johnson has been impressive according to teammates Keenan Allen
• OT Rashawn Slater is at 100% and has been for quite some time

Not much news here but it was great news to get confirmation from OT Rashawn Slater regarding his health and to hear WR Keenan Allen’s thoughts on rookie WR Quentin Johnson. This team should give us what they think they will every year and go far in the playoff this year.
Los Angeles Rams:

• DC Raheem Morris helped save drowning child
• Signed:
  
  • WR Tyler Johnson

Not much news here but signed WR Tyler Johnson who can help them make some big splashy plays on offense. DC Raheem Morris helped saved a drowning child and credited his AED training. Always cool to hear these stories about NFL coaches and players leaping into action to help and save other in the community.
Miami Dolphins:

• Hope to sign DT Christian Wilkins to an extension before the season
• QB Tua Tagovailoa is completely healthy and showing signs of growth as a leader
• Real possibility they end up with RB Dalvin Cook this year
• Opted to only use 6 of 10 available days of OTAs
• Gained $13.6m in cap space after June 1st deadline
• Will hold joint practices with the Texans

This team appears to be click on all levels so far this offseason and there appears to be a lot more good coming with the team working to get a Wilkins extension done before the season and may even still end up with RB Dalvin Cook here soon. Tua being completely healthy at this point doesn’t feel like much of a surprise but it does appear that he is trying to take on more of a leadership role after finding his confidence last year. My main worry though with Tua is that last year he still was very much a rhythm quarterback in my mind so when he got knocked off that rhythm he had some really bad games. However, when he was able to keep in rhythm he at times looked like the best passer in the league. It will be key this offseason now that he knows the offense to be able to play off rhythm when necessary and make those plays that the top quarterbacks in the league make if he wanting to take the next step.
Minnesota Vikings:

• Seems that only thing left for RB Dalvin Cook is an announcement of how he will be leaving the team by trade or by getting cut
• Head Coach Kevin O’Connell described RB Alexander Mattison as a every down RB
• Paid off their debt on stadium 23 years earlier saving taxpayers $226m in interest
• Expected that WR Justin Jefferson to be highest paid WR when he signs his extension
• Will have joint practices with Tennessee

It appears that the Vikings are in a holding pattern and I imagine are hoping to get a trade package they approve of for RB Dalvin Cook. Sooner or later though it appears that Dalvin Cook will not be with the Vikings this year. Big win though for the fans and locals in Minnesota with the team paying off their stadium early and saving taxpayers a bunch of money. Might get some more buy in from good press like that.
New England Patriots:

• QB Mac Jones is aiming to earn the respect of his teammates

Not much news here but it appears things are moving along really well in comparison with last year at this time. QB Mac Jones seems happy and is working hard. It will be tough for this Patriots team with how stacked the division is but maybe a big move to get Hopkins and some improvement from the offense and Mac Jones and who knows they may be right up there with everyone else in the division.
New Orleans Saints:

• DE Cam Jordan will play for the team as long as he wants
• QB Jameis Winston feels that he is still a starting QB in the league
• Excited to WR Michael Thomas to be ready for camp
• Will hold joint practices with the Texans
• HC Dennis Allen had Jon Gruden attend OTAs in order to aid offense with QB Derek Carr
• TE Juwan Johnson has been studying Julian Edelman tape at QB Derek Carr’s urging

Another team where things just seem to be clicking so far is here in New Orleans. QB Derek Carr seems to be doing a good job taking on a leadership role and working with teammates such as TE Juwan Johnson. Things will be going even better if WR Michael Thomas can actually return for camp and find a way to play near a level that he used to. Right now in a wide open NFC South it appears that this team will be the favorites to win it going into the season.
New York Giants:

• Did homework on WR DeAndre Hopkins and are now supposedly not interested in pursuing him
• Officially added Ryan Cowden as executive advisor the general manager
• QB Daniel Jones is ok with rookie center John Michael Schmitz using “dead snap” technique

Not much here which may be a good thing for a New York team to get a break from all the media. This season will be an interesting one with how the team went all in on QB Daniel Jones. It kind of feels like besides the Eagles the rest of the division is up for grabs with no true strong contender emerging yet.
New York Jets:

• QB Aaron Rodgers has enjoyed the communication within the organization
• Signed:
  
  • OL Yodny Cajuste
• Released OL Eric Smith
  
• The team and Quinnen Williams are not far off in contract talks
  

Good news on the Quinnen Williams front and in keeping Aaron Rodgers happy. Williams and the team are not far off in contract talks which hopefully means something will get done here very soon. Rodgers has been raving about the Jets communication skills which was his main gripe with the Packers. Now lets just make it clear that he does not need to be pulling the sled.
Philadelphia Eagles:

• Team is excited for QB Jalen Hurts to make another huge leap
• Offered to trade for QB Russell Wilson but Wilson did not want to play in Philly
• DT Jordan Davis broke a blocking sled

Man what a difference one decision can make. Jalen Hurts I imagine would have been in Seattle had the trade happened for Russell Wilson. I bet Eagles fans are happy this didn’t pan out but it does not mean they need to cut Wilson any slack for not wanting to play in Philly if these teams meet in future seasons or end up playing each other in the Super Bowl. Eagles appear setup to be the main threat in the NFC.
Pittsburgh Steelers:

• First round pick Broderick Jones getting 1st-team reps at Left Tackle

Not much out of Pittsburgh per usual but the good news is that Broderick Jones is progressing nicely and is already getting 1st-team reps at Left Tackle. I am sure QB Kenny Pickett is pleased with that.
San Francisco 49ers:

• S Ji’Ayir Brown is already taking first team reps and has stood out in OTAs
• GM John Lynch feels QB Trey Lance has had a really quality offseason
• Very encouraged by progress and throwing session QB Brock Purdy had
• DL Arik Armstead very excited about adding Javon Hargrave to the group
• RB Christian McCaffrey excited to have a full offseason with HC Kyle Shanahan
• Plan to make DE Nick Bosa highest paid defensive player

Things are moving along just fine for the 49ers. Exciting to hear that S Ji’Ayir Brown is making good progress and apparently had 4 or 5 interceptions during OTAs. I imagine the team is also very pleased with the progress QB Brock Purdy is making in his recovery from elbow surgery. He appears to be on pace with the original timeline. If this team can figure it out at the QB position they just might be the most complete all around team up there with the Eagles.
Seattle Seahawks:

• HC Pete Carroll expects his team to be aggressive when returning kicks and expects more squib kicks to be used
• WR Jaxon Smith-Njigba has been extremely impressive
• Signed:
  
  • Benjie Franklin
  • Montrae Braswell
• Cut:
  
  • Forrest Merrill
  • LaTrell Bumphus

Gotta love HC Pete Carroll. It seems like so far it has been pretty unanimous that all those that are playing or coaching football do not love the new kickoff rules. I am sure folks will find ways to take advantage of it though. Once again this week WR Jaxon Smith Njigba was impressive and should be establishing himself within that offense. Seahawks could very well be a sleeper team in the NFC that was good last year but that folks are paying a ton of attention to this year.
Tampa Bay Buccaneers:

• Antoine Winfield Jr. is expected to play Free Safety this year
• Respect is a key factor in the quarterback battle that is ongoing
• WR Chris Godwin feels his explosiveness coming back

This team has all the big name weapons at receiver one could ask for as long as they stay healthy. It was great to hear that Chris Godwin is getting his explosiveness back. Now not surprisingly it comes down to the QB battle and a big part of that is gaining respect from those veteran players and coaches in the building. I still feel like this battle is QB Baker Mayfield’s to lose at this point.
Tennessee Titans:

• Longtime executive Bob Hyde passed away
• QB Will Levis had a rough week at practice
• P Brett Kern announced his retirement
• Will have joint practice with Minnesota
• Signed:
  
  • DL Jaleel Johnson

Sad news this past week here as well with the passing of Bob Hyde. Also, finally some negative news about one of the Quarterbacks from this year’s draft. Will Levis has been struggling. However, this should not be viewed as a bad sign because every rookie is going to struggle and Levis with his situation has the benefit of time.
Washington Commanders:

• The Josh Harris bid after making some changes is inching closer to full approval
• CB Emmanuel Forbes has been thriving in the slot
• QB Sam Howell has looked the part and is taking command of the offense thus far
• OC Eric Bieniemy wants everyone to be like WR Terry McLaurin
• Gained $8.37m in cap space after June 1st deadline
• Released CB Cameron Dantzler
• Releasing G Andrew Norwell once he passes physical

Seems we are inching closer and closer to the Josh Harris Group’s bid being fully accepted by the owners after some minor adjustments. From the actual team and players it sounds like things are going really well and maybe better than a lot of folks expected. CB Emmanuel Forbes has been doing well in the slot and QB Sam Howell is looking the part and taking charge. The Commanders will be a fun team to watch this year and see how they end up when it is all said and done.
Miscellaneous/Other NFL News:

• Still no announcement as to who will be the team featured on Hard Knocks
• CB Damar Hamlin is leading a multi-city CPAED tour
• Several NFL teams are waiting for RB Dalvin Cook to be cut
• Yannick Ngakoue wants a multi-year deal with a Super Bowl contender
• Chiefsaholic fan is still on the loose
• Tom Brady is certain he is done playing and has tried to make that clear to other teams
• RB Ezekiel Elliott is staying in shape
• Executive are nervous about WR DeAndre Hopkins ability to separate and run at this point in his career
• Less than 100 days from the NFL season

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Restaurant of the Week: (Pittsburgh - Burgatory)
Get excited Pittsburgh fans and all folks going to a game here! Burgatory is only a half mile from the stadium and has some of the best food so far from the restaurants that have been featured. One of my personal favorites is the Piggy Butter & Jelly. Yes, that is a burger with peanut butter and jelly on it. Don’t question it just try it. However, if for some reason you do not my other recommendation would be The Triple B which is a Bison, Beer Cheese, and Bacon burger. Hence the name Triple B. You can’t really go wrong with anything on the menu and the important thing though is that you don’t forget to grab a shake as well. My personal favorite is the Oreo Peanut Butter Pie shake. They are open every day starting at 11am and closer at 9pm everyday except for Friday and Saturday when they close at 11pm. Hop on over and enjoy this delicious food when in town for a game!

Hola, hace tiempo que no ando muy puesto en el mundo de los mangas, tengo algunas colecciones que estoy pensando en vender pero no tengo ni idea de cuanto podría pedir por cada una. Agradecería mucho si alguien podría tirarme una cifra estimativa de cuanto debería pedir.
Todas las colecciones están en perfecto estado ya que son tomos que tengo de coleccion, no han sido leidos, asi que no están ni manchados, ni deformados ni nada, de nada, todos desde el dia uno con su funda de plastico.
-Attack on Titan (completa)
-Oyasumi Punpun (completa)
-Demon Slayer (todos los tomos menos el último)
-Alita Battle Angel (completa)
-Knights of Sidonia (completa)
-Claymore ( 1 al 17 creo recordar)
-Chainsaw Man ( del 1 al 10)

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Hey team,
In the early days of lockdowns 2020 some friends introduced me to this game they would play in Los Angeles, California, USA. /BikingATX, /bikeLA, /chibike and /CyclePDX have their own games running.
Part scavenger hunt, part hide-and-seek and part race, bike tag is a mystery photo tag game played on bicycles.
It starts with a player who posts a picture of their bike at a “mystery location” somewhere in the greater Melbourne area.
The goal here is to be the first person to figure out where that is, ride your bike to that same spot and take a photo of your bike there.
Then you ride to a different location take your bike's photo at the new “mystery location” as the next place to find for everyone else. Both pictures are posted in a self post and the game starts over.
Any interest in starting this on here? Would like to see it as a seperate subreddit or would people be cool with be a regular thing here. Let me know.

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Athletics @ Pirates - Mon, Jun 05

Game Status: Scheduled - First Pitch is scheduled for 04:05 PM PDT

Links & Info

• Venue: PNC Park
• TV: National: MLBN (out-of-market only), Athletics: NBCSCA, Pirates: ATT SportsNet-PIT
• Radio: Athletics: Bloomberg 960 AM/103.7 HD2, A's Cast, Pirates: KDKA-FM 93.7
• MLB Gameday
• Statcast Game Preview
• Discord

ALW Rank	Team	W	L	GB (E#)	WC Rank	WC GB (E#)
1	Texas Rangers	38	20	- (-)	-	- (-)
2	Houston Astros	35	24	3.5 (101)	2	- (-)
3	Los Angeles Angels	31	30	8.5 (95)	6	5.0 (98)
4	Seattle Mariners	29	30	9.5 (95)	7	6.0 (98)
5	Oakland Athletics	12	49	27.5 (76)	12	24.0 (79)

	Probable Pitcher (Season Stats)	Report
Athletics	JP Sears (0-3, 4.37 ERA, 59.2 IP)	No report posted.
Pirates	Johan Oviedo (3-4, 4.50 ERA, 58.0 IP)	No report posted.

Division Scoreboard

HOU @ TOR 04:07 PM PDT
STL @ TEX 05:05 PM PDT
^{Posted: 06/05/2023 06:00:00 AM PDT}

Kanye West seems to have gotten tired of all the media attention that he has been receiving as he was caught on camera yelling at some persistent paparazzi to leave him and his family alone.
Ye was allegedly on his way to church in Los Angeles (L.A)
https://yardhype.com/kanye-wife-and-son-hounded-by-paparazzi-ye-yells-stop-following-me-watch-video/

Rules are simple:

• Talk about whatever's on your mind.
• Be excellent to each other.

Soy un chico de 18 años , les voy a contar mi historia :
-ultimamente mi autoestima ha estado bajando bastante , ya no me hablaba con amor y cariño propio , ya no me hace feliz las cosas que me gustaban hacer y me siento todo el tiempo pensativo y triste , amargado de la vida más que todo. No estoy ñoniendo a trabajar mis sueños y eso me hace fatal porque se me hace dificil ya.
Hace unos dias , estaba en whatsapp , en un grupo , y conoci a una chica de 15 años llamada SayDa , yo queria conocerla y la escribi , nos intercambiamos fotos y era bonita , y ella tmb opino lo mismo de mi , no se por que pero me puse cariñoso con ella , me puse a enamorarla y a decirle cosas lindas , pero por el fondo me sentia mal porque pensaba que me estaba aprovechando de una menor de edad , o haciendola ilusionar , y que no queria tener problemas con la policia ni ir a la carcel. Pero paso el tiempo , la iba conociendo , yo soy filosofico y muy poeta , a mis frases las complemento con mis conversaciones , yo enamoró siendo poeta y creando frases que le gusten a las chicas . mas que todo , ella tmb se ponia muy cariñosa y me decia cosas como que: "eres lindo , hermoso , un angel caido , quiero abrazarte y nunca soltarte y que jamas te dejaré" y yo al principio me gusta , me estaba sonrojando y calentando por eso , y ella tmb , pero lo malo es que me sentía mal por lo antes dicho , aparte me decia que esto es dependencia emocional , me estoy poniendo atentó a ella y siempre estaba en mi whatsapp esperando un mensaje , lo malo es que pensaba que esto era falso , todo esto era falso , y que soy un asco porque estoy ilusionandola , y me decia a mi mismo:" tranquilo Gabriel , a ti no te gusta , prometo que la iba a dejar de hablsr o escribir de manera cariñosa , pero cuando ella me escribia , rapidito me calentaba o me sonrojaba , y decia que se estaba poniendo comoda conmigo y que le gustaba de que le hablara , eso esta bien , pero no deberia mandarle mensajes cariñosos , siento que solamente quiero pasar el rato , y eso , asi que mas mal me ponia yo cuando le decia este tipo de cosas .
Tmb me descargué una app de citas y amigos , pues creía que a SayDa , no le gustaba y ya tenia a alguien quien le guste ya , y me puse amargado y triste pero no quise enfrascarme en eso todo el tiempo , y probe , hice 2 matches con 2 chicas , una de 18 y 21 , la de 18 me gustaba más , era hot , la que me gustan , y trataba de enamorarla , o hacerle plactica , pero a veces no me respondía , voy a seguir intentando hablar con ella para ver si pasa algo entre nosotros (Cosa que dudo bastante) van a ver por que.
Otra era de la chica de 21 , le hable y ella era muy habladora , 5 o 7 mensajes me mandaba , cosa que nunca recibi ese tipo atencion he interes de parte de una chica , no me gustaba ella pero me gustaba que sea tan atenta conmigo , tambien trataba de enamorarla para ver si pasaba algo entre nosotros , aún apenas las conozco , asi que no puedo sacar conclusiones rapidas acerca de eso , pero dudo de que se enamoren o fijen de mi realmente , las busco por lo sexual , para pasar un rato sexual , sexting y esas cosas , pero lo malo es que tmb ese enamoramiento tmb es falso , estoy ilusionando a chicas que no merecen esto , pienso eso , y me siento mal.
Antes de explicar sobre lo otro , es que , lo que pasa es que soy un chico al que le ha costado hacer amigos siempre , siempre tenia un grupo reducido de amigos y no me gustaba eso , me sentia sólo , no estaba solo por decisión propia , sino porque a pesar de que queria estar con alguien , igual nunca reciprocaba con los demás o lograba hacer conversaciones en la vida real , en whatsapp tengo un grupo en el que si hablo , solamente que a veces dudo de que tambien me pongan y me den esa atencion que tmb merezco , pienso eso .
Otra cosa es que tmb siempre quise tener una novia , nunca tuve en la adolescencia , o en la secundaria , y me siento mal por eso , saber que nunca me senti querido por alguna chica , me sentía mal y me frustaba de que por que no tenia novia , por que los demas si tienen y pueden tener novia/o y yo no? , me sentia frustrado y rencoroso por eso , realmente odiaba eso , pero ultimamente , siempre trataba y trataba de hacer plactica , pero me di cuenta de que es mi culpa porque por mi actitud de desinteres , hace que la gente no me hable por whatsapp, en la vida real si no sabia por que tampoco , nadie se me acercaba para hablar , tener la iniciativa , veia a chicos mas feos que yo con una amiga más linda de la que imaginas , y yo no sabia por que no tengo esa suerte que otros no.
Algunos tmb ya han empezado a perder la virginidad o a empezar su vida sexual , yo no podia por lo mencionado , a nadie le gustaba ni emocional , ni fisica , ni sexualmente , no tengo envidia por eso pero me aterra tmb que otros chicos de 15 a mi edad pueden tener algo que para otros es facil de conseguir , para mi es como un privilegio o algo que es difícil de conseguir , yo me decia por decir , y pensaba en dejar de esperar a esa "personita especial" y pagar por sexo , mejor , pagar para que me quieran , pero 1 , soy miedoso para hacer eso tmb , y 2 , siento que para eso debo hacerlo con una persona especial pero quien y por que tengo esa idea si a nadie le parezco especial , y ni llega esa persona especial que todo el mundo dice .
No quiero que me digan cosas como " no te preocupes , ya llegará la persona indicada" o "no fuerzes el amor , el amor llega cuando menos te lo esperas" , yo deseaba esto desde mis 16 o 17 y nada , me estoy cansando de esperar , pero tmp quisiera salir lastimado por eso , pero ese tipo de dudas no me dejan saber que conclusión llegar , aparte me canse de aceptar ese tipo de cosas ya que lo unico que me hacen es , ser mas rencoroso y envidioso , cerrado al amor , y eso.
Otra cosa es que , no se , soy una mala persona , al menos eso pienso , por lo que hice y aparte , soy buena gente , no hago nada malo de gravedad a nadie , no soy ladron , soy estudioso , estoy en una carrera en la universidad , ayudo a los demas de vez en cuando , no fumó , no me drogó o robó ,soy romántico y poético( creo que deberia dejar eso de mi) pero aún así , me siento solo y a nadie le gusto , no tengo amigo , y ni le deseo a nadie Física , mental , sexual , romántica ni emocionalmente. Siento que vine a este mundo para ser pasajero , nunca he tenido amigos que se hayan quedado conmigo en las buenas y en las malas , soy solitario , no me gusta estar solo realmente , pero siempre estoy solo , aunque no lo quiera , yo ya he estado solo toda mi secundaria , me he estado sintiendo asi y siempre quise tener o estar en un grupo mas amplio de amigos , pero creo que eso nunca va a pasar , con todo el dolor , trato de no tener pensamientos [email protected] , pero como soy de mente debil , creo que tarde o temprano los tendré , pero me da miedo en [email protected] realmente , pero siento de que si no lo hago , jamás sabre si fue buena idea o no , aparte siempre seré pasajero.
Hace unos dias tuve adiccion a ver porn0grafía y a [email protected] , por lo solo que me sentía , escuche de que si hago NoFap , me hago mas atractivo para las chicas , he estado absteniendome del Fap por 18 dias , pero aún asi no me siento atractivo o siento de que no soy atractivo para ninguna chica aún , no se por que hice este reto , estaba equivocado , tal vez lo deje en algún momento.
Disculpen si el mensaje fue tan largo , me puse a sacar lagrimas por lo malo que me sentía como persona. Espero me comprendan y me entiendan , quiero desahogarme con esto.