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I have no friends at all, have never had a GF, and I no longer know how to communicate with others. Every time I go for work or college, I read through social media and see couples laughing, hugging, kissing, and doing other things that fascinate me despite the fact that it seems I'll never be in one. Even though I'm only 19 years old, love has always been a top priority for me. However, despite the fact that others tell me they find my personality to be fantastic, they rarely express romantic interest in me, and I have now come to the conclusion that unless this changes, I won't find love. Despite m conventionally attractive appearance, there is virtually little likelihood that you will attract love interest.
Contrary to what they might say, people do care about appearances indeed, far more than they care about someone's personality. I don't think I'll ever experience returned love because I don't have the conventionally attractive looks that would make someone want to date me.

This is going to be a long rant, so I'm sorry if it's all over the place.
I'll start with the things I liked first.
. The Acting was good. I'm a bit of an acting snob, and while this wasn't Oscar-worthy or anything, I thought everybody did a really good job. (except for lord Agelmar and his sister, what little we see of them was underwhelming)
. The casting likewise was very well done, they got the essence of the characters right.
Ngl, these are the only things that I can say for sure I liked completely. Everything else has at least some flaws for me.
Now for the BAD.
. The direction was choppy/clunky in the first few episodes and boring and lifeless in the remaining ones.
. The writing just wasn't that good, it was generic dialogue after generic dialogue, saved only slightly by the actors giving their all.
(A warning, I'm gonna use the word 'generic' a lot because that's what this show felt like, Generic Modern Fantasy Show no 25)
. The action was generic too, it was choreographed well enough, but it didn't fit the source material if that makes sense.
. The CGI sucked, Tar Valon looked like it came from a 2014-2015 era video game, the channeling was just generic white flows.
. The props and costumes looked fake. The clothes were entirely too clean and the props looked like plastic toys.
. The pacing of the story was really weird, they rushed where they should have slowed and slowed when they should have picked it up a bit. For example, making the Lan-Naynaeve such a big part of the show when they could have easily held it for a season, especially since they were adding so much already.
. When the Dark One first talks to Rand in a dream in the Blight they make him one of those GENERIC sarcastic baddies that are popular nowadays when he wasn't like that in the books. I hated when he said that sarcastic little "oooh" when Rand pulled his sword, in the books whenever he mocks Rand he does it in a cruel way which shows his true nature better than the show version.
The Dragon Reborn reveal was majorly underwhelming. It should have been done more cleverly, this reveal, with the quick-cut flashbacks felt like it was from some TV show aimed towards teenagers, which I don't think this show is trying to be.
. The sets were too small, and the White Tower, which is supposed to be the center of Aes Sedai power, felt more like a small waiting chamber for a bigger palace. Fall Dara was only slightly better.
. finally, and this is a bit vague, but WOT had a sense of grandness to it which was lost in the show. It felt 'enclosed' for lack of a better word.
I really wanted this show to be something great, and unless the second season increases the quality exponentially, I think it's gonna fade into obscurity which is a shame because I think the source material is some of the best fantasy novels ever written.

(Pun intended)
*** Effort Post ***
Whenever the topic of socialism or welfare comes up in Christian circles, the notion of Christian voluntarism is quick to follow. What is this Christian voluntarism? It is the idea that national welfare should be based on voluntary charity by the church, not the state. This idea seems to have influence in George Bush’s Compassionate Conservatism, and also to a lesser degree in David Cameron’s Big Society.
Two defenses of the concept are in “The Tragedy of American Compassion” by Marvin Olasky, and “Christian Charity vs Government Welfare” by Thomas Johnson[1]. In truth, elements of the idea itself has subtlety become accepted by a very many Christians, and is present in general Christian apologetics on economics (see bibliography). It must be noted that the proponents of the idea rarely embrace the term Christian Voluntarism[2], which seems to be rather a function of how generally accepted and non-sequitur the idea seems to be.
The theology behind Christian Voluntarism
Sadly, many of the texts linked do not have a strong theological basis; they are largely historical defenses for the idea (See Olasky 2008 and Johnson 1970). Thus, a strongman of their theology must rely on those apologetic sources rather substantially. Also, thanks to u/Laojac who provided a strongman here.
Christian voluntarism is fundamentally reliant on the charity practiced by the early Christian Church. We know that people in the church shared their property with each other and cared for each other; Acts 2:44-45, Acts 4:32-37. We know they were commanded to care for their families, alongside the poor, and that there were fundraising efforts to send money over to people in need in the church (1 Tim 5:3,8, Galatians 2:10, Hebrews 13:2-3, 2 Corinthians 8-9). Christian Voluntarism takes this model for charity and attempts to nationalize it is a welfare system, for charity. It uses a few methods to support this.
First, it argues that bible tells us that giving should be voluntary. 2 Corinthians 8-9, and especially 2 Corinthians 9:7, exhort voluntary charity, not done under compulsion. Ergo, the state should not require taxation to fund welfare. Whilst the online tracts do not go much further than this, there is an interesting way that this can be extrapolated further. The particular significance of this verse, interestingly enough, is it is one of the key verses to refute the requirement of tithing. Tithing existed under the wholistic economic system of the old testament that did have many rather radical economic policies; the sabbatical year and the year of jubilee, etc. So to call in this verse against the requirement of taxation does provide a rather big challenge; this new idea of caring in the new testament is not a system of governance, like in the old testament, with taxes and regulations. It is a system guided by the holy spirit, whereby people voluntarily care for those around them. The requirement for people to care for families in 1 timothy 5 would definitely fall into this.
Second, it fundamentally ties welfare to work. To quote 2 Thessalonians 3:10 - “those who do not work shall not eat”. This can be taken in the more obvious sense of “there is no such thing as a free lunch” – people need to work to provide for a living, but for the Christian voluntarists, it is taken as a command of a mutual obligation – those who do not try to work shall not get welfare. (Olasky 2008, p 9-10). Unsurprisingly, this is where ideas of “deserving” and “undeserving poor” come from worthy (Olasky 2008, p 11-12). This also forms what welfare should look like – Welfare has a purpose to help people make a living for themselves (Olasky 2008, p 25, 29). But specifically, in practice it also means that those who don’t want to work should be excluded from welfare (Olasky 2008, p 12, 29, 228). Christian voluntarist tracts argue further that welfare itself is corrupting in that it enables backwardness and degeneracy to exist, encouraging laziness and the breakdown of families (for example, Olasky 2008, p xi -xvii, 222).
Third, supporting this is the argument that Biblical notions of property are explicitly in favor of Liberal private property. This is the belief that the owner of property, can do whatever they want with their property. This starts with an appeal to Exodus 20:15,17 as examples of OT Justifications for private property. It points to the various points in the bible that recognize private ownership. To reference a few; Genesis 4:4, Micah 4:4, Acts 5:4. A very notable verse is Mathew 20:15; “Don’t I have the right to do what I want with my own money?” – taking this statement at face value would suggest Jesus is very much in favour of liberal private property rights. The whole conclusion of this that people have the right to do with their property what they want. The most immediate implication is the government cannot seize property - This is used against the threat of state socialism.
The Problems with this theology
Of course, we need to recognize that the Bible doesn’t tell Christians to take over the state and implement a welfare state. The fact is that the bible doesn’t prescribe a structure for economic justice in the broader national community. But similarly, this means the bible doesn’t prescribe the Church as being the welfare system of the broader national community. There is a legitimate question about how to pursuing economic justice in light of biblical commands and examples, and the description of the New Testament church (Acts 2:42-47, Acts 4:34-35) exists to show us what economic justice should look like in Christian communities specifically. However, it is a significant stretch to argue that this decentralised system of churches providing welfare is what the bible prescribes as the only legitimate national welfare system.
NT Christian communities were not set up to be a welfare system for the Roman state. They were examples of model Christian communities that we can look to guide us in holy living. They did exist as an alternate perception of economic justice to Old Testament Israel’s state-embedded system, certainly. However, this alternative state was for a few reasons; First Old Testament Israel was a sacrificial system, one that was no longer needed after Christ’s death and resurrection (Heb 10:1-18). Second, Old Testament Israel was a theocratic state, that would make a people for God who would be outwardly different from all around them (Deut 28:9-10). However, Christ did not come to establish a kingdom of this world (John 18:36), instead a people who would follow him due to their changed heart (John 18:36, John 3:5-8). The nullification of the theocratic state of Israel was not a rejection of the state’s interference in economic policy. Rather, it was a recognition that the theocratic state had fulfilled its soteriological and eschatological purpose.
With this context out of the way, we can refute the specific justifications of the voluntarists; The first, 2 Corinthians 9:7, which tells us that giving should be voluntary, not under compulsion, was in a specific letter given to a specific community responding to a crisis at the time. To transform it into a condemnation of state taxation for welfare is a substantial stretch. Paul made clear that it was also a test; he would not command this church to give charity but wanted to know the sincerity of their love, by comparing how much they gave compared to other churches (2 Corinthians 8:8-9).
He was not laying down a law about the state. Nothing in the passage suggests that the state cannot provide welfare. Nothing in the passage suggests that the state cannot demand taxation. Indeed, bible does not reject compulsion in terms of taxation as Christians are exhorted to pay their taxes (Mark 12:13-17; Rom 13:6-7). Contextually, the Christian Voluntarist must also grapple with the absence of a condemnation of the grain dole of Rome, both within this passage and within the broader New Testament. Now, one could argue that if the state gets involved in welfare then the sincerity of Christian love has failed – but that is a very different argument, an argument that needs to grapple with both the fallen nature of humanity, and the social implications of democracy. Nevertheless, the passage at hand does not refute state taxation or state provision of welfare.
Moving to the second justification – that, welfare should be tied to work. This specific passage, 2 Thessalonians 3:10, occurs within a context where there are believers who are “idle and disruptive” (v 6, 11) and who are “not busy; they are busybodies”. They are commanded to settle down and eat (v 12). To use this passage to encourage Christians to work is good. It is not the purpose of the passage to be used for a model of how a welfare state works. Unlike 2 Cor 9:7, which is deliberately misused by Christians to deny welfare to others – this passage can be used to form a welfare state system. Like Acts 4:32 for the Socialists, and 1 Corinthians 14:12-26 for the Corporatists, 2 Thessalonians 3:10 seems quite able to be derived to justify a political policy. However, to declare that 2 Thessalonians 3:10 necessitates a policy program on welfare is misguided – it was a teaching for a particular church at a particular time. The practical considerations of this particular section will get further treatment further on.
The final argument that the bible prescribes liberal private property. This argument has lies that it conceals in truths. Fundamentally, the bible does recognize property rights. It recognizes that we can own property and have liberty in using that property. However, the bible also recognizes two other things; First, that we are not the absolute owners of that property. God is the absolute owner of everything, not humanity (1 Cor 10:26; Psalm 24:1; Deut 10:14). The second is that any property we have, we steward for God; we are not allowed to use property for whatever purpose we deem fit. The OT system has a variety of restrictions on how we can use property, much of which existed for economic justice. There were prohibitions on taking interest (Leviticus 26:36-37); Gleaning laws that mean restricted the amount of produce farmers could get from their own harvest, requiring they leave some to the poor (Lev 19:9-10; Deut 24:19-21). Furthermore, there are the radical redistribution policies with the Sabbatical year and year of jubilee (Leviticus 25:1-7, 8-55). The commandment to not steal was situated within these verses about responsibilities, something noted by Both Catholics and Reformed Christians (See the Catholic Catechism, Westminster Larger Catechism and Heidelberg Catechism). The New Testament similar has a variety of commands about how to use property; (Luke 6:30, 1 John 3:17, 1 Tim 5:8, 6:17-18).
There is one verse that falls outside of the above explanation; Mathew 20:15 – “Don’t I have the right to do what I want with my own money?”. The context of the verse is that Jesus is teaching a parable. In the parable, the vineyard owner pays all his workers the same amount, no matter what they work. Parables have single purposes – the purpose of this parable is that it doesn’t matter however late you sign up to the gospel, you will still be saved. It is not a parable with prescriptions on wage payments. It is not a parable with prescriptions on private property.
Fundamentally, there is no biblical prescription against the state establishment of a welfare state. This, in itself, does not disqualify Christian voluntarism as an idea; rather it means that advocating Christian voluntarism requires making a different argument – that the Christian voluntarist form of welfare is the best form of welfare.
The Economics of a Christian Voluntarist welfare state
Gøsta Esping-Andersen’s seminal work “The Three Worlds of welfare Capitalism”, divides welfare states into three ideal types; “Liberal”, “Conservative” and “Social Democratic”. Of these, Christian Voluntarism is closest to the “Liberal” ideal type which is found in the US, Australia, New Zealand and Canada. A liberal welfare state is one that aims to encourage the pursuit of employment, and so the state will provide as little as possible (Esping-Andersen 1990, p. 42). Means testing and mutual obligation is often used to minimize the states ways to welfare provision. Those who cannot rely on government support must rely on charity (Esping-Andersen 1990, p. 26-27).
Christian Voluntarism is essentially a Christian defense for the “Liberal” welfare state. However it does far more, because in practice it would mean the undermining of the liberal welfare state. The Christian voluntarist would tear down the last vestiges of a state led system so that people instead rely on Charity. They would attempt to further liberalize an already liberal system. The practical implications of this are that even a state led system that incorporates the principles of the “deserving and undeserving” poor, alongside the mutual obligations of “those who don’t work don’t eat”, are too much for the Christian Voluntarist.
This system fails both quantitatively and qualitatively. It fails quantitatively because a welfare state based on charity cannot support the entire population. Welfare encompasses old age, unemployment, workplace injuries, permanent disabilities and more. The amount of money needed to organise such a welfare system is unachievable by charities (Green 2017). Reviews of “The Tragedy of American compassion” point out that the historical charitable system championed did not provide welfare for all – it was very geographically dependent (Hammack, 1996, p 261-262).
This system also fails qualitatively. One would think that a Christian voluntarist would see that charity and welfare are symptoms of economic greater problems, and addressing those greater problems would reduce the burdens on charity.[3] But Christian Voluntarists don’t address the issues which lead people to need charity. Unaffordable healthcare and involuntary unemployment are two clear examples of structural economic problems; the former due to the various oligopolies that exist throughout the healthcare system, which is unsurprising given it is a market with high start-up costs, and the latter often due a deficiency in demand. The solutions to these factors require substantial economic reform by means of regulation and government spending, which is antithetical to the Christian Voluntarist ideal. Christian voluntarists are not advocating for these solutions to reduce the burden on charities.
Two further addendums need to be added to this analysis. The first is that there are flaws with regards to the policy derivatives of 2 Thessalonians 3:10. The idea of an undeserving poor has lead to many problems – for example this group has historically included beggars and criminals (Schmalz 2017). The definition of who is undeserving will inevitably both include and exclude people who may need help. Olasky, for example, includes Alcoholics and Drug Addicts as part of his ‘undeserving poor’ (p. 227-228), when, in truth, these groups could quite easily be seen as the most needing of support – albeit in a more compressive form then mere cash handout. The principle of mutual obligations behind this need to be thought through. Interestingly enough, the gleaning system in the OT seems to be a system that follows this idea; welfare is there, but people have to work to get it. This principles behind this are also evident in a full employment policy in the modern era. However, today’s governments generally prefer of “mutual obligations” for welfare, or forms of workfare instead. In the context where workers outnumber jobs these programs essentially act as punitive “full employment policy”.
The second is the Christian voluntarist claim that any welfare system should be orientated towards public morality alongside economic justice. This is a fair claim, and frankly welfare systems must be cautiously constructed with consideration of economic justice, and also the moral fabric of society. Here the example of the ideal type of the Conservative welfare state (historically found in found in Germany, Belgium and Austria), can be drawn upon. This welfare state, for example, is constructed with the family in mind (Esping-Andersen 1990, p. 27). It also relies largely on decentralised system of welfare provision that incorporate religious providers (Esping-Andersen 1990, p. 27). Even with the focus on the moral fabric of society, other factors must also come into play; The conservative welfare state benefits married couples over singles; what does this mean for the economic situation of single mothers? Such a welfare system needs to counterbalance the social fabric of society with it’s economic needs.
To Conclude
Theologically, the claims of Christian Voluntarism do not stand up; there is not set biblical principle about the state’s involvement in welfare provision. Economically, the Christian Voluntarists fail to appreciate the quantitative size of charitable provision needed to match the welfare state, nor do they deal with the structural issues facing the economy.
Fundamentally, I am not a Christian Socialist. I do not believe that the descriptions of Christian communities in Acts can be described as socialist – I may write another piece like this later on. I’m not coming from a liberal, modernist or progressive Christian perspective. Rather I’m annoyed that Conservative Christians have accepted the claims of liberal economies and tried to make a more liberalized welfare system based on a misguided claim about following the Bible.
[1] The specific defense provided by Johnson is explicitly voluntarist, in that it draws on voluntarism as a philosophy. It is also Pelagian and so should be rejected; “Any Christian who does not openly and vehemently denounce all forms of government welfare, cannot, in truth, call himself a Christian, for government welfare is the antithesis of Christian charity.” - this is clearly heresy.
[2] Indeed, the term only seems to appear in online Christian Forums. However, Academics do describe this idea as voluntarist, and it is a Christian defense of Voluntarism, so terming the idea “Christian Voluntarism” is apt.
[3] This was the approach of the founder of the St Vincent De Paul society, Frederic Ozanam. He was an economics lecturer and argued that charity was insufficient to change the situation – what was needed was a change to the relationship between workers and capital (Moody 1953, p 129).
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Schmalz, M., 2017. Taxing the rich to help the poor? Here’s what the Bible says, The conversation, viewed 3 June 3, 2023 https://theconversation.com/taxing-the-rich-to-help-the-poor-heres-what-the-bible-says-88627
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Christian Voluntarism & Compassionate Conservatism:
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My life has gotten exceedingly complicated to the point that I have no time to do the work myself. I've never gone down this route however, and wanted to ask the community what your experiences and recommendations are for this. Thank s.

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On wednesday i had a bad experience with a psychologist. I got home i called my doctor asked him for some benzos and went to the pharmacist than i went to the store bought a long rope (it was as thick as a jumping rope) I got home. I tied the rope really tied around my neck. Than i pass the rest of the rope around my neck like 5 times. I holded the rest of the rope tightly at the left side of my neck (for maybe 20-30 minutes) I didnt feel any pain but after i start to feel kinda dizzy and i gave up and took the rope off my neck. I remember i needed to use the toilet so bad but i didnt have much energy to move so i fell asleep. I just woke uo the next day. No pain or anything. Around 3 pm i felt numbness on my neck and it went down to my chest. I spent all night awake cause i thought i was going to die but now i kinda feel better. Was i overreacting? Should i have seeked medical attention at that point? Could this have ended bad? Is it possible that something happen to me even tho days went by ?

Hey guys
I’ve been having a really hard time lately, and right now I’m feeling like I can’t manage this anymore. I can’t remember the last time I felt joy.
I’ve always been a fairly low-energy and melancholic person and have dealt with moderate depression and anxiety over the last 12-ish years (I’m 32 years old). I was managing okay until about 2020 and since then, it’s been getting progressively worse.
I’m now at a point where:

• I never want to leave the house (I live alone) and have only done so a handful of times over the last 12 months (except to go grocery shopping);
• I have no motivation to focus on my job and feel on the verge of getting fired;
• My house has been a disgusting mess for a year and I can’t even muster the energy to clean it;
• I’ve been single for 8 years and have no desire or motivation to even try dating. I got dumped years ago by someone I really loved and I‘ve never been able to stop hurting from that;
• I’ve been trying to finish a degree part-time for years. I’m almost at the end but I’ve started failing all my subjects because I can’t make myself study or attend classes;
• I have no money and I’m in debt; and
• I’ve been dealing with unbearable fatigue. I’ve always had this but lately it’s gotten to the point where I can’t function.

I feel like a complete loser and completely hopeless. I’ve tried various anti-depressants over the years and nothing has made a substantial difference. I’m stuck in this mindset that I’m always going to have a terrible life and there’s no way out.
If anyone has any thoughts / comments, I’d be greatly appreciative. Thanks :)

Morning friends! Welcome to week 39 of Shoot the Shit Saturday! I have been posting this every Saturday around this time, so if you like it, come on by and Shoot the Shit with us!
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Does anybody else experience a succession cycle when acclaimed knight change? Every time a knight changes the successor is promoted then replaced immediately. It guarantees the loss of two levels of acclaim, and a potential garbage tier knight getting the position. That’s especially true when a required trait is a commander trait. I’ve also had an acclaimed knight become inactive while still employed at court as a knight while not injured/ severely injured. I went to make an account at the paradox interactive forum and it said no new registrations right now? Could someone help capture their experience and report it.
As a disclaimer I believe my save overlapped an update. No mods just dlc.

Myself and my partner are pretty new to the whole THS thing and are planning to attempt to use it for some nice places to stay when we spend a few months in other countries. (Notably the US since we're in the UK) We live in an area of the UK where there are a lot of older, wealthy people with large country houses so we've applied for a few and are currently on our 3rd sit.
We've learned a few things in that time and wondered if others had any lessons they've learned after they actually started doing sits.
For one, it seems you really have to pay attention to photos and can't really trust them, the house can look really clean and tidy and they can list a weekly cleaner, etc, but, you still turn up to find a filthy house that has been cleaned with a wet rag. Look at the levels of clutter, it seems like people with a lot of clutter also don't really look after their living spaces.
People with large country houses seem to have terrible guest room setups. 2 out of 3 sits have had the worst mattresses I've ever seen, practically bare springs.
Don't take on more than you can chew... We just completed a sit with 4 dogs, 2 cats, chickens, and exotics. The pets were wonderful and we actually miss them, but looking after them properly was a full-time job. Owners seem to believe their pets are easy to look after, because they do it every day, discounting the work that goes into someone new jumping in to do it, and the pet's behavior changes due to them not being there. (One of the unneutered cats just loved spraying around the house!) - The homeowner was thrilled with how well we'd done but then acted totally offended when we said we wouldn't be able to sit for her again due to the sheer amount of work it was.
Really ask questions before you start and get a feel for the homeowner and their level of respect or gratitude for you. This 3rd sit is for a single elderly dog, but the homeowner is just incredibly rude, to the point that she seems to act like she's doing us a favor by letting us live here and look after her dog... The house is a mess to the point she left half-eaten cake and half-drunk wine on the side of her literally filthy kitchen, then texted us asking us to bring the washing in. It's also one of those with those bare spring mattresses. (She's also locked the door to half the house, including the downstairs bathroom in an obvious sign of mistrust... You'll trust us with your baby, but not half your house?) If it weren't for our love of animals and need for a good review we'd have just left. Lady, we own our own home an hour's drive away with a lovely bed and no filth where we prepare food.
What other people consider usable working space may not be what you do. I have a sweet WFH job so travel with a large laptop, external screen, peripherals, etc. None of the sits has had a good enough chair... I've had to buy lumbar support pillows, seat cushions, wrist rests, etc, and strap them to dining chairs.
Take enough non-perishable food for a couple of days, you might be busy getting settled in before you get a chance to go shopping, and homeowners all have differing ideas about what they're happy for you to eat/drink or if they'll even have space in the fridge for you to store food. Also, bring your own tea/coffee maybe even sugar. I also bring my own travel mug.

Just wanted to express caution seeking a PA role speaking as a PA for about a year in a half. Took me about a year to become a PA. You are a manager without the pay in one department and a overpaid ambassador in another. Its adult babysitting. If you are not a people person, PA is NOT for you. Even with a lively personality you leave the shift mentally drained. Its not worth it for most. Yes you get paid slightly more (with a new step plan) My site starting $21.75 and less physical work. Your experience as a PA is entirely up to: Department, AM, OM and the people and culture at your facility. Some PA spots are the most relaxed jobs in the world. On the other hand, they can be one of the worst. Point is, use caution as if you become a PA you can be thrown anywhere. Shift, Department ETC. Your mostly blind to the experience you will have and you have little to no say. A lot of people like to think they can handle it but dont realize the full scope of our job. The worst thing about the job, You get it from both ends, AM’s OPS and T1s. Youre the middle ground, point of contact. Its not a job id recommend long term unless operations is a career path you with to pursue as its great for moving up internally. If you have 0 intentions on becoming an AM. DONT WASTE YOUR TIME

This might sound obvious, but bear with me.
Armstrong had said many many times the philosophy behind his shows, and therefor this show, is that people don’t change.
For a while I interpreted the finale’s ending in this vein, concluding that Kendall was destined to, no matter how he tried never become CEO. But then I went big picture and realized it actually meant that Kendall not only never reach CEO, but also that he would never stop trying, never team with his siblings, and never stop stooping to the lowest of lows, all because he needs his father’s approval.
Look back on where Kendall was in E1. He was a man who had a public and private life consuming dispute with his father. A man working with each of his siblings. A man who’s career’s future—the 100–is reliant on money he will receive when the Gojo deal goes through. In essence, his is very far away from being a man trying to reach CEO of Waystar while not working with his siblings, all to feel his father’s approval.
In E1 Kendall takes his first baby step towards slipping back into the cycle when he abandons the 100–a project independent of his father—to buy Pierce as soon as he hears Logan wants it. It shows that the cycle begins because Kendal can never, ever, not have Logan define every action he does.
In E2, Conner notes that the sibs are all love sponges that live off their dad’s approval. The analysis describes the driver of Kendall’s cycle—the need to appease his father—perfectly. Kendall then receives an opportunity to end the deal after receiving information from Stewy and Matson. Crashing the deal would fuck Logan at the cost of losing Pierce. He chooses to support crashing it, and thus, demonstrates that his father is the sole determinant of his actions. At the end of the episode, Logan apologizes and Kendall begins to soften up to him, furthering his dad’s approval defining his actions.
In E3, Logan dies. Kendall is devastated, and the trauma and grief of Logan’s sudden death in the coming episodes will bring out the love for his father within him. And with it, it will bring his need of Logan’s validation. This is maybe the biggest pivotal point in his arc.
Going into E4 Kendall pushes adamantly to become CEO, a position that has nothing to do with the Pierce deal. He didn’t have to take over either, his father died and he had been planning on the company being bought out. To reach CEO so, he gently cuts out Shiv through plan CEO bros. Later he (relatively harmlessly) goes behind Roman’s back too to run anti-Logan ads.
In E5, Kendall is now so desperate to be CEO again, a position he craves for his father’s approval (a thing he is now actively seeking) that he seeks to crash the deal, and go to drastic measures to do so. Again, a few weeks ago he couldn’t care less about CEO; now it’s everything. He also cuts out Shiv. His arc is in motion.
In E6, Kendall impresses and uses his competency to greatly hurt the chances of the deal. It fills Kendall’s CEO dream. Kendall also brings back his Dad through living plus and becomes more desperate to make him proud.
In E7, Kendall continues to pursue CEO, his father’s approval, and axe out his siblings at the tailgate party.
In E8, Kendall risks the stability of an entire Presidential election, endangers his daughter, betrays Shiv, and supports a facist all to try and reach CEO—to get his father’s approval.
In E9, Kendall shows little sympathy to Roman, and uses his funeral outburst to oust him from CEO prospects. More importantly, the speech for his father, defending and idolizing him, even saying “I can only hope to be like him someday” or something, represents his complete submission to his father’s validation.
And finally, E10 completes the cycle. After doing everything in his power he gets really close to becoming CEO. He has the votes. He makes Roman bleed. He sits in his father’s chair. But then he loses the support of his siblings. And. The. He. Falls. Again. Kendall doesn’t get CEO, again. He won’t be the son his father wants, again. And he’ll self destructs, again.
The cycle then says that Kendall would become an addict. Give up. Go do something else with his life. A chance for him to escape. And now we’re back at 1X7, 2x1, and 4x1 again , and know eventually his father would suck him back in. And the cycle would begin again.
The show ends because S4 has proven that Kendall will never stop doing this. I think the season was constructed to emphasize Armstrong’s thesis by showing how a man as far as realistically possible from becoming his former self can devolve so easily.
And now, there’s nothing left to show. We know what would happen.
I apologize if any of the above events aren’t recollected right, feel free to correct me.

What I remember for sure: This was a multi-part series but the first story in the series was the most widely distributed.
The writing was primarily in second person future tense (“you will be approached by a strange person”).
The format of almost all of the stories was long, and consisted of following a series of predicted directions that eventually led to you surviving the creepy events and leaving with some kind of item or object.
What I’m pretty sure about:
The first line of the first story was something like “In an office building like any other you will take a late shift job. On a day like any other, you will find a door you have not seen before.” - it really played up how unremarkable the setting was.
There were a lot of creepy characters who would approach “you” or who “you” would approach and what you said to them was very important. I remember a lot of the question/answer prompts not being super obvious. For example, the robed figure would ask you “when?” and your response had to be “yesterday, at midnight” or you would fail, and there was no way to know the correct answer.
I think the series had a really simple title like “the requirements” or “the guardians” but neither of those are turning up anything like this.

9 fights
Blackshear Vs Lacerda
Lacerda has power and his leg kicks are made out of concrete for sure! But he fights extremely flat footed and doesn’t have much activity. If he wins I believe it would be by knock out or if he catches blackshear in a submission during a grappling exchange. I think Blackshear wins this fight by unanimous decision! He has come out and fought with high volume in the past and Can do it again.He’s good enough on the ground to mitigate Lacerdas grappling.
My pick: Blackshear wins, I think he wins by decision
Grishin Vs Lins
Lins could potentially win if he takes things to the ground. But Grishin should be a certified hit man! He picks his shots really well and uses his leg kicks well. Lins keeps his hands really low when he’s in exchanges. going against someone who picks so well, I think Linz will find himself in trouble.
Pick: Grishin by TKO
Elliot Vs altamarino
This is one is a lot closer than people are making it to be. Could easily go either way. I just feel like the experience will come into play here. Altamarino seems to be a good fighter, however I don’t know if he’s good enough to handle the unorthodox style of Elliot. Altamarino has huge heart and I don’t see a finish! If altamarino wins its by submission.
Pick: Elliot by decision (30% chance altamarino by sub)
Santos Vs Johnny
This is one of my sure bets of the week. Santos is a very good fighter. Johnny just seems to be a bit out matched here. Submission is probably Johnny’s only path to victory.
Pick: Santos decision
Pineda Vs caceras
Caceras has above average striking and he’s long. However he doesn’t us the height. He’s doesn’t control distance well. Pineda has the power! If he gets close enough he can definitely knock Caceras’s head out of the octagon. But I believe it’s the grappling that takes over. Pineda will get control time and take this to decision.
Pick: Pineda (ML)
Castaneda Vs gafurov
Castaneda all the way!! Ton of hate coming his way. gafurov has not fought anyone as good as Castaneda. Castaneda has very good striking and does a good job mixing up his striking.
Pick: Castaneda (ML)
Reed Vs Frey
Reed has a lot more volume. Frey picks her shots we’ll but doesn’t have a hammer fist at this point in her career.
Pick: Reed by decision
Silva Vs Souza
Souza has a small chance in this one. I like Silva a lot I think she could definitely finish the fight in the distance. Very confident pick this week.
Pick: Silva in the distance

Had a lot of courage and great dreams of a college life and future when I was applying, now that I'll actually be going I'm having cold feet, especially as the time approaches.
But now I'm scared that I'm being reckless for not choosing my local university which was a great option, instead deciding to take the more challenging route (which also comes with more opportunities) to go to study in the US. I'm scared that I'm wasting my parents' money and I might not be ready enough for this, especially since I still dont really know what I want to do with my life. I'm scared that I'm not as good as I thought I was and I won't be able to grab all the opportunities.
And I'll be leaving literally all the people I've ever known behind and moving to the US where I have no connections at all (altho im super open to making new friends). Even if I go back after 4 years, all my friends may have made new friends and have their own friend groups after university, and I'll be like an outsider having not gone through the same experience.
But the US is such a large country and there's really so much there that I have not experienced and yearn to try, and a lot of the cutting edge research and tech developments are happening that (I'm a CS student) so I also want to YOLO and make my life exciting by going down this unbeaten path and experiencing all these. I also feel like it would be such a growth experience, and I'll transition from my more immature self to understand the world better.
But what if its not as good as I thought? What if I'm making a mistake? What if I end up both broke and full of regrets? Argh I'm so scared now.
thanks for letting me dump my thoughts here :)

So I’ve just bought a second hand 2019 Speed Twin. 7000 miles. 1 owner from new. Just serviced. First ride out on it today in the UK and it’s a barmy 21 degrees celsius, so nothing silly. The fan is on ALOT! More than any bike I’ve had before, on and off all the time in traffic, even a good 10 minutes after getting out of said traffic, gentle 40mph country roads, I can still hear it kicking in every so often.
Is this typical for the big 1200’s? Has triumph set the fan to come on at ridiculously low temps? I’ve heard the fan come on more times in the last hour than I think I have my 899 Panigale in 5 years!
The only mod it has btw are the Vance and Hines pipes. What are others experiences of this? Is this normal? There are no engine temp warning lights, bike is running beautifully, just rather hot for not that high of an ambient temperature.

Hey guys,
I'm back with the May update for my AI Assisted Content Site. So far, the site is growing nicely with a positive trajectory.
Background - I started an AI Assisted Content Site in January 2023 to experiment. It is a moderately competitive niche with high DA media websites (like Dotdash) ranking for many normal keywords. However, I was able to find a certain type of keywords that these websites were not focusing.
And it is a niche that has a lots of research papers available in Google scholar and similar libraries. So, I created a simple angular based web application that writes articles using the research I feed. I use ChatGPT API for the text generation. To make things more easier, I use Bing Search API to download CC0 image for my posts automatically.
Enough background, let's move on to the month updates.
Last month, I set a target of 31 articles. And, I wrote 32 articles in so that I can make the total article count 100. Feeling so happy and proud, because this is the first time ever in my 3 years of blogging history, I achieved my monthly article milestone.
Monthly Page Views
Jan - No Data
Feb - 326
Mar - 597
Apr - 2672
May - 6861
GA Screenshots
What Next -
As I already mentioned, I've reached 100 article milestone. And I have previously kept some tasks after reaching this milestone. So, here are the planned tasks for June.

1. Start working on optimization to pass Core Web Vitals.
2. Start link building using HARO.
3. Publish another 25-30 articles.

Regarding the monetization strategy, I'll wait till 10k page views per month and might start using ezoic.
So, that's all for this update. Thanks for reading.

I’m in the US. And I know at least some of the animal experiments the government does, which are taking mom monkeys and newborn babies and separating them immediately, giving the mom just a doll, and sewing the baby’s eyes shut to stop visual stimulation, or else have all people or any living creatures wear masks around them for at least a year to see how they react to never seeing another life. Also putting babies and moms in a cage together and heavily sedating the mom while having the baby try to wake her up and panic and I assume think she’s dead. Also taking the babies and putting them alone in teeny tiny cages they literally cannot move inside, and playing extreme terror noises, loud scary things to see how they react when they can’t hide or get away.
I don’t even know what else they do to other animals. Those are just ones I know from White Coat Waste Project that tries to stop it. I want to find a way to work under the table my entire life. I don’t have a right to do this to animals just to get money. We are all paying the government to do this. And it’s all pointless and horrible and these people are all monsters. And we are all paying them to do it. How do you work under the table for life if you’re not a waitress or something living on tips? Look for jobs on Craigslist?

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I've got a new job and we turn out 500+ portions of the same meal for lunch and 500+ of a different one for dinner. It's a nonprofit and they want me to replace the chef in their kitchen and they specifically said they're looking for someone to be "more creative" as they're getting tired of the plain Jane food. When I staged for their chef we made chili on rice with salad and herb roasted chicken thighs with peas and potatoes for dinner, about 700 of each, for reference,
That said, the clients are into basics and the owners have a lot of limitations on me - no pork, no nuts of any kinds, no shellfish, no tropical fruit, no fried foods, no pastry chef.
What would you put on the menu that would satisfy those requirements and also be able to be done in tremendous bulk? I did harissa chicken and it went well but would love to branch out more and hear what ideas y'all have.
Thank you for the help. I appreciate it immensely. This job is keeping me running and physically pushing I. A whole new way and my brain could really use the assist 🤣

Since I'm introverted, being a cashier really isn't for me.
I like being organized and stocking seems like a good job, but I'm a 22 year old male who is 5 foot 2 inches and I weigh like 80-90 lb. I can lift 40 lb briefly enough to move an object and i can lift 25 lb comfortably, so I think if I go in to apply they might just laugh at me when they see how thin I am.
The thing is, I see a lot of smaller women pulling pallets and putting stuff on the shelves during the day, and the products they are putting up don't seem to be that heavy. So maybe I am capable? I also like to walk a lot, its just lifting stuff that might be a problem.
Also, are these people around during the day considered stockers or store associates? Because if they are store associates, I would imagine they would have to work the cashier sometimes.
My only experience is working as a car detailer (cleaner) for 8 months. I have an HS diploma and an associates degree from community college.