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Hi everyone,
I wanted to ask your help regarding identifying the correct NOC code for a prior poisiton. I was hired as an Accelerated leadership program-Operations manager at chewy at a fullfilment center in the past where I worked for six months. Unfortunately due to serioys health issues I resigned. The program is a growth program that develops in three stages and requires a well reputed Masters education etc. Unortunately I resigned when I was at stage 1 so dont know if I should choose NOC:70012 – Facility operation and maintenance managers or not since I only made it to step 1 in the progression path:
Step 1: [Start your operations career by immersing yourself in the front line, serving in the capacity of an Area Manager to learn the ins and outs of the operation firsthand. You will build on your leadership acumen by managing and directing 35-75 team members in one of our fulfillment centers. As part of this role, you will drive continuous improvement initiatives utilizing Lean Principles and analytics to deliver step level changes to safety, quality, and costs for the organization. ]
I was basically given the role of area manager for outbound picking and later induction. Please I would really appreciate your guidance.
The job decriptions of the full role and the progression can be seen below:
As an Accelerated Leadership Program (ALP) Operations Manager, you will accelerate your career development and have an immediate impact within our teams in one of our Fulfillment Centers.. You are a critical front-line leader in developing new strategies and creating continual process improvements for delivering on Chewy’s promise of world-class customer service and timely delivery.
The Experience:
Step 1: Start your operations career by immersing yourself in the front line, serving in the capacity of an Area Manager to learn the ins and outs of the operation firsthand. You will build on your leadership acumen by managing and directing 35-75 team members in one of our fulfillment centers. As part of this role, you will drive continuous improvement initiatives utilizing Lean Principles and analytics to deliver step level changes to safety, quality, and costs for the organization.
Step 2: Progress to the Operations Manager role and gain experience leading other managers and teams of 150-350 team members. Drive operational process improvements by working cross- functionally with engineering and technology teams across Chewy. You will operate at depth, diving deep into data analytics and provide challenging, workable business solutions.
Step 3: Promote to Senior Manager position where you will lead through others to execute on regional and or network initiatives. Leaders will also have an opportunity to move into highly sought-after roles in Supply Chain, Transportation and Technology to further their own growth while relentlessly driving the business. Emerge as a leader known for operating at depth and delivering results.
What you’ll do:
Deliver results by providing hands-on operational leadership with team members in one of the most critical roles in our Fulfillment Centers (FC).
Act as an owner by taking responsibility for meeting and exceeding established productivity, safety, labor, and quality objectives.
Think big by supporting the design, development, and maintenance of ongoing metrics, reports, analyses, and dashboards to drive key business decisions.
Operate at depth while working with other teams to extract, transform, and analyze data from sources across the business using a variety of technology platforms.
Earn trust by developing and promoting open lines of communication to maintain and develop positive employee relations, encourage employee involvement, and recognize employees for their accomplishments and innovation.
Analyze and solve problems at their root while simultaneously stepping back to understand the broader context, while considering how those decisions keep our customers first.
Develop talent within your area to build high performing teams

I (F26) have been OLD for about 2 years and have had little success until more recently. I've spent a long time working on myself while being single and re-evaluating my approach to dating. For the first 18 months or so, I was looking for attention/validation in the wrong places, and eventually came to the conclusion that I was using sex in a bid to find a relationship in the way the "nice guy" uses friendship to try obtain sex. Ever since, I've been a lot more direct about what I'm looking for (long-term), and I've made sure to follow the path of talk for a little while, a few nice dates such as coffee, mini golf, food etc before progressing to anything physical, to try ensure I'm not attracting the wrong kind of set-up. Which brings me on to more recently.
The last two guys I've dated (39M, 40M, respectively) both said they were also looking for a long-term relationship. Both have obviously had lives before in the form of live-in girlfriends, marriages, kids, etc, and are well established in their careers, and the homes they've built themselves. Everything always started off really well, with conversation flowing easily, an immediate connection, and a certainty that a second date was on the table.
Both very quickly brought up exclusivity, were eager to arrange the 2nd/3rd/4th date, talking about the future, promises of "things are going well with the view to a relationship", but then they'd start pulling back. They were still happy to arrange to meet for more dates and both made themselves available at the times we'd usually meet, but it largely became my responsibility to arrange things.
At around the 2 month mark with each guy, I brought up the conversation of, "When can we maybe look to move this on to the next stage?". Both times, I got wishy washy answers that were fundamentally "uncertain", but neither necessarily wanted to end things, they just couldn't say they were sure that's where things were going. Normally, I'd say 2 months could be a little early to ask that question, but in both instances, we had talked all day every day, and seen each other multiple times a week involving dates and staying over.
M39 was talking about a relationship from date 4, meeting his friends/family, planning things for months away, talks of eventually moving in and getting a pet, and even looking at jobs for me closer to where he lived. M40 asked we delete dating apps on date 1, asked to see me multiple times over the first week/two, told me how he missed me, wished I was there, started telling me to let myself in to his house when I'd go to see him because he was comfortable with me, let me leave things like a phone charger there, and it was always "assumed" we were seeing each other on our two set days, indefinitely.
When I received answers of uncertainty both times I asked that question, it completely threw me. I only asked the question when I did because it seemed a given that that's where things were going. Now, perhaps it's me and I'm not very good at reading the room. Equally, I may have asked the question a little too soon and thrown them both. What I can't understand is, why were things plain sailing until I asked the question, and how could they not have been giving it any thought in the run up, given that's what we had agreed the end goal was?
I appreciate dating doesn't always work out, and there is certainly no obligation to commit to a relationship after a certain amount of time. If it's genuinely just me they were unsure about, then I get that. Dating is all about getting to know someone and seeing if/how they fit into your life. I just don't understand why in both instances, they were happy to go on with a comfortable set-up of me playing the surrogate gf, until I pressed for an answer as to where things were progressing.
Please can you guys let me know if you've been in a similar situation or offer some insight?
TL;DR: I F26 recently dated guys M39 and M40 (separately), and both times when I asked the question about progressing things to a relationship around the 2 month mark, I received answers of uncertainty

I am not an artist, I have been in and out of art phases all of my 16 years on this planet. I have tons of art stuff but I don’t know what to do with it all. Recently I’ve been doing art a lot more but I’ve noticed when I’ve had a bad one (which is most of them) it is much more depressing than it has ever been. The only time I’ve ever been happy with my drawings recently is when I draw from manga which I’ve done about three times. This is probably because it’s super simple and there isn’t much to draw so I can do it super accurately. But tonight I went and saw the new Spider-verse movie and was excited to draw something from it when I got back. After drawing for maybe one and a half hours I finished my drawing and it was absolute garbage, like it was drawn by a seven year old. It was the most depressed I’ve ever felt from a drawing. I want to be good at art so so so badly and I’d love to draw comics for a living but I just don’t understand how to improve. It feels like no matter what I draw it sucks and sometimes like it’s getting worse. I know people say to practice and all but that takes years upon years and I don’t know if it’s worth all of the depression from those failed drawings. I’ve also never been able to draw every single day. Something I’ve always lacked in every aspect of my life is motivation and the consistency that comes with that. I’ve always known that if I was just more motivated, I’d be better at so many things in my life, art included. I want to be good at this so bad but I just don’t understand how, I don’t get it, I don’t understand how to get better. I’m sure I’m not alone in this and if anyone was the same or similar how did you overcome it? Also if you actually read this full thing, thank you it means a lot. I guess my final thoughts are just that my drawings always end up in saddening me and I don’t understand how to overcome my complete inability to draw. Once again thank you.

So this all started 9 years ago i was a teen and so was she . It first developed as a crush but it was like the stars were on my side she and i became friends and for me it just bubbled into something that was special very very special. She was funny interesting and in general an extremely great person. I did not tell her anything then i know I was stupid . So the news hits that she is moving to another city again i say to myself that it would be useless to tell her now. Still spent plenty of time with her till she leaves. I being the traditional masculine male say its fine and move on but she in me kind of hurts like doesnt make me cry or anything but still leaves a void. She was a catholic and so times like Christmas Easter and all just made me feel empty I did not know why then but i soldier through the pain. Looking at other girls would just feel wrong and i did not allow my self to be guilty.
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One day I had a dream of her I wake up sweating and the feeling i had in the dream was just magical it just completely filled the void, i smiled that day. I said enough was enough so i told my girl friends (girls that were friends) to talk to her about me I could not do that cause my parents were very strict and more then getting punished myself i was scared that they would tell her parents about it and all contact if any would cease. There was a lot of problems in the middle due to my so called girl friends but thats a story for another day .
So i finally talk(on call) to the girl this is(4 years later) I instantly profess my love (Stupid i know) but she was not awkward nor sounded weirded out she told me that she has to know me first in order to be interested. I was fine with that reasoning so slowly we used to call first it wasnt that often cause i am an idiot but slowly a year or two later I got my first phone (Yeah i know ) so then we started texting and other things i say i was okay at carrying a conversation during texting but while on phone call i dominated that game. Slowly time flew she and i again became close friends.
Then the lockdown hit thats when the story becomes interesting
We talked frequently and got closer and closer as friends . TBH talking to her was one of the most blissful things i think i ever did it was so much fun that how 3 to 4 hours passed like minutes we watched a few tv series together (Like she would be watching it on her side and i would be watching it on my side and texting about the events( cheesy i know )) . I would say it was true love on my side
this went on for around 2.5 years we texted we talked but just as friends she knew my position as to what i felt for her
She tells me that she cant be in a romantic relationship over the phone and a physical presence would be necessary which is a very rational though according to me.
Then one of my close friends who know my feelings towards her told me her loved and her and loved her since childhood her to
Now usually i would not get angry at this fact because its okay to like someone but this guy he was a goddamn playboy he was on girls like makeup an he was goodlooking was very talented in dance and all that stuff that attracts girls but was not a great person so now there was a silent war between us but that a story for another day too
After a long struggle i won his truth was out and she told him no . Before you say this guy actually loved her He had another girl within three days of her telling him she was not interested. This was the same guy who swore promises of love and that if it was not her it was no one else. I ll explain that in detail some other time.
Now its just me and her again and i actually see a future there was hope for me in her words .
One day i was invited to friends' party this was a very quiet affair not a lot of music just conversations.
I walk in being the badass i am and I noticed a familiar face a very familiar face my heart dropped but then jumped so hard I would have given jesse owens a run for his money. It was her in the flesh and it was a surprise visit and now I will tell you something I usually do not waste opportunities so I turned on my charm behaved in the same way i was during calls (I actually was that way) and was myself We had a fun time. I wanted to talk to her alone and we did it was a lovely conversation it was then i decided it was her or no one. Man no had played with my heartstrings the way she did it was just bliss so everything was done I showed her my real life self.She just as a friend held my hand and to be honest that was the best feeling i ever had. My friends doubted that i was actually in a relationship with her it was so good .This created another drama which was that we were in a relationship and lied to the friends which was not true.
Again the phone calls started and the routine began
Here comes the sad part
I had planned to start studying for a very tough competitive exam (trust me the SAT is child's play compared to that ) because the best college it provided was in the same city as she was in so i joined a coaching institute told her that now the talks would not be so frequent cause almost every evening i would not be there. So i started to prepare my ass off ass off means ass off. Slowly we spent lesser and lesser time together only texting but that too not a lot. There were no calls for almost 5 months and recently we spoke again she tells me she likes this other guy, for the few months they were in an untagged or unnamed relationship and i asked her was it special she said it was and the day we spoke was their relationship day it was over because that guy was preparing for the SAT. So the last few months with him were not that magical as the earlier ones were and as it is he was leaving the country and they could not pursue her relationship countries far.
Now i am one those guys i did not scream i did not cry and i will not cry.
I had made a promise to myself I will wait for her answer till the ends of time but if the answer is no i shall not try to pursue a romantic relationship with her anymore and no one else either.
I cant say how i am feeling now but it is similar to how felt earlier like a void .I will be friends with her I will still love her(Cant just remove love just like that ) but i dont i want her anymore she is beautiful talented and lovely person and she will get someone else as for me I was alone one before can be alone now too . Its okay she liked someone else sometimes you dont get your fairy tale but atleast you tried i know maybe i am at fault but hopefully i will be fine now .
I have a driveway and a garden where i would roam around and speak to her on the phone last evening i did that again as the symbol of the final nail in the coffin of my hope just with the difference that it was a song in my ears not her voice
I let her go now
TLDR: Dumb guy falls in love with a girl he cant have and is now on the internet writing his story

During high school, I had a lot of shit happen. A. Lot. I was constantly overwhelmed, over performing, emotional. I experienced the death of a friend/first crush by suicide and it crushed me. I had zero support system, and in fact my parents made it worse. In hindsight, I can only describe my parents behavior as manipulative and selfish. I was very distraught and grieving over the death of my very good friend, and my mother decided it was best to send me to a mental health facility when I began to act out at home. (She said “I heard it was with a shotgun, that must have been a mess to clean” the day after it happened) My mother began to become extremely overbearing and developed (or maybe always had) control issues. Tracked my location 24/7 on my phone, literally watching it hour by hour. Going through my belongings/journal/phone/everything I own to find something incriminating. Wouldn’t let me hang out with friends under any circumstances. Even though I had straight A’s, took extra classes, stayed 6 hours every day after school for my extra curricular. (Lead roles in school performances, best ranked cellist in my state/first chair, varsity track and forensics/debate, 3rd best ACT scores in my class) Long ass story short, one day my mom deceived me by having the school counselor take me out to get McDonald’s, then to the hospital where my mom had lied to the police saying I had made suicide threats and told them I was abusing drugs. This fucking ruined me. The moment I realized who she really was was when I saw the look on her face when I was being dragged away in handcuffs. The police looked at me like I was dangerous and insane. I spent only a week there because I acted normal the entire time. But I still was given diagnosis of BPD Type 1 and prescriptions as well, and forced to take them or else I would be allowed to leave. Anyways, since then, I’ve realized I probably don’t have BPD and was just coerced into it to please my mother who payed all kinds of money for her weird form of punishment. (The first thing she said when I answered the phone at the mental facility was “are you ready to apologize yet?”) I haven’t taken the meds since I moved out and I haven’t had anything close to an episode. I hate that I was forced to believe I had this diagnosis just because of circumstance. It makes me feel so bad for so many people who are given false diagnosis’s just to check a box. I have a lot of resentment toward my mom, but I try so hard to remember she raised and fed me my whole life and payed for everything I needed. I don’t know what happened, but as I got older, the more control my mother needed over me. It was too much. I wish I could help my mom realize her mistakes but she’s too far gone. She can’t see any other perspective but her own and will lie and deceive to make sure her image is upheld, even at the cost of her child. For some closure, I ended up dropping out of high school when my mom kicked me out on Christmas. I only had .5 credit to graduate because of all the extra classes I had taken. I went to live with my dad but he didn’t let me leave the house for 5 months until I turned 18. right when I turned 18 I had to find an apartment, work full time, and work my ass off. Anyway, I got my GED, enrolled myself and college and currently working towards a major in Epistemology and a major in music. I guess I needed to get more off my chest than I thought but I am just so proud of myself that I pay my own bills, I pay my own apartment and car, work 12 hrs overnight, get A’s in all my college classes, and I am not even fuckin 21 yet. All by myself. Fuck u mom and dad and stepmom and stepdad saying I wouldn’t make it a week on my own after kicking me out. I did that shit. And I’m not bipolar. Just a lame ass way to put the blame on your kids reactions instead of your own actions.
If you made it here, I’m so sorry to have wasted your time. I have absolutely 0 people to talk to in life, and I’ve just wanted to get this off my chest.

Please, for the love of everything that's good in the world, help me with my issue.
I've made posts about this, and comments, and messages in discord, I looked all over the internet and talked with people and nothing ever works.
I know this won't even get glanced at once but I'll leave it to the ether so maybe someone can tackle this with me.
The issue is this - I need League to consistently launch with black bars to the sides, with no stretching, but the game seems to just force stretch my game no matter what I do. I have a 3440x1440 monitor plugged into a Dell laptop and I want to play at 1920x1080 for personal comfort, but it gets stretched over the entire widescreen monitor. I fucked around in the NVIDIA Control Panel and the GeForce Experience and nothing. Keeping the NVIDIA scaling to "aspect ratio" does nothing, the "no scaling" option seems to stretch it double time. I don't have a consistent way to just make it work, sometimes there are black bars after alt-tabbing a few times, most of the time there aren't - I don't have this issue at all in other games, so it's gotta be League related. I wrote a support ticket to Riot and had a back and forth with 2 people, they couldn't help and said they were gonna relay it to the dev team. That was over a month ago and it still doesn't work. I'm at my wit's end right now (get it?) and I need serious assistance. Anybody..? Thanx upfront.
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"Aspect Ratio" - 1920x1080
yep
"No Scaling" - 1920x1080
yeah
How I want it to look like, you get it:
right

Hello so I have the oiliest skin ever, bigger pores, not acne prone but occasionally gets “white heads” and clogged pores. Whenever I fill in my eyebrows they start melting off after an hour and I use setting powder before and after but still melts off. Are there any products that are oil safe? Preferably drugstore since I’m a student.

I took everyone’s advice and agreed to the buy-out. I thought I might have time to get used to the idea, but right after I signed the contract, they said they could come the next day which seemed a little odd. I was still feeling OK about my decision until two minutes after they arrived, one of the employees yells, “We’re going to make a killing on all this stuff!”
Day 2 and one of the employees yanks open the locked door of an outbuilding when I was on my way with the key. So disrespectful and rude. It really irritated me and now my mood has really gone downhill especially when I see the greedy dollar signs in the business owner’s eyes as he makes sure to haul all the best stuff away first. The guy has always been an arrogant jerk who thinks he’s so much better than me - I just let him think that because honestly IDGAF what these people think and don’t want them knowing anything about my life - and I never wanted to use his services but there isn’t a lot of competition in the area. A lot of people sing his praises while an equal number think he’s just a bottom feeder who lowballs everybody. I will give him credit though for taking on the jobs a lot of people probably wouldn’t.
I know I got screwed but I still would have gotten screwed if I had tried selling the stuff myself. Plus, I would have had to deal with random yucks knowing where I live and coming to my house. Dealing with those people would’ve been way worse than this stuck-forever-in-high school person that I’ll never see again after this is over. I’m sure once everything is cleared away, I’ll eventually forget all about it and move on but right now I’m having a hard time. My friend who’s been through this herself told me to take a lot of pictures, which I did, and I realized I’m not going to miss any of it. I think what bothers me the most is knowing someone is profiting at my expense. It seems like I’m constantly paying people high prices for things - repairs, renovations, goods, etc. - but if I tried to charge high prices for anything, nothing would sell or no none would hire me.
TLDR; I know a lot of you are overjoyed once you are free of the hoard so how can I start feeling joy instead of anger?

So my partner keep asking for a picture of me all the time so I thought it’s just a pic and he saves them as well, so he flirts always when i sent, but he knows and i made it clear how im uncomfortable w anything sexual especially that I don’t have experiences or had even my first kiss, so basically I joked if he does the thing to my pic and he said yes even when we were friends i got shocked cuz he didn’t tell me about it i told him to delete them and he did he got super mad and didn’t apologize he started blaming me and said” now im going to do it to girls that look nothing like u” and he deletes me after i had to add him and apologized that i overreacted even tho im hurt he deleted me multiple times after my mental health went into the rock bottom especially that i have bpd, He kept saying I could’ve lied and always trying to say that hes the best guy I’ve ever met cuz other men would consistently make sexual comments about me and cheat and how they’re just bad partners in general i felt so humiliated and hurt if he apologize and we talked about it like adults I wouldn’t mind at all. also he always assumes stuff about me if i have guy friends like I always have to explain myself million times almost about everything even when I don’t answer fast he says like “ I’m sure you’re not doing anything “ even though i was working, I don’t have much of an experience about relationships he’s kind and loyal but it’s difficult sometimes to be around him and I don’t want to ruin it bc it’s going to make me feel like I failed again as someone w bpd i want to be like other people w healthy relationship even w my disorder i kept doing exactly like what my therapist told me but it doesn’t pay off + idk if I should let him do it even tho I don’t like it maybe he wouldn’t be so cold w me anymore? When i send something he really acts different and flirts all the time and i like it but not anymore after that :( , anyone who have experiences, advice me id appreciate you a lot.

First, some background story: my parents were born in a country where during their times, people always had many children and because of the scarce economy, going to school was not popular and people’s existence was based on hard labour, so parents always relied on the help of their children. My mom escaped from this fate, but my dad had a pretty rough childhood. Both his parents didn’t have a high education, they married young and had 5 children ( I have 2 uncles and 2 aunts from his side), my father is the 3rd so basically the middle child, his father was a shepherd and his mother stayed at home. The thing is, my grandfather was a horrible person, he always exploited his children, didn’t let them go to school because they had to help him, he always beat them up and was always in a fight with my grandmother. But my grandmother was not an angel either, because after the fights with my grandfather she left her kids home alone for long periods of time, sometimes even days, and didn’t stand up for them when my grandfather beat them and choose to not divorce him because it’s a embarrassing thing, so that lead to basically her neglecting them.
While growing up my other uncles and aunts left the country one by one to work abroad and so did my father. There he met my mother through a mutual friend, and then they had me and then my brother. I lived 9 years in that country, but when my father started having health problems due to the country’s humidity and he couldn’t go to work, money became tight and my parents decided to move back to their hometown. My father came constantly to his hometown when we lived abroad and during the summer he worked rebuilding his childhood home, so when we came here, my family moved in the house while his parents lived in an annex attached to it.
After years of disputes between my father and my grandfather came to an end when my grandfather died, things started going downfall between me and my grandmother. I have to add a very crucial point, I have a cousin (we will name him “X”) that lived with my grandma, because my aunt didn’t know any better, and she married young and had him before divorcing her husband. X began to live with grandma after his mother dropped him like a piece of garbage and moved abroad to live the rest of her youth. He grew spoiled and in his teenage years he did nothing but party, did bad in school and treated grandma like sh*it, but because she raised him she turned a blind eye on all his actions.
Now, me and my brother were basically her slaves, we did everything for her, bring anything she wanted, ordered us around, made us buy her groceries, did work for her while threatening us she would tell on us to my father if we did not obey her, while X did nothing. I had to cancel plans to help her or delay them. We had to go to the store near 4 times a day to buy sh*t for her, and we started getting sick of being her personal workers so when my brother (8 at the time) refused to go to the store, my grandma lamented to my father and he beat my brother until he pissed himself and his shirt was torn. I started growing resentment towards her, and because I decided to not back down, my disputes with her started.
Well when I grew up things changed, because my other grandma (we will call her Y) came from abroad to live in the house she built while working, and we started living with her when my mother decided to go back every 3-4 months to work abroad while changing places with her mother (so when mother was home, Y wasn’t, and viceversa). And so every time Y came home, we had the chance to escape her.
Y was always sweet to my father’s mother so when one day I come back from school and learn that my father’s mother called Y and named her lazy and disrespectful for not coming to visit her I was furious. Keep in mind that during that period, my father was not home bc he was working abroad, and she was left alone and didn’t have her slaves to help her, and my father sent a package to us that I had to deliver to her. When I get there, I first took the keys and fed the dog and when I came back, I found her screaming at my brother and when she saw me she starts screaming and berating at me, so I start screaming back and confront her about the accusations towards my Y. She started denying that that ever happened, called me a liar and an ungrateful child and refused to accept the package that I carried during winter and in a 50 minutes walk and kept tossing on the ground the keys that opened the gate where the dog stayed. I was shaking and I had no internet connection so when I called my mother with the wi-fi of one of my friends that lived at the end of the street she was shocked and she told me to leave the package there. Then the grandmother started complaining to other relatives that I assaulted her when that never happened, and so I had to defend myself at every family gathering.
When my father returned home with my mother, I could not stand seeing her so I decided to ignore her, no greetings, no eye contact, no helping, no touching etc. and because she is a petty person she did that too.
The current situation is giving me a lot of privileges: I don’t have to do what she wants, I don’t need to run errands for her, my father can’t force me to help her ( because he witnessed a lot of disputes where he realised his mother was really a b*tch), I have more time to myself and I can do whatever I want.
What I don’t like is my father that keeps pressuring me into apologising to her ( and i’m like for what?) because she is old and doesn’t realise what she is doing, but from my perspective she actually knows what her actions mean and their negative consequences and I consider the old age motive not reasonable enough to excuse years of bullying from her.

I've debated making this post for sometime now because it's tiring to hear and ultimately who gives a shit but my Uncle just recently passed and the nature of my current job compels me to post about it. I think it would make me feel better.
My Aunt and Uncle have been in poor health for awhile now. My Aunt suffered from polycystic liver disease for years which left her in severe pain that wasn't appropriately controlled by medication. In time, she was recommended to get a liver transplant. She was put on a waitlist and told that it could take anywhere from 1-2+ years or so to get it. Fortunately for her, it was a matter of 6 months where she was moved up and was able to undergo it. Everything was covered and the only thing she had to actually pay for was for parking for the day of the procedure. She now pays a small premium for immunosuppressants that she will have to take for the rest of her life.
My Uncle suffered from a slew of health problems himself and most notably, he was diagnosed with nasopharyngeal cancer that eventually turned into mets. I hate to use the phrasing that he "fought the battle" until the end but he really did just do that. He passed last week after stopping chemo treatments and choosing to just remain at home. He was to go on hospice but he passed so quickly that he never got a chance to really get seen by them. I went up to visit last week but arrived a day late.
The Canadian government covered every single expense for them during that time. Chemo treatments, radiation treatments, multiple hospital stays/visits, rehab stays, PT/OT, countless labs and other diagnostic testing, MD visits/consults, medications, supplements, etc. You get the idea.
I've worked in various CM environments enough in the US side of things to fucking know that hardly anyone in the US could afford to go through all this and it would financially ruin many persons and families. My aunt and uncle's care was certainly not perfect and there was examples where the care could have been better or atleast improved but they were still able to get the help and assistance they needed at no cost.
The fact that we piss about here in the US and act like socialized healthcare is still a bad thing makes me want to pull my fucking hair out while we have to watch people struggle and have absolute dimwits falsely grandstand about it.
Also, if you're a Canadian RN working at the Princess Margaret Cancer Centre, its highly likely you took care of my Uncle at one point in the last 2 years and I wanted to thank you for that. Even that one RN who was going to make a terrible med error and was only saved because my Aunt would show up every day to make sure he was getting help and caught it before it was given (lol). She said you were the nicest out of the bunch and didn't want to get you in trouble.

After ten years of being a mercenary, I thought I had finally found my forever shop.
At every shop, I had worked at prior, the shops couldn’t present enough work to keep me busy, at all times. At this shop, I couldn’t keep up with the amount of work. I was in my element.
The shop was salary, but I still busted my ass. My co-workers didn’t like me much at first. They thought I was crazy producing the amount of work I was doing. “C’s get degrees, Smoke.” Eventually they realized that work was my passion and we all got along just fine.
After a few months, I realized something was a little weird about the shop. The relationship between the employees and the owner was very cultish. If someone quit, or was fired we were to never mention that persons name ever again. “His name was Robert Paulson…” I can’t stress the aura of cult enough.
The owner would state his wildly conservative, almost nazi-like, thoughts and opinions, and everyone would just agree that he was right. I always disagreed and called him short sighted. I realize, looking back, he would have fired me just for my anti-his-cult rhetoric, if I wasnt producing more than anyone he ever hired. I just can’t not say something when someone tries to tell me about the blight of the black/Mexican man on America.
One morning, I had a coffee in hand and waited for the owner to hand me my next job. He looked at me, “do you know how much I want to hit that cup out of your hand?” In front of two other employees I responded, “what the fuck is that? You a fucking sociopath? Because that’s a sociopathic thought.” His face changed and he laughed it off.
I went straight into fight mode. I was instantly unhappy. This became our relationship. He would say something a serial killer would say and I would call him out on it. Sometimes it would scare me.
He would say things like, “you’re getting fat, you should go to the gym.” “Your wife is hot I’d fuck her.” And every time I would call him out. “I’m happy with my weight. If you’ve ever starved before you would be happy with some weight as well.” “She wouldn’t touch your ugly mug with a ten foot pole.”
One day, in front of several employees the owner said, “I want to fight you.” Immediately I responded with, “Oh, I’ll fuck you up, if you want. When and where?” He scoffed the comment off. I looked at a co-worker in disbelief. The co-worker’s head snapped away from my eye contact in a submissive fashion.
About a week later the owner approached me in the morning, while holding some UFC type fighting gloves. “I brought some gloves, at lunch we fight.” “Look dude, I’ma kick your fucking ass and I WILL put you in the hospital. I’m gunna get hurt, you’re gunna get hurt, why the fuck would you want that?” He smiled a psychopathic smile, “lunch time, it’s on.” He walked away.
I looked over to the tech working next to me and he looked SCARED. I took a breath, and continued with my work. I wanted to put the owner in the hospital for a lesson in respect. I thought, “if I’m kicking his ass they are going to jump me…” I found my center and remained calm.
Lunch time rolled around and I put a long 19mm wrench in my back pocket, and pulled my shirt over it. I had decided I was getting too old and tired to fight someone, and figured as he strapped his gloves on I would just cave in his skull and be done with the shit show. If I get jumped, I get jumped.
Lunch time came around and he never exited his office. I ate my lunch and took my break, and nothing happened.
The next day, nothing. A week went by and nothing. He never spoke about it again and I never brought it up.
After sometime he decided to start to invite me to his house for get togethers and to chill. I NEVER went. I would be very blunt in my responses as well. “I’m not doing that.” “Why not?” “Because I don’t fucking want to. I have my own life. If ten hours a day, five days a week isn’t enough quality time together, then I don’t know what to tell you.”
He insisted, one Friday, that I go over to his house and watch football with him on the weekend. I declined, like I always did. He texted me that Saturday and asked if I was coming over. I texted back, “nope, I’m busy today.” “The game is tomorrow.” “Oh…. well, shit. Still no.” “Come on man come watch the game.” “I’m not interested.” He didn’t text back.
That shop was weird. I left after a year and a half for more pay and a less cultish work place.
That place was so creepy looking back. I know I have been excommunicated there. Never have heard a word from any person from that place since.
Don’t get me wrong, there was never violence at that shop. It was actually pretty chill. I never seen someone actually fight or be violent, but that threat was always there. It hung in the air like a fog.
I still don’t know why the other techs work there. All of them were 3-10 years there. They had to have had some sort of relationship with the owner that kept them there. I just don’t know what that could have been.
Never leave the market place. Mercenary till death. Loyalty gets you fucked.

Introduction

I've been a part of this community for long enough that maybe 3 people recognize the color of my shave towels when I post on /wicked_edge (they're purple). In /wetshaving, I occasionally make dick jokes with mammothben.
As a result, I've spent about an hour ruminating on this post and how to make the Maggard Meetup as awkward as possible. These are my memes and mine alone. I have rejected several cash offers to not post these findings, and I will not be stopped.

Grievance #1: Ending the Base Race

Background

In the before-fore times, the meta for soapmaking that every soapmaker followed was to get a handful of main scents that they keep the same, and release small tweaks to their soap base every 6 months to render the community's collection obsolete and generate a buying spree where people now had to get their favorite scents in the "latest and greatest" soap base.
Many consider this era the golden age of wetshaving, and Barrister and Mann was an active contributor to the base race. White Label/Black Label base, Glissant base, Latha base, Reserve base, Soft Heart base, and Excelsior base all helped encourage wetshavers across the world buy Seville multiple times in the hopes for better slickness, improved cushion (which is totally a thing), and the ultimate post-shave feel.
Then everything changed when the Omniberries attacked.

Omnibus

On September 29, 2021, a nuclear salvo was unleashed from the halls of barristerandmann.com. Leviathan was released in the Omnibus base, and soapmakers around the world waved the white flag on the base race.
Declaration Grooming's Milksteak, Sus Artisan Accoutrement's CK-6, Boob-label & Evans' Kaizen K2. These mainstays of American soap bases have remained stagnant ever since. Omnibus effectively ended the base race across the entire market, and led to the community consensus becoming "chase scents, not bases."

Why This Matters

This alone isn't problematic, having a stable set of great bases to choose from and allowing premiere soapmakers to focus on releasing more interesting scents in smaller batches is good for the community, for the industry, and the world.
The problem arises when old, established brands like Tabac take the end of the base race as a signal from the market that they can cut costs by moving their soaps onto to inferior bases. I'm not saying that it's Will's fault that tallow Tabac is now unobtanium, but you could make the argument that it's Will's fault that tallow Tabac is now unobtanium.

The Solution

The best way the community can address this issue is to write daily letters to Maurer & Wirtz that they need to bring back the tallow base for Tabac, and buy out Maggad Razors' stock of 4.1/4.2 base Saponificio Varesino soaps so they can restock everything in the 4.3 base.

Grievance #2: Financial Abuse

Background

Every few years, the copyright expiration date on Mickey Mouse looms near and Disney lobbies the US government to extend the copyright expiration date so that Disney can maintain their stranglehold on The Mouse, despite their eager use of public domain IP like Sherlock Holmes and King Arthur. Is Will literally Big Soap? I'm not saying he is, I'm just asking questions.

Mousse de Saxe

Will has a whole blog post on how he came about his formulation of Mousse de Saxe, and while it's a very interesting story and his formulation of MdS has become catnip for wetshavers, it's also become something of a crutch in his soapmaking. MdS features in Beadelaire, Full Measure of Man, Lavanille, Le Grand Chypre, and most recently in Vespers.

Why This Matters

Although many of us in the community have no thrill anymore, MdS remains the inimitable constant source of thrill at all of /wetshaving cannot resist. L'appel du mousse is the compelling urge one feels to buy at least a sample (I just need a taste!) of Will's latest release featuring Mousse de Saxe. Will knows this fact about us. He knows it well. My sources tell me Will has bought several jetskis with the money he's earned from abusing this fact about us. And he can't keep getting away with it.

The Solution

Since the turn of the new millennium, sex strikes have proven effective in Colombia, The Phillippines, South Sudan, Togo, and elsewhere. By withholding that which their oppressors desire until behavior is changed, peace can be achieved. So to everyone at the Maggard Meetup, I call upon you to refrain from complimenting Will's scent-making until he releases Mousse de Saxe as a standalone dropper that can be added to soaps and aftershaves a la Declaration Grooming's menthol dropper. Si se puede!

Grievance #3: Olfactory Abuse

Background

It is at this point in the post that I must concede, Will is the superior meme-meister. This absolute madlad is at the gigabrain Dr. Manhattan level of the soapmaking world, except instead of moving to Mars he's decided to dead-ass fuck with us. Seville prints more money than the Nintendo Switch, he's got MdS for whenever he wants the cash to buy another jetski, and Omnibus ensures no other soapmaker will encroach on his soap base superiority. How do I know he's decided to stunt on our noses? Because of 2 scent notes.

Cilantro and Cum

Let's start with Cilantro. When the Four Horsemen series was announced, the wetshaving community was awash with curiosity and speculation about what each of the four horsemen would smell like. Would it be like how Noble Otter tackled the "Firefighter" theme without actually making a soap that smelled like a fire?
No. War would smell like an actual war crime. How does one scent a war crime? Apparently with Cilantro. I have it on good authority that Will devised the scent profile for War when eating tacos for taco tuesday and the topic of how cilantro tastes like soap to some people with a specific gene. "Well what would happen if I added an ingredient that tastes like soap to my actual soap?" and off he went. His friends and family didn't see him for days. The Cleveland Browns found a post-it note that had "Cilantro No Matter What" scribbled on it. And some time later, a scent that could curdle Wholly Kaw's Creme Fraiche base was brought to market. Will knew that we'd buy all 4 scents, get all matchy-matchy, and even dickhole the aftershaves. And then the SOTD's began. "My wife hates this," "my cat peed on the tub when I left it open to dry," "why has god forsaken me?" Guess who was laughing his ass off from Mars? Our very own Dr. Manhattan.
For those of us familiar with Pear Tree blossoms, they have a very particular scent. The kind of scent that makes guys inspect their pant leg and say "I'm fairly certain I didn't miss." The kind of scent that makes women think "Oh gross, honey I told you to change your underwear after last night." That's right, Pear Tree blossoms smell like cum. So when Will was considering what scent to re-release for Spring 2023, did he select fan favorite Paganini's Violin or the fruity fougere Passiflora? (Both of which he relased bath soaps for in February). No, he chose the cum soap. The soap that's supposed to remind you of the time you took a walk through Central Park and rounded a corner only to be accosted by a masturbating homeless man.
I tried to give Will the benefit of the doubt, and asked point blank "Is the pear blossom accord in Rhapsody going to be as, well... pear blossom-y as the original Rhapsody formulation?" to which he responded "Why would I change it?" He knew. He knew what he was doing when he originally released the soap, and he knew why I was asking if he had changed it in the re-release. Dr. Manhattan was laughing on Mars again.

Why This Matters

This matters because Will still hasn't re-released Roam and I need the matching aftershave in my life. There are only so many fresh tubs of Roam out there that j33pguy13 can source for me. Instead, Will chooses to re-release Rhapsody and put together what may go down in history as the most infamous multi-scent meme soap release in history with the Four Horsemen. This is a personal attack on my love for Roam and I will not stand for it.

The Solution

Will, re-release Roam and all is forgiven.

Grievance #4: Feet

Preface

I'm a heterosexual male, but that shouldn't matter when it comes to shaving products or labels. Yes, we drank beer. My friends and I. Boys and girls. Yes, we drank beer. I liked beer. Still like beer. We drank beer.

The Problem

Lavender, Interrupted has been to Will as At the Mountains of Madness has been to Guillermo Del Toro. Everyone wants to see it. Will wants to make it. But the creative ambition of the project makes the promised project almost un-makeable. Lavender, Interrupted had been long promised as an evolution of the lauded Lavanille scent, but faced delays and reformulations, and further delays.
And now, today, many of you will go to the Maggard Meetup anticipating getting a full bottle or sample of the long awaited fragrance. And I can't say I'm not jealous.
I'm really jealous.
But lets wind the clock back to Tuesday March 21, 2023 and remember the Deals/New Products thread from that day.
"Happy Tuesday!
Just wanted to drop in quickly to let you all know that the Q2 2023 Release Schedule is now posted on our blog and that it features a sneak peek at a mockup for Lavender, Interrupted packaging."
Will wanted us to see the packaging. Not a new blog post on how he put the final touches on the fragrance. Not a picture of the bottle it would be sold in. He wanted us to see the picture of sexy feet he put on the box. He postponed Lavender, Interrupted and strung us along just so that his feet pics could get maximum exposure with minimum heat. Are those Will's feet on the box of Lavender, Interrupted? Why does will want us to see pictures of his feet in thigh-high stockings? I'm not saying they are Will's feet on the packaging of Lavender, Interrupted. I'm just asking questions.

The Solution

Nothing really to be done about this other than be mad about discovering new about ourselves. Just accept that we're all going to love this fragrance and that the box with sexy feet on it will be in many wetshavers' dens, delighting Will that his feet pics are going to be all over the sub's mail call threads for years to come.

Conclusion

I'm not sure why you read this far. It's lot to take in, I know. I'm intentionally avoiding a few smaller topics of less import, like... Night Music having poo notes. I'm not going to critique Will/Barrister and Mann beyond that, because it's already been established that he's straight up fucking with us with some of these scents and I am 100% here for it.
I've been wracked with guilt holding onto this knowledge while wetshavers around the world continue to buy Will's wonderful products, but I realized the potential hilarity of pointing out Will's sexy feet pics the morning of the Maggard Meetup was too much to pass up. My intention is just to meme on everyone tangentially related to what I've posted here, and to get Roam a proper re-release. I will not source any of my claims, and I expect you to do your own research. Take my word for it.
After all of this though, I am convinced that Will is an absolute gigachad in the wetshaving world. Please join me in encouraging Will to re-release Roam.
TL;DR Does this sub even have mods anymore? Why is this post still up?

From The Ashley:
On cheating on her partners & having a “revolving door of men” in her life:
“I get a lot of s**t because I do cheat, or I have cheated,” Kail said.
Kail pointed to her childhood trauma as a possible reason for her cheating, but stated that she also refuses to be unhappy in a relationship.
“I also leave if I’m not satisfied or happy and I think that people don’t like that. People don’t like that I leave,” she said. “I’m not gonna stay somewhere I’m not happy. So it does kind of look like [I have] a revolving door of men, but also I know when and when not to introduce them to my kids.
“There’s people who date all the time and they don’t get s**t for it.”
On why she almost got an abortion with her fourth son, Creed:
Kail also discussed her time with Chris, which she called “by far, my most tumultuous, toxic relationship.”
“When I met Chris, it started off very toxic. I would say about six months in, I had already had a miscarriage with him. At that point, I had found out that he had two other girlfriends, full-time girlfriends. These were not side chicks. All three of us were main f**king girlfriends…I found out when I was pregnant with my son Lux. None of us knew about each other.”
Kail claimed that Chris was living with her full-time during this period.
On finding out Chris was having a baby with his other girlfriend:
“That was really hard for me to learn that he was having a baby with her,” Kail said. “I had a mental breakdown that day…I called my therapist on an emergency basis and she talked me through it. I basically blacked out. I don’t even remember what the conversation was. I accepted that he was having this child and from that point forward, I never looked back.”
Kail said she hasn’t had a good relationship with Chris since.
“I’ve never hooked up with him, we don’t talk, we don’t hang out, we’re not friendly. There’s been one or two friendly times where we’ve tried to be cordial but it ultimately just goes to s**t every time. It’s hard,” she said.
On the only reason she doesn’t try to get with Chris anymore:
Kail— who, earlier in the podcast, stated that she loved Chris more than she’s ever loved anyone she’s dated— admitted that she would probably still be trying to get with Chris if it wasn’t for one thing.
‘Here’s the thing: I don’t date men with kids. And if it wasn’t for that, I don’t think I would be done with him today,” she said.
On the real reasons she left ‘Teen Mom 2’:
“It was a really hard decision for me but I had been really struggling with the fact that I went through such a public divorce. And then the stuff with Chris was so messy. My kids are getting older, Isaac really didn’t want to film anymore. So I was just kind of feeling like, ‘Maybe this is time for me to move on,'” she said.
“My kids didn’t want to film. I just wanted the privacy and to kind of just move on,” she added.
On whether or not she would return to a ‘Teen Mom’ show:
Kail has made it clear that she is interested in coming back to reality TV, but says it won’t be on a ‘Teen Mom’ show.
“They’ve asked me a couple times to come back, but I’m so far removed from that now that I can’t see myself going back to the show, specifically,” Kail said, although she stated that she would “absolutely” be down to star on her own reality show.
On plastic surgery:
Kail also talked about the plastic surgery she’s gotten over the years, including a tummy tuck, Lipo 360 and the Brazilian Butt Lift (BBL) she got live on Snapchat by Dr. Miami in 2016.
“I love plastic surgery,” Kail said. “The only regret I have is not waiting until I was done having kids. I had the Mommy Makeover after my second son and I could definitely go for another.”
One thing Kail regrets, though, is getting her BBL, which she says has not aged well.
“I don’t love [my BBL]. I want it removed immediately,” she said. “Gravity is kind of pulling it down a little bit.”
When I did the BBL and I did the Lipo 360 I wanted everything to match because I felt like, ‘I can’t have a huge butt and then have my waist be small and my arms big.’ So I had it in my arms. My butt and my arms have grown insane. But now what? I don’t know what I can do about it. Gravity pulls down your butt a little bit and it just looks crazy and I can’t find jeans that fit me.
On having even more kids:
Kail has four kids currently, (and it’s been intensely speculated that she gave birth to a fifth child by her current boyfriend Elijah Scott around November 2022, but she’s never confirmed it). However, she said she’s willing to grow her litter even more.
“I am in a relationship now and yes [I’m open to having more kids]…[Elijah] deserves kids of his own,” she said.
https://www.theashleysrealityroundup.com/2023/06/02/kail-lowry-talks-to-bunnie-xo-about-her-revolving-door-of-men-why-she-really-quit-teen-mom-2-what-plastic-surgery-she-regrets-getting/

E.g., no matter how much salt is harvested, it always comes back. Minerals sapped by plants never decrease. Petroleum can't run out. However, this only happens to resources that currently don't constitute part of a living organism as of this writing. So if an animal dies before now, its carcass won't rot to nothing. Ever. But if an animal dies after that, regular physics still applies.

Hey look at me, I'm a wastoid Android robot Nobody ever believes me 'cause I'm skinny and silly I'm just a clown in the circus with a license to be a reject Rejection from the class A classification to nowhere C'mon, c'mon gotta give it everything you got C'mon, c'mon gotta give it everything you got C'mon, c'mon gotta give it everything you got
The merry goes the merry goes 'round and 'round There he goes, the merry goes bouncing now Off the walls on a high Coming down dying to kick it
So you wanna have a good time? You wanna get on down? So come on over to my house where we can fool around Don't look at me I'm too ugly, I'm too skinny and silly Nobody wants to hang out with rejection man Yeah c'mon, c'mon gotta give it everything you got Yeah! Yeah! Gotta give it everything you got Yeah! Yeah! Give it everything you got
The merry goes the merry goes 'round and 'round There he goes, the merry goes bouncing now Off the walls on a high Coming down dying to kick it
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The merry goes the merry goes 'round and 'round There he goes, the merry goes bouncing now Off the walls on a high Coming down dying to kick it
I don't care if you don't care Nobody cares Everybody's getting there rocks off You really wanna, you really wanna? Yeah yeah you really wanna, you really wanna yeah yeah
you really wanna, you really wanna yeah yeah you really wanna, you really wanna yeah yeah
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The merry goes the merry goes 'round and 'round There he goes, the merry goes bouncing now Off the walls on a high Coming down dying to kick it
The merry goes the merry goes 'round and 'round There he goes, the merry goes bouncing now Off the walls on a high Coming down dying to kick it
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I'm a wastoid, an Android, a robot, a dirtbag But I'm ugly and skinny and silly and smelly and cheesy But I don't care, it doesn't matter and I'm dying to kick it!

I’m not sure if I’m a trans woman or trans feminine, but my body now has curves and I love it for the most part
My face is still too masculine for my dysphoria, even though with makeup I pass. Without, I get ppl with confused looks sometimes as I’m probably on some in between, making people question their sexuality at my androgynous cuteness 😂
I’m autistic so, I’m not sure I’ll ever know what having a social group of women will feel like, i am happiest with only a few friends who I see every now and then. The times where I’ve been with a group of women, I’m not sure I felt a shared sense of womanhood, I felt more like an imposter or maybe it was too early in transition.
I still have ffs ahead of me and I’m afraid but also excited since I’ve wanted this for years(side profile dysphoria go brrrrr)
I think it’s partially my autism, but the reason I’m not sure if I’m a trans woman is because: I don’t relate to most women(mostly just to other trans women who are also neurodivergent) My voice is very much on the androgynous side so that definitely plays into it I’m kind of teeter tottering between tomboy outfits and femme, but I really don’t care about fitting in to look like the social norm for women I guess I just feel other, not in a bad way, I just don’t relate to most other humans
Lastly, I think after I get ffs, and like my feminine face, I don’t think I’d care about pronouns as much? Like just being happy with how I am with my body and my face is enough?
Like the further I’ve transitioned, the less I’ve cared about it, which is weird, since at the start it really mattered. I think it’s because I saw myself as a boy in the mirror so when others said it it really hurt since I saw myself that way too but didn’t want to be that way