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I know this is a question only I can answer, but I’d like to hear opinions on my situation for further consideration of what my next steps should be.
For quick context, I homeschooled in highschool (religious family and bullying problems) and was originally going to to go art school for graphic design. I ended up taking a 6 month bootcamp for programming, realized I loved it and decided to pursue CS as a career instead. I landed my first full time job at 17 with a large corporation, working with crop science software. I went through an iteration of their trainee program and then went to my first “real” team. Grew that application from the foundation to its mature state with thousands of users all around the world now, hundreds of thousands of calls to our API every day. I recently switched teams at work because I wanted to do it again with a different app, taking the knowledge I’ve learned with me to see what I could do better this time.
Yet I’m feeling unfulfilled. I can’t keep ignoring it either, I feel I’m putting in the bare minimum at times and end up kicking myself because I have the “perfect” situation. No college debt, single, 6 figure salary, working remotely- and yet I still feel unchallenged. I’m very proud of the achievements I’ve made in my career and how I’ve gotten this far without a degree, but at the same time I feel I’m wasting my potential and putting my happiness on the line if I continue on this path. It doesn’t seem like I’ll be able to have a more technically challenging role outside of web development or a leadership position here.
I’m 23 and now have the title of senior software engineer, for even more context. I’ve talked a little with my manager about my concerns for my future career and they’ve been nothing but supportive in whatever I’ve wanted to do. I want to have a bigger impact and feel more confident with what I know. So now I’m considering if college could be a good avenue for me to pursue challenges while still expanding my technical skill and knowledge. I’d like to learn the deeper mechanics of algorithms, understand math to a higher degree and most important be able to contribute as a pioneer in the technological research that often can be found within the academic system.
But again, my biggest concern has always been debt and lack of proper education in the skills I’ll actually need to the point where it leaves me jobless and desperate. I have savings now but the debt that college could put on them could set me back many years in my attempts to save up for a nice house or retire early. I strongly feel like the next move for me will either be pursuing a degree or switching companies entirely, maybe attempting for a FANNG position, but with these uncertainties I find the decision difficult to make. If I do apply for FAANG, I wonder if I won’t be taken seriously due to a lack of a degree.
Do any of you have thoughts on my situation?

Hey! I just wanted some opinions on if it’s worth restarting the game. I am on day 102 and in chapter 4. I have bought a few buddies but I spent a lot of gems in the beginning not knowing that I should have saved for buddies. I’m thinking about restarting so I can play it a bit smarter. Is that a good idea or should I just grind ads to get buddies? Thanks!

I’ll try to figure out how to not make this the longest post ever…TDLR at the bottom. My dad (who has diabetes; the type you have to take insulin for every day) went into the hospital in December 2021 with blood sugar of like 800 and we found out he also had pneumonia. He’s 70 years old, been a smoker since he was a kid, we thought he might not make it through all that. But he did. I’m not totally sure what happened with his blood sugar, except that maybe he forgot to check it and ate something he shouldn’t have. Anyway, my parents don’t eat very healthy and they’re extremely stubborn. There’s a lot of reasons for them to be in bad health.
My dad was in the hospital for about 12 days and after he was released, he was exhibiting cognitive and memory issues. He would forget what was said to him, and where family members were. He would forget to check his blood sugar. Also suddenly he said all his food tasted like shit and couldn’t eat much of anything.
Since then, it’s been pretty much like this. My mom had to save his life once more and he went to the hospital for only a few days but all these symptoms continued. It was already like pulling teeth to get my dad to see a doctor even before all this so it was very hard for her to get him to a neurologist but he finally agreed. No major results came from any of these visits, and I’m not clear as to why or if my mom was hiding any of it. Only more recently, did she find out that he probably does have early onset dementia. I think she’s trying to get another appointment for him for more answers. My dad gets very angry very quickly and doesn’t think he has any memory issues. He gets mean and says things he doesn’t realize he’s saying, but yeah any shred of a filter he ever had is completely gone. My mom gets overly frustrated with him, like she doesn’t get that it’s not his choice to say these things. So she ignores him, or snaps at him when he asks a question. It’s so hard to watch. They’ve resented each other for years so this whole thing doesn’t help the situation between them. My dad used to clean the house every day; he took care of the cats and played guitar and did yard work and fixed cars. He played video games on his Xbox. Now he pretty much does nothing but watch YouTube videos all day. He will still take a shower and shave and he will actually take their recently acquired dog out for bathroom breaks, which I believe is at least one good routine for him. He’s lost so much weight, it’s scary. He still can’t eat much because he says everything tastes terrible. He will ask for a certain food and then when he gets it, he will only eat a few bites, maybe more, and then say he can’t eat anymore because it tastes so bad to him. I don’t understand this.
My mom still has to work full time and can’t stay with him constantly. Their insurance will not allow for a nurse to check in on him. She calls him to make sure he’s checked his blood sugar and my brother is close by and tries to check in as often as he can. I’m not in the area and don’t feel I can do much at all to help. I try to give her suggestions and I try to make sure she is asking all these questions to doctors but she won’t fully listen to me and obviously must not be asking the pertinent questions because there’s never any answers. I’m so sad and frustrated because I wish I could do something to help but I can’t. I’m gonna be 40 this year and I feel like a little kid; totally helpless. I’m mourning the dad I once knew, who I was so close to. He’s not the same person anymore. At least for now he knows who we all are and I’m trying to be thankful for that. Are routines good for people with dementia? If so, how can I help to keep some for him from afar? Will it even matter? Is there anything at all that I can do? I’m sorry if I’ve left out major details; please feel free to ask any questions in the comments. Thanks for reading my rant!
TDLR: Dad has early onset dementia and he and my mom are already stubborn af about taking care of themselves. Need advice on how I can help even in a different city.

My ex and I met at high school and dated for almost 6 years. We broke up as soon as I graduated university for no dramatic reason but just because he felt we grew apart and wanted to explore our lives independently. We were always on good terms and would catch up from time to time. A year after our break up he wanted to get back together and was putting a lot of effort so we got close again for about 6 months but something unexplainable was stopping me from getting back together with him. I had worked so hard on moving on that year and as soon as I began to he decided to come back. Anyways I decided to end things with him as I had a strong feeling of doubt although he was doing all the right things. Less than a year later I got into a very toxic relationship where my new partner(32M) asked me to block my ex and stop any contact with him. I unfortunately did that which drove my ex to attempt to reach out multiple times as it is very unlike me. The toxic relationship ended not long after and a few months after the break up I reached out to my said ex (M27) to apologize for blocking him and explain the situation I was in. He immediately replied and was very understanding and we caught up over a phone call where he told me that he has worked super hard to move on for the past year and has started seeing someone. This was in October 2022. I truly wished him the best and have been enjoying my single life ever since. Last week he reaches out to me and asks to catch up over drinks. I went and saw him and it was like we never stopped talking. We caught up and it sounded like he wanted me in his life again although he did not mention anything. Now he’s asked me to meet again and texted me a few times throughout this week. I don’t know how to feel about this and don’t want to waste my time or his. We are the kind of people who rarely fight or argue, and are super comfortable around each other so this could so easily linger. I don’t know what his intentions are and neither do I know mine. I’m super confused on how to and whether to go with the flow or stop meeting him. I don’t really have anyone in my life right now, I have a crush on a friend but it’s super new and I doubt it would go anywhere. I know that having a conversation with my ex would be fine but I feel it’s too early at this point - it’s not like he asked to get back together. Keeping in mind that our relationship (we were super young) was quite healthy and we align on so many things when it comes to life and values - our timing was just never right. I just don’t know why I have my reservations. Am i overthinking or once the paper is crumbled it can never be smooth again?
TLDR; My highschool/university ex of 6 years reconnected with me last week. We’ve had our fair share of ups and downs. Should i give it a third try or not even try?

Today I had a really good session with my therapist, she mentioned how my fear of abandonment, to not be heard, to be dismissed and all that stuff is all part of my childhood trauma that's showing up as anxiety. She asked me to reflect every single time I am annoyed or trigged by someone/something to ask myself if this emotion is real or is it childhood stuff coming back?
Looking back at a lot of my life history - relationships, work, job, regular interactions etc. is all so driven by anxiety and this anxiety is coming from childhood trauma by emotional neglect. I have fear of abandonment, which makes me clingy in relationships; at work I am worried if I do one small thing wrong I will lose my job or get fired; I have improved on friendships/acquaintances on being liked by everyone. I don't want to paint my parents as villains, they did what they did knowingly or unknowingly.
But now I am like - what next? What can I do to improve or fix this issue? I am so deeply programmed into who I am for 38 years! Is there any hope to reprogram my behavioral pattern?
Any thoughts?
P.S my therapist also asked me why I write/post so much on Reddit, I have definitely gained great information and advice from this group. So I guess I will be mindful about it.

This isn’t exactly about wanting to be a doctor for a long time, but more about the external judgment, I just couldn’t get a better title.
I’ve always been a bit hypochondriac, and I am emetophobic (phobia of vomiting). This made me never consider medicine as an option, for obvious reasons. I’ve had times where it was really hard to deal with, but fortunately at 16 I could say I wasn’t afraid of diseases, and my emetophobia got significantly better (although I still have it, and probably always will, now it’s much more manageable).
At this time I searched for some videos on YouTube with studying tips. I found a channel that not only explained studying methods, but also had many videos about medicine and life as a med student. As I watched them I realized I should consider medicine an option, and maybe it wasn’t as bad as I thought. After a few weeks/months I knew I wanted this.
I tried to tell my mom, but for some reason she always ignored that. For her it didn’t make any sense bc I decided that “out of nowhere” and I “don’t even like people” (I do like people, I’m just introverted). Now I’m 18. It’s been 2 years and she (and my family) still believe medicine is not for me. Not to mention she literally told me she doesn’t support my decision.
This, and all the people around me that “always knew” makes me feel like I don’t belong, like I can’t and shouldn’t do it. Sometimes I feel like I can’t be honest with why I want this bc it might sound cliche or fake. I feel like I won’t be a good doctor bc I wasn’t one of those people who always knew, who always had this dream. Am I the only one who feels like an impostor?
I know that many times this can be lonely, but it’s so hard to deal with my feelings and other peoples opinion. Trying to apply to med school is hard enough…

Maine Coon kittens can be a great choice for families with children. They are known for their friendly and sociable nature, which makes them generally good with kids. Here are some key points to consider when introducing a Maine Coon kitten to a household with children:
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1. Gentle Handling: Teach your children to handle the kitten gently and with care. Maine Coons are generally tolerant of children, but it's important to ensure that rough handling or pulling on their fur is avoided. Show them the proper way to interact with the kitten, including gentle petting and play.

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1. Supervision: Always supervise interactions between young children and the kitten. Children may unintentionally hurt or scare the kitten, so it's important to keep a watchful eye and intervene if necessary. Teach your children about the importance of respecting the kitten's boundaries and personal space.

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1. Training: Involve your children in the training process. Teach them how to use positive reinforcement techniques, such as rewards and treats, to encourage good behavior in the kitten. This can help create a positive bond between your children and the kitten, as well as foster a sense of responsibility.

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1. Safe Environment: Ensure that your home is safe for both the kitten and your children. Maine Coons are curious and active cats, so it's essential to remove any potential hazards or toxic substances from their reach. Provide the kitten with a designated safe space where they can retreat if they feel overwhelmed.

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1. Playtime and Exercise: Maine Coons are playful and energetic cats, so engaging them in interactive play sessions is important. Encourage your children to play with the kitten using toys that promote mental stimulation and physical exercise. This not only helps to keep the kitten entertained but also allows your children to bond with the pet.

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Remember, every cat has its own personality, so it's important to monitor the interactions between the Maine Coon kitten and your children to ensure a harmonious relationship. Proper socialization and a positive environment can help create a strong bond between the kitten and your family, leading to many happy moments together.
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i'm so hungry and i have my colonsocopy tomorrow, will one singular chicken nugget fuck it up for me? i've taken my sutab prep first dose and yes it is not good time right now but the broth is just not doing it i have the procedure in 17 hours.

I feel like there's no movies with good jumpscares anymore, its all just "psychology" scary and no end. I want a movie that will make me JUMP, I want excitement. The conjuring is a great example for a good jumpscare movie, its one of my fav horror movies ever! (btw, pls don't be afraid to go all out, idc how "gory" it is, I WANT TO BE SCARED!!!)

You have been a good woman your whole life, but you also have carried a secret with you that fills you with silent shame and embarrassment, because your fantasy doesn't match your personality at all. There is something secretly submissive in you that yearns to be satisfied. You long for a dominant, sexy, man to take control of you and discipline you. You want to feel helpless...dominated...NOT in control. You want to have your panties forcibly taken down and be spanked like a naughty school girl. You want to be pushed down over the sofa, feel your skirt lifted, your moistened underwear pulled aside. You want a big, hard cock to invade your slippery wetness, stretching you wider than you thought possible and making you feel oh so delicious!. You are a normal person, constrained by society's conventions and frustrated by your inability to realize your innermost fantasies. You want to be spanked with your panties down and you want to be fucked hard! -- you are already getting wet right now just thinking about it.
I am a well educated, intelligent & professional man who is physically fit and accustomed to dealing with naughty women like you. I will lecture you and instruct you to pull your skirt up around your waist as I kneel before you and pull your panties down to your thighs. The delicious smell of your aroused pussy will rise to meet me. You will feel the cool air on your bush and revel in the delicious anticipation. Then I will instruct you to stand against the wall with your legs spread and your hands above your head while I slowly pace about behind you and your clit tingles with excitement. You will feel my eyes on your pussy and this thought will excite you even more. Then I will call you sternly and bend you over a chair so that your pussy is in full view - wet, exposed, vulnerable. Oh, the shame of it. I will stroke your clit gently and when you try to stop me I will slap your cheeks hard.
Then I will commence the spanking proper. Perhaps I will use my hand. If you resist too much I will use a slipper or my leather belt. It will sting, but not be intolerable, and every now and again you would feel my fingers probe your fragrant slippery slit, making you gasp with pleasure and ache for penetration. Maybe I will tell you to reach between your legs and spread your lips apart with your fingers as I kneel behind you and slide my tongue between your sopping aromatic folds. I will continue spanking your now very red ass and you will be torn between tears and screams of delight. When your punishment is over, I will instruct you to kneel in front of me and take my big cock deep into your mouth, making you almost gag as I hold your hair and fuck your face while you moan approvingly and look up at me, your eyes wild with desire. When I am convinced that you want my cock badly enough I will turn you around on your hands & knees and I will wait as you kneel in that position until you BEG me to fuck you, and then I will grab you firmly by your hips and RAM my hard cock into your wet & swollen pussy hard and fast; banging you the way you were meant to be banged, until we both collapse in a sweaty heap of sexual bliss.
I know you are wet after reading this so lets do something about it..

Hi all. Got a campaign simmering, and running into some struggles for details.
Party is currently 5th level. Current arc has them hunting bandits in the wilds, who had the audacity to attempt a raid on a city temple. Still a lot of work to do for this arc, but puzzling over next step too.
Once bandits are dealt with, the party will find gold and goods linking them to a neighboring nation; neighbor was supporting bandits to destabilize the region, making conquest easier.
Fretting at scope/scale of the idea.

This is my first time building a PC. My current one broke down and now the mobo and CPU don’t work. I’m trying to re-use everything else that works as an emergency measure to get my PC back up and running.
I started with LTT’s most recent $500 PC build and subbed in parts that I already own and that still work, including storage.
I’m on an incredibly tight budget of “I earn half the minimum wage working UberEats,” so unless there’s a good reason to do so, I’m not willing to compromise on the parts that are marked as $0. I’m also in Australia, if that makes any difference.
Seeing as this is my first build, did I miss anything? I’ll be using this for GPU-heavy gaming and music production.
Thank you so much in advance!

Am I right? Because obviously ALL parents are like this with their children. /s (maybe)
"Why don't you just die?"
"Why are you so stupid?"
"Why can't you be more confident?"
"You are cute but you look ugly in photos"
"Your smile is ugly"
"You are too flat for any man to like"
"You are too thin, just like your father"
"Your nose is too wide"
"Your hair is not thick enough"
"Your lower lip looks like plants can hang off of it while upper lip looks like a thin paper"
"Why aren't you doing (insert field of study) like (insert any example kid in my generation like friend's daughter, neighbor, etc)?"
"Nobody hangs out with you at school. How embarrassing. You are not popular, you are an embarrassment."
"Never air family's 'dirty laundry' to outsiders. You don't want people to know anything. If they know stuff about you, they will use it against you"
"Pick a career otherwise you will just be a failure"
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All of the above, combined with controlling what I wear, eat, whom I can be friends with and not, picking my career, insisting on picking my life partner. Dismissing anytime I protested any of the above, threatening to commit suicide if I did not follow her orders.
Won a runner-up award for poetry and dancing competition. Response is: "Don't look too overjoyed. You don't want people to know this is the first time you won anything."
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"I never did anything to you. It was all God's will."
"There is no such thing as good deed or bad deed. Everything happens because of God. If I did anything, it's because God made me do it."
"You are just unlucky I don't love you"
"You can't force me to love you"
Stuff like above, combined with holding grudges from my teenage years + silent treatment + stonewalling.
...
I could go on.

Hey. It's late here in England, and I was hoping we could chat until either of us falls asleep. I think late night conversations are the weirdest, in a good way.
Hopefully if we click, we'll keep talking tomorrow.
I don't mind where you're from, but please be around my age or older. 23-26 is the ideal range.
As for my hobbies, I enjoy watching a lot of TV shows, soccefootball, playing video games, listening to pop rock, and using the chat function. Hint hint.
I'd love to learn about you! It's great if you enjoy fitness (tell me your gym routine), or travel a lot (what was your last holiday?), or just generally want to tell me one of your secrets that nobody else in your life knows!
If this post is up, feel free to message me and I'll get back to you whenever I can!
Thanks :)

Blood Wolves is an AOTC oriented guild that has achieved AOTC every tier from our inception at the start of shadowlands. Our weekend team which was established last tier also got AOTC last tier and is working to get it again this tier. We raid Friday, Saturday from 11pm-1:30am EST. We are currently looking for a tank as well as DPS for our team but will also consider healers if they are interested. We value positive attitudes and good vibes over everything and are more than happy to help players learn or grow. We are currently willing to take both cross faction players as well as players from other servers (we would still like you to eventually transfer but it's not required).
If interested feel free to message me at either:
Discord: Crulk#5274
Bnet: Crulk#1268

I've been having a really hard time lately with feeling like US culture generally hates me. While I don't feel specifically targeted as in, "We're gonna get that Ruby Mae bitch," I do feel passively targeted by the number of cis folks who are dismissive of or dangerous to our demographics and by the number of cis queer folks who are dismissive of or gatekeep the trans folks among them. That feeling has had my anxiety extremely high about living my life in public spaces and made me feel like hatching wasn't worth the trouble, like I was safer hiding myself. Today, while I was in the mirror with my face and cosmetics, I turned a corner from that. I went from timidly putting on makeup to hide what testosterone did to me to putting on war paint and giving no fks. The thought went like this:
Yeah, there are folks out there who can clock me a mile away with ease that are bigoted against me. Fk them. If they are trolled by how I present my gender identity, good. I hope it makes them angry and ruins their day that I wear women's clothing and have a penis. I hope it upsets them that I don't feel the need to uncomfortably tuck my plentiful bits away for the sake of their idea of gender conformity. I hope tacking goth onto that further aggravates them. I hope being inately and actively counter-culture is a problem for them because that's a them problem, not a me problem.
And yeah, I might encounter violence at some point for being obvious, but I have a conceal-and-carry permit along with a marksmanship ribbon from when I thought the military would "make a proper man out of me". I also have hand-to-hand combat training from that time. I'm a hard bitch, and I'm safer walking the street than most of us. If someone wants to commit a hate crime for their deity, for their nationalism, or just for funsies, I'm absolutely prepared to be their learning experience about how femininity and transness don't equate to fragility or weakness. I'm certainly not going to sit by and watch another one of us get marginalized -- I've always been the type to stand up for someone else even in moments when I couldn't stand up for myself.
I know those things aren't true for everyone and can't be true for some because staying unhatched is safer for them, but they're true for me. I can use what is true for me to my advantage, and while I have plenty of reasons to have anxiety about being openly trans in this culture, I also have plenty of reasons and plenty of tools at my disposal to enable me to walk with my head high and with a courage that shouldn't be necessary.
We can make it, even if we live in places like Tennessee and Florida. If your history has given you tools from self-defense to mental health management, use them for yourself and the other members of our community. We shouldn't have to be strong, but we're made of tough stuff in our individual ways because our paths have made us so. I feel my strength today, and I want each of you to feel yours, too. I want to encourage all of you today to dig deep and be your own empowerment. I believe in myself, and I believe in each of you.
What are you doing to feel strong? What are you doing to mitigate feeling targeted? How do you walk with your head high when you know there are people around who'd rather you didn't? What keeps you living life hatched instead of hiding hatched or staying in to avoid being in public?

Looking for first hand opinions. I love the look from what I can tell online the sound is pretty darn good to but so much is hard to determine from videos looking for some people with first-hand experience.
Supposedly, I’m six weeks out from receiving mine . I asked my local shop if they would recommend them or if they were familiar they said that they were familiar with them but it’s not a brand that they sell.
But I still love the way they look on the bike.

I had a terrible experience with my daughter's school this year and I'm still trying not to be bitter about it since we have many years left at this school. I'm hoping some insight could help me move forward. Apologies in advance since this is a long and somewhat confusing story. I, 34F, have a daughter (7) that just finished her 1st year at a new school. I've been divorced from my exH for 4 years and we have 50/50 completely equal custody. Most of the school year had gone smoothly up until the beginning of this calendar year. I had thought we finalized our schedule for 2023, but my exH kept forgetting certain dates he wanted her and kept asking for last min changes. I was really upset with him, and called him very upset explaining how stressful it is thinking my week is planned, and then he suddenly tries to switch up the schedule. He finally understood that what he was doing wasn't ok and promised he'd be better later on. Unfortunately, I think my daughter noticed how upset i was during this time; even though i did my best to hide it. Then things were really good for a month or so with no issues. I checked in with my daughter's teacher and she says she had no concerns with her. So I relax and figured we'd be smooth sailing for the rest of the year. My exH and I are communicating better. All is well. But 2 weeks after I talked to the teacher, she suddenly messages us that our daughter was sad all week because mom and dad aren't getting along. I'm really confused because we had actually been doing well. I pry for more information from the teacher and she just keeps suggesting we meet with the school counselor. I realize maybe the teacher isn't meant to discuss it with us and we'd learn more from the school counselor. I email the counselor and ask if we can do a phone call with both me and my exH so we can get the information about what's happening at the same time. Instead she just calls me completely out of the blue while I'm working. She says she just got off the phone with my exH house and already talked with him because she was discussing with my daughter's step mom about another student. (I.E. she was talking with them about one of my daughters step siblings). I already feel uncomfortable with the counselor at this point because I don't have any affiliation with my daughter's step siblings other than I know they live with her at my exH house part time. They aren't my kids and I felt like the counselor was invading their privacy by mentioning it to me. I tried to let it slide to get more information about what my daughter had said to her teacher. Instead of getting more info, the counselor dove into what free psychology services the state gives students for diagnosis of mental health disorders. And she dives deep.. goes on for 10 min!! ..about how I wouldn't even have to take her to the appointments. She can get pulled out of school for them. They'll dive into our family history to find out if she has ADHD or anxiety. They can get her diagnosed quickly, easily, and for free! I'm so annoyed and confused at this point because in all my child's life at her daycare, preschool, church, with friends/family, and at home.. none of us have noticed a neurodivergency symptom of her. It's not once been brought up. Usually daycare and preschool said she was an easy kid. Follows directions. Catches on easy. Makes friends. Basically just a normal kid. I tell this women.. no we don't need that and what does this have to do with what she told her teacher in class? I try to get off the phone with her because I felt the whole conversation was very uncomfortable and bizarre. I also didnt like suggesting to pull my kid away from her school and learning for a psychologist when there's not any neurodivergencies to report. I basically decided this woman was an idiot and didn't get her notes straight about what she was supposed to be calling me about. I told the counselor I didn't want my child to meet with her because she's pushing for things we dont want... I also sent her an email after saying I didn't think it was appropriate for her to tell me she was working with my daughter's step sibling and it's an invasion of that child's privacy. The weird thing too is my friends and the teachers swear this counselor is amazing.. and I just wasn't seeing it. Also, back story.. I am also a child of divorce. I also was recommended to see a free psychologist through the school's that did almost as much damage to be as my terrible parents did. I had figured we've come along much further than when I was in school, but it's like we hadn't changed in 30 years. At this point I still don't know the context or more information about what my daughter said in class. So I decided to just ask her instead. She said, she told the teacher she's sad her parents live in separate houses, but the bigger problem is that boys in class keep pushing her and poking her. I talked to my exH and he said our daughter told him the same thing. Well the counselor went straight to the principal because of my email to her. Also on the phone call the counselor had with my exH, she didn't mention diagnosing for neurodivergencies or any of the things she told me. So he didn't have a problem with our daughter meeting with the counselor if she wanted to. So the principal took this information and decided that since exH said yes to the counselor and I said no, that we were not in alignment. And insinuated we can't make joint decisions regarding our daughter. So I sent a long email back explaining everything above and that I'm ok with her meeting with a counselor.. I just don't think she needs to get pulled out of school to work towards a psychological diagnosis. The counselor spent all of 5 min observing my child in the classroom.. all she told me was that she seemed confident in presenting in front if the class. I never got an explanation for why this all happened. I know the secretary of the school very closely and her daughter has ADHD. She's also incredibly toxic and has gossiped about me. She told me that since my daughter seems sad at school, she probably has ADHD. I think what happened is since the secretary is really insecure about her own daughters ADHD diagnosis, she fed stories/gossip to the staff at my daughter's school about how her parents are trouble and there's something wrong with our daughter. In reality, our daughter is a very happy child.. she just isn't in a great mood at school because of the rowdy kids in her class. They push, shove, throw things, don't listen.. etc and my daughter prefers not to be touched. This is already very long. So I'll just wrap it up, but I don't think I can trust the school at all and I'm already dreading more years there.

So, while I'm not a SUPER picky eater per se, I am someone who is picky about the types of food I eat. This Meaning, I am not an adventurous eater, so I don't eat a lot of stuff outside of the basics, but I do eat a variety of foods that the same kinds of ingredients are in. I enjoy simple foods/meals that dont require a lot. I enjoy flavor and variety, but it's unlikely I'll venture out to eat certain kinds of meats and things like that outside of what I'm used to eating. Stuff like that. I'm also particular about texture and texture combination. I also have safe foods, like things I like to keep in the home or have often, and I have my burnout foods. Those are the things I like to eat when I'm low energy and not functioning in the way I usually do, so they're fast and easy more often than not.
With all that said, I am getting frustrated with my Karter and how he cooks. Most of the time, he makes great food, but he always (I've been with him for six years) makes the wildest additions to stuff. I spoke to him a few months ago and asked him why he feels like he has to add extra to very simple things that are already good? For example, he likes to add zucchini and squash to the rice he makes, and I've told him repeatedly that the texture of the rice with those veggies specifically makes enjoying the food really hard. He said he likes to try new things. And it's like...ok, but make your veggies on the side so YOU can add whatever YOU want to your food. Don't make a whole pot of food like that. Or when im like, "i really want some BASIC chocolate chip cookies," he adds stuff to it like cinnamon or ceareal pieces. Or if i want a fried egg sandwhich, he toasts my bread or makes my eggs with the yolk still a little runny EVEN THOUGH IVE BEEN EATING AND MAKING FRIED EGG SANDWHICHES THE SAME EXACT WAY MY ENTIRE LIFE. And then today, he made rice and beans and added carrots and BOLOGNA to it????? Why???? I'm getting super annoyed. He's constantly doing this even though he knows I hate it. For one, this is just ridiculous. For two, why not ask me if that's OK knowing how I am about food? For three, he spends all this extra time on food that I don't even like that much when he's done. I don't wanna waste the food, so I eat it, but it's such a chore. I don't get this. Especially since most of his cooking is really good aside from the weirdo shit he does for damn near every meal. If it isn't broke, don't fix it as they say. I hate to sound ungrateful. He's great to me, and I love that he cooks more than I do, but....It's just dumb and I hate it, and he's getting on my nerves.

TW for suicidal thoughts
I'm 16 and non binary and I feel like I have no other choice But I feel like my mom would use the fact that I have disorders against me if I'm right away Such as as my autism ADHD depression anxiety and suicidal thoughts as well as possible bpd
I know I'm not the easiest person to live with, I know I'm horrible when it comes to scheduling things with school But the treatment I get from my mom for doing simple things like sleeping through a non important meeting that's literally just playing a game Or not doing a specific chore within a "reasonable time frame" quite literally makes me want to hurt myself And no matter how many times she says she doesn't abuse me I don't think it's normal for your parents to make you want to kill yourself. I just so desperately want to escape from this goddamhousehold I truly don't believe I'm gonna make it to 18 anymore but hell I said that at 13 and 14 and 15 and 16 so who knows I'm too much of a coward to do anything but I can't live here anymore I just can't fucking do it. I want to get out but pretty much my only option at 16 is running that's a horrible idea because again "femininely presenting person" (I'm non-binary and use they/them but she keeps telling me that I'm very feminine) I Would not have a good dime on the streets I don't even have somewhere where I can get a paycheck anymore I don't know what to do I literally can't get help anywhere i don't even have a fucking therapist But I feel like a horrible person for even thinking any of this because my mom spends so much money to put me into a private school so I don't Kill myself I'm on 5 different medications that are incredibly expensive But then she keeps gaslighting me anytime I try to talk to her about how she makes me feel and says that never happened when I clearly remember it did. I don't feel safe with her I feel like I constantly have to check over my shoulder, Hide everything I'm doing, I can't sleep peacefully because I know I'm gonna get yelled at if I wake up at the wrong time But If I Stay up late and avoid sleep i get in trouble for passing out during classes and not being able to do things to my best ability because I'm so exhausted But If I Stay up late and avoid sleep i get in trouble for passing out during classes and not being able to do things to my best ability because I'm so exhausted. I wish my parents would just split up so I could live with my dad because I love my dad and he really understands me because he went through similar things to what I am going through mental health wise but hes on my mom's side with almost everything when it comes to me. I just don't know what to do anymore.