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This American Life's podcast this week was about delights that we find everyday. It resonated with me because yesterday someone said something about adhd's superpower or positives and I think one thing it gave me was the ability to remain curious and find wonder - because I was so daydreamy!
The episode (called The Show of Delights) is a great reminder to look for the positives everyday - even when things are sucky.
They refer to a book called The Book of Delights, by Ross Gay, which is a series of essays where the writer wrote about a delight a day. I am no writer, but I just bought myself a new gorgeous journal (I did look through the 20 journals I already have - (what is it about adhd and stationary?) - but they are all mostly filled) and am going to try to at least write a sentence about what delights me each day.
I know gratitude journals are a thing - but for some reason delight speaks to me. Gives me that giggly feeling of an 8 year old, running after the ice cream van . . .and it actually stops!
Anyway, hope it helps someone today - as you all helped me immensely <3

I'll be fast cause I need to Pardon for poor eng Alright so around 9 months ago I(currently 15 m back then 14 from iran)met this girl from India 15 years old sweetest person I've ever met no way you can find anyone more heart melting more adorable I can't complement more cause I won't stop,I am very serious about her I know we're both unexperienced as it's our first relationship but meh I'm pretty sure I love her to above the skies and I'm looking forward to spending every second of my life with her;yes im aware of what you're gonna tell me about our relationship but please were just asking for a way to hide from her parents
Alright so a week or two I developed a crush she found out a month after she confessed too and bam real huge bam
We've been together happily ever since
Now
One of main problems exept being 2800 and low chances of meeting anytime sooner than maybe around 2 years is her parents
Both of my parents and their spouses(both remarried)know about her so no biggie from my side
But
Her family is real traditional and religious appearantly
Under no circumstances(not even acting gay)can convince her parents to let her talk to a guy let alone have a relationship(she wasn't allowed to have social media till a few months ago)
Yikes indeed
So we're suspicious that her mom kinda knows as she went through her gallery and heard and saw her talking to me on call and other stuff so we're mid of a Lil crisis rn
So what should we do?how do wehide from her parents especially her mom since she's home more than dad and how do we cope?
Of course telling them would be a better option but not right now as well we don't know a way that could have the minimum potential to convince them
I was thinking about waiting a year or something so they'd know I'm serious but she decided telling them when she's moving out of the country(4 years I think or 3,depending on some stuff)so ya
Tl;dr:
Help how to hide from serious gf parents
Thanks

Usually I like to stay out of topics like this. But I was kinda taken aback by some of the comments on that post.
Now, I am not Muslim so i can’t speak on Islamic beliefs. But there’s a few assumptions a lot of people were making when essentially picking sides in that audio dialogue.

1. That the kids are even practicing muslims themselves.

Maybe it’s just their parents beliefs, and maybe they only ethnically look Muslim and they don’t practice at all even.
The teacher equates them not attending a pride event to Uganda’s law of execution against homosexuals. Are you serious?! And assumes over and over that they don’t accept homosexuals when they never said it once directly to her.

1. That the kids skipped school precisely to make a statement that they don’t believe in homosexuality/gay rights.

Firstly they’re kids. They saw a non-scholarly related event going on and chose to just skip out and go to the mall. I can tell you right now any kid can do that.
Secondly, not all supporters of homosexuality actively participate in pride events and that is a known fact. I even have literal gay friends that don’t go to those events and they have the right to choose not to. Some people just find it over the top. We are assuming again that these children are showing some form of non-acceptance by simply not attending a pride event.
Would you say that everyone who doesn’t attend a protest about Palestine’s oppression in Israel is a racist towards arabs?
It’s pretty clear to me that the teacher is the one with the actual prejudice. She makes several assumptions and concludes with “you don’t belong here” to a group of kids. If they didn’t have a complex, they certainly will now.

On Monday I got a call from my mum telling me my sister had tried to kill herself and that someone needed to get to her asap.
She didn't answer the door for 3 minutes. That's all. 3 fucking minutes, all I could think about was my little sister in there going through god knows what. I contemplated driving my car into the house just to get in (I'm weak and can barely throw a ball for the dogs I walk, so I felt fucking helpless)
She answered, she wasn't ok and it was so hard seeing her in the state she was in.
As the day progressed, I find out she had tried this a few times before. She lives with her partner and his parents, one of them has a ceiling leg hoist. Go figure. So I'm being told all this info and I'm so fucking angry, if she's attempted this before why do I not know? Why is this so casual? Why haven't you (her partner) or anyone done anything for her until now?
Why has no one taken her seriously? All I want to do is lay into everyone, I'm so angry for her.
She's been an alcoholic for years, I know she struggles but I've never been able to help her. I thought of all the people in her life, her partner would be the one to stand up??
He proved me wrong months ago by punching my gay friend because he thought my sister was flirting with said gay friend. Explains a lot tbh. I'm suspicious of him.
I'm not angry at my sister, even if she didn't answer that door I would never blame her or think she was wrong but holy fuck, I don't want to feel like that again. We're taking steps towards rehab and other help for her, now I know what's going on I won't let her down.
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And I don't like it. So I do not frequent this forum regularly as to avoid spoilers.
But Ive just finished episode 7 and it made me mad.
Let me first begin that Season 1 had a level where the pacing was consistent. Kept you on your toes each episode. Gave the season an overarching goal for the characters to strive toward in building the tower and radio to get communication from the outside world.
We also get crazy Sarah and her [redacting] some of the townies. Leading to anticipation for the end of season 1 where Boyd is supposed to go on that journey with her to find answers.
It also ends with one of my favorite scenes and one liner "You're wife shouldn't be digging that hole Jim". Sending an amazing chill down my spine & likely to a lot of the viewers as that was one the scariest moments for the whole season.
Season 7, however has none of that. What are the goals the overarching goals of the characters? Right now all we see is different theories and speculation which is all fine and dandy.
But none of the characters are actively working those theories. For a lot of these episodes all we get is emotional conversations. The first 2 episodes were the best of the season so far.
There is no overarching goal. The characters aren't working towards anything. We haven't even really begin to see the societal decline of when a group runs out of food & water. Which would have been far better to watch then this...
Episode 7 spoilers ends with Egin being drowned by some weird decrepit skeletal lady. Okay? And? I highly doubt there going to actually expand upon what that was. Or any of the visions that plague Jade or even Tabitha.
All season we get is the long drawn out emotional conversations, pointless visions, more mysterious drawings and visions, and at least 2 suspense worth scenes being the new people from the bus and Ellis being [redacted].
There are 3 episode left of the season. As per the reason I made this post because there isn't a lot of time left for them to at least address some of these visions, the weird dancing [redacted], or what happens to Elgin in the bathtub.
And I feel like there just going keep doing the same annoying stuff where the writers keep adding more visions, more aberrations, and none of it being talked about or even the previous visions being addressed.
That's it. Off my soapbox.

Pre-Global Outbreak Hershel Greene's farm has been in his family for 160 years. (Bloodletting) Hershel left home at age 15 and didn't return for his father's funeral. (18 Miles Out) He is an alcoholic. He drank heavily at the local bar every night until Maggie was born, and then he quit cold turkey. His first wife, Josephine, bought back his grandfather's pocket watch when he became sober, which he'd pawned long ago to pay for his drinking habits. (Nebraska) Dale Horvath and his wife, Irma, suffered a miscarriage. Before she lost the baby, Irma spent that Thanksgiving in misery from the meat aversions she was suffering. (Secrets) Irma Horvath developed cancer and later succumbed to her disease. (Wildfire) Daryl and Merle Dixon's mother died in a house fire; at the time, Daryl was old enough to ride a bicycle, and Merle was under 18. (Hounded) When he was under 12 years old, Daryl got lost in the woods and eventually found his own way home. (Triggerfinger) Merle sometimes made Daryl donate his blood for money. (Rest in Peace) Michonne is at school with her friend Jocelyn. (Scars) When he was in high school, Shane Walsh once stole the principal's car at lunch hour and filled it with chicken feed before getting back to school in time to finish his sandwich before the bell rang. (Save the Last One) Rick Grimes and his son, Carl, used to go on walks through the neighborhood when Carl was three years old. (Worth) Andrea Harrison's father gave her a gun to protect her and her sister, Amy, as they left for their road trip not long before the outbreak. (What Lies Ahead) Philip Blake lost his wife in a car accident 18 months before the outbreak started. (Killer Within) Terminus member Martin used to watch football games with friends on Sundays. He also attended church regularly. (No Sanctuary) Glenn had moved to Atlanta where he found employment as a pizza delivery boy. It was during this period where he gained insightful knowledge regarding the city streets and layout. Jim lived in Atlanta with his family and he was an auto mechanic specialized in vehicle repair. Theodore Douglas played football in college, and was given the nickname 'T-Dog'. 131 days before the Global Outbreak, the Wildfire virus begins reanimating corpses. Its existence is unknown to the general public. (Wildfire) Lucille discovers she has cancer and that her husband Negan is having an affair. Shootout day Rick Grimes and Shane discuss Rick's family. No mention of zombies. (Days Gone Bye) Rick and Shane engage in a shootout. Rick gets shot and passes out. (Days Gone Bye) Outside Carl's school, Lori Grimes and her friend, Paula, talk about Lori's relationship with Rick. Shane arrives and tells Lori that Rick has been shot and is in the hospital. Lori relays this information to Carl as Shane looks on. (Bloodletting) After the shootout day Shane visits Rick in the hospital with flowers. (What Lies Ahead) Lori and Carl then visit Rick in the hospital. Carl offers to give Rick blood. (Nebraska)

I'll be fast cause I need to Pardon for poor eng Alright so around 9 months ago I(currently 15 m back then 14 from iran)met this girl from India 15 years old sweetest person I've ever met no way you can find anyone more heart melting more adorable I can't complement more cause I won't stop,I am very serious about her I know we're both unexperienced as it's our first relationship but meh I'm pretty sure I love her to above the skies and I'm looking forward to spending every second of my life with her;yes im aware of what you're gonna tell me about our relationship but please were just asking for a way to hide from her parents
Alright so a week or two I developed a crush she found out a month after she confessed too and bam real huge bam
We've been together happily ever since
Now
One of main problems exept being 2800 and low chances of meeting anytime sooner than maybe around 2 years is her parents
Both of my parents and their spouses(both remarried)know about her so no biggie from my side
But
Her family is real traditional and religious appearantly
Under no circumstances(not even acting gay)can convince her parents to let her talk to a guy let alone have a relationship(she wasn't allowed to have social media till a few months ago)
Yikes indeed
So we're suspicious that her mom kinda knows as she went through her gallery and heard and saw her talking to me on call and other stuff so we're mid of a Lil crisis rn
So what should we do?how do wehide from her parents especially her mom since she's home more than dad and how do we cope?
Of course telling them would be a better option but not right now as well we don't know a way that could have the minimum potential to convince them
I was thinking about waiting a year or something so they'd know I'm serious but she decided telling them when she's moving out of the country(4 years I think or 3,depending on some stuff)so ya
Tl;dr:
Help how to hide from serious gf parents
Thanks a lot people!

In 2021 we were watching a video about how the mormon church doesn't hate gay people, they just don't like them because they have different views. My gay ass is sitting in the back of the room trying not to die because it was such pretentious "compassionate" bullshit. Nothing worse that that though

I'll be fast cause I need to Pardon for poor eng Alright so around 9 months ago I(currently 15 m back then 14 from iran)met this girl from India 15 years old sweetest person I've ever met no way you can find anyone more heart melting more adorable I can't complement more cause I won't stop,I am very serious about her I know we're both unexperienced as it's our first relationship but meh I'm pretty sure I love her to above the skies and I'm looking forward to spending every second of my life with her;yes im aware of what you're gonna tell me about our relationship but please were just asking for a way to hide from her parents
Alright so a week or two I developed a crush she found out a month after she confessed too and bam real huge bam
We've been together happily ever since
Now
One of main problems exept being 2800 and low chances of meeting anytime sooner than maybe around 2 years is her parents
Both of my parents and their spouses(both remarried)know about her so no biggie from my side
But
Her family is real traditional and religious appearantly
Under no circumstances(not even acting gay)can convince her parents to let her talk to a guy let alone have a relationship(she wasn't allowed to have social media till a few months ago)
Yikes indeed
So we're suspicious that her mom kinda knows as she went through her gallery and heard and saw her talking to me on call and other stuff so we're mid of a Lil crisis rn
So what should we do?how do wehide from her parents especially her mom since she's home more than dad and how do we cope?
Of course telling them would be a better option but not right now as well we don't know a way that could have the minimum potential to convince them
I was thinking about waiting a year or something so they'd know I'm serious but she decided telling them when she's moving out of the country(4 years I think or 3,depending on some stuff)so ya
Tl;dr:
Help how to hide from serious gf parents
Thanks a lot strangers on the internet

So I was bored and I decided to make a little quiz for you guys to see which one of my lgbtq+ friends you are like the most. You don't have to do this quiz, but you can if you want to. 😊 Ps. I'm not going to use my friends real names.
Question 1. What did you do on 1.6.2023? A. I decorated my room and made a ton of tiktoks. B. I met with my family/friends to celebrate. C. I spent the day w/ my significant other. D. I watched Stranger Things and ate chocolate in my bedroom.
Question 2. What is your big plan for pride month? A. I'm going to the pride parade with my friends. B. I'm going to get my first pride flag and go to a camp to have my own little pride parade. C. I don't know yet. Probably something exciting. D. I'll buy a big canvas and paint a pride themed painting.
Question 3. What is your gender and sexuality? A. I'm nonbinary and a bisexual. B. I'm genderfluid and a pansexual. C. I'm a girl and a lesbian. D. I'm a trans man and gay.
Question 4. If you had one day left to live what would you do? A. I'm going to turn into a troll and run around barefoot in the woods for the whole day. B. I'm going to dress into my favorite outfit and go have a picnic with my friends and family on a huge field next to the sea. C. I'm going to do as many things as possible. D. I'm going to paint, sleep and eat junk food for the entire day.
Question 4. Are you in a relationship? A. No, but I want to be. B. No and I don't mind if I'm never going to be. C. Yes and I love them very much. D. Yes, but I'm not sure if they are my one true love.
Question 5. Do you have any pets? If so, what? A. Yes. I have a very friendly dog. B. Yes. I have an indoors cat. C. Yes. I have an outdoors cat. D. Yes. I have a chihuahua.
Question 6. When did you realize that you weren't straight/cis? A. I realized about 1 and a half years ago. It was surprising to the rest of my family, but they are pretty welcoming. B. I am not sure when I realized but when I did I only came out to my mom and decided that was enough coming out. My family is very supportive. C. About 4 or 5 years ago. I came out to my family by just saying it and leaving it there. My family hasn't really discussed the matter, but I think theyre supportive. D. I realized about 2 and a half years ago. I realized I didn't like my body and when I noticed it was because I was trans everything started to make sense. My family is osmetimes supportive and sometimes it isn't, but they love me nonetheless.
Question 7. What is your favorite color? A. It's orange. B. It's rose. C. It's black. D. It's green.
Question 8 (final). Does pineapple belong on pizza? A. Yes, but not all pizzas. B. Yes if you want it to. C. No. I'm allergic. D. YES! IT'S AMAZING!
Answers: Mostly answered A: You are like my friend Troll. You are funny, childlike and you love the nature. You also probably hate shoes and sometimes have strong opinions. You are joyful and loving, but sometimes you get bad ideas and need someone to watch over you. Mostly answered B: You are like me. You are determined, kind and empathic. You believe in people and you are willing to help people. You don't always have an opinion and you let people do as they please as long as they are not hurting anyone. You also may have a bit of a temper sometimes and you won't let people walk over you. Mostly answered C: You are like my friend Cate. You are the boss with a loving heart. You are ambitious, strong and a great leader. You will not listen bs from other people and you are going to protect what's right. You will definitely not be standing in a corner listening and will speak your mind. You can be a bit arrogant, but you make your best efforts at being nice. Also you should learn how to ask for help. Mostly answered D: You are like my friend Riio. You are artistic, fun and have a great sense of style. You paint day and night and you have goals, but you can also take it easy. You are very kind and probably like spices. You own like 50 pairs of heels and every time you wear any of them you feel like a true drag queen. You can be a bit forgetful and often late, but just remember to set your alarm earlier. If you have a problem with somebody you often will complain about them to someone, but hey don't we all?
Thanks for doing this little quiz. HAPPY PRIDE!!!🏳️‍🌈🏳️‍⚧️💅

Watch for this pattern:

1. Conservatives are are shown something which to them is inconvenient or uncomfortable;
2. They don't want to have anything to do with it, so they stubbornly naysay it, and get made fun of for such;
3. They scramble to draw up fake grounds for their naysaying, such as misinformation, conspiracies, and so forth (these are quickly shown to be false, but conservatives don't care since it was never about truth for them but convenience).

Here are some examples:

The government says we should wear masks to slow the spread of a plague. Masks are inconvenient to me. Masks must be a conspiracy to muzzle sheeple.
The left says we should be more welcoming of LGBT. Gay and trans people make me uncomfortable for reasons I don't wish to explore, and pronouns are tricky to withcall. The LGBT 'agenda' must be brainwashing and harming children.
The left says we should drive cars less since they are harmful to the community and Earth. I like my big loud car. I see walking, biking, and public transport to be inconvenient sinceI know no other world than suburban America. This must be a communist conspiracy to steal away our freedom wagons.
The left says we should throw away less and do sundry things to help uphold the environment. This is inconvenient to me. Climate shifts must be a fearmongering hoax to yoke fools into following orders.
Women want to be on even ground with men. I am wont to seeing women as my lessers and don't want to do anything about that. Feminists must be seeking to take men's rights away.
The left says we should acknowledge the long history of racism this nation has. This is uncomfortable knowledge, since from birth I have been taught to love my nation. The left must be seeking to throw guilt upon whites.
The left says we should raise the minimum wage. I have been told this will make my fast food a few cents costlier. This must be a step towards communism.
The left says we should reform prisons to make them more humanitarian like in Scandinavia. This means I have to acknowledge criminals as human. The left wants lawlessness and chaos.

There are likely other examples, but these are the ones I could think of right now.
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Hi, so i'm currently with a guy who's recently like to avoid talking to me or i thought he'd be.
For context, he used to work and i know he's busy and all. I'm trying to follow his schedule etc just for talking. We've met occasionally but recently since he was unemployed. He has been avoiding me. I was thought that he might have sometimes to talk with me more, since we're new couple (about 3months) and i kinda wanted to know him better. So, sometimes i spammed him just because he's online or posting somewhere and not replying to me. He told me that he doesnt like it.
Before this, i already told him about my fears and his fears too. He was afraid of getting left while he still had feeling and mine's is basically just getting ghosted. Because thats what happened on my last. relationship. At the same time, i was afraid he wasnt moving on.I tried to pull myself one time bcs i feel overwhelmed by waiting for his text and other stuff. He texted me and i was replying with "I was doing that on purpose" with an explanation. and he's mad at me first. then i gave him a complete explaination. He 'seemed' to received it well. Then i talked to him more. as always, im the first one to text and yeah just a single text that receives.
As the time grows, he barely text me. One time, i found out he was going somewhere else bcs it was posted on gay groups and his hornet account and it's triggering me. I was trying to hold it in but i can't help but asked then spamming him again till he replies. I was asking him to meet me but he always said that "he don't have money" yet he comes to his friend coffeeshop. Maybe he's working there as a singer too? I dont know. He told me he sings once. So yeah, thats what i held on through. I wanted to come by and see him. He always said that he's somewhere else or going somewhere else. He doesn't text me back for like a whole day and text me only a good morning/good night thing. sometimes it just a one time text. Whenever i wanted to talked to him, he always in the middle of something. I mean, come on. I had to do something too but at least give me some news or anything.
Probably, it's just my expectation that HE could be different just because he would understood the feeling of getting hurts. Turns me into a toxic person or maybe i'm the one that toxic from the start. I tried to be positive so hard that i had dreamt he replied me and wakes me up fills with joy. only to find out it wasn't real haha.
Oh well, thanks for reading my story. It's all over the place i know since my english is limited but it's good to rant somewhere and stopped myself from crying anymore
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Tl;dr : I texted someone and didnt receive the answers that i expect. Yes, i'm toxic.

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I am tired of being told "if you do this, we'll leave" or "don't do this, ask us first." I am not being bossed around or gaslit anymore in my own server where people can try to invalidate my feelings just because I am gay and when I react I'm somehow the bad person, when I was the one who made 3 discord servers with 1500+ members in it 3 TIMES. I was betrayed by my best friend Jooty/Chi and I was talked about the entire time during the 3 years I was with them in their own discord server, so I feel like I owe it to you guys. This is not the end of W101R, as more people will continue to work on the project and more genuine people to come to the team of W101R. Here's the source, you will need WinRAR or 7zip to open it. The development of Wizard101 Private Servers will no longer be gatekept by gaslighting and nasty individuals anymore. Enjoy!

We have been together for 2.5 years and lived together for almost 2. We are almos 1 year legal partners.
Due to work and recently moved to a month we country, we have both gained some weight, but since we work out it’s mostly noticeable just on our bellies. I have noticed a decreased interest on our sex life for a while and although I have raised it several times, I eventually let it go, but his reasoning is that he is uncomfortable with his appearance and feeling ugly naked.
A couple of weeks ago I entered his office and saw a work chat with a gay colleague of his that works miles away across the ocean, however I saw some hearts. I brought it up but he said that there is nothing there.
I am against checking your significant other phones as I know it is an invasion of privacy, and he knows that I found out my long time ex boyfriend cheated on me and I found out through his social media and although he confessed, I later continued checking his phone and social media (very toxic).
Back to my current partner story, I couldn’t help it and I checked his phone and saw some messages with this colleague, that although were not sexual or super flirty from my partners end, the colleague said things like “you are hot”, “good morning handsome”, “I hope you had a beautiful weekend, you deserved it”, etc. My partner did compliment him a couple of times though.
Fast forward to last night, he was on a tram building with his regional colleagues, which is fine, but he arrived home quite late for his style for being a weekday event. We share locations so I saw he arrived, so I pretended to be sleeping already to surprise him. To my surprise, it took him around 15min to enter the house and when I saw the location, he was a block away from the house. I waiter a bit longer but I wasn’t feeling ok, I knew something was happening. I went out and confronted him and he was on the phone with his colleague in the middle of the night laughing and when he saw me he said “hey my husband just came to pick me up! Have a good night”, laughed and hung up.
I told him that cheating is not only sexual, there is also emotional cheating and that I didn’t feel good and even less when he knows I have been cheated before. He apologized but I asked to continue the conversation this morning.
Today she showed me his phone and let me check his conversations with his colleague, and asked me not to leave him. I asked to also show me the conversation on social media (that I already saw but he doesn’t know) and he said that he deleted it last night because he felt ashamed, and that I am right, that he unintentionally might have been talking to this guy without thinking of my feelings.
I explained how I felt and now k don’t know what to do.
I still love him like crazy, I think he makes me better and I make him better as well, I asked him to think about what he wants and tell me because I am not sure if I will be able to forgive and/or forget.
Am I overreacting? Technically he didn’t cheat, maybe it was just a platonic fling with a colleague but still.. what should I do?
Extra information: we have discussed several times we are not interested in opening the relationship, and that we both rather break up than cheat and or open it.
P.s i know probably this will only be covered (if ever) on a later episode, so I would like to ask for this community support

Here are some things that bugged me and I would love to know your opinions :) Feel free to disagree!

1. Why did Kitty forgive Yuri for what she did so quickly? I get that it was because Yuri is gay but her and Dae should’ve filled Kitty in on the plan. It was very insensitive for Yuri to do that and then Kitty forgives her so quickly..
   
2. Why wasn’t there more focus on Korea in the show? Kitty spoke like one word of Korean, celebrated Chuseok (kind of?), and that was it. I would have loved to see Kitty exploring Korea and eating authentic Korean food and learning the language but we got none of that because the show was so focused on the drama.
   
3. I hate how Kitty was so insensitive to Q. Q was an AMAZING friend to Kitty and she was okay to him. All she would talk about was Alex and Dae/Yuri to him. It was obvious he wanted more than talking about her own drama. When Q finally opened up to her about his own stuff (Florian cheating), she wasn’t at all understanding of the situation. She clearly says “Oh haven’t been there” when Q mentions Florian’s parents divorce so why wasn’t she a little more empathetic or kinder with her words? Q was right in calling Kitty’s hypocrisy out. (I also didn’t like how Florian cheated but I disliked how Kitty handled the situation)
   
4. Building off from that.. Kitty was really stuck in her own bubble. She wanted people to do what she wanted and wasn’t considerate of others feelings. For example with Alex, he made it clear that he was there to get to know his father and after seeing him, he didn’t want to build a relationship but she was really pushy.
   

What are some things you guys disliked?

My family is upper middle class, and we live very comfortably. We aren't millionaires or anything, but we have a pretty big house with 2 stories and a pool. I have my own room and bathroom as well as my own car. My parents are in a happy marriage, they aren't too strict (i mean I've had my frustrations with them but that's normal I think) they are there for me and I have a good relationship with both of them and with my brother. I don't have to deal with much family drama. I'm also white, cis, straight, and nuerotypical.
None of my friends have all of these privileges. One friend struggles to have good relationships with her parents and doesn't have an escape because she doesn't have a room. Another friend's parents don't support her as she tries to excel academically, so she had to get a job to pay her own school fees. Other friends are gay or trans and have difficulty coming out to their families and have to deal with family drama all the time. Some of them have religious families that have induced religious trauma on them as well (my family is not religious at all). Some others have divorced parents and have to move back and forth all the time.
I'm always a little embarrassed of my cushioned life when I first meet people. I feel like I often get close to them until they feel comfortable coming to me for advice or to vent about the issues I listed above. I support them in the ways I know how and they tell me I make them feel better. But once they find out what my house looks like, I feel like there becomes this distance. Recently I've fallen out of touch with several of my close friends and I fear this is the reason.
I go back and forth between two reactions to this. The first is that I dramaticize the problems I do have because I want to be supported the way I try to support others. This works in the short term but I always feel incredibly guilty for it afterwards because I can't validate my own problems and I feel as though I'm making them up for attention. Also I feel like it widens the distance between me and my friends when they realize I actually have nothing to complain about. I realize this is immature and selfish and when I stopped doing this I reacted by working as much as possible and not allowing myself to have fun. For a year I was either at school, at work, doing homework or asleep. I didn't even let myself have a lunch break - I worked through that too, in the school kitchen handing lunches out to others. That was how I met my friend who was there trying to pay her own school fees, whom I have so much respect for. I felt guilty back then too, because I didn't really need the job or the money, and I thought maybe I should've given the opportunity to someone who needed it more.
In the end I just forgot how to socialize. A few of my classmates invited me to parties and things and I felt so awkward. Socializing and having fun felt so foreign, I didn't know how to relate to my friends or participate in games. Now school is out and I have so much time to myself, even though I still have a job. I just feel so hollow, empty and guilty

I know these books make many uncomfortable and are seen as homophobic. I respect that and apologize for any discomfort. I'm queer myself, and I've read my fair share of romance novels since I was in my teens, but this topic is the type of taboo that fascinates me, especially when it is used to explore tropes you don't get as often. I think it interests me partly because I see myself as mostly gay but sometimes am drawn to women, and there are few outlets for this in fiction beyond drunken sex, let's-make-a-baby, lots of "now you're a real man" homophobia, or some kind of religious awakening.
I'm interested in this from the perspective of a gay man who realizes he's bi and does not just do so in the context of one woman and one woman only, instead being drawn to several women, or curiosity about women in general, even if his main catalyst is one woman. That doesn't have to mean he is all over the place, it can still be one woman, just not the "you and only you" aspect. I'm not a big fan of the "hunky couple whose lives were incomplete without a woman, they're already bi so it's already all go and we don't have to build a relationship beyond banging," trope (I'm aware there are some great books with slow love stories between bi men and women), and also not a big fan of stories where a gay man immediately falls for a woman and is automatically her best lover ever.
I know how narrow that window is. Who's Your Daddy? by Lauren Gallagher is the only one I can think of off the top of my head - where the book starts with a bi guy and his gay boyfriend, the gay boyfriend previously mentioning some curiosity about women, and they have a threesome with a friend of theirs, ultimately leading to a lot of good drama.
Any stories where there is a couple who both start out as gay and then by the end realize they're bi would also interest me, although again I know that's exceedingly rare.

My family is upper middle class, and we live very comfortably. We aren't millionaires or anything, but we have a pretty big house with 2 stories and a pool. I have my own room and bathroom as well as my own car. My parents are in a happy marriage, they aren't too strict (i mean I've had my frustrations with them but that's normal I think) they are there for me and I have a good relationship with both of them and with my brother. I don't have to deal with much family drama. I'm also white, cis, straight, and nuerotypical.
None of my friends have all of these privileges. One friend struggles to have good relationships with her parents and doesn't have an escape because she doesn't have a room. Another friend's parents don't support her as she tries to excel academically, so she had to get a job to pay her own school fees. Other friends are gay or trans and have difficulty coming out to their families and have to deal with family drama all the time. Some of them have religious families that have induced religious trauma on them as well (my family is not religious at all). Some others have divorced parents and have to move back and forth all the time.
I'm always a little embarrassed of my cushioned life when I first meet people. I feel like I often get close to them until they feel comfortable coming to me for advice or to vent about the issues I listed above. I support them in the ways I know how and they tell me I make them feel better. But once they find out what my house looks like, I feel like there becomes this distance. Recently I've fallen out of touch with several of my close friends and I fear this is the reason.
I go back and forth between two reactions to this. The first is that I dramaticize the problems I do have because I want to be supported the way I try to support others. This works in the short term but I always feel incredibly guilty for it afterwards because I can't validate my own problems and I feel as though I'm making them up for attention. Also I feel like it widens the distance between me and my friends when they realize I actually have nothing to complain about. I realize this is immature and selfish and when I stopped doing this I reacted by working as much as possible and not allowing myself to have fun. For a year I was either at school, at work, doing homework or asleep. I didn't even let myself have a lunch break - I worked through that too, in the school kitchen handing lunches out to others. That was how I met my friend who was there trying to pay her own school fees, whom I have so much respect for. I felt guilty back then too, because I didn't really need the job or the money, and I thought maybe I should've given the opportunity to someone who needed it more.
In the end I just forgot how to socialize. A few of my classmates invited me to parties and things and I felt so awkward. Socializing and having fun felt so foreign, I didn't know how to relate to my friends or participate in games. Now school is out and I have so much time to myself, even though I still have a job. I just feel so hollow, empty and guilty

For context this was before the NC. Also sorry for the long post
Summer of 2018. No covid. No restrictions etc. We decided to host a bbq for our friends and decided to do it on a Saturday. My DH invited his friends, I invited my bestie, her family ( kids included ) and a couple of other friends. My husband knew my bestie had a young child ( girl aged 2 with severe epilepsy, and numerous other issues ) so we set up the travel cot, brought down our baby monitors and had a kid friendly area in the shade for them. Hired a bouncy castle, set up a sweet station etc.
So basically we were all having a good time, having a drink, and entertaining our friends when mil rocked up and my husband went to the gate and told her she couldn't come in as we had company.
She had previously embarrassed him in front of his friends by appearing up one night I was doing a night shift, screaming at him how he's a fat waste of space, his friends don't like him they only pity him, he's simple, he's stupid, he is ugly etc etc
Anyway she came to our gate and demanded food. My husband told her no. She got on like an imbecile. She turned on the tears, shouting he doesn't love her, screaming at the top of her voice that my husbands friends only came because I was there and they are all having sex with me behind his back. So his best friend went to the gate, said something super quiet and she shut up. Next thing she tried to come in, and our gate is coded so we changed the code and she couldn't get in. She screamed again how we are a waste of space and then she said she was ringing her daughter to come down and "sort me out"
I told her don't bother ringing her and she's coming down anyway to bring my nephew down to play on the bouncy castle. She started screaming again about how her entire family have turned on her( my fault ) how noone talks to her ( my fault ) and how her eldest son came out as gay and she blames that on us. I simply explained he told us years ago he was gay, we met his fiancé, went to lunch, had them at our house etc and if it bothers you he is finally happy then check yourself.
She told my husband that I'm cheating on him with his best friend as she saw us in the car at mcdonalds one night. My husband calmly explained to her that he had picked me up from work as my husband was working late, he took me to mcdonalds to get some food, dropped me home and told me to text him when my hubby get home and that he would call up to give him some game as he left it in his house. She then said I was clearly just with my husband until someone better came along. I walked over and told her my husband is my dream guy. He has never lifted a hand, doesn't shout, supports me through my tough times, gets on amazingly with my family etc.
SHE THEN TOLD ME MY HUSBAND IS HAVING AN AFFAIR WITH MY MOTHER. I simply said well my mum is a good looking woman for 54 so fair fucks to him. This angered her even more as she said then turned it around and said I am nothing but a slut who shows my body to anyone who asks( this wad because I was standing in a bikini top, and shorts and my slippers( my house, I'm gonna be comfy ) and that is why my husband chose me as he knew I was easy. Considering I didn't sleep with my husband until 4 months into the relationship due to abuse from a previous relationship
This went on for about 2 hours in which time she was upsetting my friends kids. She left when my SIL came down and chased her away. Next day we had the rspca at our door due to abuse, starving him, restricting his water intake, and a million other things. The rspca came out, checked our dog, checked our garden etc. Said they didn't believe he was abused etc.
We do not see her at all now and she hates it. She lives in the street across from us. She rung my husbands work stating he was a drug user ( which my husbands boss asked him to do a drug test came back obviously clear ) contacted my employer saying I care for my FIL and I leave him in the house every single day, I hit him, I abuse him, I don't look after him etc. However I go over every day, tidy his house, make him a big batch of dinners and he simply defrost what he needs, lay out his tablets.
And MILs friends still ask why we are Nc