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2023.05.28 15:16 Plushytoonz There's a universe where earth is filled with unknown horrors (Part 2)
Part 1
I stood up, awaken from my sleep from the knocking sound on the elevator door. My friends stood up with me as we all heard it. The sound of banging became so much louder. Giggling can be heard with it. What's behind the door is unknown and I'd rather not face it than die to this thing. In the edges of the door, thin fingers began to seep through it. Such horrible looking fingers. I watched the door getting turned into a broken mess. Something grabbed my hand and I saw it was Rishika's. I looked at her and saw fear and sadness on her face.
Questioning death can be answered by judgement, revenge, luck, curse, or just nothing. The concept fate over people sounds so simple that people think that it's ok that fate exists. Is it ok if I was in this situation? What if one of your loved ones died right in front of you by a murderer? You won't like it and you'd definitely blame god for that.
The door is beginning to make an opening. Sweat rapidly runs down on my forehead. My eyes widened with terror as I see the creature's face. It's as accurately described from the documentary. Its teeth shines like bright white marbles and its eyes are like melted butter. The creature's face slowly gets closer, while we stepped far back until there's no space for us to move anymore.
I can feel the cold shivering breath from its mouth. The breath that smells empty. From what I've heard, it's much stronger than the one we just ran away from. Ronald immediately punches the creature's face with his metallic fist. Steam pulses out from the gaps of it. He kept punching at it again and again but to no avail. It still not injured nor shown any pain. He only manages to recoil it farther back.
With a one quick slice, Ronald's hands fell to the ground. His scream was painful and terrifying to hear. I can see his face was in pain. Eyes widened with tears flowing down to his cheek. "Ronald!!" I heard Billy screamed out loud. Of course, this doesn't make any difference as the creature slowly crept closer and closer to us. I witness Ronald dying with his sockets bleeding so much blood. His eyes faded of life. If only he hadn't try to kill it out of bravery, he would've lived longer with us before our lives are taken away.
Its jaw started to open. The sounds of bone cracking can be heard within its teeth. The smile on its face grew more and more eerie. It laughs like a maniac ready to pounce on their victims. Such insanity can break people's minds with a laugh. I froze in place by the laugh. There's nowhere else me and my friends can escape from. What else can we do. Our weapons are futile here and this creature is far beyond comprehension.
Its many arms spread around the elevator room, trying to grab us with its menacing hands. We're going to die here and that's that. This would've been a goodbye to the world. I don't know the dead world in this universe. Many different universes should have a different afterlife. Here, I don't think there's a safe place after death.
Then, something happened right in front of our eyes. The creature was being pulled back by something. Something inside the darkness. I can hear it's the same women who saved me from the pale face. We couldn't see anything in the darkness but Billy's flames can surely help us along the way. I took his flamethrower and a torch. Lighting up the torch with it carefully. Not wanting to burn us. Turning off the flamethrower, I lighted the area with my torch in hand and saw them clashing each other with blade like arms.
We stepped out of the elevator with Ronald's dead body on Cody's arms. Why would Cody keep holding on to him for? He's already dead and there's no way for us to say a better goodbye. I guess maybe he wanted to bury him somewhere which I honored that idea.
She cuts the jaw of the creature that it screams the way a person should. I can see the whole body of the creature. It was humanoid and tall. About 9 feet tall and its body is dark skeletal human. It grabbed her with its large hand and threw her off into the wall. She crushes onto the wall with such heavy force. A groan can be heard from her before a blade penetrates through her abdomen. Her screams are both man and woman at the same time.
It's horrifying to hear someone scream like that if they're just human. In fact, it'll be much terrifying if she'd sounded like millions of voices.
She grabbed its face with her free arm and tears its face off. Its eyes bounces to the ground with a flesh grinding mush sound. The screams that came from within its voice box made a deafening pain in our ears that we both covered them with our hands.
The woman digs her sharp fingers into the creature eye sockets with the sound of digging flesh. She then splits its head with the pull of her hands. Black and bloody flesh spread onto the walls and ground. One of its discarded flesh landed on my shoe. My stomach twists and turns. Watching her brutally kill it while flesh and blood spills. I gagged, watching her 3 fingered hands dig into its throat and pulled out its large heart.
Geralt vomited to the ground, spilling the acid from his stomach. That didn't bother me. Instead I watched her feast on the heart. The sound of chewing on flesh and blood made me sick to my stomach from an imaginary smell of rotten flesh. The creature's body slowly melts away to the ground. Rendering it to be dead into a puddle of flesh and bone. There's now nothing left of it. Just a puddle.
"Holy shit." With just one word came out from Billy's mouth, the woman turns her head to look at us. Her eyes seemingly looked bright and harmless. Not sure whether or not if this is a tactic to hunt or it's really her instinct. The familiar color of her right eye caught my attention.
She fell to the ground with a big gap in her abdomen. Heavy breaths came out from her voice as she slowly gets back up on her feet. The light from my torch reveals her hoodie to be grey and the gap in her abdomen slowly began to heal itself. Small tendrils from the sides of the gap stitching back together.
I stepped back, giving ourselves space in order for us to escape if she'd attack us. I held my hammer high and so does my friends with their weapons. "Darwin wait!" Did I just heard her say my name? I didn't know what to do or how to react. Either it's just a hallucination or trickery. "How did you know my name?" I asked with the fear in my voice.
"I uh. I just guessed I suppose." Her eyes were on the dead Ronald in Cody's arms. She looked saddened by it. Even grieved. She shook her head and went back to to us with a clear voice. "But that doesn't matter. You all need to get out of here before he gets here."
"Who's he?" Geralt asked with both curious and nerving tone in his voice. Her eyes are widened in fear. An expression I never thought she could do and feel about. "Cain. He's coming here and you all need to get out of here."
I've heard about Cain before. You might know this story from a book. It's about 2 brothers, sons of Adam and Eve. Abel being the most favored man of god, while Cain being the least favorite and jealous. Cain killed his brother out of jealousy. God is not happy about this and he casted him away with a curse. He's just a man. Maybe who she was saying was someone who is also named Cain.
"How are we supposed to get out?" Said Cody.
"I can help you get out. We just need to go outside and find the pool of clean water. But, it'll be far away, so we need to hurry up." She walked passed us quickly in a hurry. Billy was going to ask but I lay his shoulders, giving him a metaphor of saying no. Of course, he grunted from that. Rishika gave a face wash to Geralt. He gladly takes it and wipes his mouth and stained jacket.
We followed her through the hallways of the darkness. Our torches lighted brightly around the darkness. I was behind the woman whose guiding us to the exit. I haven't thought of asking her name. For someone like her, she should have. The voids blood doesn't seem to affect her mind but I don't think that's really the case.
The image of her blue eyes makes me recollect the memories of my long distant past. I still don't understand. How could she be so familiar to me, even know my name. We never met each other and we're from different worlds. Either it could be she had mind reading powers or just a simple guess. "Thanks for saving us back there. What's your name."
"My name's..." She looked unsure as to what to say or even know her name. I think she was hiding her true identity which I can understand that. Hiding your own identity from other people is a good way to keep yourself safe. But you needed to plan and design your own disguise. You need to come up with a story that doesn't give confusion or any cracks for people to get suspicious. Famous people like movie stars or scientist or anybody related to that stuff mostly do this to avoid getting attention.
With a warm and calm voice, she answered. "My name is Enid."
"Sounds good. Why did you save us? How are you still in control of yourself?"
"I saved you because I wanted to save you all. I was never the kind of hero or something but I still have the heart to save you all. And I'm losing a bit of my strength holding myself together. Everyday, I have to eat the creatures here. You've encountered them before. If I don't eat them, I'm going to turn into them. Turn into the void. But the more I eat, the closer I'm going to turn myself in. I'm glad you guys are safe, but I feel bad to see your friend die. Sorry that I'm too late to save all of you in one piece."
"Yeah. Wished he had enough time for you to arrive. He was a brave and cool friend to have a part of the team. He's always telling stories about greek gods and mythologies. He's a boxer too. I think he would consider you to be one of us."
"Really?"
"Yeah, of course. He kinda sometimes look scary to me in the night but he's a really good man." Geralt joins with us with a nervous look on his face. His eyes are tired as ours but they're wide enough for us to see his shining eyes. Enid returned smile on her face, but it faded away quickly in a short amount of time.
We finally left the building safely with her guidance. The bright shining sky brightens around us. Giving us the comfort of our safety. But still, we grieved the death of Ronald. Billy grieved the most out of everyone else. He kept muttering all over and over while we were following Enid. His mutterings, from what I can hear are apologize. "Billy. It's not your fault. I think he knew as well."
"No it is. I kept saying mean and horrible things to many of you but mostly it's on him. I just wanted him to think I'm strong and all. I'm lost Darwin. And I shouldn't have said those awful things. All I want was to show you all that I'm strong. But look at me. I'm bloody weak and I can't do anything to protect you all. All I can do is to just stand still and spout bullshit."
He began sobbing so terribly that it shocks me to my core. His face turning red and he fell to his knees, unable to stand back up. We all stopped to try to at least give him the comfort we wanted give him. We've never seen him in such a state like this. Throughout our times together, he always acts like a jerk but now he's crying right in front of us. I didn't know what else to do except to sit down next to him. Ronald's body is now pale in Cody's arms. His eyes were shut.
"I know how it feels, Billy." Rishika, already knelt down in front of Billy, said with a warm tone in her voice. This has got to be the 3rd or 4th time I've heard her say a full sentence. Either way, it was encouraging. Billy doesn't seem to be able to reply. None of us does. "I used to be harsh and cruel to others because I wanted them to accept me. But I was wrong because that's not how it works. We can both change together. It's ok to be on your good side. It won't be too bad. I think Ronald would like that too."
"Look at me. Do I look like I can?"
"We all can. It's just how we grow in life."
"I don't know. Ronald's dead and I'm left to be the one who carries his death on my back. I don't think he'll ever forgive me."
"No. We don't know that. But what matters is that you move on instead of staying behind. I know it's hard but you have to if you want to change. It's ok to be scared. We're all scared."
"Yeah. Even me too. I get scared a few times but that doesn't mean that others will look down on me." Geralt stutters a bit in his voice but kept the strength to say those words.
"Same here. Even that I'm this, I'm still scared too." Enid joins in with a sad look on her face. For someone like her, I thought she never felt fear. I guess there are others like her can feel that way.
I wanted to tell him something too. Something that feels connecting to each other that I don't want him to be left alone. "You don't have to do this alone. I'm scared too and that's alright because that's human. We can help you Billy. You're our friend. And I think Ronald would consider you as a friend too."
Billy wipes his tears away with his sleeve. We all sat there for a few seconds before Cody lays his hand on his shoulder, which makes Billy hug him back. "It's ok. We're here." Ronald's body lay on the boulder 5 feet away from us. Cody reaches his arms as a gesture for us to join in. We all did. So is Enid. I didn't think anything else but to be on Billy's side.
Suddenly, our moment was interrupted by a thunderous noise came out of nowhere. Enid's eyes are widened in terror. The world around us shook from the thunder. In the sky, the small clouds started to turn from grey to the color of blood. Enid jumps right up, catching a look above as we all stare into the sky. What I saw gave me enough imagination to fear whatever the unknown has.
Large gigantic shining eyes watch over the world below us from the sky. Its pupils are too big that they nearly reached the edge of their sockets. The grin of that thing gave me enough horror to freeze in my tracks. How nightmarish it is to see a gigantic abomination such as this in the morning and night. People would definitely scream and run all over the place while the cloud's face watches over them like a eldritch god.
By the time I stepped back, it turned its menacing eyes towards me. I felt like it was staring into my soul. My very soul in my body. Its own saliva dripping from its mouth. Hungry for our souls. It didn't move nor spoke a word. Thunderous noises kept coming from the abomination. They were red lightning and menacing. If people get hit by them, I'm pretty sure they'll turn into whatever nightmarish flesh creature they'll turn into.
"Guys! We have to go! There's not much time!" Edin ran and so we followed. Cody picked up Ronald's body with us. Billy gained back his strength to run. And I slowly started to run as I kept staring at its menacing eyes. It doesn't leave me alone. I don't see it following me or do anything than to smile with evil intentions. This is different than the ones we encountered. Not because of their looks. It's because I knew its intentions and the void creatures, I don't.
A great thunderous red beam shot out from the abomination's mouth and a loud boom can be heard far away from us. The sound snapped me out and I began to run as fast as I can, trying to keep up the pace of my friends and Enid.
Nothing else happened as we run to our exit. The thunderous noises kept booming around us as the clouds above slowly turned into blood red. A drop of rain hit my forehead. I touched it with my finger tip and saw blood. The rain is full of blood. I nearly slipped to the ground but my jacket was caught by Geralt. "Don't worry Darwin! I got you!" He pulled me up and ran.
The feeling of getting closer to something crept inside my chest that I began to feel the sensation of hope. Hope is said to be for the weak but I say otherwise. Hope may be a blind way to believe in something but sometimes it can be true to which we reach to something we can achieve.
Enid stopped in her tracks. There, right in front of us, was a pool of clean water. It doesn't make sense. It's raining blood and there, at the pool, it's clean. Droplets of blood dripped into the pool, then faded away into the clean water. We were shocked to see the pool to be clean in the middle of a shower of blood. The atmosphere suddenly turned red. Dark red flames started emerging around the world. It's everywhere and I can hear the distant screams behind me. The screams are hard for me to explain. They're like mixed with many variety of species all together into a rhyme of symphony.
I turned around to see something dark falling from the sky above into the ground like a falling star. The world shakes beneath us. I knelt down to get balance as I kept watching the falling darkness land onto the world. Far away, a dark silhouette rises from the ground. It looked to be tall. I could guess it's 4 feet taller than us. My eyes can't see clearly due to the silhouette being too far away. More of them began to rise as more fell from the abomination.
I turned myself around, nearly losing my balance. Cody held Rishika by the arm and Billy knelt beside Geralt. Enid reached her hands out into the pool. Sparks of bright light emitted from her arms, spreading light around her. The pool began to slowly swirl into a vortex as the sparks of light began to increase. The harsh blow of the wind hits us, making me fall to the ground.
Then, a bolt of light sparked into life in Enid's grip. The bolt was so bright that I shielded my eyes from it. It's so that I won't get blinded by the light. I looked back to see that something is walking towards us from far away of our tracks. I don't know if it's just me hallucinating or if it's really real. I think I can hear laughter. A humane laughter. It's like it came from a demon king. The dark silhouettes at the sky fly around with their wings.
Their wings are of a bat and their body was humanoid and blood red. Their mouths are menacingly enough to make me push myself away from it as far as I can. It shrieks so loudly that I can hear it from that distance. It began to fly towards us and its claws like a hawks are ready to grab one of us to feast on. I stood back up as the world turned still. I pulled out my hammer, ready to defend myself from it.
The demon nearly scratched my face before a bullet teared through the side of its brain. I turned my head to see Rishika, already wielding her sniper rifle. "I got you." She turned around and shot another bullet at another demon.
I heard a crushing noise coming from Cody. He slams his club right at a demons head, exploding it on impact. The demon wore an armor set of dark stones that could come from hell itself. It was carrying a blade that shines pure diamond. Geralt penetrating his spear at the demons chest, electrocuting it from a high voltage. "Holy shit! This is crazy!" A shout came from his voice. A voice of panic.
I turned around when I felt something was approaching me. There was a demon with 4 arms and held a large hammer, bigger than the one I wielded. Its face full of hatred that Its eyes glared into my soul. I quickly swung my hammer by the time it swings its own at me. Our hammers clashes together, making a loud slam around us. It swung again but I jumped away from its heavy blow. It's the good thing we had those boots. They're able to give us enough push to jump twice higher than the original person can.
I then swung my hammer directly at its face. I made impact as its face tears apart from the slam of my hammer. A crunching sound can be heard from its skull. Its head exploded into a pool of blood with scattered flesh and bones.
I landed on my feet and watched the world turned into the new hell as dark flames emitted everywhere around the buildings and the ground. More demons are rushing towards us in a pack. So many of them with many horrifying different forms. My body is shaking from the fear I had in me. I nearly dropped my hammer as sweat begins to appear on my hands. I bumped my back as I stepped behind. Geralt, Rishika, Cody, and myself are close together with our weapons in hand. They're all sweating with fear on their faces. There's too many of them for us to take them down. "Come on! Let's show those freaks what we're made of!" Shouted Geralt. By the times we raised our weapons and the demons now 10 feet away from us, a bright blue flame blazes the demons. They scream in pain and hatred as they slowly melted into a sludge of fried flesh.
"I'm not going to let those bloody fuckers take you all away from me!" Billy's face is mixed with fear and anger. Feeling very glad that he joined us. If not for him, we would be brutally killed by the horrifying demons. Then, a loud burst of water and electricity emerged from behind us. Enid faces us with wide eyes. "Get in now!"
"Will it take us home!?" Geralt asks with a panic in his voice. I can see the sweat pouring down on Enid's face as she stares back at us in a hurry. "No but it'll take you somewhere safe! Somewhere you can start a new life!"
Cody, with Ronald's body in his arms, is the first to get in the portal. By the time he jumps into the portal in the pool, a flash of blue energy can be seen emerging out of it. Then goes for Geralt. He was scared at first as he cowers back. "Will I be hurt if I fall?"
"Don't worry. You'll be fine." And so, he jumps in and flashes of light emerges out.
Then goes for Billy. He looked back at Enid for a moment before he jumps into the portal.
Lastly, Rishika stops near the edges of the pool. She turned around to see Enid with a hurried look on her face but also with relief. "Thank you Eddie." Then she jumps into the portal.
Did I just heard her right? Did she just said my lost friend's name. "What did she just say?"
She looked at me with a sad look in her blue eye. I felt a connection between us, as if we've known each other. I don't understand. Why would Rishika say his name. Enid is a woman to say the least or she's really something else. A sudden memory flashed before my eyes.
I remembered the time Eddie shape shifted into the Ice cream man. It was a time when we were young. We both got the ice cream we wanted just for free without anyone noticing. It was funny but also worrying because we could get caught. But that never happened and still felt funny every time I remember that day.
"Eddie? You're Eddie." She nodded in reply. A gesture of yes. Then, right in front of my eyes, she formed into a grown up version of Eddie. The Eddie I remembered. My heart felt shocked as to what I've just learned. I ran to her and hugged her deeply than I could've ever done. We both hugged for a moment until she gently pushes me off. Tears started to appear beneath my eyes. I don't know what I was feeling but what I can say was joy. "Why didn't you tell me?"
"Because I knew you would drag me with you If I tell you. You have to understand that I have to stay here. This is where I belong and I'm too dangerous to be with you."
"But we can figure things out together! We can go back to hanging out with each other! Play video games! Explore the world! Everything!"
"No Darwin. We can't. I'm a part of the void and I'm slowly losing myself. My left part of my face is nearly turning into the void."
"But we can fix that! We just need to find the answers to how we can get you better! I can't! I don't want to lose you again! I-"
"Darwin!" A shout came from his voice. I stopped with chills freezing behind my back. He looked at me in the eye with sadness. "I can't go back. I'm sorry I was never there for you when you graduated. I'm sorry for never waiting for you outside of school. I'm sorry for everything we could've done but we haven't! I have to save you. Even if it costs me my life. I don't want to lose you either. You have to go Darwin. There's nothing that can change my mind."
I thought I could finally bring him back. To do the things we've never have yet done. Here and now, this is our last time together. This is our last time to see each other again. He protected me wherever I go here. He saved me in order for me to live. I can't let him die here. I don't want him to be gone from me.
I hugged him tightly, not wanting to let go. Tears dripped down from his eyes and onto my head. I can feel the pain in my chest starting to rise but I didn't let go. "I'm sorry Darwin. You have to let me go. You can choose. I won't stop you."
He's right. I can't keep him with me. Throughout my life I wanted to see him again. Every night, I look out the window to see if he's there but there's no one but cars and houses. I can't keep doing this. I really have to let go. Tears pours rapidly beneath my eyes. I let go and wiped the tears from my face. "I guess this is a goodbye then."
A sad smile plastered on his face. The world around us slowly turned into darkness. The kind of darkness in hell. "It is Darwin. I'm so happy to see you again."
"Well oh well!! Look at what we have here!" A very modern European accent voice of a man emerged from the world before us. We turned to see a man with a worn off brown coat. His hat looked to be as old as the ancient times. And his face. His face made my stomach turn. Bandages wrapped around his face, except for his terrifying grin. His teeth rotten to the very core of his rotten body. I stepped behind Eddie with the hammer in my hands. The man grins much wider than I anticipated.
"You must be wondering. Who am I? Well. I'm the one and only, Cain. You might've heard me from a very recognizable book. Also, I'm afraid you two are coming with me. We have a lot to discuss and a ton of things to do together." With that, he started laughing like a total maniac. His herds of demons followed with a laugh.
"Goodbye Darwin." Eddie suddenly pushes me off into the bright blue vortex that'll be my exit. I took one last glimpse of Eddie standing before Cain. As I fell into the portal, I can hear the echoing laughter of Cain and his demons. I screamed out for Eddie but my voice was out of reach.
Then, I landed on my back on the ground. The portal disappeared before me. I quickly stood back up and reached to where the portal had opened. It was gone. I looked around to see that I'm on a hill. The dark blue night sky displayed above me with the stars shining above. My mind racing with thoughts and fear. Witnessing Eddie being alone to fight against the evil we are meant to escape from. I screamed into the sky as tears rapidly starts to appear. I fell to my knees onto the grass floor and slam my hands at the ground as I wept. I kept screaming and sobbing until I was too exhausted that I fell to the ground. I heard footsteps before me. There were many.
My body being picked up by Billy in the arm as he carries me with him. "Darwin. What happened?"
The only words I can say now were."He's gone."
It's been 2 years since we left that world. The world we now stand upon was nearly the same as ours. What I mean by nearly was that there are strange phenomenons happening nearly every month. A girl who can turn into a form of a robot and killed a cancerous beast in Queensland. A military war criminal who considers killing the supernatural as a job. Even the real life wendigo sightings are on the news papers. Still though, the place is still good in the morning. Except in the night, there are sometimes threats we don't know in the dark.
We built a team together, even gather some new friends along the way. Rishika grew to be more expressive and a lot more kinder to us. The time we killed a literal Bigfoot, she gave me a fist bump. Gave me a chuckle and a smile on my face.
Billy was getting better everyday. He responds to us with kind words than insults like before. After Cody had buried Ronald's body in a proper, he said his words of goodbye to him and gave him the picture he secretly held with him. It was a picture of us hanging out in a movie place. It's heart warming and depressing to witness what he did there.
Cody went off to work as a psychologist. He's still with us. It's just that he wanted to help people's mental health issues. He did really well on that one and he even gave us some advice for a change. I wouldn't consider mostly on his advice but some I can really try. That's also where he met the girl who can turn into a robot. We've met after the news broke out about an incident of a wild destruction at Queensland. Forgot to mention, we're at Australia. Just to let you all know where we are.
Finally, Geralt took pictures everywhere we go and writes down in his diary. The reason he does this is that we're in another world and thought he could take pictures of them and reflect on them. Sometimes we even got to have a photograph of us in the middle of the good times. He said it was to keep memories of our times together. A frame with a picture of literally us huddled together in a bright sunny day in Canberra.
Me? I was building a portal device, for me to teleport to different worlds. It's going to take a long time for me yes. Been building other things lately with Rishika too. Weaponry, gadgets, devices, and fixing stuff. I stuck around with my friends and we've made a great team. Made new friends along the way and learnt many things too.
2 years ago, after my moment of grief, I woke up from my exhausted moment to see my friends standing before me with a relief on their faces. I nearly cried by the picture of that moment. After that, we both watched tv together in my new bedroom inside of a hotel room. After Rishika finds a new home for us, we moved out to Melbourne Victoria as a new place of our home. We moved in to a farm house where there is a larger basement for us to do our stuff. We knew we had to get a job at this point, so we did what we can to find one. It's a good thing there's a city nearby.
Rishika, Geralt, Billy, and I took the job as being a part of an investigation of the paranormal. That's how we managed to meet up with a bunch of new friends.
I missed Eddie. I wished he could come with me and didn't have to die. But, I learnt that I can't drag him with me. He wanted to stay there. I can understand that. I know he's gone already. It's hard to let go. But sometimes we have to. To live out our lives well. I have to look forward. To better myself through experience.
This is my message to you. My readers.
You better to stay where you are now. Don't go to other universes. Because maybe, you'll end up in the most horrifying places you never want to go.
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I stood up, awaken from my sleep from the knocking sound on the elevator door. My friends stood up with me as we all heard it. The sound of banging became so much louder. Giggling can be heard with it. What's behind the door is unknown and I'd rather not face it than die to this thing. In the edges of the door, thin fingers began to seep through it. Such horrible looking fingers. I watched the door getting turned into a broken mess. Something grabbed my hand and I saw it was Rishika's. I looked at her and saw fear and sadness on her face.
Questioning death can be answered by judgement, revenge, luck, curse, or just nothing. The concept fate over people sounds so simple that people think that it's ok that fate exists. Is it ok if I was in this situation? What if one of your loved ones died right in front of you by a murderer? You won't like it and you'd definitely blame god for that.
The door is beginning to make an opening. Sweat rapidly runs down on my forehead. My eyes widened with terror as I see the creature's face. It's as accurately described from the documentary. Its teeth shines like bright white marbles and its eyes are like melted butter. The creature's face slowly gets closer, while we stepped far back until there's no space for us to move anymore.
I can feel the cold shivering breath from its mouth. The breath that smells empty. From what I've heard, it's much stronger than the one we just ran away from. Ronald immediately punches the creature's face with his metallic fist. Steam pulses out from the gaps of it. He kept punching at it again and again but to no avail. It still not injured nor shown any pain. He only manages to recoil it farther back.
With a one quick slice, Ronald's hands fell to the ground. His scream was painful and terrifying to hear. I can see his face was in pain. Eyes widened with tears flowing down to his cheek. "Ronald!!" I heard Billy screamed out loud. Of course, this doesn't make any difference as the creature slowly crept closer and closer to us. I witness Ronald dying with his sockets bleeding so much blood. His eyes faded of life. If only he hadn't try to kill it out of bravery, he would've lived longer with us before our lives are taken away.
Its jaw started to open. The sounds of bone cracking can be heard within its teeth. The smile on its face grew more and more eerie. It laughs like a maniac ready to pounce on their victims. Such insanity can break people's minds with a laugh. I froze in place by the laugh. There's nowhere else me and my friends can escape from. What else can we do. Our weapons are futile here and this creature is far beyond comprehension.
Its many arms spread around the elevator room, trying to grab us with its menacing hands. We're going to die here and that's that. This would've been a goodbye to the world. I don't know the dead world in this universe. Many different universes should have a different afterlife. Here, I don't think there's a safe place after death.
Then, something happened right in front of our eyes. The creature was being pulled back by something. Something inside the darkness. I can hear it's the same women who saved me from the pale face. We couldn't see anything in the darkness but Billy's flames can surely help us along the way. I took his flamethrower and a torch. Lighting up the torch with it carefully. Not wanting to burn us. Turning off the flamethrower, I lighted the area with my torch in hand and saw them clashing each other with blade like arms.
We stepped out of the elevator with Ronald's dead body on Cody's arms. Why would Cody keep holding on to him for? He's already dead and there's no way for us to say a better goodbye. I guess maybe he wanted to bury him somewhere which I honored that idea.
She cuts the jaw of the creature that it screams the way a person should. I can see the whole body of the creature. It was humanoid and tall. About 9 feet tall and its body is dark skeletal human. It grabbed her with its large hand and threw her off into the wall. She crushes onto the wall with such heavy force. A groan can be heard from her before a blade penetrates through her abdomen. Her screams are both man and woman at the same time.
It's horrifying to hear someone scream like that if they're just human. In fact, it'll be much terrifying if she'd sounded like millions of voices.
She grabbed its face with her free arm and tears its face off. Its eyes bounces to the ground with a flesh grinding mush sound. The screams that came from within its voice box made a deafening pain in our ears that we both covered them with our hands.
The woman digs her sharp fingers into the creature eye sockets with the sound of digging flesh. She then splits its head with the pull of her hands. Black and bloody flesh spread onto the walls and ground. One of its discarded flesh landed on my shoe. My stomach twists and turns. Watching her brutally kill it while flesh and blood spills. I gagged, watching her 3 fingered hands dig into its throat and pulled out its large heart.
Geralt vomited to the ground, spilling the acid from his stomach. That didn't bother me. Instead I watched her feast on the heart. The sound of chewing on flesh and blood made me sick to my stomach from an imaginary smell of rotten flesh. The creature's body slowly melts away to the ground. Rendering it to be dead into a puddle of flesh and bone. There's now nothing left of it. Just a puddle.
"Holy shit." With just one word came out from Billy's mouth, the woman turns her head to look at us. Her eyes seemingly looked bright and harmless. Not sure whether or not if this is a tactic to hunt or it's really her instinct. The familiar color of her right eye caught my attention.
She fell to the ground with a big gap in her abdomen. Heavy breaths came out from her voice as she slowly gets back up on her feet. The light from my torch reveals her hoodie to be grey and the gap in her abdomen slowly began to heal itself. Small tendrils from the sides of the gap stitching back together.
I stepped back, giving ourselves space in order for us to escape if she'd attack us. I held my hammer high and so does my friends with their weapons. "Darwin wait!" Did I just heard her say my name? I didn't know what to do or how to react. Either it's just a hallucination or trickery. "How did you know my name?" I asked with the fear in my voice.
"I uh. I just guessed I suppose." Her eyes were on the dead Ronald in Cody's arms. She looked saddened by it. Even grieved. She shook her head and went back to to us with a clear voice. "But that doesn't matter. You all need to get out of here before he gets here."
"Who's he?" Geralt asked with both curious and nerving tone in his voice. Her eyes are widened in fear. An expression I never thought she could do and feel about. "Cain. He's coming here and you all need to get out of here."
I've heard about Cain before. You might know this story from a book. It's about 2 brothers, sons of Adam and Eve. Abel being the most favored man of god, while Cain being the least favorite and jealous. Cain killed his brother out of jealousy. God is not happy about this and he casted him away with a curse. He's just a man. Maybe who she was saying was someone who is also named Cain.
"How are we supposed to get out?" Said Cody.
"I can help you get out. We just need to go outside and find the pool of clean water. But, it'll be far away, so we need to hurry up." She walked passed us quickly in a hurry. Billy was going to ask but I lay his shoulders, giving him a metaphor of saying no. Of course, he grunted from that. Rishika gave a face wash to Geralt. He gladly takes it and wipes his mouth and stained jacket.
We followed her through the hallways of the darkness. Our torches lighted brightly around the darkness. I was behind the woman whose guiding us to the exit. I haven't thought of asking her name. For someone like her, she should have. The voids blood doesn't seem to affect her mind but I don't think that's really the case.
The image of her blue eyes makes me recollect the memories of my long distant past. I still don't understand. How could she be so familiar to me, even know my name. We never met each other and we're from different worlds. Either it could be she had mind reading powers or just a simple guess. "Thanks for saving us back there. What's your name."
"My name's..." She looked unsure as to what to say or even know her name. I think she was hiding her true identity which I can understand that. Hiding your own identity from other people is a good way to keep yourself safe. But you needed to plan and design your own disguise. You need to come up with a story that doesn't give confusion or any cracks for people to get suspicious. Famous people like movie stars or scientist or anybody related to that stuff mostly do this to avoid getting attention.
With a warm and calm voice, she answered. "My name is Enid."
"Sounds good. Why did you save us? How are you still in control of yourself?"
"I saved you because I wanted to save you all. I was never the kind of hero or something but I still have the heart to save you all. And I'm losing a bit of my strength holding myself together. Everyday, I have to eat the creatures here. You've encountered them before. If I don't eat them, I'm going to turn into them. Turn into the void. But the more I eat, the closer I'm going to turn myself in. I'm glad you guys are safe, but I feel bad to see your friend die. Sorry that I'm too late to save all of you in one piece."
"Yeah. Wished he had enough time for you to arrive. He was a brave and cool friend to have a part of the team. He's always telling stories about greek gods and mythologies. He's a boxer too. I think he would consider you to be one of us."
"Really?"
"Yeah, of course. He kinda sometimes look scary to me in the night but he's a really good man." Geralt joins with us with a nervous look on his face. His eyes are tired as ours but they're wide enough for us to see his shining eyes. Enid returned smile on her face, but it faded away quickly in a short amount of time.
We finally left the building safely with her guidance. The bright shining sky brightens around us. Giving us the comfort of our safety. But still, we grieved the death of Ronald. Billy grieved the most out of everyone else. He kept muttering all over and over while we were following Enid. His mutterings, from what I can hear are apologize. "Billy. It's not your fault. I think he knew as well."
"No it is. I kept saying mean and horrible things to many of you but mostly it's on him. I just wanted him to think I'm strong and all. I'm lost Darwin. And I shouldn't have said those awful things. All I want was to show you all that I'm strong. But look at me. I'm bloody weak and I can't do anything to protect you all. All I can do is to just stand still and spout bullshit."
He began sobbing so terribly that it shocks me to my core. His face turning red and he fell to his knees, unable to stand back up. We all stopped to try to at least give him the comfort we wanted give him. We've never seen him in such a state like this. Throughout our times together, he always acts like a jerk but now he's crying right in front of us. I didn't know what else to do except to sit down next to him. Ronald's body is now pale in Cody's arms. His eyes were shut.
"I know how it feels, Billy." Rishika, already knelt down in front of Billy, said with a warm tone in her voice. This has got to be the 3rd or 4th time I've heard her say a full sentence. Either way, it was encouraging. Billy doesn't seem to be able to reply. None of us does. "I used to be harsh and cruel to others because I wanted them to accept me. But I was wrong because that's not how it works. We can both change together. It's ok to be on your good side. It won't be too bad. I think Ronald would like that too."
"Look at me. Do I look like I can?"
"We all can. It's just how we grow in life."
"I don't know. Ronald's dead and I'm left to be the one who carries his death on my back. I don't think he'll ever forgive me."
"No. We don't know that. But what matters is that you move on instead of staying behind. I know it's hard but you have to if you want to change. It's ok to be scared. We're all scared."
"Yeah. Even me too. I get scared a few times but that doesn't mean that others will look down on me." Geralt stutters a bit in his voice but kept the strength to say those words.
"Same here. Even that I'm this, I'm still scared too." Enid joins in with a sad look on her face. For someone like her, I thought she never felt fear. I guess there are others like her can feel that way.
I wanted to tell him something too. Something that feels connecting to each other that I don't want him to be left alone. "You don't have to do this alone. I'm scared too and that's alright because that's human. We can help you Billy. You're our friend. And I think Ronald would consider you as a friend too."
Billy wipes his tears away with his sleeve. We all sat there for a few seconds before Cody lays his hand on his shoulder, which makes Billy hug him back. "It's ok. We're here." Ronald's body lay on the boulder 5 feet away from us. Cody reaches his arms as a gesture for us to join in. We all did. So is Enid. I didn't think anything else but to be on Billy's side.
Suddenly, our moment was interrupted by a thunderous noise came out of nowhere. Enid's eyes are widened in terror. The world around us shook from the thunder. In the sky, the small clouds started to turn from grey to the color of blood. Enid jumps right up, catching a look above as we all stare into the sky. What I saw gave me enough imagination to fear whatever the unknown has.
Large gigantic shining eyes watch over the world below us from the sky. Its pupils are too big that they nearly reached the edge of their sockets. The grin of that thing gave me enough horror to freeze in my tracks. How nightmarish it is to see a gigantic abomination such as this in the morning and night. People would definitely scream and run all over the place while the cloud's face watches over them like a eldritch god.
By the time I stepped back, it turned its menacing eyes towards me. I felt like it was staring into my soul. My very soul in my body. Its own saliva dripping from its mouth. Hungry for our souls. It didn't move nor spoke a word. Thunderous noises kept coming from the abomination. They were red lightning and menacing. If people get hit by them, I'm pretty sure they'll turn into whatever nightmarish flesh creature they'll turn into.
"Guys! We have to go! There's not much time!" Edin ran and so we followed. Cody picked up Ronald's body with us. Billy gained back his strength to run. And I slowly started to run as I kept staring at its menacing eyes. It doesn't leave me alone. I don't see it following me or do anything than to smile with evil intentions. This is different than the ones we encountered. Not because of their looks. It's because I knew its intentions and the void creatures, I don't.
A great thunderous red beam shot out from the abomination's mouth and a loud boom can be heard far away from us. The sound snapped me out and I began to run as fast as I can, trying to keep up the pace of my friends and Enid.
Nothing else happened as we run to our exit. The thunderous noises kept booming around us as the clouds above slowly turned into blood red. A drop of rain hit my forehead. I touched it with my finger tip and saw blood. The rain is full of blood. I nearly slipped to the ground but my jacket was caught by Geralt. "Don't worry Darwin! I got you!" He pulled me up and ran.
The feeling of getting closer to something crept inside my chest that I began to feel the sensation of hope. Hope is said to be for the weak but I say otherwise. Hope may be a blind way to believe in something but sometimes it can be true to which we reach to something we can achieve.
Enid stopped in her tracks. There, right in front of us, was a pool of clean water. It doesn't make sense. It's raining blood and there, at the pool, it's clean. Droplets of blood dripped into the pool, then faded away into the clean water. We were shocked to see the pool to be clean in the middle of a shower of blood. The atmosphere suddenly turned red. Dark red flames started emerging around the world. It's everywhere and I can hear the distant screams behind me. The screams are hard for me to explain. They're like mixed with many variety of species all together into a rhyme of symphony.
I turned around to see something dark falling from the sky above into the ground like a falling star. The world shakes beneath us. I knelt down to get balance as I kept watching the falling darkness land onto the world. Far away, a dark silhouette rises from the ground. It looked to be tall. I could guess it's 4 feet taller than us. My eyes can't see clearly due to the silhouette being too far away. More of them began to rise as more fell from the abomination.
I turned myself around, nearly losing my balance. Cody held Rishika by the arm and Billy knelt beside Geralt. Enid reached her hands out into the pool. Sparks of bright light emitted from her arms, spreading light around her. The pool began to slowly swirl into a vortex as the sparks of light began to increase. The harsh blow of the wind hits us, making me fall to the ground.
Then, a bolt of light sparked into life in Enid's grip. The bolt was so bright that I shielded my eyes from it. It's so that I won't get blinded by the light. I looked back to see that something is walking towards us from far away of our tracks. I don't know if it's just me hallucinating or if it's really real. I think I can hear laughter. A humane laughter. It's like it came from a demon king. The dark silhouettes at the sky fly around with their wings.
Their wings are of a bat and their body was humanoid and blood red. Their mouths are menacingly enough to make me push myself away from it as far as I can. It shrieks so loudly that I can hear it from that distance. It began to fly towards us and its claws like a hawks are ready to grab one of us to feast on. I stood back up as the world turned still. I pulled out my hammer, ready to defend myself from it.
The demon nearly scratched my face before a bullet teared through the side of its brain. I turned my head to see Rishika, already wielding her sniper rifle. "I got you." She turned around and shot another bullet at another demon.
I heard a crushing noise coming from Cody. He slams his club right at a demons head, exploding it on impact. The demon wore an armor set of dark stones that could come from hell itself. It was carrying a blade that shines pure diamond. Geralt penetrating his spear at the demons chest, electrocuting it from a high voltage. "Holy shit! This is crazy!" A shout came from his voice. A voice of panic.
I turned around when I felt something was approaching me. There was a demon with 4 arms and held a large hammer, bigger than the one I wielded. Its face full of hatred that Its eyes glared into my soul. I quickly swung my hammer by the time it swings its own at me. Our hammers clashes together, making a loud slam around us. It swung again but I jumped away from its heavy blow. It's the good thing we had those boots. They're able to give us enough push to jump twice higher than the original person can.
I then swung my hammer directly at its face. I made impact as its face tears apart from the slam of my hammer. A crunching sound can be heard from its skull. Its head exploded into a pool of blood with scattered flesh and bones.
I landed on my feet and watched the world turned into the new hell as dark flames emitted everywhere around the buildings and the ground. More demons are rushing towards us in a pack. So many of them with many horrifying different forms. My body is shaking from the fear I had in me. I nearly dropped my hammer as sweat begins to appear on my hands. I bumped my back as I stepped behind. Geralt, Rishika, Cody, and myself are close together with our weapons in hand. They're all sweating with fear on their faces. There's too many of them for us to take them down. "Come on! Let's show those freaks what we're made of!" Shouted Geralt. By the times we raised our weapons and the demons now 10 feet away from us, a bright blue flame blazes the demons. They scream in pain and hatred as they slowly melted into a sludge of fried flesh.
"I'm not going to let those bloody fuckers take you all away from me!" Billy's face is mixed with fear and anger. Feeling very glad that he joined us. If not for him, we would be brutally killed by the horrifying demons. Then, a loud burst of water and electricity emerged from behind us. Enid faces us with wide eyes. "Get in now!"
"Will it take us home!?" Geralt asks with a panic in his voice. I can see the sweat pouring down on Enid's face as she stares back at us in a hurry. "No but it'll take you somewhere safe! Somewhere you can start a new life!"
Cody, with Ronald's body in his arms, is the first to get in the portal. By the time he jumps into the portal in the pool, a flash of blue energy can be seen emerging out of it. Then goes for Geralt. He was scared at first as he cowers back. "Will I be hurt if I fall?"
"Don't worry. You'll be fine." And so, he jumps in and flashes of light emerges out.
Then goes for Billy. He looked back at Enid for a moment before he jumps into the portal.
Lastly, Rishika stops near the edges of the pool. She turned around to see Enid with a hurried look on her face but also with relief. "Thank you Eddie." Then she jumps into the portal.
Did I just heard her right? Did she just said my lost friend's name. "What did she just say?"
She looked at me with a sad look in her blue eye. I felt a connection between us, as if we've known each other. I don't understand. Why would Rishika say his name. Enid is a woman to say the least or she's really something else. A sudden memory flashed before my eyes.
I remembered the time Eddie shape shifted into the Ice cream man. It was a time when we were young. We both got the ice cream we wanted just for free without anyone noticing. It was funny but also worrying because we could get caught. But that never happened and still felt funny every time I remember that day.
"Eddie? You're Eddie." She nodded in reply. A gesture of yes. Then, right in front of my eyes, she formed into a grown up version of Eddie. The Eddie I remembered. My heart felt shocked as to what I've just learned. I ran to her and hugged her deeply than I could've ever done. We both hugged for a moment until she gently pushes me off. Tears started to appear beneath my eyes. I don't know what I was feeling but what I can say was joy. "Why didn't you tell me?"
"Because I knew you would drag me with you If I tell you. You have to understand that I have to stay here. This is where I belong and I'm too dangerous to be with you."
"But we can figure things out together! We can go back to hanging out with each other! Play video games! Explore the world! Everything!"
"No Darwin. We can't. I'm a part of the void and I'm slowly losing myself. My left part of my face is nearly turning into the void."
"But we can fix that! We just need to find the answers to how we can get you better! I can't! I don't want to lose you again! I-"
"Darwin!" A shout came from his voice. I stopped with chills freezing behind my back. He looked at me in the eye with sadness. "I can't go back. I'm sorry I was never there for you when you graduated. I'm sorry for never waiting for you outside of school. I'm sorry for everything we could've done but we haven't! I have to save you. Even if it costs me my life. I don't want to lose you either. You have to go Darwin. There's nothing that can change my mind."
I thought I could finally bring him back. To do the things we've never have yet done. Here and now, this is our last time together. This is our last time to see each other again. He protected me wherever I go here. He saved me in order for me to live. I can't let him die here. I don't want him to be gone from me.
I hugged him tightly, not wanting to let go. Tears dripped down from his eyes and onto my head. I can feel the pain in my chest starting to rise but I didn't let go. "I'm sorry Darwin. You have to let me go. You can choose. I won't stop you."
He's right. I can't keep him with me. Throughout my life I wanted to see him again. Every night, I look out the window to see if he's there but there's no one but cars and houses. I can't keep doing this. I really have to let go. Tears pours rapidly beneath my eyes. I let go and wiped the tears from my face. "I guess this is a goodbye then."
A sad smile plastered on his face. The world around us slowly turned into darkness. The kind of darkness in hell. "It is Darwin. I'm so happy to see you again."
"Well oh well!! Look at what we have here!" A very modern European accent voice of a man emerged from the world before us. We turned to see a man with a worn off brown coat. His hat looked to be as old as the ancient times. And his face. His face made my stomach turn. Bandages wrapped around his face, except for his terrifying grin. His teeth rotten to the very core of his rotten body. I stepped behind Eddie with the hammer in my hands. The man grins much wider than I anticipated.
"You must be wondering. Who am I? Well. I'm the one and only, Cain. You might've heard me from a very recognizable book. Also, I'm afraid you two are coming with me. We have a lot to discuss and a ton of things to do together." With that, he started laughing like a total maniac. His herds of demons followed with a laugh.
"Goodbye Darwin." Eddie suddenly pushes me off into the bright blue vortex that'll be my exit. I took one last glimpse of Eddie standing before Cain. As I fell into the portal, I can hear the echoing laughter of Cain and his demons. I screamed out for Eddie but my voice was out of reach.
Then, I landed on my back on the ground. The portal disappeared before me. I quickly stood back up and reached to where the portal had opened. It was gone. I looked around to see that I'm on a hill. The dark blue night sky displayed above me with the stars shining above. My mind racing with thoughts and fear. Witnessing Eddie being alone to fight against the evil we are meant to escape from. I screamed into the sky as tears rapidly starts to appear. I fell to my knees onto the grass floor and slam my hands at the ground as I wept. I kept screaming and sobbing until I was too exhausted that I fell to the ground. I heard footsteps before me. There were many.
My body being picked up by Billy in the arm as he carries me with him. "Darwin. What happened?"
The only words I can say now were."He's gone."
It's been 2 years since we left that world. The world we now stand upon was nearly the same as ours. What I mean by nearly was that there are strange phenomenons happening nearly every month. A girl who can turn into a form of a robot and killed a cancerous beast in Queensland. A military war criminal who considers killing the supernatural as a job. Even the real life wendigo sightings are on the news papers. Still though, the place is still good in the morning. Except in the night, there are sometimes threats we don't know in the dark.
We built a team together, even gather some new friends along the way. Rishika grew to be more expressive and a lot more kinder to us. The time we killed a literal Bigfoot, she gave me a fist bump. Gave me a chuckle and a smile on my face.
Billy was getting better everyday. He responds to us with kind words than insults like before. After Cody had buried Ronald's body in a proper, he said his words of goodbye to him and gave him the picture he secretly held with him. It was a picture of us hanging out in a movie place. It's heart warming and depressing to witness what he did there.
Cody went off to work as a psychologist. He's still with us. It's just that he wanted to help people's mental health issues. He did really well on that one and he even gave us some advice for a change. I wouldn't consider mostly on his advice but some I can really try. That's also where he met the girl who can turn into a robot. We've met after the news broke out about an incident of a wild destruction at Queensland. Forgot to mention, we're at Australia. Just to let you all know where we are.
Finally, Geralt took pictures everywhere we go and writes down in his diary. The reason he does this is that we're in another world and thought he could take pictures of them and reflect on them. Sometimes we even got to have a photograph of us in the middle of the good times. He said it was to keep memories of our times together. A frame with a picture of literally us huddled together in a bright sunny day in Canberra.
Me? I was building a portal device, for me to teleport to different worlds. It's going to take a long time for me yes. Been building other things lately with Rishika too. Weaponry, gadgets, devices, and fixing stuff. I stuck around with my friends and we've made a great team. Made new friends along the way and learnt many things too.
2 years ago, after my moment of grief, I woke up from my exhausted moment to see my friends standing before me with a relief on their faces. I nearly cried by the picture of that moment. After that, we both watched tv together in my new bedroom inside of a hotel room. After Rishika finds a new home for us, we moved out to Melbourne Victoria as a new place of our home. We moved in to a farm house where there is a larger basement for us to do our stuff. We knew we had to get a job at this point, so we did what we can to find one. It's a good thing there's a city nearby.
Rishika, Geralt, Billy, and I took the job as being a part of an investigation of the paranormal. That's how we managed to meet up with a bunch of new friends.
I missed Eddie. I wished he could come with me and didn't have to die. But, I learnt that I can't drag him with me. He wanted to stay there. I can understand that. I know he's gone already. It's hard to let go. But sometimes we have to. To live out our lives well. I have to look forward. To better myself through experience.
This is my message to you. My readers.
You better to stay where you are now. Don't go to other universes. Because maybe, you'll end up in the most horrifying places you never want to go.
2023.05.28 15:15 shortyafter A Celebration of Life.
People settle. I obviously can't say that about everyone, some people don't, and I like to believe that most people are doing the best that they can. But I think most people live life half-heartedly. Just going through the motions. Reading through the "script", saying their lines, until the curtain draws. It's no wonder that society is so miserable (ie: depression, anxiety, alcoholism, drug addiction, suicide, mass murder, etc.)
The thing is, at the end of the day, to live this way is a choice. It's true that the information is scarce, nobody is taught to respect life from a young age. School doesn't teach it. Parents don't teach it because they don't know it. Society doesn't teach it. The mental health field doesn't teach it. Religion most certainly doesn't teach it. It's almost entirely absent from all domains: secular and religious, public and private. That means a young human being must go in search of it.
I suppose, in part, that's healthy. If there were no search involved, it wouldn't be authentic. Every single one of us must make peace with life on our own, there's no getting around it, unless you decide not to make peace with it at all (and die by suicide, whether the overt one or the more common slow 'rot til you die' approach). On the other hand, though, it's reflective of the fact that our society is so fearful. This is why I cannot take the whole mental health / therapy / psychology field seriously: none of them talk about the simple fact that we are all facing an existential crisis - a crisis about what it means to be alive. The problem is not mental, it's spiritual, and it's about our views on life and how we relate to the world. The society would rather live in ignorance and pretend these questions don't exist rather than confront them. Because to confront them can be very terrifying. The truth about life is not comfortable.
In short, the information is scarce. But even so, it is still a choice to to live this way at the end of the day. There's the old proverb (I have no idea from where) that says "when the student is ready, the master appears". That's because, at the end of the day the biggest block isn't the scarcity of the information, it's our own resistance to the truth. Once you are ready to open your eyes, surely you'll start finding things that resonate. And that's the thing: the external information only serves as confirmation for what you already knew to be true inside of you. I think we all know these deeper truths on some level, that's why people will go to war and kill and die for their beliefs - it's the ultimate form of "compensating" for something, something which they know to be false.
It's odd to me, because there seems to be a sort of war on truth. The new New Age belief seems to be that there is no objective truth at all, which makes no sense, because in that case they wouldn't even be able to make case for that point. We all know deep down that some things are more true than others. I'm a fan of humility, and I'm fine with admitting that "all I know is I know nothing". But that doesn't mean I'm going to eat my cereal with poison instead of milk tomorrow morning.
It's no wonder, then, that "rationalists" or whatever you want to call them hate the whole New Age think. I don't consider myself New Age. I don't consider myself anything, really, but I understand that there's some overlap with what I talk about and spirituality. I'm OK with that. What "rationalists" miss, however, is the mystery of the whole thing. It cannot be entirely understood (even if I know enough to know I would rather eat my cereal with milk - I still cannot explain to you why I like my favorite cereal).
People settle.
The truth is, as far as I have been able to see, that your life is up to you. Certainly some people have it worse than others, and I'm not disputing that. It's not my business to go to some starving kid in a third world country and say "Hey bud your life is up to you". That's ridiculous. On the other hand, however, any of us who are fortunate enough to be on a website like this most likely have the tools to be able to do something cool with their life. And I always cite the example of Viktor Frankl, a Jewish psychologist who was imprisoned in a Nazi labor camp. He said that he was free to choose his attitude despite that horrific situation, and if he can do it in those circumstances, I'm not sure that any of us have an excuse, either. (Not to say he was jumping for joy in a concentration camp, but he did choose to hold out hope, and he survived. I was criticized for talking about this once on Facebook - I soon learned this was not the best platform for my writing.)
If you've read any of my stuff, you know I like to mix more broader-based truths, as I see them, with more personal details. I think it helps illustrate my points, and I also like talking about it. It's part of my whole "enjoyment of life" thing.
I recently wrote a post about how "the material is good", speaking about my music but also my message. Today's post will be similar. Yesterday I got together with my band to talk about our new repertoire going forward. I write the vast majority of music though I do appreciate the contributions they make and also don't consider them replaceable. Anyway, we met at my house and I showed them 10-12 songs that I like for our band going forward: some quite old (10-15 years), some intermediate (3-5 years), and some recent (from 1 week to 1 year ago). They liked 9 of them and the other 3 were a maybe.
Like I said, I've had some of these songs for 10-15 years. Some of them I've had the privilege of playing live, but only a couple of times, but the vast majority no. I remember when I was 22 years old it was my dream to make a living with this music... I really feel like I had a message there. One year later, in AA, I would share in a meeting and flagellate myself by saying that "me and my best bud had a message, what it was, I don't know" - and everybody laughed (this was one thing that drove me away from AA, despite me remaining sober for 9.5 years as of writing: the self-condemnation). But that was wrong. I, we (my best friend and I) did have a message. I just didn't know exactly what it was.
Now I know, as much as I can put it into words, I suppose. Life sucked for me. Yeah, I was materially well-off, just like Eric Harris and Dylan Klebold. But like them, particularly like Dylan, I found no joy in life. No meaning. I did not feel accepted. Girls did not seem to like me. I can relate deeply to Dylan in that sense. My life sucked - money was not enough for me. But rock and roll, man, that made me feel alive. I could share my emotions, I could play and sing and dance, I could get my aggression out, and hey... girls took notice of me. I had never seen girls pay attention to me like after they did when I got up on stage. It was wild.
I would never say I did it or do it only for girls. I had one guy tell me that one time, and hey, at least he was honest. But that wasn't my case. Still, it was a nice side benefit. I think they were attracted to the same thing I was: that feeling of being alive.
Me and my best bud used to say "rock is life", half-jokingly, but actually in a serious sense, too. I think I coined this term, but I can't be sure, and in fairness we discovered what rock and roll meant together. He was the Eric to my Dylan. Luckily we didn't blow anybody's brains out. Anyway, if I recall correctly, it was because I wanted that feeling of rock, being up on stage, to apply to my entire life. Not just being on stage. All of my life was my stage. Thus, "rock is life". And I very distinctly remember part of it being unapologetic.
Just a quick note, for those who don't know me, that I don't glorify Harris and Klebold. The only reason I'm talking about them at all is because I've recently been doing a dive into the Columbine shooting because I'm fascinated by what could drive two kids to do something that horrific. The most interesting part, to me, is that Dylan and Eric weren't all that different from me and my friends. In fact, I think they actually had some valid grievances about life and about society (though not valid enough to justify what they did). I believe what I am doing is rooted in something similar to what they felt, but my conclusion about the course of action is the exact opposite: not the destruction of life, but rather, the celebration. In all of its facets - including the ugly.
In AA they called it "living life on life's terms". That's what I learned to do. At 22 years old, in the midst of my rock and roll dream, I had to get sober. I hit a guy on a bike in a drunk driving "accident" that was obviously my fault. Thank God he was okay, and I didn't run or anything, I made sure he was OK and I got arrested after confessing. Soon after I got sober, and I've been sober ever since. I'm very grateful to that - but I had to give up on my rock and roll dream.
Or that's what I thought, at least. I had no idea that 10 years later I'd be given the opportunity to play these songs again, for audiences that enjoy and appreciate my music. And why? Why me? Firstly, it's a gift. A gift from "God", if you will, or from life (I don't actually believe in a deity). I'm good at making music. It comes naturally to me. Where I come into is that I never gave up on myself or my music. Well, I sort of did at the beginning of sobriety, but even that was a great example of not giving up on myself. Deep down I think I knew that more important than the songs was the message behind them - I mean, in the way I choose to live my life. So while I was perhaps wrong to think that my music was not important, I never gave up on myself, and eventually that lead me to rediscovering my music a few years later. And here we are now.
I've fought for it. Getting into a band was sort of by chance, but configuring things in such a way that made sense has been a fight. We had a drummer who didn't like to play original music, only covers. We argued, and eventually he made the decision to leave without getting sacked. I told him I understood and we parted with a hug, no hard feelings. We had a bass player, a great guy and still my friend, who is a true musician and gets paid to play in cover bands and stuff. He always viewed our project as secondary. We had to cut him, too. And then there was a keyboardist who didn't fit our groove. We cut him, too.
In a way, it was all my brainchild. The rhythm guitarist is perhaps my best friend here overseas (by the way, 1 year into sobriety I moved overseas to help find myself). I told him to pick up a bass. The new drummer was on the same page as he and I in terms of the music we wanted to make. I proposed we do a power trio. And that's what we did. And people here are loving it.
If you look at the accomplishments themselves, they're not actually that impressive. Just a few local shows and one small show outside of town. But there's something about the reception we're getting. It's not only positive, like, "hey, I liked your band". People genuinely seem to be enjoying our music and giving praise that goes beyond what is expected in order to be nice / friendly. It's an amazing feeling, and confirmation of what I think I knew to be true 10 years ago: my music is good, and life is worth it. I think the fact that I've continued fighting for 10 years just makes the message even stronger - I never gave up, even through the bad times.
All of this is to say that I never imagined I would be here today. Maybe this sounds like an Oscar award speech or something, which is ridiculous given the "minimal" achievements my band and I have had. But to me they're not minimal. Again, it's not necessarily about the material success, but rather the spiritual success of knowing that I took a stand somewhere and contributed something valuable to the world. And had a lot of fun along the way, too. That's worth more than gold (and who doesn't love gold?)
I couldn't write a whole post about my life without mentioning the girl I like right now. Man, I'm very attracted to her, and I "love" her, whatever that means. Maybe it's ridiculous since I hardly know her, but I think about her a lot, and I'd like to get to know her more. If you're reading this, no, it's not the girl I met on Reddit, though I am fond of that girl, too, and wouldn't mind hearing from her again. But yeah, the girl in real life is great.
It's weird. As much as I'd like to get her in bed or whatever (it'd be fun), it's almost like I just want to be discovered or something. I feel there's a lot going on with me, and I'm eager to share it with the world. I think it's valuable. Of course, she is dealing with her own issues, so it's best to go slow. I'm OK with being patient, she's worth it. (I wouldn't mind getting to know her, either.)
I think what I never understood with love was that it's just a plus, not the main event. People say this all the time, but it's difficult to digest when you're lonely. It's true though. You have to make your own life the main event. IMO that doesn't mean "create a great social life, go to clubs, go to the gym" and all these other material milestones that people create. Nah. For me, it's a more spiritual question. What do you want your life to be about? Figure that out then embark on the journey. Love is a wonderful stop on that journey. No movie or story would be complete without it, right? Well, life wouldn't be, either.
Anyway, all of this is to say that life is worth it. It's a lot of bullshit sometimes. The day-to-day can be grueling, even if you're lucky like me and have a job that you somewhat enjoy. And then you've got to clean the house, pay taxes, deal with people's dysfunction (including your own)... it's hard! But it's like I said earlier, life is what you make of it. That's my whole message. It's really extremely simple. Simple, but not easy, I guess. But I guess I just decided that I was going to give it a try (more than once, actually), and I'm really, really glad I did.
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The thing is, at the end of the day, to live this way is a choice. It's true that the information is scarce, nobody is taught to respect life from a young age. School doesn't teach it. Parents don't teach it because they don't know it. Society doesn't teach it. The mental health field doesn't teach it. Religion most certainly doesn't teach it. It's almost entirely absent from all domains: secular and religious, public and private. That means a young human being must go in search of it.
I suppose, in part, that's healthy. If there were no search involved, it wouldn't be authentic. Every single one of us must make peace with life on our own, there's no getting around it, unless you decide not to make peace with it at all (and die by suicide, whether the overt one or the more common slow 'rot til you die' approach). On the other hand, though, it's reflective of the fact that our society is so fearful. This is why I cannot take the whole mental health / therapy / psychology field seriously: none of them talk about the simple fact that we are all facing an existential crisis - a crisis about what it means to be alive. The problem is not mental, it's spiritual, and it's about our views on life and how we relate to the world. The society would rather live in ignorance and pretend these questions don't exist rather than confront them. Because to confront them can be very terrifying. The truth about life is not comfortable.
In short, the information is scarce. But even so, it is still a choice to to live this way at the end of the day. There's the old proverb (I have no idea from where) that says "when the student is ready, the master appears". That's because, at the end of the day the biggest block isn't the scarcity of the information, it's our own resistance to the truth. Once you are ready to open your eyes, surely you'll start finding things that resonate. And that's the thing: the external information only serves as confirmation for what you already knew to be true inside of you. I think we all know these deeper truths on some level, that's why people will go to war and kill and die for their beliefs - it's the ultimate form of "compensating" for something, something which they know to be false.
It's odd to me, because there seems to be a sort of war on truth. The new New Age belief seems to be that there is no objective truth at all, which makes no sense, because in that case they wouldn't even be able to make case for that point. We all know deep down that some things are more true than others. I'm a fan of humility, and I'm fine with admitting that "all I know is I know nothing". But that doesn't mean I'm going to eat my cereal with poison instead of milk tomorrow morning.
It's no wonder, then, that "rationalists" or whatever you want to call them hate the whole New Age think. I don't consider myself New Age. I don't consider myself anything, really, but I understand that there's some overlap with what I talk about and spirituality. I'm OK with that. What "rationalists" miss, however, is the mystery of the whole thing. It cannot be entirely understood (even if I know enough to know I would rather eat my cereal with milk - I still cannot explain to you why I like my favorite cereal).
People settle.
The truth is, as far as I have been able to see, that your life is up to you. Certainly some people have it worse than others, and I'm not disputing that. It's not my business to go to some starving kid in a third world country and say "Hey bud your life is up to you". That's ridiculous. On the other hand, however, any of us who are fortunate enough to be on a website like this most likely have the tools to be able to do something cool with their life. And I always cite the example of Viktor Frankl, a Jewish psychologist who was imprisoned in a Nazi labor camp. He said that he was free to choose his attitude despite that horrific situation, and if he can do it in those circumstances, I'm not sure that any of us have an excuse, either. (Not to say he was jumping for joy in a concentration camp, but he did choose to hold out hope, and he survived. I was criticized for talking about this once on Facebook - I soon learned this was not the best platform for my writing.)
If you've read any of my stuff, you know I like to mix more broader-based truths, as I see them, with more personal details. I think it helps illustrate my points, and I also like talking about it. It's part of my whole "enjoyment of life" thing.
I recently wrote a post about how "the material is good", speaking about my music but also my message. Today's post will be similar. Yesterday I got together with my band to talk about our new repertoire going forward. I write the vast majority of music though I do appreciate the contributions they make and also don't consider them replaceable. Anyway, we met at my house and I showed them 10-12 songs that I like for our band going forward: some quite old (10-15 years), some intermediate (3-5 years), and some recent (from 1 week to 1 year ago). They liked 9 of them and the other 3 were a maybe.
Like I said, I've had some of these songs for 10-15 years. Some of them I've had the privilege of playing live, but only a couple of times, but the vast majority no. I remember when I was 22 years old it was my dream to make a living with this music... I really feel like I had a message there. One year later, in AA, I would share in a meeting and flagellate myself by saying that "me and my best bud had a message, what it was, I don't know" - and everybody laughed (this was one thing that drove me away from AA, despite me remaining sober for 9.5 years as of writing: the self-condemnation). But that was wrong. I, we (my best friend and I) did have a message. I just didn't know exactly what it was.
Now I know, as much as I can put it into words, I suppose. Life sucked for me. Yeah, I was materially well-off, just like Eric Harris and Dylan Klebold. But like them, particularly like Dylan, I found no joy in life. No meaning. I did not feel accepted. Girls did not seem to like me. I can relate deeply to Dylan in that sense. My life sucked - money was not enough for me. But rock and roll, man, that made me feel alive. I could share my emotions, I could play and sing and dance, I could get my aggression out, and hey... girls took notice of me. I had never seen girls pay attention to me like after they did when I got up on stage. It was wild.
I would never say I did it or do it only for girls. I had one guy tell me that one time, and hey, at least he was honest. But that wasn't my case. Still, it was a nice side benefit. I think they were attracted to the same thing I was: that feeling of being alive.
Me and my best bud used to say "rock is life", half-jokingly, but actually in a serious sense, too. I think I coined this term, but I can't be sure, and in fairness we discovered what rock and roll meant together. He was the Eric to my Dylan. Luckily we didn't blow anybody's brains out. Anyway, if I recall correctly, it was because I wanted that feeling of rock, being up on stage, to apply to my entire life. Not just being on stage. All of my life was my stage. Thus, "rock is life". And I very distinctly remember part of it being unapologetic.
Just a quick note, for those who don't know me, that I don't glorify Harris and Klebold. The only reason I'm talking about them at all is because I've recently been doing a dive into the Columbine shooting because I'm fascinated by what could drive two kids to do something that horrific. The most interesting part, to me, is that Dylan and Eric weren't all that different from me and my friends. In fact, I think they actually had some valid grievances about life and about society (though not valid enough to justify what they did). I believe what I am doing is rooted in something similar to what they felt, but my conclusion about the course of action is the exact opposite: not the destruction of life, but rather, the celebration. In all of its facets - including the ugly.
In AA they called it "living life on life's terms". That's what I learned to do. At 22 years old, in the midst of my rock and roll dream, I had to get sober. I hit a guy on a bike in a drunk driving "accident" that was obviously my fault. Thank God he was okay, and I didn't run or anything, I made sure he was OK and I got arrested after confessing. Soon after I got sober, and I've been sober ever since. I'm very grateful to that - but I had to give up on my rock and roll dream.
Or that's what I thought, at least. I had no idea that 10 years later I'd be given the opportunity to play these songs again, for audiences that enjoy and appreciate my music. And why? Why me? Firstly, it's a gift. A gift from "God", if you will, or from life (I don't actually believe in a deity). I'm good at making music. It comes naturally to me. Where I come into is that I never gave up on myself or my music. Well, I sort of did at the beginning of sobriety, but even that was a great example of not giving up on myself. Deep down I think I knew that more important than the songs was the message behind them - I mean, in the way I choose to live my life. So while I was perhaps wrong to think that my music was not important, I never gave up on myself, and eventually that lead me to rediscovering my music a few years later. And here we are now.
I've fought for it. Getting into a band was sort of by chance, but configuring things in such a way that made sense has been a fight. We had a drummer who didn't like to play original music, only covers. We argued, and eventually he made the decision to leave without getting sacked. I told him I understood and we parted with a hug, no hard feelings. We had a bass player, a great guy and still my friend, who is a true musician and gets paid to play in cover bands and stuff. He always viewed our project as secondary. We had to cut him, too. And then there was a keyboardist who didn't fit our groove. We cut him, too.
In a way, it was all my brainchild. The rhythm guitarist is perhaps my best friend here overseas (by the way, 1 year into sobriety I moved overseas to help find myself). I told him to pick up a bass. The new drummer was on the same page as he and I in terms of the music we wanted to make. I proposed we do a power trio. And that's what we did. And people here are loving it.
If you look at the accomplishments themselves, they're not actually that impressive. Just a few local shows and one small show outside of town. But there's something about the reception we're getting. It's not only positive, like, "hey, I liked your band". People genuinely seem to be enjoying our music and giving praise that goes beyond what is expected in order to be nice / friendly. It's an amazing feeling, and confirmation of what I think I knew to be true 10 years ago: my music is good, and life is worth it. I think the fact that I've continued fighting for 10 years just makes the message even stronger - I never gave up, even through the bad times.
All of this is to say that I never imagined I would be here today. Maybe this sounds like an Oscar award speech or something, which is ridiculous given the "minimal" achievements my band and I have had. But to me they're not minimal. Again, it's not necessarily about the material success, but rather the spiritual success of knowing that I took a stand somewhere and contributed something valuable to the world. And had a lot of fun along the way, too. That's worth more than gold (and who doesn't love gold?)
I couldn't write a whole post about my life without mentioning the girl I like right now. Man, I'm very attracted to her, and I "love" her, whatever that means. Maybe it's ridiculous since I hardly know her, but I think about her a lot, and I'd like to get to know her more. If you're reading this, no, it's not the girl I met on Reddit, though I am fond of that girl, too, and wouldn't mind hearing from her again. But yeah, the girl in real life is great.
It's weird. As much as I'd like to get her in bed or whatever (it'd be fun), it's almost like I just want to be discovered or something. I feel there's a lot going on with me, and I'm eager to share it with the world. I think it's valuable. Of course, she is dealing with her own issues, so it's best to go slow. I'm OK with being patient, she's worth it. (I wouldn't mind getting to know her, either.)
I think what I never understood with love was that it's just a plus, not the main event. People say this all the time, but it's difficult to digest when you're lonely. It's true though. You have to make your own life the main event. IMO that doesn't mean "create a great social life, go to clubs, go to the gym" and all these other material milestones that people create. Nah. For me, it's a more spiritual question. What do you want your life to be about? Figure that out then embark on the journey. Love is a wonderful stop on that journey. No movie or story would be complete without it, right? Well, life wouldn't be, either.
Anyway, all of this is to say that life is worth it. It's a lot of bullshit sometimes. The day-to-day can be grueling, even if you're lucky like me and have a job that you somewhat enjoy. And then you've got to clean the house, pay taxes, deal with people's dysfunction (including your own)... it's hard! But it's like I said earlier, life is what you make of it. That's my whole message. It's really extremely simple. Simple, but not easy, I guess. But I guess I just decided that I was going to give it a try (more than once, actually), and I'm really, really glad I did.
2023.05.28 15:15 mer029 i overthink everything i do or say in work
I'm an overthinker, and I do things stupidly, here are some examples:
1- "there is a manager at work, i don't know if he knows what i do but one day he came and ask me if i went to XX and i said yeah i did, he then said "what did you learn?" and i was like "i mean it's XX" implying that its very easy task to do and his question was very strange, he then said "how did you do it?" and i replied "fine i guess" it was a mistake because i freaked out because i didn't play dumb at first and it makes our interaction weird, he then said do the next thing it will be great and i said yeah i will thank you"
2-"same manager, i send him something i saw in a document and he came by and procceded to teach me how it is done, i told him "yeah i know that" and he then answered my question, it was a mistake i should played dumb and like i didn't know anything"
and many many interactions between us are very awkward, he will talk to me as like i don't know anything and i'm dumb infront of him.
now I'm freaking out, I believe he hates me and think I'm very weird and someone not respectifull and this is not what i meant by my replies I just hate when people understimate me and i freak out easly
he always like to make jokes (light ones) at me and I feel that's why I feel ok to be kind of stright forward with him. he one time told me "if you don't know this then you failed here" and i laughed and said "noooo" and i actually didn't know and he told me how it is done, so i guess i failed lol but the question do you think i'm awkward and i should be more nice? i was rude? +if i want to make that i know something clear how can i say it better way?
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1- "there is a manager at work, i don't know if he knows what i do but one day he came and ask me if i went to XX and i said yeah i did, he then said "what did you learn?" and i was like "i mean it's XX" implying that its very easy task to do and his question was very strange, he then said "how did you do it?" and i replied "fine i guess" it was a mistake because i freaked out because i didn't play dumb at first and it makes our interaction weird, he then said do the next thing it will be great and i said yeah i will thank you"
2-"same manager, i send him something i saw in a document and he came by and procceded to teach me how it is done, i told him "yeah i know that" and he then answered my question, it was a mistake i should played dumb and like i didn't know anything"
and many many interactions between us are very awkward, he will talk to me as like i don't know anything and i'm dumb infront of him.
now I'm freaking out, I believe he hates me and think I'm very weird and someone not respectifull and this is not what i meant by my replies I just hate when people understimate me and i freak out easly
he always like to make jokes (light ones) at me and I feel that's why I feel ok to be kind of stright forward with him. he one time told me "if you don't know this then you failed here" and i laughed and said "noooo" and i actually didn't know and he told me how it is done, so i guess i failed lol but the question do you think i'm awkward and i should be more nice? i was rude? +if i want to make that i know something clear how can i say it better way?
2023.05.28 15:15 AsteroidSnowsuit How would you handle this "Excel" like project?
Hi!
I am building a calculator for a business.
To put it simply, they were using a Excel sheet for calculating things. However, since this was distributed as an Excel sheet, people were constantly messing things up and ruining the formulas. It was a lot of time spent with the users trying to fix the mess they made.
They asked me to make this Excel sheet as a web app. Obviously, make it more flexible and easy to use.
However, I have a hard time figuring out how to handle the formula calculations.
At this moment, here is what I have:
I would love to have that for my other components, but:
How would you achieve that?
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I am building a calculator for a business.
To put it simply, they were using a Excel sheet for calculating things. However, since this was distributed as an Excel sheet, people were constantly messing things up and ruining the formulas. It was a lot of time spent with the users trying to fix the mess they made.
They asked me to make this Excel sheet as a web app. Obviously, make it more flexible and easy to use.
However, I have a hard time figuring out how to handle the formula calculations.
At this moment, here is what I have:
- A "form" object that contains the values of the data inputted.
- For the results cells (like sum of a line, sum of the table, etc.), I calculate it on the fly.
- Everything is calculated multiple time. So I calculate the total of the row. But for the total of all rows, I recalculate the total each time for each rows.
- It's hard to maintain (there are a lot of functions in my "helper" file, since everything is reused across multiple components).
I would love to have that for my other components, but:
- Let's say I calculate my Loan interests rate. I put it in a Loan class. But now, if I have a form field that has "Settings" inside of it and it influences the interest calculation, how would the Loan use the "Settings" without having to pass the "Settings" for every Loan object.
- If the data is dependent on other rows (ex: I want to calculate the total of X by adding A and B and substracting C and D). How would that work? Would I have to pass all the data A B C D to my "Loan" object to calculate it.
How would you achieve that?
2023.05.28 15:15 Powerful_Stretch_619 I am currently working on "confessing" to my crush, where am I exactly?
It's been a whole year since I've had this "crush" if I can call it like that. Because I'm pretty sure it's a lot more than that.
My best friend, has a cousin, that quite "matches" with me I believe, he's very okay with me trying ever since I asked him, and he's even helping me in someway, but I'm lost.
It all started in march, where I finally asked my best friend if it was okay if I tried to start something with her. I couldn't do it if he said no, due to ethics but fortunately, he said yes. I'm 17, High School is pretty much over, and I don't see her much after school, but I'm pretty sure that all the green flags of a potential crush are ticked. We're not that close, but I'm still trying to find some ideas to get closer to her, and now that school is over, I have less and less windows to try anything new.
She's very sweet actually, she likes hugging me a lot, we do spend quite some time together (at school at least) and I'm trying to expand that a bit further, to make it daily. All I know, is that I'm currently stuck trying to go forward, but I can't get enough sleep to actually get my brain functional. I managed to get a rendez-vous (a very lucky occasion actually), to go watch a movie with her, but she couldn't go unfortunately, now I don't have any other solution to actually try and get to know her better outside of school.
Could someone guide me on where am I actually ? Because I clearly have no clue what I'm doing. Feel free to ask for more details, I could talk about this for hours if needed.
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My best friend, has a cousin, that quite "matches" with me I believe, he's very okay with me trying ever since I asked him, and he's even helping me in someway, but I'm lost.
It all started in march, where I finally asked my best friend if it was okay if I tried to start something with her. I couldn't do it if he said no, due to ethics but fortunately, he said yes. I'm 17, High School is pretty much over, and I don't see her much after school, but I'm pretty sure that all the green flags of a potential crush are ticked. We're not that close, but I'm still trying to find some ideas to get closer to her, and now that school is over, I have less and less windows to try anything new.
She's very sweet actually, she likes hugging me a lot, we do spend quite some time together (at school at least) and I'm trying to expand that a bit further, to make it daily. All I know, is that I'm currently stuck trying to go forward, but I can't get enough sleep to actually get my brain functional. I managed to get a rendez-vous (a very lucky occasion actually), to go watch a movie with her, but she couldn't go unfortunately, now I don't have any other solution to actually try and get to know her better outside of school.
Could someone guide me on where am I actually ? Because I clearly have no clue what I'm doing. Feel free to ask for more details, I could talk about this for hours if needed.
2023.05.28 15:15 qeqe1213 For Octopath Traveler 3, would you guys want multiple endings not just path?
In OT2, we got some kind of choice for which town you should go first. Like for Temenos, you can tackle Stormhail first, then go to Crackridge or viceversa or Ochette where you can tackle the highest level Creatures of Legends first before taking on the weakests one even though it makes more sense plotwise to go for the weakest level first then to strongest one.
For OT3, do you guys different ending BASED on your path decision? For example, let's take a Merchant, some people here wanted a more darker take on Merchant, as in makes them a slave trader or drug dealer but was forced into it. How about this?
This is my take of potential dark Merchant in OT3, this is a scenario the crux of Merchant's story, the illness of their one & only child. The Merchant was told that there's one and ONLY way to saves merchant's sole child, and that is through this miracle drug, but it's not an easy money. It might take 9000000000 leaf to buy that drug. The merchant at first decided to go darker way decided to be in slave trading, but over time it still has not enough money.
However one chance in their slave trading business for example, let's say one of the slave he hadd, said something "I can give you where the miracle drug exists for free, ONLY if you free me."
This is the moment, where the Merchant must decided, trust or distrust that slave. And based on this point, the ending will have diverged, and the final boss for each paths are different, and will give out different ending pictures based on your decision to trust/distrust that slave.
Or let's say a male dancer. Being a capoeira whose culture and ethnic identity was repressed by the state and their people was considered a slave, truth is there are multiple way for slave to rebel. But in an ideal world, isnt it better for everyone to say kumbaya my lord where everyone decided to hold their hands together in peace?
Well the capoeira can either resolves their slave situation by rebelling against the state with weapon and hard power, blood will be shed but the slave will be freed from the colonial rule of the state
Or gather enough supports from the non-slave citizens of the state to at least stop the slavery system that persecutes their ethnic group by holding cultural dance showcase and inspiring alongside teaching non-slave citizens that slavery is not good. Make the citizens themselves goes against the state with the help of the slaves.
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For OT3, do you guys different ending BASED on your path decision? For example, let's take a Merchant, some people here wanted a more darker take on Merchant, as in makes them a slave trader or drug dealer but was forced into it. How about this?
This is my take of potential dark Merchant in OT3, this is a scenario the crux of Merchant's story, the illness of their one & only child. The Merchant was told that there's one and ONLY way to saves merchant's sole child, and that is through this miracle drug, but it's not an easy money. It might take 9000000000 leaf to buy that drug. The merchant at first decided to go darker way decided to be in slave trading, but over time it still has not enough money.
However one chance in their slave trading business for example, let's say one of the slave he hadd, said something "I can give you where the miracle drug exists for free, ONLY if you free me."
This is the moment, where the Merchant must decided, trust or distrust that slave. And based on this point, the ending will have diverged, and the final boss for each paths are different, and will give out different ending pictures based on your decision to trust/distrust that slave.
Or let's say a male dancer. Being a capoeira whose culture and ethnic identity was repressed by the state and their people was considered a slave, truth is there are multiple way for slave to rebel. But in an ideal world, isnt it better for everyone to say kumbaya my lord where everyone decided to hold their hands together in peace?
Well the capoeira can either resolves their slave situation by rebelling against the state with weapon and hard power, blood will be shed but the slave will be freed from the colonial rule of the state
Or gather enough supports from the non-slave citizens of the state to at least stop the slavery system that persecutes their ethnic group by holding cultural dance showcase and inspiring alongside teaching non-slave citizens that slavery is not good. Make the citizens themselves goes against the state with the help of the slaves.
2023.05.28 15:15 borii0066 I'm bored
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2023.05.28 15:15 Amyao4 Need advice on how to avoid conflict with neighbours
We moved in approximately 6 months ago. Neighbours have been friendly and approachable so far. We have a cat and now the weather is getting better he has started going outside and exploring more. Next door but one neighbour mentioned cat peeing in their garden and asked if we could do anything about it. We advised we obviously can’t control where the cat roams but we fully understand how annoying this can be so we gave full permission for them to scare/chase/even a quick spray with the hose to keep the cat away from the garden. All still very friendly. Fast forward a month or so and they installed what looked like one of those mosquito noise emitter things. We couldn’t hear it, my husband noticed it when taking the bins out (we have to go through the neighbours garden to do this) so we were not all that fussed. However the last few days they have either purchased a new one, or turned it up as there is a very high pitched sort of ringing coming from their garden every 10-30 seconds. It’s absolutely ear ringing and is making it impossible to spend any time in the garden. We can hear it from our front living room and the only way we don’t is if we have all the windows closed. How do we approach them about this? We want to keep it as friendly as possible and we fully appreciate they want to keep the cat away from their garden, and we are willing to help as much as we can with this, but the noise is antisocial and quite frankly feels a bit aggressive.
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2023.05.28 15:14 CountCorndog Who do you want to see in the finale tonight?
Is there anyone that you haven’t seen in a while that you’d love to see tonight? For me, it’s Laird. I’ve been doing a rewatch and forgot how much I loved him. And I wanna hear that deep velvety voice.
Good luck tonight everyone. Rooting for my #1 boy Kendall (and my First Lady Willa).
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Good luck tonight everyone. Rooting for my #1 boy Kendall (and my First Lady Willa).
2023.05.28 15:14 Dankuser2020 The New Republic’s fleet would have never been destroyed at Hosnian Prime (and what the hell happened to the planetary defense forces)
This is pretty self explanatory.
Unless your navy is really small (and I mean really really small) in our own world it will never be in one location in its entirety. That’s because you use your navy to defend your waters or project power, and generally you want to do more of that than do that in one location. Besides, your entire fleet being on deployment is another thing that will probably not happen. Ships always need maintenance or they will be deployed somewhere doing some mission.
Now let’s go back to the Star Wars galaxy. I could underhand a planetary security force only being on one planet or in one system as that is their only area of jurisdiction. But it’s the New Republic Navy that is supposed to defend the entire New Republic and if that is the mission, putting the entire fleet in orbit of Hosnian Prime simply doesn’t make any form of sense. You would need ships patrolling in other planets and system not to mention that other ships would be under refit or maintenance on shipyards, which probably wouldn’t happen at Hosnian Prime as we don’t know about significant shipyards there.
Simply, this doesn’t make sense, even explaining the fact that the New Republic doesn’t have much of a navy after the whole stupid disarmament.
Now if you wanted to eliminate the Republic and it’s fleet, you could just have the First Order attack all of their other fleets at the same time as Starkiller is being fired. Now I don’t think that would take care of all of the Republic Fleet, but it could cause major damage to a force that isn’t that big to begin with. If there were some story covering these survivors you might have a really cool story.
Also speaking of all of this, most of the Republic’s military power is supposed to come from the planetary defense forces which if combined would probably be far larger than the New Republic’s fleet.
Where the hell are they?
Now I’m sure that a decent number of systems decided to leave the Republic and seek a seperate peace woth the First Order or surrender or do something else like that. Or they may be trying to protect their homeworld. But wouldn’t they also rally around whatever remained of the Republic and try to fight back?
Maybe I should stop asking these questions about the sequals as i don’t think a lot of thought was put into this or the sequels in general. I know that a lot of people critizrd the prequels for being politics heavy but you know what, it certainly added depth to universe.
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Unless your navy is really small (and I mean really really small) in our own world it will never be in one location in its entirety. That’s because you use your navy to defend your waters or project power, and generally you want to do more of that than do that in one location. Besides, your entire fleet being on deployment is another thing that will probably not happen. Ships always need maintenance or they will be deployed somewhere doing some mission.
Now let’s go back to the Star Wars galaxy. I could underhand a planetary security force only being on one planet or in one system as that is their only area of jurisdiction. But it’s the New Republic Navy that is supposed to defend the entire New Republic and if that is the mission, putting the entire fleet in orbit of Hosnian Prime simply doesn’t make any form of sense. You would need ships patrolling in other planets and system not to mention that other ships would be under refit or maintenance on shipyards, which probably wouldn’t happen at Hosnian Prime as we don’t know about significant shipyards there.
Simply, this doesn’t make sense, even explaining the fact that the New Republic doesn’t have much of a navy after the whole stupid disarmament.
Now if you wanted to eliminate the Republic and it’s fleet, you could just have the First Order attack all of their other fleets at the same time as Starkiller is being fired. Now I don’t think that would take care of all of the Republic Fleet, but it could cause major damage to a force that isn’t that big to begin with. If there were some story covering these survivors you might have a really cool story.
Also speaking of all of this, most of the Republic’s military power is supposed to come from the planetary defense forces which if combined would probably be far larger than the New Republic’s fleet.
Where the hell are they?
Now I’m sure that a decent number of systems decided to leave the Republic and seek a seperate peace woth the First Order or surrender or do something else like that. Or they may be trying to protect their homeworld. But wouldn’t they also rally around whatever remained of the Republic and try to fight back?
Maybe I should stop asking these questions about the sequals as i don’t think a lot of thought was put into this or the sequels in general. I know that a lot of people critizrd the prequels for being politics heavy but you know what, it certainly added depth to universe.
2023.05.28 15:13 Rebel-Renegade Daily Reflections - Sunday - 5/28/23
EQUAL RIGHTS
May 28
At one time or another most A.A. groups go on rule-making benders. . . After a time fear and intolerance subside. [and we realize] We do not wish to deny anyone his chance to recover from alcoholism. We wish to be just as inclusive as we can, never exclusive.
"A.A. TRADITION: HOW IT DEVELOPED," pp. 10, 11, 12
A.A. offered me complete freedom and accepted me into the Fellowship for myself. Membership did not depend upon conformity, financial success or education and I am so grateful for that. I often ask myself if I extend the same equality to others or if I deny them the freedom to be different. Today I try to replace my fear and intolerance with faith, patience, love and acceptance. I can bring these strengths to my A.A. group, my home and my office. I make an effort to bring my positive attitude everywhere that I go.
I have neither the right, nor the responsibility, to judge others. Depending on my attitude I can view newcomers to A.A., family members and friends as menaces or as teachers. When I think of some of my past judgments, it is clear how my self-righteousness caused me spiritual harm.
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May 28
At one time or another most A.A. groups go on rule-making benders. . . After a time fear and intolerance subside. [and we realize] We do not wish to deny anyone his chance to recover from alcoholism. We wish to be just as inclusive as we can, never exclusive.
"A.A. TRADITION: HOW IT DEVELOPED," pp. 10, 11, 12
A.A. offered me complete freedom and accepted me into the Fellowship for myself. Membership did not depend upon conformity, financial success or education and I am so grateful for that. I often ask myself if I extend the same equality to others or if I deny them the freedom to be different. Today I try to replace my fear and intolerance with faith, patience, love and acceptance. I can bring these strengths to my A.A. group, my home and my office. I make an effort to bring my positive attitude everywhere that I go.
I have neither the right, nor the responsibility, to judge others. Depending on my attitude I can view newcomers to A.A., family members and friends as menaces or as teachers. When I think of some of my past judgments, it is clear how my self-righteousness caused me spiritual harm.
2023.05.28 15:13 AbbeySouth44 Talent and Fittes (Repost with new title)
I’m reposting this with a new title because the last one had a spoiler in the title.
Anyway this was the original post and the comments:
I don’t think Lucy ever lost her Talent. Also I have a question about Marissa Fittes.
Eternity with the skull? Would Lucy be glad or hate it? Lol
Also in what order do you think the 4 main characters lost their Talent and what age? For me I think Holly would lose hers first, George would lose his maybe the next year and Lockwood might keep his a bit longer than most people. If Lucy does lose hers then I think she’ll lose it a lot later than most people. What do you think?
And how come in The Empty Grave Marissa Fittes can still speak to Ezekiel. Was her spirit THAT young? Or was her Talent just insane? If her Talent was just that good then maybe Lucy could keep hers. Also btw I would love it if none of them ever lost their Talents.
Comments:
Lex1253 • 5h Book Reader Your order for the team losing their Talent is spot-on. It's weird to think, but if there's still a need for Agencies after The Problem is resolved Lockwood & Co. certainly will not be a part of it. They're Agents in their prime, and it's only down from here... Personally, I think Marissa is kind of a special case. She's technically speaking a spirit, so it makes sense she can interact with other spirits.
mionenoelle • 1h The books imply people with exceptional Talent can keep them longer. Case in point being Sir Rupert Graves. I assume Marissa did too. Lucy and maybe Lockwood might keep theirs into adulthood. But even if none of the team does, they can always use tools like the goggles or other gadgets from the Orpheus Society. Barnes will be mass producing those for sure. I think there will be adult agents in the future because of these gadgets.
Stmpnksarwall • 1h Didn't they imply in the books that part of why Marissa and Sir Rupert were able to keep theirs was because they were crossing into the other side occasionally?
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Anyway this was the original post and the comments:
I don’t think Lucy ever lost her Talent. Also I have a question about Marissa Fittes.
Eternity with the skull? Would Lucy be glad or hate it? Lol
Also in what order do you think the 4 main characters lost their Talent and what age? For me I think Holly would lose hers first, George would lose his maybe the next year and Lockwood might keep his a bit longer than most people. If Lucy does lose hers then I think she’ll lose it a lot later than most people. What do you think?
And how come in The Empty Grave Marissa Fittes can still speak to Ezekiel. Was her spirit THAT young? Or was her Talent just insane? If her Talent was just that good then maybe Lucy could keep hers. Also btw I would love it if none of them ever lost their Talents.
Comments:
Lex1253 • 5h Book Reader Your order for the team losing their Talent is spot-on. It's weird to think, but if there's still a need for Agencies after The Problem is resolved Lockwood & Co. certainly will not be a part of it. They're Agents in their prime, and it's only down from here... Personally, I think Marissa is kind of a special case. She's technically speaking a spirit, so it makes sense she can interact with other spirits.
mionenoelle • 1h The books imply people with exceptional Talent can keep them longer. Case in point being Sir Rupert Graves. I assume Marissa did too. Lucy and maybe Lockwood might keep theirs into adulthood. But even if none of the team does, they can always use tools like the goggles or other gadgets from the Orpheus Society. Barnes will be mass producing those for sure. I think there will be adult agents in the future because of these gadgets.
Stmpnksarwall • 1h Didn't they imply in the books that part of why Marissa and Sir Rupert were able to keep theirs was because they were crossing into the other side occasionally?
2023.05.28 15:13 Amodestmousefan Specific tool custom columns
I'm not sure if im using this right as I am new to digital takeoff but I am trying to do takeoff for drywall and framing.
I'm using Poly Length tool to measure for studs, and a poly length tool to measure for drywall.
I've created a custom column for stud count, and one for sheet count.
When i am making markups for studs it adds data into the sheet count column on that wall, and when im making markups for drywall it gives me a stud count, is there a way to set tools to only input info into certain custom columns?
So when i use my drywall tool it will only use the custom column for sheet count, and when I use my framing tool it will only input data into the stud count and not the sheet count column?
It just looks super messy when i export it like this so im trying to figure out how to separate it.. Do i just save different takeoffs in different documents ?
I have separate tools for frt blocking to and when i make my markups for that its also doing a stud count and adding to the sheetcount.. how do i separate these things?
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I'm using Poly Length tool to measure for studs, and a poly length tool to measure for drywall.
I've created a custom column for stud count, and one for sheet count.
When i am making markups for studs it adds data into the sheet count column on that wall, and when im making markups for drywall it gives me a stud count, is there a way to set tools to only input info into certain custom columns?
So when i use my drywall tool it will only use the custom column for sheet count, and when I use my framing tool it will only input data into the stud count and not the sheet count column?
It just looks super messy when i export it like this so im trying to figure out how to separate it.. Do i just save different takeoffs in different documents ?
I have separate tools for frt blocking to and when i make my markups for that its also doing a stud count and adding to the sheetcount.. how do i separate these things?
2023.05.28 15:12 gottaloveagoodbook Asked my dad for space. He never texted back. Uncertain about how I feel.
Warning: Long, TL;DR at end.
I love my dad. He was a great parent. Especially when I was a little kid. He loved to take me and my sibling on adventures. He always listened to my questions like they were the most important questions in the world. He made us breakfast and changed our diapers and told us every day that we were important. He was generous with money, but made sure to never spoil us. He loves to teach us things, even today.
But as soon as I hit puberty, things got tricky. Turns out he loves kids, but isn't so fond of women. Especially when they have different opinions from himself. So when my sib and I grew into opinionated women, the fighting started. We had a long period in my teens and early 20's where all we did was yell in each other's direction and desperately hope that the other person would hear. I tried to actively listen, even when he was making assumptions about my worth, my goals, my health, and my life. But, I must admit, I only successfully listened about 50% of the time. He never did.
When I became an adult and got a place of my own, he started insisting that we meet once a week to touch base and have a nice day out.
So I did. But the success in those outings was always touch and go.
Dad doesn't want to admit he hasn't kept up with his children's interests, so he never wants to plan outings. Don't get me wrong, he wants to have outings with me every week, he just doesn't want to plan them.
After a lot of back and forth, I finally got him to plan every other outing and I would take care of the rest.
I've taken us to world famous food markets, cat cafes, historic cemeteries, art galleries, and regional festivals. The only two outings he has planned in the last three months were going for a walk in a park fifteen minutes from his house and going grocery shopping together.
For a while, I was concerned that maybe I was dragging him to things he doesn't like. But I wouldn't know. Dad has always refused to get a hobby or show a visible interest in any topic. Aside from electronics, which is what he built his career on, I can't tell you a single thing he enjoys on a regular basis.
I know that he has a life of his own, with friends, pets, and a new girlfriend. It's just that he doesn't tell me about any of it. And when he does, it's usually done in a way that makes me upset.
Once, when we were having a nice day out together and had stopped for a meal, he turned to me and told me how glad he was that he had found his current therapist. Because with her help he had realized that it was OK that I had never done anything with my life. He assumed I would take that as a high complement.
All this is frustrating to me. I have told him as such. I've put up basic boundaries with him, like asking him to let me know if he's free to hang out this weekend before the weekend starts so I don't have to schedule a trip and can make plans if he's busy. But even when he respects those boundaries or does what I ask, it all dissolves into a screaming match.
I had texted him on Wednesday if he was free to hang out this weekend.
On Friday he texted back that he could do a walk in the park and lunch in a restaurant. (He knows, but hates, the fact that I'm still masking in public.)
I swallowed my pride. I didn't mention that I have been begging him to plan something other than a walk and food for years.
I told him that we could do that if we got the food to-go and could make it an early picnic lunch in a special park that I've been talking about for months - about 40 minutes away from his house.
He said that was too far away. Maybe next week. Or the week after that.
Now his girlfriend is staying with him this week. She was going to come with us. She has her elderly dog with her, and they're both protective of his safety in public. But I made sure the park was dog-friendly (dogs could be on the property, even though there was no allocated space for them) and I checked to make sure that we were going to go when the park wasn't busy.
And he knows this.
And still he just blew it off.
And I was upset. And sad. Again.
I vented to Mom, and she told me that if it hurt this much to keep meeting with him, that maybe we should stop doing weekly visits. We should still visit, obviously, but maybe only when there was something we were both excited to do.
That I should gently break this to him, and center the conversation around my feelings, but to say that maybe we should only get together if there was a reason to.
So after an hour of agonized writing, I sent him the text.
And over a day later he hasn't replied.
I don't feel mad, per say. I mean, I was expecting him to lash out and he hasn't.
But instead he has just tossed me aside like an afterthought.
Which I knew he was always capable of, but still.
It feels like I've been pushed off the swings, the air knocked out of me, and I'm not quite sure if this is going to hurt in a second.
TL;DR: I send my father a text telling him that maybe we should cut back on our weekly visits. I do this because he keeps pushing my buttons and each time we do get together is disappointing or painful to me. He never responds to my message.
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I love my dad. He was a great parent. Especially when I was a little kid. He loved to take me and my sibling on adventures. He always listened to my questions like they were the most important questions in the world. He made us breakfast and changed our diapers and told us every day that we were important. He was generous with money, but made sure to never spoil us. He loves to teach us things, even today.
But as soon as I hit puberty, things got tricky. Turns out he loves kids, but isn't so fond of women. Especially when they have different opinions from himself. So when my sib and I grew into opinionated women, the fighting started. We had a long period in my teens and early 20's where all we did was yell in each other's direction and desperately hope that the other person would hear. I tried to actively listen, even when he was making assumptions about my worth, my goals, my health, and my life. But, I must admit, I only successfully listened about 50% of the time. He never did.
When I became an adult and got a place of my own, he started insisting that we meet once a week to touch base and have a nice day out.
So I did. But the success in those outings was always touch and go.
Dad doesn't want to admit he hasn't kept up with his children's interests, so he never wants to plan outings. Don't get me wrong, he wants to have outings with me every week, he just doesn't want to plan them.
After a lot of back and forth, I finally got him to plan every other outing and I would take care of the rest.
I've taken us to world famous food markets, cat cafes, historic cemeteries, art galleries, and regional festivals. The only two outings he has planned in the last three months were going for a walk in a park fifteen minutes from his house and going grocery shopping together.
For a while, I was concerned that maybe I was dragging him to things he doesn't like. But I wouldn't know. Dad has always refused to get a hobby or show a visible interest in any topic. Aside from electronics, which is what he built his career on, I can't tell you a single thing he enjoys on a regular basis.
I know that he has a life of his own, with friends, pets, and a new girlfriend. It's just that he doesn't tell me about any of it. And when he does, it's usually done in a way that makes me upset.
Once, when we were having a nice day out together and had stopped for a meal, he turned to me and told me how glad he was that he had found his current therapist. Because with her help he had realized that it was OK that I had never done anything with my life. He assumed I would take that as a high complement.
All this is frustrating to me. I have told him as such. I've put up basic boundaries with him, like asking him to let me know if he's free to hang out this weekend before the weekend starts so I don't have to schedule a trip and can make plans if he's busy. But even when he respects those boundaries or does what I ask, it all dissolves into a screaming match.
I had texted him on Wednesday if he was free to hang out this weekend.
On Friday he texted back that he could do a walk in the park and lunch in a restaurant. (He knows, but hates, the fact that I'm still masking in public.)
I swallowed my pride. I didn't mention that I have been begging him to plan something other than a walk and food for years.
I told him that we could do that if we got the food to-go and could make it an early picnic lunch in a special park that I've been talking about for months - about 40 minutes away from his house.
He said that was too far away. Maybe next week. Or the week after that.
Now his girlfriend is staying with him this week. She was going to come with us. She has her elderly dog with her, and they're both protective of his safety in public. But I made sure the park was dog-friendly (dogs could be on the property, even though there was no allocated space for them) and I checked to make sure that we were going to go when the park wasn't busy.
And he knows this.
And still he just blew it off.
And I was upset. And sad. Again.
I vented to Mom, and she told me that if it hurt this much to keep meeting with him, that maybe we should stop doing weekly visits. We should still visit, obviously, but maybe only when there was something we were both excited to do.
That I should gently break this to him, and center the conversation around my feelings, but to say that maybe we should only get together if there was a reason to.
So after an hour of agonized writing, I sent him the text.
And over a day later he hasn't replied.
I don't feel mad, per say. I mean, I was expecting him to lash out and he hasn't.
But instead he has just tossed me aside like an afterthought.
Which I knew he was always capable of, but still.
It feels like I've been pushed off the swings, the air knocked out of me, and I'm not quite sure if this is going to hurt in a second.
TL;DR: I send my father a text telling him that maybe we should cut back on our weekly visits. I do this because he keeps pushing my buttons and each time we do get together is disappointing or painful to me. He never responds to my message.
2023.05.28 15:12 LankyBasket Should I become a BDR again or apply to external AE roles?
Hello folks,Seriously need some advice and would like everyone’s input. Currently a BDR at SFDC/Slack. I have 8 months of BDR from a small startup, then came in as a BDR at Slack (which is now apart of Salesforce). I’ve been here for 1 year and 3 months and have been able to survive multiple rounds of layoffs during my tenure.
I'm not seeing a path for promotion here. It's pretty complicated but my previous manager that left did not prepare as well for promotion here as she did other folks, and as a result I'm a few months behind my peers. Promotion isn’t based on just sales results, but also networking with leaders and doing “projects” that demonstrate leadership. I haven’t done any of those yet and quite frankly I’m not sure I signed for sales to do all that lol. But on the bright-side I’m at SDFC.
I have a new manager that came in. Dude is a super tough guy, loves promoting chicks and talking nicely to them, is super tough on guys for some reason, but somehow likes me so I'm on his good side. However, he can talk pretty condescendingly and he is a little inappropriate. But he is good at providing career advice. So not really sure how this will all pan out. There’s a company called Deel hiring for SDR. Basically the idea is that I could became an SDR again, and hopefully have an easier time getting promoted.
Would you guys recommend that route if I don’t see a path for promotion at my current role? Or would yall recommend staying where I’m at-least the 2 year mark and I don’t get promoted then, find an external AE role?
The reason why the latter makes sense to me is because quite frankly I’m actually good at BDRing lol. I’ve never not hit my quota but people are telling me in this market, it's going to be extremely difficult to get an external AE. I truly want to level up my skill-set. On the other hand, the other job is fully remote so I’m saving time on the commute and its 100k OTE.
Any thoughts?
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I'm not seeing a path for promotion here. It's pretty complicated but my previous manager that left did not prepare as well for promotion here as she did other folks, and as a result I'm a few months behind my peers. Promotion isn’t based on just sales results, but also networking with leaders and doing “projects” that demonstrate leadership. I haven’t done any of those yet and quite frankly I’m not sure I signed for sales to do all that lol. But on the bright-side I’m at SDFC.
I have a new manager that came in. Dude is a super tough guy, loves promoting chicks and talking nicely to them, is super tough on guys for some reason, but somehow likes me so I'm on his good side. However, he can talk pretty condescendingly and he is a little inappropriate. But he is good at providing career advice. So not really sure how this will all pan out. There’s a company called Deel hiring for SDR. Basically the idea is that I could became an SDR again, and hopefully have an easier time getting promoted.
Would you guys recommend that route if I don’t see a path for promotion at my current role? Or would yall recommend staying where I’m at-least the 2 year mark and I don’t get promoted then, find an external AE role?
The reason why the latter makes sense to me is because quite frankly I’m actually good at BDRing lol. I’ve never not hit my quota but people are telling me in this market, it's going to be extremely difficult to get an external AE. I truly want to level up my skill-set. On the other hand, the other job is fully remote so I’m saving time on the commute and its 100k OTE.
Any thoughts?
2023.05.28 15:12 willneverbethemself /fit/ bro cares about his friend ;-;
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2023.05.28 15:12 SolitudeSanctuaries Newbie searching for direction
Hi All, I got diagnosed by my Gynaecologist... funny that! After my initial Platlet count was dismissed as an anomality a year ago. (Hematologist said the tests are too expensive for the chances of me having a MPN).
FFW a year later, my Gynae insisted and tested on 3 diff occasions, with my latest count being 570 (as opposed to 425 a year ago).
Obv he's sending me back now to hematology.
When I asked him how sure he is its that and not something else, he said 100%, as he also tested for anything else that could cause my symptoms and its just a matter of determining which subtype now.
I read up etc, but still have no idea what to expect next.
My initial symptoms were heavy monthly bleeding, severe Anemia and a bunch of others I attributed to stress. (Fainting, nausea, satiety, nightsweats, Vitamin mal-absorption).
Not really sure what my question is. What is the process hereon I guess? I know biopsies, but what else?
With my count going from 420 to almost 600 in a year, what does that mean in terms of progression?
Also, my Gynaecologist says he wouldn't consider treatment until I hit 900. Do you agree?? What did your Dr's say?
I stay in South Africa and I'm not sure where we are in terms of knowledge and treatment opposed to the rest of the world.
Thank you very much!!
submitted by SolitudeSanctuaries to MPN [link] [comments]
FFW a year later, my Gynae insisted and tested on 3 diff occasions, with my latest count being 570 (as opposed to 425 a year ago).
Obv he's sending me back now to hematology.
When I asked him how sure he is its that and not something else, he said 100%, as he also tested for anything else that could cause my symptoms and its just a matter of determining which subtype now.
I read up etc, but still have no idea what to expect next.
My initial symptoms were heavy monthly bleeding, severe Anemia and a bunch of others I attributed to stress. (Fainting, nausea, satiety, nightsweats, Vitamin mal-absorption).
Not really sure what my question is. What is the process hereon I guess? I know biopsies, but what else?
With my count going from 420 to almost 600 in a year, what does that mean in terms of progression?
Also, my Gynaecologist says he wouldn't consider treatment until I hit 900. Do you agree?? What did your Dr's say?
I stay in South Africa and I'm not sure where we are in terms of knowledge and treatment opposed to the rest of the world.
Thank you very much!!
2023.05.28 15:12 Zoliv13 [H] Bundle games from Humble/Fanatical/IG [W] Wishlist/Offers (Update 28/05/2023)
Hello,
I'd like some fair exchange for those, i'm willing to put more than one game against a game i really want, depends on the offer. I could accept Paypal, but that's not my goal (just getting games i'd like to play). I might want to keep something in those lists, i also have some other Humble and Fanatical games i'm not sure i'll play, so they might appear one day (could be money for an exchange if you have something from my wishlist, don't hesitate to ask). I'm from Europe, that might matter for Keys or gift links. Also, i have many games now, and a lot to do yet, so i might be very picky, even for games on my wishlist (it's more a list for interesting games, that i might want in an undetermined future if i have time).
(HB Unrevealed Key = i have it still unrevealed, but will provide a key, considering the Humble view on trading games)
For people living in France, i also have some old games in boxes that i can send by post, ask me if interested.
My IGSRep page
My SGSFlair page
My GameTrade page
My Barter (come to Barter, it's so much better !)
My SteamTrade
*** I have Amazon Prime, so i already have the games that drop there ***
*** Please tell me what you're interested in in my list and don't just drop yours ***
112 Operator (HB Unrevealed Key)
6120 (Indiegala Key)
911 Operator (HB Unrevealed Key)
A Conversation With Mister Rabbit (Indiegala Key)
Alien Cat 2 (Indiegala Key)
Aliens: Fireteam Elite (HB Unrevealed Key)
Alone With You (DIG Key)
AMID EVIL (HB Unrevealed Key)
Arata Haunted Asylum (DIG Key)
Army Men RTS (HB Unrevealed Key)
AWAKE - Definitive Edition (Fanatical Key)
Baba Is You (HB Unrevealed Key)
Backbone (HB Unrevealed Key)
Behind the Frame: The Finest Scenery (HB Unrevealed Key)
BOK-BOK: A Chicken Dating Sim (DIG Key)
Builder Simulator (HB Unrevealed Key)
Click and Slay (Fanatical Key)
Codename Ghost Hunt (DIG Key)
Combat Tested (Fanatical Key)
Conflict Area (DIG Key)
Conflict Area (Indiegala Key)
Cosmonautica (Fanatical Key)
Cris Tales (HB Unrevealed Key)
Dagon - The Eldritch Box DLC (HB Unrevealed Key)
Death Squared (HB Unrevealed Key)
Detached: Non-VR Edition (HB Unrevealed Key)
Dezinsector (Indiegala Key)
Don't Look (DIG Key)
Driftland: The Magic Revival (HB Unrevealed Key)
Duke Nukem Forever: Hail to the Icons Parody Pack (HB Unrevealed Key)
Duke Nukem Forever: The Doctor Who Cloned Me (HB Unrevealed Key)
Explosionade (Fanatical Key)
Fling to the Finish (Fanatical Key)
Flyist (DIG Key)
Forep Man (DIG Key)
Founders' Fortune (HB Unrevealed Key)
Frick, Inc. (HB Unrevealed Key)
Fury Unleashed (HB Unrevealed Key)
GALAXIUM (DIG Key)
GOD's DEATH (DIG Key)
Il Sole e la Luna (DIG Key)
Game of the forgotten Gods. Wake up / Игра забытых Богов. Проснись (DIG Key)
GameGuru (HB Unrevealed Key)
Good puzzle: Castles (Indiegala Key)
Guilty Gear X2 #Reload (HB Unrevealed Key)
Hack 'n' Slash (HB Unrevealed Key)
Harpoon (Indiegala Key)
HoloSprint (DIG Key)
Incandescent (DIG Key)
Intelligence (Indiegala Key)
Izmir: An Independence Simulator (HB Unrevealed Key)
Lemuria: Lost in Space (DIG Key)
Lust from Beyond: M Edition (HB Unrevealed Key)
Mello Haunted House (DIG Key)
Metal Strike (DIG Key)
MirrorMoon EP (HB Unrevealed Key)
Morbid: The Seven Acolytes (HB Unrevealed Key)
NAVALNY: A Nightmare of Corrupt (DIG Key)
Nocked! True Tales of Robin Hood (Indiegala Key)
Not Another Weekend (Indiegala Key)
Omae Wa Mou Shindeiru (Indiegala Key)
Onsen Master (IGN Key)
Orbital Racer (HB Unrevealed Key)
Patriots: Back to Civilization (DIG Key)
Pixross (HB Unrevealed Key)
Planet TD (HB Unrevealed Key)
Quantum Replica (Fanatical Key) x2
Quest: Escape Room (Indiegala Key)
Raccoon: The Orc Invasion (DIG Key)
Railroad Tycoon 3 (HB Unrevealed Key)
Reach the Summit (Indiegala Key)
Remnants of Naezith (HB Unrevealed Key)
Rocky Ride (Indiegala Key)
Runner3 (Fanatical Key - Might Keep)
Serious Sam HD: The Second Encounter - Legend of the Beast DLC (HB Unrevealed Key)
Sid Meier's Railroads! (HB Unrevealed Key)
Sit on bottle (Indiegala Key)
SMIB: Mission Cure (Indiegala Key)
Soul Searching (HB Unrevealed Key)
Soulblight (HB Unrevealed Key)
Space BloX (DIG Key)
Space Crew: Legendary Edition (HB Unrevealed Key)
Spider-Robots War (Indiegala Key)
Spiritfarer®: Farewell Edition (HB Unrevealed Key)
Stacking (HB Unrevealed Key)
STAR WARS Jedi Knight II: Jedi Outcast (HB Unrevealed Key)
STAR WARS: The Force Unleashed Ultimate Sith Edition (HB Unrevealed Key)
StarCrossed (HB Unrevealed Key)
Stick Fight: The Game (HB Unrevealed Key)
Strange Brigade (HB Unrevealed Key)
Sunlight (HB Unrevealed Key)
Supreme Ruler Cold War (Fanatical Key)
Swag and Sorcery (HB Unrevealed Key)
Swords and Soldiers 2 Shawarmageddon (Fanatical Key)
System Shock: Enhanced Edition (HB Unrevealed Key)
System Shock: Enhanced Edition (HB Unrevealed Key)
System Shock 2 (HB Unrevealed Key)
Telefrag VR (HB Unrevealed Key)
Teleglitch: Die More Edition (HB Unrevealed Key)
The Amazing American Circus (HB Unrevealed Key)
The Amazing American Circus (HB Unrevealed Key)
The Big SokoBang (DIG Key)
The Detective Chapters: Part One (DIG Key)
The Governor (DIG Key)
The Inner World (HB Unrevealed Key)
The Invisible Hand (HB Unrevealed Key)
The Life and Suffering of Sir Brante (HB Unrevealed Key)
The Orphan A Tale of An Errant Ghost - Hidden Object Game (DIG Key)
The Watchmaker (Fanatical Key)
The Wild Eight (HB Unrevealed Key)
Thyra Adventure (DIG Key)
Ticket to Ride (HB Unrevealed Key)
Time Lock VR 2 (Indiegala Key)
ToeJam & Earl: Back in the Groove (HB Unrevealed Key)
Townsmen - A Kingdom Rebuilt (HB Unrevealed Key)
Trash Squad (DIG Key)
Tricone Lab (Indiegala Key)
Unexplored (Fanatical Key)
Vanguard Princess (DIG Key)
War Robots: Planet Defender (DIG Key)
What A Trash Game (DIG Key)
Win The Diamond (DIG Key)
Worms Rumble (HB Unrevealed Key)
X-Morph: Defense Complete Pack (HB Unrevealed Key)
XCOM 2 (HB Unrevealed Key)
XCOM: ULTIMATE COLLECTION (HB Unrevealed Key)
Yet Another Hero Story (Indiegala Key)
YOU DON'T KNOW JACK Vol. 2 (HB Unrevealed Key)
Zack 2: Celeste's Map (Indiegala Key)
Zen Cube (DIG Key)
Zombie Claus (Indiegala Key)
Zombie Driver HD Complete Edition (HB Unrevealed Key)
Removed / Banned / Delisted / Purchase Disabled games :
Various offers welcome, i'll browse lists, and most wanted are :
Currently or recently bundled : * ABRISS * Achilles: Legends Untold * AFTERLIFE: KILLING DEATH * ALTF4 * Blade of Darkness * Boneraiser Minions * Brotato * CARRION * Celeste * Deadlink * Dome Keeper * Dread Delusion * Gearshifters * Gone Viral * GRAVEN * HYPER DEMON * Impaler * Just King * LEGO® Star Wars™: The Skywalker Saga * Loot River * Mago * Prince of Persia (various) * Project Warlock II * Rogue: Genesia * Salt and Sanctuary * Sands of Aura * Shantae and the Seven Sirens * The Citadel * Ultratron * ULTRAKILL * Windbound * Zombieland: Double Tap - Road Trip
Bigger or rarer (for a big load of my games) : * Mount & Blade II: Bannerlord * RESIDENT EVIL Village * Hades * Cyberpunk 2077 * ELDEN RING * A Plague Tale: Requiem * Cuphead * GTFO * Marvel's Guardians of the Galaxy * Noita * Choo-Choo Charles * Garry's Mod * Prototype 1 and 2 * Bleak Faith: Forsaken
DLCs : * The Surge The Good, the Bad and the Augmented DLC * The Surge 2 - Season Pass * Vermintide 2 DLCs : Warrior Priest Career - Sister of the Thorn * Borderlands 3 Season Pass 2 * Mortal Shell: The Virtuous Cycle * Rocksmith DLCs * Lego Season Passes (DC Super Villains - Jurassic World - Marvel Super Heroes - Movie - Hobbit - Incredibles - Worlds) * Dead by Daylight DLCs (A Nightmare on Elm Street - Ash vs Evil Dead - Chains of Hate - Charity Case - Curtain Call - Ghost Face - Headcase - LEATHERFACE - Resident Evil Chapter - Silent Hill Chapter - Stranger Things Chapter - The Bloodstained Sack - The Halloween Chapter - The Saw Chapter - Sadako Rising Chapter - Forged in Fog - Resident Evil: PROJECT W)
See here for the rest of my wishlist.
Compare2Steam
+ offers, i'll browse lists, and eventually take Paypal, but i'm more interested in Paypal & TF2, but i'm more interested in games trades
submitted by Zoliv13 to indiegameswap [link] [comments]
I'd like some fair exchange for those, i'm willing to put more than one game against a game i really want, depends on the offer. I could accept Paypal, but that's not my goal (just getting games i'd like to play). I might want to keep something in those lists, i also have some other Humble and Fanatical games i'm not sure i'll play, so they might appear one day (could be money for an exchange if you have something from my wishlist, don't hesitate to ask). I'm from Europe, that might matter for Keys or gift links. Also, i have many games now, and a lot to do yet, so i might be very picky, even for games on my wishlist (it's more a list for interesting games, that i might want in an undetermined future if i have time).
(HB Unrevealed Key = i have it still unrevealed, but will provide a key, considering the Humble view on trading games)
For people living in France, i also have some old games in boxes that i can send by post, ask me if interested.
My IGSRep page
My SGSFlair page
My GameTrade page
My Barter (come to Barter, it's so much better !)
My SteamTrade
*** I have Amazon Prime, so i already have the games that drop there ***
*** Please tell me what you're interested in in my list and don't just drop yours ***
112 Operator (HB Unrevealed Key)
6120 (Indiegala Key)
911 Operator (HB Unrevealed Key)
A Conversation With Mister Rabbit (Indiegala Key)
Alien Cat 2 (Indiegala Key)
Aliens: Fireteam Elite (HB Unrevealed Key)
Alone With You (DIG Key)
AMID EVIL (HB Unrevealed Key)
Arata Haunted Asylum (DIG Key)
Army Men RTS (HB Unrevealed Key)
AWAKE - Definitive Edition (Fanatical Key)
Baba Is You (HB Unrevealed Key)
Backbone (HB Unrevealed Key)
Behind the Frame: The Finest Scenery (HB Unrevealed Key)
BOK-BOK: A Chicken Dating Sim (DIG Key)
Builder Simulator (HB Unrevealed Key)
Click and Slay (Fanatical Key)
Codename Ghost Hunt (DIG Key)
Combat Tested (Fanatical Key)
Conflict Area (DIG Key)
Conflict Area (Indiegala Key)
Cosmonautica (Fanatical Key)
Cris Tales (HB Unrevealed Key)
Dagon - The Eldritch Box DLC (HB Unrevealed Key)
Death Squared (HB Unrevealed Key)
Detached: Non-VR Edition (HB Unrevealed Key)
Dezinsector (Indiegala Key)
Don't Look (DIG Key)
Driftland: The Magic Revival (HB Unrevealed Key)
Duke Nukem Forever: Hail to the Icons Parody Pack (HB Unrevealed Key)
Duke Nukem Forever: The Doctor Who Cloned Me (HB Unrevealed Key)
Explosionade (Fanatical Key)
Fling to the Finish (Fanatical Key)
Flyist (DIG Key)
Forep Man (DIG Key)
Founders' Fortune (HB Unrevealed Key)
Frick, Inc. (HB Unrevealed Key)
Fury Unleashed (HB Unrevealed Key)
GALAXIUM (DIG Key)
GOD's DEATH (DIG Key)
Il Sole e la Luna (DIG Key)
Game of the forgotten Gods. Wake up / Игра забытых Богов. Проснись (DIG Key)
GameGuru (HB Unrevealed Key)
Good puzzle: Castles (Indiegala Key)
Guilty Gear X2 #Reload (HB Unrevealed Key)
Hack 'n' Slash (HB Unrevealed Key)
Harpoon (Indiegala Key)
HoloSprint (DIG Key)
Incandescent (DIG Key)
Intelligence (Indiegala Key)
Izmir: An Independence Simulator (HB Unrevealed Key)
Lemuria: Lost in Space (DIG Key)
Lust from Beyond: M Edition (HB Unrevealed Key)
Mello Haunted House (DIG Key)
Metal Strike (DIG Key)
MirrorMoon EP (HB Unrevealed Key)
Morbid: The Seven Acolytes (HB Unrevealed Key)
NAVALNY: A Nightmare of Corrupt (DIG Key)
Nocked! True Tales of Robin Hood (Indiegala Key)
Not Another Weekend (Indiegala Key)
Omae Wa Mou Shindeiru (Indiegala Key)
Onsen Master (IGN Key)
Orbital Racer (HB Unrevealed Key)
Patriots: Back to Civilization (DIG Key)
Pixross (HB Unrevealed Key)
Planet TD (HB Unrevealed Key)
Quantum Replica (Fanatical Key) x2
Quest: Escape Room (Indiegala Key)
Raccoon: The Orc Invasion (DIG Key)
Railroad Tycoon 3 (HB Unrevealed Key)
Reach the Summit (Indiegala Key)
Remnants of Naezith (HB Unrevealed Key)
Rocky Ride (Indiegala Key)
Runner3 (Fanatical Key - Might Keep)
Serious Sam HD: The Second Encounter - Legend of the Beast DLC (HB Unrevealed Key)
Sid Meier's Railroads! (HB Unrevealed Key)
Sit on bottle (Indiegala Key)
SMIB: Mission Cure (Indiegala Key)
Soul Searching (HB Unrevealed Key)
Soulblight (HB Unrevealed Key)
Space BloX (DIG Key)
Space Crew: Legendary Edition (HB Unrevealed Key)
Spider-Robots War (Indiegala Key)
Spiritfarer®: Farewell Edition (HB Unrevealed Key)
Stacking (HB Unrevealed Key)
STAR WARS Jedi Knight II: Jedi Outcast (HB Unrevealed Key)
STAR WARS: The Force Unleashed Ultimate Sith Edition (HB Unrevealed Key)
StarCrossed (HB Unrevealed Key)
Stick Fight: The Game (HB Unrevealed Key)
Strange Brigade (HB Unrevealed Key)
Sunlight (HB Unrevealed Key)
Supreme Ruler Cold War (Fanatical Key)
Swag and Sorcery (HB Unrevealed Key)
Swords and Soldiers 2 Shawarmageddon (Fanatical Key)
System Shock: Enhanced Edition (HB Unrevealed Key)
System Shock: Enhanced Edition (HB Unrevealed Key)
System Shock 2 (HB Unrevealed Key)
Telefrag VR (HB Unrevealed Key)
Teleglitch: Die More Edition (HB Unrevealed Key)
The Amazing American Circus (HB Unrevealed Key)
The Amazing American Circus (HB Unrevealed Key)
The Big SokoBang (DIG Key)
The Detective Chapters: Part One (DIG Key)
The Governor (DIG Key)
The Inner World (HB Unrevealed Key)
The Invisible Hand (HB Unrevealed Key)
The Life and Suffering of Sir Brante (HB Unrevealed Key)
The Orphan A Tale of An Errant Ghost - Hidden Object Game (DIG Key)
The Watchmaker (Fanatical Key)
The Wild Eight (HB Unrevealed Key)
Thyra Adventure (DIG Key)
Ticket to Ride (HB Unrevealed Key)
Time Lock VR 2 (Indiegala Key)
ToeJam & Earl: Back in the Groove (HB Unrevealed Key)
Townsmen - A Kingdom Rebuilt (HB Unrevealed Key)
Trash Squad (DIG Key)
Tricone Lab (Indiegala Key)
Unexplored (Fanatical Key)
Vanguard Princess (DIG Key)
War Robots: Planet Defender (DIG Key)
What A Trash Game (DIG Key)
Win The Diamond (DIG Key)
Worms Rumble (HB Unrevealed Key)
X-Morph: Defense Complete Pack (HB Unrevealed Key)
XCOM 2 (HB Unrevealed Key)
XCOM: ULTIMATE COLLECTION (HB Unrevealed Key)
Yet Another Hero Story (Indiegala Key)
YOU DON'T KNOW JACK Vol. 2 (HB Unrevealed Key)
Zack 2: Celeste's Map (Indiegala Key)
Zen Cube (DIG Key)
Zombie Claus (Indiegala Key)
Zombie Driver HD Complete Edition (HB Unrevealed Key)
Removed / Banned / Delisted / Purchase Disabled games :
- Afterfall Insanity Extended Edition
- Beast Boxing Turbo
- Betrayer
- Cloud Chamber
- Defenders of Ardania
- Droplitz
- Gettysburg Armored Warfare
- Grind Zones
- Leviathan: Warships
- Magicka: Wizards of the Square Tablet
- Naval War: Arctic Circle
- On The Path
- Quadrant M4
- Quixzel Rush: Pumpkin Bash
- Quixzel Rush: Tooth Protector
- Run Away
- Shadows: Price For Our Sins Bonus Edition
- Sine Mora + Ex
- Star Shield Down
- Trials of The Illuminati: Women of Beauty Jigsaws
- Trials of The Illuminati: Animated Christmas Time Jigsaws
- Two Brothers
- World War 1 Centennial Edition
- ZombieRush
- 1954 Alcatraz
- A New Beginning
- A New Beginning - Final Cut
- A Valley Without Wind
- Alien Spidy
- Aliens versus Predator Classic 2000
- Angvik
- Animals
- Anna - Extended Edition
- AquaNox
- AquaNox 2
- Bad Rats
- Bang Bang Racing
- BATTLETECH
- Beat Hazard
- Beat Hazard Complete
- Bionic Heart
- BlazeRush
- Bunch Of Heroes
- CAPSULE
- Cargo! - The quest for gravity
- Ceville
- Clockwork Survivors
- Commander: Conquest of the Americas
- Commandos 2: Men of Courage
- Commandos 3: Destination Berlin
- Commandos: Behind Enemy Lines
- Commandos: Beyond the Call of Duty
- Company of Crime
- Crash Time 3
- Critical Mass
- Dangerous platform
- Dark Fall: Lost Souls
- Darwinia
- Deadly 30
- Defunct
- Demigod
- Deponia
- DESOLATE
- Disciples II: Galleans Return
- Disciples II: Rise of the Elves
- Dragon Blast DLC
- Drop Hunt - Adventure Puzzle
- Dungeons - The Dark Lord
- Eidolon
- El Matador
- Elite Forces
- Escape From Russia: Mobilization
- Eternal Step
- Ethan: Meteor Hunter Deluxe Edition
- EUIII Chronicles
- Fantasy Wars
- Fated Souls 3
- Fester Mudd - Episode 1
- Figment
- Final Slam 2
- Finding Teddy
- Fireburst
- Flower Shop: Summer In Fairbrook
- Flower Shop: Winter In Fairbrook
- FORCED: Slightly Better Edition
- Future Wars
- Galactic Civilizations I: Ultimate Edition
- Girlfriend Rescue
- Going Under
- Grand Ages Rome
- Grand Ages Rome Gold
- Grav Blazer
- Greed: Black Border
- Grotesque Tactics: Evil Heroes
- Hard Reset Extended Edition
- Heileen 2: The Hands Of Fate
- Hero by Chance
- Holy Avatar vs. Maidens of the Dead
- Holy Potatoes! A Weapon Shop?!
- Home
- Huntsman: The Orphanage
- Imperial Glory
- In Between
- inMomentum
- Ion Assault
- Jets'n'Guns Gold
- Jumping Cat
- Kalaban
- KAMI
- Keebles
- King's Bounty: Armored Princess
- King's Bounty: The Legend
- Kingdom Wars 4 - The Plague: Kingdom Wars
- Knights of Honor
- Konung 2
- Konung 3
- Leisure Suit Larry in the Land of the Lounge Lizards: Reloaded
- Lilly Looking Through
- Little Racers STREET
- M.U.D. TV
- Magicka
- Majesty 2
- Mata Hari
- Megabyte Punch
- Memory Booster
- Men of War: Assault Squad GOTY
- Mind: Path to Thalamus
- Miner Wars 2081
- Multiwinia
- NASCAR '15 Victory Edition
- NASCAR Heat Evolution
- Night Wanderings
- Nordlicht
- Norega Barracks + Academy DLC
- Of Orcs and Men
- Oil Rush Bundle
- One Finger Death Punch 2
- Onikira - Demon Killer
- Overcast - Walden and the Werewolf
- Painkiller Recurring Evil
- Painkiller Redemption
- Painkiller: Black Edition
- Patrician IV
- Patrician IV Gold
- Pirates of Black Cove
- Pixel Heroes: Byte & Magic
- PixelJunk Monsters Ultimate
- Planets Under Attack
- Plush
- Poly Memory: Cats
- Poly Puzzle: Dogs
- Poly Puzzle: Furries
- Poof
- Post Apocalyptic Mayhem
- Praetorians
- Primal Carnage
- Punch Club
- Purgatory: War of the Damned
- Puzzle Art: Cats
- Puzzle Kingdoms
- Quell
- Quell Memento
- Quell Reflect
- R.I.P.D.: The Game
- Race! Beauty! Bugs!
- Razor2: Hidden Skies
- Really Big Sky
- Red Faction Guerrilla Re-Mars-tered + Armageddon Bundle With DLC (Nordic D)
- Red Johnson's Chronicles - 1+2
- Regions of Ruin
- Rise of Flight: Channel Battles Edition
- Runaway, The Dream of the Turtle
- Save the Dodos
- Shank 2
- Simple Builder
- Skilltree Saga
- Sky Mercenaries
- Smalles Class DLC
- Solar Shifter EX
- Space Empires IV Deluxe
- Space Empires V
- Spirited Heart Deluxe
- Square's Route
- Star Ruler
- Star Wolves
- Starsphere
- Steel Storm
- Stoirs VR
- STRIDER
- Stunt Hill
- Suicide Guy
- Swamp Jump
- Switch Galaxy Ultra
- Sword of the Stars Complete Collection
- Terror Time
- The Deed II
- The Deed: Dynasty
- The End of Labyronia: Nerubis
- The God's Chain
- The Joylancer: Legendary Motor Knight
- The King's Crusade - Lionheart
- The Old City: Leviathan
- The Void
- Theatre of War 2: Africa 1943
- Theatre of War: 3 - Korea
- Theatre of War: Centauro
- Theatre of War: Kursk + Caen
- Toby: The Secret Mine
- Trainz Simulator 12
- Trainz Simulator 12 - Coronation Scot DLC
- TRAUMA
- Tropico 3
- Trulon: The Shadow Engine
- Turba
- Twin Sector
- Two Worlds 2
- Two Worlds II Pirate DLC
- UFO Afterlight
- Undefeated
- Uplink
- Us and them
- Valnir Rok
- Vault Cracker
- Vegas: Make It Big
- Velvet Assassin
- Vessel
- Victoria II
- Warrior Kings
- Warriors' Wrath
- Wasteland Angel
- Weable
- Whispering Willows
- Windforge
- Windstorm: Start of a Great Friendship
- Zombie Driver HD Complete Edition
- Zombie Pirates
Various offers welcome, i'll browse lists, and most wanted are :
Currently or recently bundled : * ABRISS * Achilles: Legends Untold * AFTERLIFE: KILLING DEATH * ALTF4 * Blade of Darkness * Boneraiser Minions * Brotato * CARRION * Celeste * Deadlink * Dome Keeper * Dread Delusion * Gearshifters * Gone Viral * GRAVEN * HYPER DEMON * Impaler * Just King * LEGO® Star Wars™: The Skywalker Saga * Loot River * Mago * Prince of Persia (various) * Project Warlock II * Rogue: Genesia * Salt and Sanctuary * Sands of Aura * Shantae and the Seven Sirens * The Citadel * Ultratron * ULTRAKILL * Windbound * Zombieland: Double Tap - Road Trip
Bigger or rarer (for a big load of my games) : * Mount & Blade II: Bannerlord * RESIDENT EVIL Village * Hades * Cyberpunk 2077 * ELDEN RING * A Plague Tale: Requiem * Cuphead * GTFO * Marvel's Guardians of the Galaxy * Noita * Choo-Choo Charles * Garry's Mod * Prototype 1 and 2 * Bleak Faith: Forsaken
DLCs : * The Surge The Good, the Bad and the Augmented DLC * The Surge 2 - Season Pass * Vermintide 2 DLCs : Warrior Priest Career - Sister of the Thorn * Borderlands 3 Season Pass 2 * Mortal Shell: The Virtuous Cycle * Rocksmith DLCs * Lego Season Passes (DC Super Villains - Jurassic World - Marvel Super Heroes - Movie - Hobbit - Incredibles - Worlds) * Dead by Daylight DLCs (A Nightmare on Elm Street - Ash vs Evil Dead - Chains of Hate - Charity Case - Curtain Call - Ghost Face - Headcase - LEATHERFACE - Resident Evil Chapter - Silent Hill Chapter - Stranger Things Chapter - The Bloodstained Sack - The Halloween Chapter - The Saw Chapter - Sadako Rising Chapter - Forged in Fog - Resident Evil: PROJECT W)
See here for the rest of my wishlist.
Compare2Steam
+ offers, i'll browse lists, and eventually take Paypal, but i'm more interested in Paypal & TF2, but i'm more interested in games trades
2023.05.28 15:12 Zoliv13 [H] Bundle games from Humble/Fanatical/IG [W] Wishlist/Offers (Update 28/05/2023)
Hello,
I'd like some fair exchange for those, i'm willing to put more than one game against a game i really want, depends on the offer. I could accept Paypal, but that's not my goal (just getting games i'd like to play). I might want to keep something in those lists, i also have some other Humble and Fanatical games i'm not sure i'll play, so they might appear one day (could be money for an exchange if you have something from my wishlist, don't hesitate to ask). I'm from Europe, that might matter for Keys or gift links. Also, i have many games now, and a lot to do yet, so i might be very picky, even for games on my wishlist (it's more a list for interesting games, that i might want in an undetermined future if i have time).
(HB Unrevealed Key = i have it still unrevealed, but will provide a key, considering the Humble view on trading games)
For people living in France, i also have some old games in boxes that i can send by post, ask me if interested.
My IGSRep page
My SGSFlair page
My GameTrade page
My Barter (come to Barter, it's so much better !)
My SteamTrade
*** I have Amazon Prime, so i already have the games that drop there ***
*** Please tell me what you're interested in in my list and don't just drop yours ***
112 Operator (HB Unrevealed Key)
6120 (Indiegala Key)
911 Operator (HB Unrevealed Key)
A Conversation With Mister Rabbit (Indiegala Key)
Alien Cat 2 (Indiegala Key)
Aliens: Fireteam Elite (HB Unrevealed Key)
Alone With You (DIG Key)
AMID EVIL (HB Unrevealed Key)
Arata Haunted Asylum (DIG Key)
Army Men RTS (HB Unrevealed Key)
AWAKE - Definitive Edition (Fanatical Key)
Baba Is You (HB Unrevealed Key)
Backbone (HB Unrevealed Key)
Behind the Frame: The Finest Scenery (HB Unrevealed Key)
BOK-BOK: A Chicken Dating Sim (DIG Key)
Builder Simulator (HB Unrevealed Key)
Click and Slay (Fanatical Key)
Codename Ghost Hunt (DIG Key)
Combat Tested (Fanatical Key)
Conflict Area (DIG Key)
Conflict Area (Indiegala Key)
Cosmonautica (Fanatical Key)
Cris Tales (HB Unrevealed Key)
Dagon - The Eldritch Box DLC (HB Unrevealed Key)
Death Squared (HB Unrevealed Key)
Detached: Non-VR Edition (HB Unrevealed Key)
Dezinsector (Indiegala Key)
Don't Look (DIG Key)
Driftland: The Magic Revival (HB Unrevealed Key)
Duke Nukem Forever: Hail to the Icons Parody Pack (HB Unrevealed Key)
Duke Nukem Forever: The Doctor Who Cloned Me (HB Unrevealed Key)
Explosionade (Fanatical Key)
Fling to the Finish (Fanatical Key)
Flyist (DIG Key)
Forep Man (DIG Key)
Founders' Fortune (HB Unrevealed Key)
Frick, Inc. (HB Unrevealed Key)
Fury Unleashed (HB Unrevealed Key)
GALAXIUM (DIG Key)
GOD's DEATH (DIG Key)
Il Sole e la Luna (DIG Key)
Game of the forgotten Gods. Wake up / Игра забытых Богов. Проснись (DIG Key)
GameGuru (HB Unrevealed Key)
Good puzzle: Castles (Indiegala Key)
Guilty Gear X2 #Reload (HB Unrevealed Key)
Hack 'n' Slash (HB Unrevealed Key)
Harpoon (Indiegala Key)
HoloSprint (DIG Key)
Incandescent (DIG Key)
Intelligence (Indiegala Key)
Izmir: An Independence Simulator (HB Unrevealed Key)
Lemuria: Lost in Space (DIG Key)
Lust from Beyond: M Edition (HB Unrevealed Key)
Mello Haunted House (DIG Key)
Metal Strike (DIG Key)
MirrorMoon EP (HB Unrevealed Key)
Morbid: The Seven Acolytes (HB Unrevealed Key)
NAVALNY: A Nightmare of Corrupt (DIG Key)
Nocked! True Tales of Robin Hood (Indiegala Key)
Not Another Weekend (Indiegala Key)
Omae Wa Mou Shindeiru (Indiegala Key)
Onsen Master (IGN Key)
Orbital Racer (HB Unrevealed Key)
Patriots: Back to Civilization (DIG Key)
Pixross (HB Unrevealed Key)
Planet TD (HB Unrevealed Key)
Quantum Replica (Fanatical Key) x2
Quest: Escape Room (Indiegala Key)
Raccoon: The Orc Invasion (DIG Key)
Railroad Tycoon 3 (HB Unrevealed Key)
Reach the Summit (Indiegala Key)
Remnants of Naezith (HB Unrevealed Key)
Rocky Ride (Indiegala Key)
Runner3 (Fanatical Key - Might Keep)
Serious Sam HD: The Second Encounter - Legend of the Beast DLC (HB Unrevealed Key)
Sid Meier's Railroads! (HB Unrevealed Key)
Sit on bottle (Indiegala Key)
SMIB: Mission Cure (Indiegala Key)
Soul Searching (HB Unrevealed Key)
Soulblight (HB Unrevealed Key)
Space BloX (DIG Key)
Space Crew: Legendary Edition (HB Unrevealed Key)
Spider-Robots War (Indiegala Key)
Spiritfarer®: Farewell Edition (HB Unrevealed Key)
Stacking (HB Unrevealed Key)
STAR WARS Jedi Knight II: Jedi Outcast (HB Unrevealed Key)
STAR WARS: The Force Unleashed Ultimate Sith Edition (HB Unrevealed Key)
StarCrossed (HB Unrevealed Key)
Stick Fight: The Game (HB Unrevealed Key)
Strange Brigade (HB Unrevealed Key)
Sunlight (HB Unrevealed Key)
Supreme Ruler Cold War (Fanatical Key)
Swag and Sorcery (HB Unrevealed Key)
Swords and Soldiers 2 Shawarmageddon (Fanatical Key)
System Shock: Enhanced Edition (HB Unrevealed Key)
System Shock: Enhanced Edition (HB Unrevealed Key)
System Shock 2 (HB Unrevealed Key)
Telefrag VR (HB Unrevealed Key)
Teleglitch: Die More Edition (HB Unrevealed Key)
The Amazing American Circus (HB Unrevealed Key)
The Amazing American Circus (HB Unrevealed Key)
The Big SokoBang (DIG Key)
The Detective Chapters: Part One (DIG Key)
The Governor (DIG Key)
The Inner World (HB Unrevealed Key)
The Invisible Hand (HB Unrevealed Key)
The Life and Suffering of Sir Brante (HB Unrevealed Key)
The Orphan A Tale of An Errant Ghost - Hidden Object Game (DIG Key)
The Watchmaker (Fanatical Key)
The Wild Eight (HB Unrevealed Key)
Thyra Adventure (DIG Key)
Ticket to Ride (HB Unrevealed Key)
Time Lock VR 2 (Indiegala Key)
ToeJam & Earl: Back in the Groove (HB Unrevealed Key)
Townsmen - A Kingdom Rebuilt (HB Unrevealed Key)
Trash Squad (DIG Key)
Tricone Lab (Indiegala Key)
Unexplored (Fanatical Key)
Vanguard Princess (DIG Key)
War Robots: Planet Defender (DIG Key)
What A Trash Game (DIG Key)
Win The Diamond (DIG Key)
Worms Rumble (HB Unrevealed Key)
X-Morph: Defense Complete Pack (HB Unrevealed Key)
XCOM 2 (HB Unrevealed Key)
XCOM: ULTIMATE COLLECTION (HB Unrevealed Key)
Yet Another Hero Story (Indiegala Key)
YOU DON'T KNOW JACK Vol. 2 (HB Unrevealed Key)
Zack 2: Celeste's Map (Indiegala Key)
Zen Cube (DIG Key)
Zombie Claus (Indiegala Key)
Zombie Driver HD Complete Edition (HB Unrevealed Key)
Removed / Banned / Delisted / Purchase Disabled games :
Various offers welcome, i'll browse lists, and most wanted are :
Currently or recently bundled : * ABRISS * Achilles: Legends Untold * AFTERLIFE: KILLING DEATH * ALTF4 * Blade of Darkness * Boneraiser Minions * Brotato * CARRION * Celeste * Deadlink * Dome Keeper * Dread Delusion * Gearshifters * Gone Viral * GRAVEN * HYPER DEMON * Impaler * Just King * LEGO® Star Wars™: The Skywalker Saga * Loot River * Mago * Prince of Persia (various) * Project Warlock II * Rogue: Genesia * Salt and Sanctuary * Sands of Aura * Shantae and the Seven Sirens * The Citadel * Ultratron * ULTRAKILL * Windbound * Zombieland: Double Tap - Road Trip
Bigger or rarer (for a big load of my games) : * Mount & Blade II: Bannerlord * RESIDENT EVIL Village * Hades * Cyberpunk 2077 * ELDEN RING * A Plague Tale: Requiem * Cuphead * GTFO * Marvel's Guardians of the Galaxy * Noita * Choo-Choo Charles * Garry's Mod * Prototype 1 and 2 * Bleak Faith: Forsaken
DLCs : * The Surge The Good, the Bad and the Augmented DLC * The Surge 2 - Season Pass * Vermintide 2 DLCs : Warrior Priest Career - Sister of the Thorn * Borderlands 3 Season Pass 2 * Mortal Shell: The Virtuous Cycle * Rocksmith DLCs * Lego Season Passes (DC Super Villains - Jurassic World - Marvel Super Heroes - Movie - Hobbit - Incredibles - Worlds) * Dead by Daylight DLCs (A Nightmare on Elm Street - Ash vs Evil Dead - Chains of Hate - Charity Case - Curtain Call - Ghost Face - Headcase - LEATHERFACE - Resident Evil Chapter - Silent Hill Chapter - Stranger Things Chapter - The Bloodstained Sack - The Halloween Chapter - The Saw Chapter - Sadako Rising Chapter - Forged in Fog - Resident Evil: PROJECT W)
See here for the rest of my wishlist.
Compare2Steam
+ offers, i'll browse lists, and eventually take Paypal, but i'm more interested in Paypal & TF2, but i'm more interested in games trades
submitted by Zoliv13 to SteamGameSwap [link] [comments]
I'd like some fair exchange for those, i'm willing to put more than one game against a game i really want, depends on the offer. I could accept Paypal, but that's not my goal (just getting games i'd like to play). I might want to keep something in those lists, i also have some other Humble and Fanatical games i'm not sure i'll play, so they might appear one day (could be money for an exchange if you have something from my wishlist, don't hesitate to ask). I'm from Europe, that might matter for Keys or gift links. Also, i have many games now, and a lot to do yet, so i might be very picky, even for games on my wishlist (it's more a list for interesting games, that i might want in an undetermined future if i have time).
(HB Unrevealed Key = i have it still unrevealed, but will provide a key, considering the Humble view on trading games)
For people living in France, i also have some old games in boxes that i can send by post, ask me if interested.
My IGSRep page
My SGSFlair page
My GameTrade page
My Barter (come to Barter, it's so much better !)
My SteamTrade
*** I have Amazon Prime, so i already have the games that drop there ***
*** Please tell me what you're interested in in my list and don't just drop yours ***
112 Operator (HB Unrevealed Key)
6120 (Indiegala Key)
911 Operator (HB Unrevealed Key)
A Conversation With Mister Rabbit (Indiegala Key)
Alien Cat 2 (Indiegala Key)
Aliens: Fireteam Elite (HB Unrevealed Key)
Alone With You (DIG Key)
AMID EVIL (HB Unrevealed Key)
Arata Haunted Asylum (DIG Key)
Army Men RTS (HB Unrevealed Key)
AWAKE - Definitive Edition (Fanatical Key)
Baba Is You (HB Unrevealed Key)
Backbone (HB Unrevealed Key)
Behind the Frame: The Finest Scenery (HB Unrevealed Key)
BOK-BOK: A Chicken Dating Sim (DIG Key)
Builder Simulator (HB Unrevealed Key)
Click and Slay (Fanatical Key)
Codename Ghost Hunt (DIG Key)
Combat Tested (Fanatical Key)
Conflict Area (DIG Key)
Conflict Area (Indiegala Key)
Cosmonautica (Fanatical Key)
Cris Tales (HB Unrevealed Key)
Dagon - The Eldritch Box DLC (HB Unrevealed Key)
Death Squared (HB Unrevealed Key)
Detached: Non-VR Edition (HB Unrevealed Key)
Dezinsector (Indiegala Key)
Don't Look (DIG Key)
Driftland: The Magic Revival (HB Unrevealed Key)
Duke Nukem Forever: Hail to the Icons Parody Pack (HB Unrevealed Key)
Duke Nukem Forever: The Doctor Who Cloned Me (HB Unrevealed Key)
Explosionade (Fanatical Key)
Fling to the Finish (Fanatical Key)
Flyist (DIG Key)
Forep Man (DIG Key)
Founders' Fortune (HB Unrevealed Key)
Frick, Inc. (HB Unrevealed Key)
Fury Unleashed (HB Unrevealed Key)
GALAXIUM (DIG Key)
GOD's DEATH (DIG Key)
Il Sole e la Luna (DIG Key)
Game of the forgotten Gods. Wake up / Игра забытых Богов. Проснись (DIG Key)
GameGuru (HB Unrevealed Key)
Good puzzle: Castles (Indiegala Key)
Guilty Gear X2 #Reload (HB Unrevealed Key)
Hack 'n' Slash (HB Unrevealed Key)
Harpoon (Indiegala Key)
HoloSprint (DIG Key)
Incandescent (DIG Key)
Intelligence (Indiegala Key)
Izmir: An Independence Simulator (HB Unrevealed Key)
Lemuria: Lost in Space (DIG Key)
Lust from Beyond: M Edition (HB Unrevealed Key)
Mello Haunted House (DIG Key)
Metal Strike (DIG Key)
MirrorMoon EP (HB Unrevealed Key)
Morbid: The Seven Acolytes (HB Unrevealed Key)
NAVALNY: A Nightmare of Corrupt (DIG Key)
Nocked! True Tales of Robin Hood (Indiegala Key)
Not Another Weekend (Indiegala Key)
Omae Wa Mou Shindeiru (Indiegala Key)
Onsen Master (IGN Key)
Orbital Racer (HB Unrevealed Key)
Patriots: Back to Civilization (DIG Key)
Pixross (HB Unrevealed Key)
Planet TD (HB Unrevealed Key)
Quantum Replica (Fanatical Key) x2
Quest: Escape Room (Indiegala Key)
Raccoon: The Orc Invasion (DIG Key)
Railroad Tycoon 3 (HB Unrevealed Key)
Reach the Summit (Indiegala Key)
Remnants of Naezith (HB Unrevealed Key)
Rocky Ride (Indiegala Key)
Runner3 (Fanatical Key - Might Keep)
Serious Sam HD: The Second Encounter - Legend of the Beast DLC (HB Unrevealed Key)
Sid Meier's Railroads! (HB Unrevealed Key)
Sit on bottle (Indiegala Key)
SMIB: Mission Cure (Indiegala Key)
Soul Searching (HB Unrevealed Key)
Soulblight (HB Unrevealed Key)
Space BloX (DIG Key)
Space Crew: Legendary Edition (HB Unrevealed Key)
Spider-Robots War (Indiegala Key)
Spiritfarer®: Farewell Edition (HB Unrevealed Key)
Stacking (HB Unrevealed Key)
STAR WARS Jedi Knight II: Jedi Outcast (HB Unrevealed Key)
STAR WARS: The Force Unleashed Ultimate Sith Edition (HB Unrevealed Key)
StarCrossed (HB Unrevealed Key)
Stick Fight: The Game (HB Unrevealed Key)
Strange Brigade (HB Unrevealed Key)
Sunlight (HB Unrevealed Key)
Supreme Ruler Cold War (Fanatical Key)
Swag and Sorcery (HB Unrevealed Key)
Swords and Soldiers 2 Shawarmageddon (Fanatical Key)
System Shock: Enhanced Edition (HB Unrevealed Key)
System Shock: Enhanced Edition (HB Unrevealed Key)
System Shock 2 (HB Unrevealed Key)
Telefrag VR (HB Unrevealed Key)
Teleglitch: Die More Edition (HB Unrevealed Key)
The Amazing American Circus (HB Unrevealed Key)
The Amazing American Circus (HB Unrevealed Key)
The Big SokoBang (DIG Key)
The Detective Chapters: Part One (DIG Key)
The Governor (DIG Key)
The Inner World (HB Unrevealed Key)
The Invisible Hand (HB Unrevealed Key)
The Life and Suffering of Sir Brante (HB Unrevealed Key)
The Orphan A Tale of An Errant Ghost - Hidden Object Game (DIG Key)
The Watchmaker (Fanatical Key)
The Wild Eight (HB Unrevealed Key)
Thyra Adventure (DIG Key)
Ticket to Ride (HB Unrevealed Key)
Time Lock VR 2 (Indiegala Key)
ToeJam & Earl: Back in the Groove (HB Unrevealed Key)
Townsmen - A Kingdom Rebuilt (HB Unrevealed Key)
Trash Squad (DIG Key)
Tricone Lab (Indiegala Key)
Unexplored (Fanatical Key)
Vanguard Princess (DIG Key)
War Robots: Planet Defender (DIG Key)
What A Trash Game (DIG Key)
Win The Diamond (DIG Key)
Worms Rumble (HB Unrevealed Key)
X-Morph: Defense Complete Pack (HB Unrevealed Key)
XCOM 2 (HB Unrevealed Key)
XCOM: ULTIMATE COLLECTION (HB Unrevealed Key)
Yet Another Hero Story (Indiegala Key)
YOU DON'T KNOW JACK Vol. 2 (HB Unrevealed Key)
Zack 2: Celeste's Map (Indiegala Key)
Zen Cube (DIG Key)
Zombie Claus (Indiegala Key)
Zombie Driver HD Complete Edition (HB Unrevealed Key)
Removed / Banned / Delisted / Purchase Disabled games :
- Afterfall Insanity Extended Edition
- Beast Boxing Turbo
- Betrayer
- Cloud Chamber
- Defenders of Ardania
- Droplitz
- Gettysburg Armored Warfare
- Grind Zones
- Leviathan: Warships
- Magicka: Wizards of the Square Tablet
- Naval War: Arctic Circle
- On The Path
- Quadrant M4
- Quixzel Rush: Pumpkin Bash
- Quixzel Rush: Tooth Protector
- Run Away
- Shadows: Price For Our Sins Bonus Edition
- Sine Mora + Ex
- Star Shield Down
- Trials of The Illuminati: Women of Beauty Jigsaws
- Trials of The Illuminati: Animated Christmas Time Jigsaws
- Two Brothers
- World War 1 Centennial Edition
- ZombieRush
- 1954 Alcatraz
- A New Beginning
- A New Beginning - Final Cut
- A Valley Without Wind
- Alien Spidy
- Aliens versus Predator Classic 2000
- Angvik
- Animals
- Anna - Extended Edition
- AquaNox
- AquaNox 2
- Bad Rats
- Bang Bang Racing
- BATTLETECH
- Beat Hazard
- Beat Hazard Complete
- Bionic Heart
- BlazeRush
- Bunch Of Heroes
- CAPSULE
- Cargo! - The quest for gravity
- Ceville
- Clockwork Survivors
- Commander: Conquest of the Americas
- Commandos 2: Men of Courage
- Commandos 3: Destination Berlin
- Commandos: Behind Enemy Lines
- Commandos: Beyond the Call of Duty
- Company of Crime
- Crash Time 3
- Critical Mass
- Dangerous platform
- Dark Fall: Lost Souls
- Darwinia
- Deadly 30
- Defunct
- Demigod
- Deponia
- DESOLATE
- Disciples II: Galleans Return
- Disciples II: Rise of the Elves
- Dragon Blast DLC
- Drop Hunt - Adventure Puzzle
- Dungeons - The Dark Lord
- Eidolon
- El Matador
- Elite Forces
- Escape From Russia: Mobilization
- Eternal Step
- Ethan: Meteor Hunter Deluxe Edition
- EUIII Chronicles
- Fantasy Wars
- Fated Souls 3
- Fester Mudd - Episode 1
- Figment
- Final Slam 2
- Finding Teddy
- Fireburst
- Flower Shop: Summer In Fairbrook
- Flower Shop: Winter In Fairbrook
- FORCED: Slightly Better Edition
- Future Wars
- Galactic Civilizations I: Ultimate Edition
- Girlfriend Rescue
- Going Under
- Grand Ages Rome
- Grand Ages Rome Gold
- Grav Blazer
- Greed: Black Border
- Grotesque Tactics: Evil Heroes
- Hard Reset Extended Edition
- Heileen 2: The Hands Of Fate
- Hero by Chance
- Holy Avatar vs. Maidens of the Dead
- Holy Potatoes! A Weapon Shop?!
- Home
- Huntsman: The Orphanage
- Imperial Glory
- In Between
- inMomentum
- Ion Assault
- Jets'n'Guns Gold
- Jumping Cat
- Kalaban
- KAMI
- Keebles
- King's Bounty: Armored Princess
- King's Bounty: The Legend
- Kingdom Wars 4 - The Plague: Kingdom Wars
- Knights of Honor
- Konung 2
- Konung 3
- Leisure Suit Larry in the Land of the Lounge Lizards: Reloaded
- Lilly Looking Through
- Little Racers STREET
- M.U.D. TV
- Magicka
- Majesty 2
- Mata Hari
- Megabyte Punch
- Memory Booster
- Men of War: Assault Squad GOTY
- Mind: Path to Thalamus
- Miner Wars 2081
- Multiwinia
- NASCAR '15 Victory Edition
- NASCAR Heat Evolution
- Night Wanderings
- Nordlicht
- Norega Barracks + Academy DLC
- Of Orcs and Men
- Oil Rush Bundle
- One Finger Death Punch 2
- Onikira - Demon Killer
- Overcast - Walden and the Werewolf
- Painkiller Recurring Evil
- Painkiller Redemption
- Painkiller: Black Edition
- Patrician IV
- Patrician IV Gold
- Pirates of Black Cove
- Pixel Heroes: Byte & Magic
- PixelJunk Monsters Ultimate
- Planets Under Attack
- Plush
- Poly Memory: Cats
- Poly Puzzle: Dogs
- Poly Puzzle: Furries
- Poof
- Post Apocalyptic Mayhem
- Praetorians
- Primal Carnage
- Punch Club
- Purgatory: War of the Damned
- Puzzle Art: Cats
- Puzzle Kingdoms
- Quell
- Quell Memento
- Quell Reflect
- R.I.P.D.: The Game
- Race! Beauty! Bugs!
- Razor2: Hidden Skies
- Really Big Sky
- Red Faction Guerrilla Re-Mars-tered + Armageddon Bundle With DLC (Nordic D)
- Red Johnson's Chronicles - 1+2
- Regions of Ruin
- Rise of Flight: Channel Battles Edition
- Runaway, The Dream of the Turtle
- Save the Dodos
- Shank 2
- Simple Builder
- Skilltree Saga
- Sky Mercenaries
- Smalles Class DLC
- Solar Shifter EX
- Space Empires IV Deluxe
- Space Empires V
- Spirited Heart Deluxe
- Square's Route
- Star Ruler
- Star Wolves
- Starsphere
- Steel Storm
- Stoirs VR
- STRIDER
- Stunt Hill
- Suicide Guy
- Swamp Jump
- Switch Galaxy Ultra
- Sword of the Stars Complete Collection
- Terror Time
- The Deed II
- The Deed: Dynasty
- The End of Labyronia: Nerubis
- The God's Chain
- The Joylancer: Legendary Motor Knight
- The King's Crusade - Lionheart
- The Old City: Leviathan
- The Void
- Theatre of War 2: Africa 1943
- Theatre of War: 3 - Korea
- Theatre of War: Centauro
- Theatre of War: Kursk + Caen
- Toby: The Secret Mine
- Trainz Simulator 12
- Trainz Simulator 12 - Coronation Scot DLC
- TRAUMA
- Tropico 3
- Trulon: The Shadow Engine
- Turba
- Twin Sector
- Two Worlds 2
- Two Worlds II Pirate DLC
- UFO Afterlight
- Undefeated
- Uplink
- Us and them
- Valnir Rok
- Vault Cracker
- Vegas: Make It Big
- Velvet Assassin
- Vessel
- Victoria II
- Warrior Kings
- Warriors' Wrath
- Wasteland Angel
- Weable
- Whispering Willows
- Windforge
- Windstorm: Start of a Great Friendship
- Zombie Driver HD Complete Edition
- Zombie Pirates
Various offers welcome, i'll browse lists, and most wanted are :
Currently or recently bundled : * ABRISS * Achilles: Legends Untold * AFTERLIFE: KILLING DEATH * ALTF4 * Blade of Darkness * Boneraiser Minions * Brotato * CARRION * Celeste * Deadlink * Dome Keeper * Dread Delusion * Gearshifters * Gone Viral * GRAVEN * HYPER DEMON * Impaler * Just King * LEGO® Star Wars™: The Skywalker Saga * Loot River * Mago * Prince of Persia (various) * Project Warlock II * Rogue: Genesia * Salt and Sanctuary * Sands of Aura * Shantae and the Seven Sirens * The Citadel * Ultratron * ULTRAKILL * Windbound * Zombieland: Double Tap - Road Trip
Bigger or rarer (for a big load of my games) : * Mount & Blade II: Bannerlord * RESIDENT EVIL Village * Hades * Cyberpunk 2077 * ELDEN RING * A Plague Tale: Requiem * Cuphead * GTFO * Marvel's Guardians of the Galaxy * Noita * Choo-Choo Charles * Garry's Mod * Prototype 1 and 2 * Bleak Faith: Forsaken
DLCs : * The Surge The Good, the Bad and the Augmented DLC * The Surge 2 - Season Pass * Vermintide 2 DLCs : Warrior Priest Career - Sister of the Thorn * Borderlands 3 Season Pass 2 * Mortal Shell: The Virtuous Cycle * Rocksmith DLCs * Lego Season Passes (DC Super Villains - Jurassic World - Marvel Super Heroes - Movie - Hobbit - Incredibles - Worlds) * Dead by Daylight DLCs (A Nightmare on Elm Street - Ash vs Evil Dead - Chains of Hate - Charity Case - Curtain Call - Ghost Face - Headcase - LEATHERFACE - Resident Evil Chapter - Silent Hill Chapter - Stranger Things Chapter - The Bloodstained Sack - The Halloween Chapter - The Saw Chapter - Sadako Rising Chapter - Forged in Fog - Resident Evil: PROJECT W)
See here for the rest of my wishlist.
Compare2Steam
+ offers, i'll browse lists, and eventually take Paypal, but i'm more interested in Paypal & TF2, but i'm more interested in games trades
2023.05.28 15:12 Zoliv13 [H] Bundle games from Humble/Fanatical/IG [W] Wishlist/Offers (Update 28/05/2023)
Hello,
I'd like some fair exchange for those, i'm willing to put more than one game against a game i really want, depends on the offer. I could accept Paypal, but that's not my goal (just getting games i'd like to play). I might want to keep something in those lists, i also have some other Humble and Fanatical games i'm not sure i'll play, so they might appear one day (could be money for an exchange if you have something from my wishlist, don't hesitate to ask). I'm from Europe, that might matter for Keys or gift links. Also, i have many games now, and a lot to do yet, so i might be very picky, even for games on my wishlist (it's more a list for interesting games, that i might want in an undetermined future if i have time).
(HB Unrevealed Key = i have it still unrevealed, but will provide a key, considering the Humble view on trading games)
For people living in France, i also have some old games in boxes that i can send by post, ask me if interested.
My IGSRep page
My SGSFlair page
My GameTrade page
My Barter (come to Barter, it's so much better !)
My SteamTrade
*** I have Amazon Prime, so i already have the games that drop there ***
*** Please tell me what you're interested in in my list and don't just drop yours ***
112 Operator (HB Unrevealed Key)
6120 (Indiegala Key)
911 Operator (HB Unrevealed Key)
A Conversation With Mister Rabbit (Indiegala Key)
Alien Cat 2 (Indiegala Key)
Aliens: Fireteam Elite (HB Unrevealed Key)
Alone With You (DIG Key)
AMID EVIL (HB Unrevealed Key)
Arata Haunted Asylum (DIG Key)
Army Men RTS (HB Unrevealed Key)
AWAKE - Definitive Edition (Fanatical Key)
Baba Is You (HB Unrevealed Key)
Backbone (HB Unrevealed Key)
Behind the Frame: The Finest Scenery (HB Unrevealed Key)
BOK-BOK: A Chicken Dating Sim (DIG Key)
Builder Simulator (HB Unrevealed Key)
Click and Slay (Fanatical Key)
Codename Ghost Hunt (DIG Key)
Combat Tested (Fanatical Key)
Conflict Area (DIG Key)
Conflict Area (Indiegala Key)
Cosmonautica (Fanatical Key)
Cris Tales (HB Unrevealed Key)
Dagon - The Eldritch Box DLC (HB Unrevealed Key)
Death Squared (HB Unrevealed Key)
Detached: Non-VR Edition (HB Unrevealed Key)
Dezinsector (Indiegala Key)
Don't Look (DIG Key)
Driftland: The Magic Revival (HB Unrevealed Key)
Duke Nukem Forever: Hail to the Icons Parody Pack (HB Unrevealed Key)
Duke Nukem Forever: The Doctor Who Cloned Me (HB Unrevealed Key)
Explosionade (Fanatical Key)
Fling to the Finish (Fanatical Key)
Flyist (DIG Key)
Forep Man (DIG Key)
Founders' Fortune (HB Unrevealed Key)
Frick, Inc. (HB Unrevealed Key)
Fury Unleashed (HB Unrevealed Key)
GALAXIUM (DIG Key)
GOD's DEATH (DIG Key)
Il Sole e la Luna (DIG Key)
Game of the forgotten Gods. Wake up / Игра забытых Богов. Проснись (DIG Key)
GameGuru (HB Unrevealed Key)
Good puzzle: Castles (Indiegala Key)
Guilty Gear X2 #Reload (HB Unrevealed Key)
Hack 'n' Slash (HB Unrevealed Key)
Harpoon (Indiegala Key)
HoloSprint (DIG Key)
Incandescent (DIG Key)
Intelligence (Indiegala Key)
Izmir: An Independence Simulator (HB Unrevealed Key)
Lemuria: Lost in Space (DIG Key)
Lust from Beyond: M Edition (HB Unrevealed Key)
Mello Haunted House (DIG Key)
Metal Strike (DIG Key)
MirrorMoon EP (HB Unrevealed Key)
Morbid: The Seven Acolytes (HB Unrevealed Key)
NAVALNY: A Nightmare of Corrupt (DIG Key)
Nocked! True Tales of Robin Hood (Indiegala Key)
Not Another Weekend (Indiegala Key)
Omae Wa Mou Shindeiru (Indiegala Key)
Onsen Master (IGN Key)
Orbital Racer (HB Unrevealed Key)
Patriots: Back to Civilization (DIG Key)
Pixross (HB Unrevealed Key)
Planet TD (HB Unrevealed Key)
Quantum Replica (Fanatical Key) x2
Quest: Escape Room (Indiegala Key)
Raccoon: The Orc Invasion (DIG Key)
Railroad Tycoon 3 (HB Unrevealed Key)
Reach the Summit (Indiegala Key)
Remnants of Naezith (HB Unrevealed Key)
Rocky Ride (Indiegala Key)
Runner3 (Fanatical Key - Might Keep)
Serious Sam HD: The Second Encounter - Legend of the Beast DLC (HB Unrevealed Key)
Sid Meier's Railroads! (HB Unrevealed Key)
Sit on bottle (Indiegala Key)
SMIB: Mission Cure (Indiegala Key)
Soul Searching (HB Unrevealed Key)
Soulblight (HB Unrevealed Key)
Space BloX (DIG Key)
Space Crew: Legendary Edition (HB Unrevealed Key)
Spider-Robots War (Indiegala Key)
Spiritfarer®: Farewell Edition (HB Unrevealed Key)
Stacking (HB Unrevealed Key)
STAR WARS Jedi Knight II: Jedi Outcast (HB Unrevealed Key)
STAR WARS: The Force Unleashed Ultimate Sith Edition (HB Unrevealed Key)
StarCrossed (HB Unrevealed Key)
Stick Fight: The Game (HB Unrevealed Key)
Strange Brigade (HB Unrevealed Key)
Sunlight (HB Unrevealed Key)
Supreme Ruler Cold War (Fanatical Key)
Swag and Sorcery (HB Unrevealed Key)
Swords and Soldiers 2 Shawarmageddon (Fanatical Key)
System Shock: Enhanced Edition (HB Unrevealed Key)
System Shock: Enhanced Edition (HB Unrevealed Key)
System Shock 2 (HB Unrevealed Key)
Telefrag VR (HB Unrevealed Key)
Teleglitch: Die More Edition (HB Unrevealed Key)
The Amazing American Circus (HB Unrevealed Key)
The Amazing American Circus (HB Unrevealed Key)
The Big SokoBang (DIG Key)
The Detective Chapters: Part One (DIG Key)
The Governor (DIG Key)
The Inner World (HB Unrevealed Key)
The Invisible Hand (HB Unrevealed Key)
The Life and Suffering of Sir Brante (HB Unrevealed Key)
The Orphan A Tale of An Errant Ghost - Hidden Object Game (DIG Key)
The Watchmaker (Fanatical Key)
The Wild Eight (HB Unrevealed Key)
Thyra Adventure (DIG Key)
Ticket to Ride (HB Unrevealed Key)
Time Lock VR 2 (Indiegala Key)
ToeJam & Earl: Back in the Groove (HB Unrevealed Key)
Townsmen - A Kingdom Rebuilt (HB Unrevealed Key)
Trash Squad (DIG Key)
Tricone Lab (Indiegala Key)
Unexplored (Fanatical Key)
Vanguard Princess (DIG Key)
War Robots: Planet Defender (DIG Key)
What A Trash Game (DIG Key)
Win The Diamond (DIG Key)
Worms Rumble (HB Unrevealed Key)
X-Morph: Defense Complete Pack (HB Unrevealed Key)
XCOM 2 (HB Unrevealed Key)
XCOM: ULTIMATE COLLECTION (HB Unrevealed Key)
Yet Another Hero Story (Indiegala Key)
YOU DON'T KNOW JACK Vol. 2 (HB Unrevealed Key)
Zack 2: Celeste's Map (Indiegala Key)
Zen Cube (DIG Key)
Zombie Claus (Indiegala Key)
Zombie Driver HD Complete Edition (HB Unrevealed Key)
Removed / Banned / Delisted / Purchase Disabled games :
Various offers welcome, i'll browse lists, and most wanted are :
Currently or recently bundled : * ABRISS * Achilles: Legends Untold * AFTERLIFE: KILLING DEATH * ALTF4 * Blade of Darkness * Boneraiser Minions * Brotato * CARRION * Celeste * Deadlink * Dome Keeper * Dread Delusion * Gearshifters * Gone Viral * GRAVEN * HYPER DEMON * Impaler * Just King * LEGO® Star Wars™: The Skywalker Saga * Loot River * Mago * Prince of Persia (various) * Project Warlock II * Rogue: Genesia * Salt and Sanctuary * Sands of Aura * Shantae and the Seven Sirens * The Citadel * Ultratron * ULTRAKILL * Windbound * Zombieland: Double Tap - Road Trip
Bigger or rarer (for a big load of my games) : * Mount & Blade II: Bannerlord * RESIDENT EVIL Village * Hades * Cyberpunk 2077 * ELDEN RING * A Plague Tale: Requiem * Cuphead * GTFO * Marvel's Guardians of the Galaxy * Noita * Choo-Choo Charles * Garry's Mod * Prototype 1 and 2 * Bleak Faith: Forsaken
DLCs : * The Surge The Good, the Bad and the Augmented DLC * The Surge 2 - Season Pass * Vermintide 2 DLCs : Warrior Priest Career - Sister of the Thorn * Borderlands 3 Season Pass 2 * Mortal Shell: The Virtuous Cycle * Rocksmith DLCs * Lego Season Passes (DC Super Villains - Jurassic World - Marvel Super Heroes - Movie - Hobbit - Incredibles - Worlds) * Dead by Daylight DLCs (A Nightmare on Elm Street - Ash vs Evil Dead - Chains of Hate - Charity Case - Curtain Call - Ghost Face - Headcase - LEATHERFACE - Resident Evil Chapter - Silent Hill Chapter - Stranger Things Chapter - The Bloodstained Sack - The Halloween Chapter - The Saw Chapter - Sadako Rising Chapter - Forged in Fog - Resident Evil: PROJECT W)
See here for the rest of my wishlist.
Compare2Steam
+ offers, i'll browse lists, and eventually take Paypal, but i'm more interested in Paypal & TF2, but i'm more interested in games trades
submitted by Zoliv13 to GameTrade [link] [comments]
I'd like some fair exchange for those, i'm willing to put more than one game against a game i really want, depends on the offer. I could accept Paypal, but that's not my goal (just getting games i'd like to play). I might want to keep something in those lists, i also have some other Humble and Fanatical games i'm not sure i'll play, so they might appear one day (could be money for an exchange if you have something from my wishlist, don't hesitate to ask). I'm from Europe, that might matter for Keys or gift links. Also, i have many games now, and a lot to do yet, so i might be very picky, even for games on my wishlist (it's more a list for interesting games, that i might want in an undetermined future if i have time).
(HB Unrevealed Key = i have it still unrevealed, but will provide a key, considering the Humble view on trading games)
For people living in France, i also have some old games in boxes that i can send by post, ask me if interested.
My IGSRep page
My SGSFlair page
My GameTrade page
My Barter (come to Barter, it's so much better !)
My SteamTrade
*** I have Amazon Prime, so i already have the games that drop there ***
*** Please tell me what you're interested in in my list and don't just drop yours ***
112 Operator (HB Unrevealed Key)
6120 (Indiegala Key)
911 Operator (HB Unrevealed Key)
A Conversation With Mister Rabbit (Indiegala Key)
Alien Cat 2 (Indiegala Key)
Aliens: Fireteam Elite (HB Unrevealed Key)
Alone With You (DIG Key)
AMID EVIL (HB Unrevealed Key)
Arata Haunted Asylum (DIG Key)
Army Men RTS (HB Unrevealed Key)
AWAKE - Definitive Edition (Fanatical Key)
Baba Is You (HB Unrevealed Key)
Backbone (HB Unrevealed Key)
Behind the Frame: The Finest Scenery (HB Unrevealed Key)
BOK-BOK: A Chicken Dating Sim (DIG Key)
Builder Simulator (HB Unrevealed Key)
Click and Slay (Fanatical Key)
Codename Ghost Hunt (DIG Key)
Combat Tested (Fanatical Key)
Conflict Area (DIG Key)
Conflict Area (Indiegala Key)
Cosmonautica (Fanatical Key)
Cris Tales (HB Unrevealed Key)
Dagon - The Eldritch Box DLC (HB Unrevealed Key)
Death Squared (HB Unrevealed Key)
Detached: Non-VR Edition (HB Unrevealed Key)
Dezinsector (Indiegala Key)
Don't Look (DIG Key)
Driftland: The Magic Revival (HB Unrevealed Key)
Duke Nukem Forever: Hail to the Icons Parody Pack (HB Unrevealed Key)
Duke Nukem Forever: The Doctor Who Cloned Me (HB Unrevealed Key)
Explosionade (Fanatical Key)
Fling to the Finish (Fanatical Key)
Flyist (DIG Key)
Forep Man (DIG Key)
Founders' Fortune (HB Unrevealed Key)
Frick, Inc. (HB Unrevealed Key)
Fury Unleashed (HB Unrevealed Key)
GALAXIUM (DIG Key)
GOD's DEATH (DIG Key)
Il Sole e la Luna (DIG Key)
Game of the forgotten Gods. Wake up / Игра забытых Богов. Проснись (DIG Key)
GameGuru (HB Unrevealed Key)
Good puzzle: Castles (Indiegala Key)
Guilty Gear X2 #Reload (HB Unrevealed Key)
Hack 'n' Slash (HB Unrevealed Key)
Harpoon (Indiegala Key)
HoloSprint (DIG Key)
Incandescent (DIG Key)
Intelligence (Indiegala Key)
Izmir: An Independence Simulator (HB Unrevealed Key)
Lemuria: Lost in Space (DIG Key)
Lust from Beyond: M Edition (HB Unrevealed Key)
Mello Haunted House (DIG Key)
Metal Strike (DIG Key)
MirrorMoon EP (HB Unrevealed Key)
Morbid: The Seven Acolytes (HB Unrevealed Key)
NAVALNY: A Nightmare of Corrupt (DIG Key)
Nocked! True Tales of Robin Hood (Indiegala Key)
Not Another Weekend (Indiegala Key)
Omae Wa Mou Shindeiru (Indiegala Key)
Onsen Master (IGN Key)
Orbital Racer (HB Unrevealed Key)
Patriots: Back to Civilization (DIG Key)
Pixross (HB Unrevealed Key)
Planet TD (HB Unrevealed Key)
Quantum Replica (Fanatical Key) x2
Quest: Escape Room (Indiegala Key)
Raccoon: The Orc Invasion (DIG Key)
Railroad Tycoon 3 (HB Unrevealed Key)
Reach the Summit (Indiegala Key)
Remnants of Naezith (HB Unrevealed Key)
Rocky Ride (Indiegala Key)
Runner3 (Fanatical Key - Might Keep)
Serious Sam HD: The Second Encounter - Legend of the Beast DLC (HB Unrevealed Key)
Sid Meier's Railroads! (HB Unrevealed Key)
Sit on bottle (Indiegala Key)
SMIB: Mission Cure (Indiegala Key)
Soul Searching (HB Unrevealed Key)
Soulblight (HB Unrevealed Key)
Space BloX (DIG Key)
Space Crew: Legendary Edition (HB Unrevealed Key)
Spider-Robots War (Indiegala Key)
Spiritfarer®: Farewell Edition (HB Unrevealed Key)
Stacking (HB Unrevealed Key)
STAR WARS Jedi Knight II: Jedi Outcast (HB Unrevealed Key)
STAR WARS: The Force Unleashed Ultimate Sith Edition (HB Unrevealed Key)
StarCrossed (HB Unrevealed Key)
Stick Fight: The Game (HB Unrevealed Key)
Strange Brigade (HB Unrevealed Key)
Sunlight (HB Unrevealed Key)
Supreme Ruler Cold War (Fanatical Key)
Swag and Sorcery (HB Unrevealed Key)
Swords and Soldiers 2 Shawarmageddon (Fanatical Key)
System Shock: Enhanced Edition (HB Unrevealed Key)
System Shock: Enhanced Edition (HB Unrevealed Key)
System Shock 2 (HB Unrevealed Key)
Telefrag VR (HB Unrevealed Key)
Teleglitch: Die More Edition (HB Unrevealed Key)
The Amazing American Circus (HB Unrevealed Key)
The Amazing American Circus (HB Unrevealed Key)
The Big SokoBang (DIG Key)
The Detective Chapters: Part One (DIG Key)
The Governor (DIG Key)
The Inner World (HB Unrevealed Key)
The Invisible Hand (HB Unrevealed Key)
The Life and Suffering of Sir Brante (HB Unrevealed Key)
The Orphan A Tale of An Errant Ghost - Hidden Object Game (DIG Key)
The Watchmaker (Fanatical Key)
The Wild Eight (HB Unrevealed Key)
Thyra Adventure (DIG Key)
Ticket to Ride (HB Unrevealed Key)
Time Lock VR 2 (Indiegala Key)
ToeJam & Earl: Back in the Groove (HB Unrevealed Key)
Townsmen - A Kingdom Rebuilt (HB Unrevealed Key)
Trash Squad (DIG Key)
Tricone Lab (Indiegala Key)
Unexplored (Fanatical Key)
Vanguard Princess (DIG Key)
War Robots: Planet Defender (DIG Key)
What A Trash Game (DIG Key)
Win The Diamond (DIG Key)
Worms Rumble (HB Unrevealed Key)
X-Morph: Defense Complete Pack (HB Unrevealed Key)
XCOM 2 (HB Unrevealed Key)
XCOM: ULTIMATE COLLECTION (HB Unrevealed Key)
Yet Another Hero Story (Indiegala Key)
YOU DON'T KNOW JACK Vol. 2 (HB Unrevealed Key)
Zack 2: Celeste's Map (Indiegala Key)
Zen Cube (DIG Key)
Zombie Claus (Indiegala Key)
Zombie Driver HD Complete Edition (HB Unrevealed Key)
Removed / Banned / Delisted / Purchase Disabled games :
- Afterfall Insanity Extended Edition
- Beast Boxing Turbo
- Betrayer
- Cloud Chamber
- Defenders of Ardania
- Droplitz
- Gettysburg Armored Warfare
- Grind Zones
- Leviathan: Warships
- Magicka: Wizards of the Square Tablet
- Naval War: Arctic Circle
- On The Path
- Quadrant M4
- Quixzel Rush: Pumpkin Bash
- Quixzel Rush: Tooth Protector
- Run Away
- Shadows: Price For Our Sins Bonus Edition
- Sine Mora + Ex
- Star Shield Down
- Trials of The Illuminati: Women of Beauty Jigsaws
- Trials of The Illuminati: Animated Christmas Time Jigsaws
- Two Brothers
- World War 1 Centennial Edition
- ZombieRush
- 1954 Alcatraz
- A New Beginning
- A New Beginning - Final Cut
- A Valley Without Wind
- Alien Spidy
- Aliens versus Predator Classic 2000
- Angvik
- Animals
- Anna - Extended Edition
- AquaNox
- AquaNox 2
- Bad Rats
- Bang Bang Racing
- BATTLETECH
- Beat Hazard
- Beat Hazard Complete
- Bionic Heart
- BlazeRush
- Bunch Of Heroes
- CAPSULE
- Cargo! - The quest for gravity
- Ceville
- Clockwork Survivors
- Commander: Conquest of the Americas
- Commandos 2: Men of Courage
- Commandos 3: Destination Berlin
- Commandos: Behind Enemy Lines
- Commandos: Beyond the Call of Duty
- Company of Crime
- Crash Time 3
- Critical Mass
- Dangerous platform
- Dark Fall: Lost Souls
- Darwinia
- Deadly 30
- Defunct
- Demigod
- Deponia
- DESOLATE
- Disciples II: Galleans Return
- Disciples II: Rise of the Elves
- Dragon Blast DLC
- Drop Hunt - Adventure Puzzle
- Dungeons - The Dark Lord
- Eidolon
- El Matador
- Elite Forces
- Escape From Russia: Mobilization
- Eternal Step
- Ethan: Meteor Hunter Deluxe Edition
- EUIII Chronicles
- Fantasy Wars
- Fated Souls 3
- Fester Mudd - Episode 1
- Figment
- Final Slam 2
- Finding Teddy
- Fireburst
- Flower Shop: Summer In Fairbrook
- Flower Shop: Winter In Fairbrook
- FORCED: Slightly Better Edition
- Future Wars
- Galactic Civilizations I: Ultimate Edition
- Girlfriend Rescue
- Going Under
- Grand Ages Rome
- Grand Ages Rome Gold
- Grav Blazer
- Greed: Black Border
- Grotesque Tactics: Evil Heroes
- Hard Reset Extended Edition
- Heileen 2: The Hands Of Fate
- Hero by Chance
- Holy Avatar vs. Maidens of the Dead
- Holy Potatoes! A Weapon Shop?!
- Home
- Huntsman: The Orphanage
- Imperial Glory
- In Between
- inMomentum
- Ion Assault
- Jets'n'Guns Gold
- Jumping Cat
- Kalaban
- KAMI
- Keebles
- King's Bounty: Armored Princess
- King's Bounty: The Legend
- Kingdom Wars 4 - The Plague: Kingdom Wars
- Knights of Honor
- Konung 2
- Konung 3
- Leisure Suit Larry in the Land of the Lounge Lizards: Reloaded
- Lilly Looking Through
- Little Racers STREET
- M.U.D. TV
- Magicka
- Majesty 2
- Mata Hari
- Megabyte Punch
- Memory Booster
- Men of War: Assault Squad GOTY
- Mind: Path to Thalamus
- Miner Wars 2081
- Multiwinia
- NASCAR '15 Victory Edition
- NASCAR Heat Evolution
- Night Wanderings
- Nordlicht
- Norega Barracks + Academy DLC
- Of Orcs and Men
- Oil Rush Bundle
- One Finger Death Punch 2
- Onikira - Demon Killer
- Overcast - Walden and the Werewolf
- Painkiller Recurring Evil
- Painkiller Redemption
- Painkiller: Black Edition
- Patrician IV
- Patrician IV Gold
- Pirates of Black Cove
- Pixel Heroes: Byte & Magic
- PixelJunk Monsters Ultimate
- Planets Under Attack
- Plush
- Poly Memory: Cats
- Poly Puzzle: Dogs
- Poly Puzzle: Furries
- Poof
- Post Apocalyptic Mayhem
- Praetorians
- Primal Carnage
- Punch Club
- Purgatory: War of the Damned
- Puzzle Art: Cats
- Puzzle Kingdoms
- Quell
- Quell Memento
- Quell Reflect
- R.I.P.D.: The Game
- Race! Beauty! Bugs!
- Razor2: Hidden Skies
- Really Big Sky
- Red Faction Guerrilla Re-Mars-tered + Armageddon Bundle With DLC (Nordic D)
- Red Johnson's Chronicles - 1+2
- Regions of Ruin
- Rise of Flight: Channel Battles Edition
- Runaway, The Dream of the Turtle
- Save the Dodos
- Shank 2
- Simple Builder
- Skilltree Saga
- Sky Mercenaries
- Smalles Class DLC
- Solar Shifter EX
- Space Empires IV Deluxe
- Space Empires V
- Spirited Heart Deluxe
- Square's Route
- Star Ruler
- Star Wolves
- Starsphere
- Steel Storm
- Stoirs VR
- STRIDER
- Stunt Hill
- Suicide Guy
- Swamp Jump
- Switch Galaxy Ultra
- Sword of the Stars Complete Collection
- Terror Time
- The Deed II
- The Deed: Dynasty
- The End of Labyronia: Nerubis
- The God's Chain
- The Joylancer: Legendary Motor Knight
- The King's Crusade - Lionheart
- The Old City: Leviathan
- The Void
- Theatre of War 2: Africa 1943
- Theatre of War: 3 - Korea
- Theatre of War: Centauro
- Theatre of War: Kursk + Caen
- Toby: The Secret Mine
- Trainz Simulator 12
- Trainz Simulator 12 - Coronation Scot DLC
- TRAUMA
- Tropico 3
- Trulon: The Shadow Engine
- Turba
- Twin Sector
- Two Worlds 2
- Two Worlds II Pirate DLC
- UFO Afterlight
- Undefeated
- Uplink
- Us and them
- Valnir Rok
- Vault Cracker
- Vegas: Make It Big
- Velvet Assassin
- Vessel
- Victoria II
- Warrior Kings
- Warriors' Wrath
- Wasteland Angel
- Weable
- Whispering Willows
- Windforge
- Windstorm: Start of a Great Friendship
- Zombie Driver HD Complete Edition
- Zombie Pirates
Various offers welcome, i'll browse lists, and most wanted are :
Currently or recently bundled : * ABRISS * Achilles: Legends Untold * AFTERLIFE: KILLING DEATH * ALTF4 * Blade of Darkness * Boneraiser Minions * Brotato * CARRION * Celeste * Deadlink * Dome Keeper * Dread Delusion * Gearshifters * Gone Viral * GRAVEN * HYPER DEMON * Impaler * Just King * LEGO® Star Wars™: The Skywalker Saga * Loot River * Mago * Prince of Persia (various) * Project Warlock II * Rogue: Genesia * Salt and Sanctuary * Sands of Aura * Shantae and the Seven Sirens * The Citadel * Ultratron * ULTRAKILL * Windbound * Zombieland: Double Tap - Road Trip
Bigger or rarer (for a big load of my games) : * Mount & Blade II: Bannerlord * RESIDENT EVIL Village * Hades * Cyberpunk 2077 * ELDEN RING * A Plague Tale: Requiem * Cuphead * GTFO * Marvel's Guardians of the Galaxy * Noita * Choo-Choo Charles * Garry's Mod * Prototype 1 and 2 * Bleak Faith: Forsaken
DLCs : * The Surge The Good, the Bad and the Augmented DLC * The Surge 2 - Season Pass * Vermintide 2 DLCs : Warrior Priest Career - Sister of the Thorn * Borderlands 3 Season Pass 2 * Mortal Shell: The Virtuous Cycle * Rocksmith DLCs * Lego Season Passes (DC Super Villains - Jurassic World - Marvel Super Heroes - Movie - Hobbit - Incredibles - Worlds) * Dead by Daylight DLCs (A Nightmare on Elm Street - Ash vs Evil Dead - Chains of Hate - Charity Case - Curtain Call - Ghost Face - Headcase - LEATHERFACE - Resident Evil Chapter - Silent Hill Chapter - Stranger Things Chapter - The Bloodstained Sack - The Halloween Chapter - The Saw Chapter - Sadako Rising Chapter - Forged in Fog - Resident Evil: PROJECT W)
See here for the rest of my wishlist.
Compare2Steam
+ offers, i'll browse lists, and eventually take Paypal, but i'm more interested in Paypal & TF2, but i'm more interested in games trades
2023.05.28 15:11 Blood_Fart69 I Need Help, Y’all
Tagged as a funny story because I was diagnosed late in my life at 27 after I’d believed everyone’s opinion that my bullshit was “just being an artist” - I shoulda got a professional eval considering not all my classmates were chaotic slobs that took entire days to complete 1-3hr assignments.
I did that whole thing where you adapt insanely absurd ways to function and you assume everyone must do these things to “adult”. Thank god I met a psychiatrist who diagnosed and educated me about how this works(?) I was put on meds but it took an extreme change in my living environment and career to make me realize meds only do so much.
I made a niave choice to move two years ago. Damn did I get a wake up call.
I ended up living with abusive compulsive types and learned to function to maintain peace in hostile environments where I was scared, threatened, and denigrated into functioning as proficient as exhaustingly possible. I was eventually cleaner and more organized than the assholes. Not advocating this but I can’t deny it was an amazingly effective strategy.
I’ve changed my living environment and the person I share it with I love deeply but they’re who I got my adhd from. It doesn’t help they they won’t work more to deal with their hoarding and disorganization issues and act like because they know what has to be done they’ll do it - but neverarely eventually do it …then I end up having to do it …only for things to be undone again…
I’m feeling defeated and overwhelmed. In a sad way I’ve achieved a decent level of executive functioning that can cover two people but I don’t have the energy to try to be Sisyphus all the time. It’s so damaging and demotivating to invest so much in cleaning only to see your efforts be ruined within minutes because it’s their world and fuck me I guess.
I’ve taken my therapists advice and restricted my efforts to work on areas that I immediately occupy and share. I’m on less medication and struggling even when I’m medicated to keep up with anything or exert that three second effort to clean as I go. I get so frustrated when I’ve done what I needed and then it’s immediately undone.
I’m all about working smarter not harder. Are there any cheat codes for keeping your shit together when everything feels overwhelming? How do you manage a stubborn family member who has the worst antithesis (ocd/hoarding/untreated adhd) to your disorder?
Apologies if I came off harsh on my loved one but it takes so much to do what I need to and do extra to show my love and it’s like it doesn’t fucking matter - old dogs won’t learn new tricks and I’m stuck feeling like a bitch because I’d like a healthy living environment for the both of us … you’d think someone with a psyche doctorate would not live this way.
Make it make sense
submitted by Blood_Fart69 to adhdwomen [link] [comments]
I did that whole thing where you adapt insanely absurd ways to function and you assume everyone must do these things to “adult”. Thank god I met a psychiatrist who diagnosed and educated me about how this works(?) I was put on meds but it took an extreme change in my living environment and career to make me realize meds only do so much.
I made a niave choice to move two years ago. Damn did I get a wake up call.
I ended up living with abusive compulsive types and learned to function to maintain peace in hostile environments where I was scared, threatened, and denigrated into functioning as proficient as exhaustingly possible. I was eventually cleaner and more organized than the assholes. Not advocating this but I can’t deny it was an amazingly effective strategy.
I’ve changed my living environment and the person I share it with I love deeply but they’re who I got my adhd from. It doesn’t help they they won’t work more to deal with their hoarding and disorganization issues and act like because they know what has to be done they’ll do it - but neverarely eventually do it …then I end up having to do it …only for things to be undone again…
I’m feeling defeated and overwhelmed. In a sad way I’ve achieved a decent level of executive functioning that can cover two people but I don’t have the energy to try to be Sisyphus all the time. It’s so damaging and demotivating to invest so much in cleaning only to see your efforts be ruined within minutes because it’s their world and fuck me I guess.
I’ve taken my therapists advice and restricted my efforts to work on areas that I immediately occupy and share. I’m on less medication and struggling even when I’m medicated to keep up with anything or exert that three second effort to clean as I go. I get so frustrated when I’ve done what I needed and then it’s immediately undone.
I’m all about working smarter not harder. Are there any cheat codes for keeping your shit together when everything feels overwhelming? How do you manage a stubborn family member who has the worst antithesis (ocd/hoarding/untreated adhd) to your disorder?
Apologies if I came off harsh on my loved one but it takes so much to do what I need to and do extra to show my love and it’s like it doesn’t fucking matter - old dogs won’t learn new tricks and I’m stuck feeling like a bitch because I’d like a healthy living environment for the both of us … you’d think someone with a psyche doctorate would not live this way.
Make it make sense
2023.05.28 15:11 DenpaDude220 How will Superheavy survive the format?
Since we all know what has happened to our beloved machine samurais, I have seen YouTube videos on how our men can attempt to come back from this banlist but to me, I don't think there's a way to build the board as consistently anymore, so it has become my mission to build superheavy to an extent that they have a way forward, and funnily enough it involves one of the most infamous synchro monsters of our time:
Bishbaalken...
Never in a million years would I have thought superheavy could bring out this beast, and have a fairly consistent method to get to it. So what do we actually need to pull off this combo? Here it is:
1 of either wakaushi, motorbike, soulpiercer, or machina metalcruncher. And 1 of any other listed + Any level 5 monster
An addition of any other monster would be necessary but it's superheavy so you'll have monsters to hand.
So let's say you have metalcruncher and soulpiercer and a level 5 monster, we'll use tunneler for this example but it doesn't really matter: Normal summon machina metalcruncher, then activate it's effect to reveal 3 motorbike and add 1. Activate motorbike in hand to add wakaushi. Use wakaushi to put monk benkei in scale and summon on wakaushi. Use benkei to add soulgaia. Activate soulgaia to equip and then summon out. Equip soulpiercer to soulgaia. Then we synchro 8 for Karakuri steel shogun (this is crucial for this combo I'm not mental). Chain 1 Karakuri steel to special summon Karakuri watchdog (the level 4 TUNER), chain 2 soulpiercer to add stealthy, chain 3 wakaushi to put back in scale. All of that resolves. Link off the metalcruncher and Karakuri steel for ancient gear ballista. Effect of ballista to add the box. Effect of box to add infinitrack anchor drill. Special summon stealthy. Link off ballista and stealthy for qliphort genius. By this moment you should have box, tuneller, anchor drill and probably any other monster in your hand by the time you get this far. You then pendulum summon for 4, box, tunneler, anchor drill and any other monster. Activate qliphort genius to add infinitrack brutal dozer (this is why we would need an additional summon) activate anchor drill to target the Karakuri watchdog because it is indeed a MACHINE to make both it and anchor drill level 8. Link off qliphort genius and box to make geonator transverser, use Karakuri watchdog and anchor drill to summon BISHBAALKEN to the arrow geonator points to. At this stage you should have geonator transverser, bishbaalken, tunneler and another monster on field. Use brutal dozer to tribute the other monster and summon itself. Use tunneler and brutal dozer to summon machu mech. Use bishbaalken to summon 3 tokens to your side and 3 to the opponents. Activate geonator transverser giving them your bishbaalken. Activate machu mech targeting the bishbaalken for game.
I would not have thought that this could be possible for superheavy but it is. What do you guys think of the concept?
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Bishbaalken...
Never in a million years would I have thought superheavy could bring out this beast, and have a fairly consistent method to get to it. So what do we actually need to pull off this combo? Here it is:
1 of either wakaushi, motorbike, soulpiercer, or machina metalcruncher. And 1 of any other listed + Any level 5 monster
An addition of any other monster would be necessary but it's superheavy so you'll have monsters to hand.
So let's say you have metalcruncher and soulpiercer and a level 5 monster, we'll use tunneler for this example but it doesn't really matter: Normal summon machina metalcruncher, then activate it's effect to reveal 3 motorbike and add 1. Activate motorbike in hand to add wakaushi. Use wakaushi to put monk benkei in scale and summon on wakaushi. Use benkei to add soulgaia. Activate soulgaia to equip and then summon out. Equip soulpiercer to soulgaia. Then we synchro 8 for Karakuri steel shogun (this is crucial for this combo I'm not mental). Chain 1 Karakuri steel to special summon Karakuri watchdog (the level 4 TUNER), chain 2 soulpiercer to add stealthy, chain 3 wakaushi to put back in scale. All of that resolves. Link off the metalcruncher and Karakuri steel for ancient gear ballista. Effect of ballista to add the box. Effect of box to add infinitrack anchor drill. Special summon stealthy. Link off ballista and stealthy for qliphort genius. By this moment you should have box, tuneller, anchor drill and probably any other monster in your hand by the time you get this far. You then pendulum summon for 4, box, tunneler, anchor drill and any other monster. Activate qliphort genius to add infinitrack brutal dozer (this is why we would need an additional summon) activate anchor drill to target the Karakuri watchdog because it is indeed a MACHINE to make both it and anchor drill level 8. Link off qliphort genius and box to make geonator transverser, use Karakuri watchdog and anchor drill to summon BISHBAALKEN to the arrow geonator points to. At this stage you should have geonator transverser, bishbaalken, tunneler and another monster on field. Use brutal dozer to tribute the other monster and summon itself. Use tunneler and brutal dozer to summon machu mech. Use bishbaalken to summon 3 tokens to your side and 3 to the opponents. Activate geonator transverser giving them your bishbaalken. Activate machu mech targeting the bishbaalken for game.
I would not have thought that this could be possible for superheavy but it is. What do you guys think of the concept?