In the long run haley cass

This will get long so I appreciate the time of anyone who takes the time to read this and provide their opinion. I (M24) and my ex (F25) were in a 5 year relationship and broke up roughly 7 months ago. Having only been 19 when we got together, the dating ecosystem has changed dramatically since I was last single.
I spent the first few months embracing immense pain and loneliness, increased my frequency and intensity at the gym, endlessly consuming content to help me understand the psychology and biology of dating, break ups and attraction.
As the months passed I developed a fixation on self Improvement and have tried many practices to improve my self perception, to feel like I love myself and can truly love someone else fully without doubt and fear. Admittedly over the last few months, at times I feel consumed by loneliness. I have some close friends I've had since high school, I play soccer with a great group and also have good relationships with my family. All things I am deeply grateful for and I don't mean to take that for granted.
But I became used to a deep meaningful connection with someone I loved so deeply, I miss the I loves you's, the cuddles at the end of the long days, the feelings of purpose and fullfilment, the engaged conversations and feeling of progress in life when moving forward with a serious relationship. Due to this, I concluded after 7 self reflective months, it was time to put myself out there again, I downloaded all of Tinder, Bumble and Hinge to set up profiles and see what may be out there, you need to buy a ticket to win the lottery, you know?
With that being said, it's been a week and I find myself quite frustrated, in a range of ways. I understand dating apps can be brutal for men given statistics such as women swiping right on tinder only 5-10% of the time. However, I found some brief success with 15 matches and Tinder waving another 15 likes in my face trying to prompt me to pay for Tinder premium. One of the main issues is a lack of replies, the seemingly ridiculous high standards of women on these sorts of apps, and how boring almost every conversation tends to be.
There truly feels to be no connection, just a drive for everyone to get validation or engage in modern hook up culture. Apps are artificial and inconsistent especially for men, they also try and use your loneliness to bribe you into paying for a service that is portrayed as being free.
I know its only been a week and perhaps I need to display the same sort of patience I did while processing some intense emotions, but I find myself growing more and more cynical about the world in general but specifically dating as a whole.
To be entirely self reflective, I turn 25 this month and find myself often reminiscent of my last relationship, missing so many aspects of the dynamic that I often question will be possible to obtain again, even if I find something serious I'm unsure if I can love someone and trust someone so unconditionally as I have previously. I mean, especially for women there's always another option on instagram or any other social media platform.
Thank you for reading my narrative and this brings me to my concluding questions; What's the best way to navigate this ecosystem? Is it truly possible to have a long term relationship in your 20's that felt life shattering at its conclusion but manage to find full and sustained love? Is it really possible to have success on these dating apps if not a top 10% guy? I feel a lot of emptiness and loneliness and need guidance and words of wisdom, any insight someone could provide would be appreciated more than you would ever know.
Thank you for reading.
Tl:Dr: 5 year relationship ended 7 months ago, spent this time self reflecting and growing, downloaded dating apps but find myself cynical about modern dating as a whole, need advice

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Hi, I'm currently learning A1 by myself and been focusing mainly on the input, but ended up neglecting the output. Since I don't have many opportunities to speak with anyone I figured at least to try producing written dialogue. I wrote both the formal and informal versions of similar conversations. I know some things are missing since my vocabulary is still limited (things like saying "it was lovely meeting you, but i gotta run") but am I on the right track? Thank you very much in advance.
Formal
Guten Tag. Ich heiße Marc Braun. Und Sie? Wie heißen Sie? Guten Tag Herr Braun. Mein Name ist Klaus Stein. Ich freue mich, Sie kennen zu lernen. Ich auch. Also Herr Stein, wie alt sind Sie? Ich bin 37 Jahre alt, und ihnen? Ich bin 43 Jahre. Woher kommen Sie? Ich wird im Stuttgart, Baden-Württemberg geboren, und ich wohne seit 5 Jahre im Berlin. Und Sie? Ich komme aus Berlin und ich wohne hier auch. Welche Sprache sprechen Sie? Ich spreche Deutsch, Französisch und ein bisschen Italianisch, und sie? Ich spreche nur Englisch und Deutsch. Es tut mir leid, aber ich muss gehen. Wie ist ihre Telefonnummer? Ich habe die 9-4-3-6… und Sie? Ich habe die 4-…. Auf wiedersehen Herr Stein. Auf Wiedersehen Herr Braun.
Informal
Hi! Ich bin Jean Rabiot, und du? Wie heißt dir?
Hallo ich bin Érica Gonzalez. Freut mich.
Ich auch. Wie alt bist du Érica?
Ich bin 23 Jahre, und du?
Ich bin auch 23 Jahre! Bist du zufällig Spanisch?
Ja, ich komme aus Madrid, abe ich wohne seit 6 monaten im Hamburg. Bist du Französisch?
Ja, ich komme aus Toulouse. Seit letztem Jahr lebe ich hier in Hamburg.
Also welche Sprachen sprichst du?
Ich spreche Französisch, Deutsch und Englisch. Sprichst du Spanisch?
Ja. Ich spreche auch Englisch, Deutsch und ein bisschen Portugiesisch.
Was bist du von Beruf?
Ich bin studientin, und dir?
Ich arbeite als Kellner bei Antonios’s Bistro.
Es war schön dich kennenzulernen, aber ich muss gehen. Kannst du mir deine Telefonnummer geben, damit wir später reden können?
Natürlich, ich habe 48-63…
Super! Ich habe 78… Denn Tschüs!
Bis Bald!

Family Matters to me…
Looking in the mirror and rubbing my face the stress has been taking a toll on my mental state. I've been deployed three times for a year each, and what makes it worse is that the Ironbloods are causing issues with the rest of Azur Lane. Last year I lost all contact with my half brother Ludwig and his mother Bismarck. My dad was called upon to resign from his position and did so willingly. They tried that on me, but my Mom Minneapolis shut that down quickly. The only other person I was I contact with is Edinburgh's son Duncan who I hate to admit, has grown on me since I taught him a lesson in manners. He's on base with his mother and baby sister, due to safety insurance for them.
Lifting my left arm and running my fingers from my right over a white ink tattoo that Ludwig wanted me to get to match his black ink one two years ago I felt anger and rage building inside me.
Bringing me from my thoughts, was my phone chiming with an unknown number on the screen. Picking it, I answered.
"Daniels speaking, who's this?"
The voice on the other end shook me to my core.
"I found you… I finally found you." The cold feminine voice crackled through my phone.
"I don't know what you want, or why you are calling me, but my calls are monitored closely…" I retorted as I was about to hang up. I heard another person. Laughing in the background, and then something about my sister.
"Sister? I don't have a sister. If this is a joke I swear-"
Just as I was about to scream the call ended and left me with high blood pressure. Then a heavy knock echoed through my quarters, which caused me to slip and fall out of the bathroom and into my living room.
"Bloody hell! Put on yer clothes Maria!" Duncan all but shouted with his eyes closed and a red blush across his pale face.
"My clothes? Wait, why are you in my dorm room?!" I shouted and grabbed a slipper and spiked it off of his forehead before he could react.
Covering myself, well covering my chest as I scurried around on the floor towards my tank top hitting Duncan across his shins and sending him toppling right down on top of me.
Slowly regaining myself Duncan's body weight wasn't on my torso. Raising my head, I realized where his weight was…
"D-Duncan… " I started shaking as Duncan had a blush across his face after lifting it from between my legs
Soon enough he shot up and began apologizing.
"I'm sorry! Please don't hit me!" Duncan pleaded.
Seeing him almost in tears over what just happened broke my heart. My fears of being sexually assaulted when I was in the academy needed to be put away. Reaching over to him, and grabbing his cheeks in my hands I pulled him in and held his head against my chest. Despite all the shaking I managed to steady my breathing.
"No… don't cry it's not your fault Duncan…" I softly spoke with my hands on his back.
"I didn't mean to plant my face there…" Duncan quietly whimpered as we sat there for a few hours.
"I'm glad my day was empty…" I groaned as I set a plate of sausage and gravy down in front of Duncan. "You got a good view of my body… what did you think?"
Duncan quietly tried to eat the food I just set down, but I pulled it away slowly. "Beautiful… extremely beautiful… I only cried because of where my face landed."
Sitting right beside him, I reached over and placed my fingers with his. "I owe you something for causing you to cry… so will you hear me out?"
He nodded and gently squeezed my hand.
Taking a deep breath I started.
XXXVVVVXXX
As I was about to get Duncan off my couch the entire base was drowned in the emergency alarms blaring and I quickly turned around and ran out of my quarters grabbing my plate carrier and sidearm.
"What the hell?!" I shouted as I watched three massive mechanical dragons rise out of the ocean and were coming right for us.
I covered my face with my arms as a giant metal claw came down right above my body.
"Halt! Do not harm her!" A deep, cold, yet soft voice ordered as the shadows from the claw moved away as I fell on my ass, holding my pistol out aiming at the muscle bound mountain of a figure in front of me.
When they moved from the shadows of the mechanical beast my eyes went wide.
"Ludy?" I forced my body to ask.
Ludwig pushed his hands against the beast and it gently moved over. His face was not how I remembered it. Mature and serious just like Bismarck…
"Where is your new Kommandant?" He asked, ignoring my calling of his name.
I tried to respond but it took too long for him, and within an instant he grabbed my plate carrier and lifted me off the ground.
"Where is the bastard that hurt Dad!? Where is he at!?" Ludwig shouted as he tossed me up to the jaws of his rigging, letting it clamp down on my arm.
Trying to get his rigging to release my arm was fruitless and wasn't going to help me, so I grabbed Ludwig's shoulder with my free hand while shaking from fear.
"L-ludy… you're hurting me…please tell it to let go. Commander Reyes isn't…isn't here. Don't destroy the base." The pain was becoming too much to handle as I had tears rolling down my face.
I watched as his face softened. Then suddenly my arm was free from his riggings mouth, and I was wrapped up in his arms.
"Es tut mir so leid, Maria... Ich wollte dich nicht verletzen." He said softly before checking my right arm for any injury besides the bruise.
I held my head and leaned on my brother. "Why would Commander Reyes hurt Dad? And when? I was visiting him on Monday…"
"Mother sent me to find Kommandant Reyes, and drag him to Berlin despite the conflict between the Eagle Union and Iron Blood…" Ludwig helped me stand up as Duncan landed on the concrete a few yard's behind us. His rigging pointed at Ludwig's.
"Ironblood…" Duncan groaned.
"Tea drinker…" Ludwig sneered.
"Duncan put your rigging away." I turned around and stood between the two. "Ludy… Call off your beast…"
I forced myself to raise my right arm and pulled out my phone. If Reyes is doing things behind the eyes of the board, and government officials, then I'm going to have to do something about it. As Ludwig and Duncan slowly lowered their rigging and stood down I started to dial my commander.
XXXVVVVXXX
Sitting in a lead back cushioned chair, was a girl with similar looks to Maria, yet a completely different demeanor than the militaristic young woman. Calm, stoic and yet she had a Chaotic aura surrounding her. Clearly busy doing something that required her to wear a headset over the top of her head. She was in control of something else.
"Why don't you remember me… Maria?" The young woman whispered to herself.
Blue lights slowly came to life illuminating the entire room she was in. Something, or someone was checking on her.
"Salem… Zero wishes to speak with you…" muttered the tall, dark and menacing figure that was slouched over by the all too small doorway.
"Yes Miss Strength." Salem set the headset aside and stood up from the lounge chair. "Let me wipe my eyes…"
Strength moved towards Salem. Her feet hit the metal floor with an obscene amount of weight, and knelt down to her level. "She will not know you, until she manifests her vessel… you have tried to push it, but it won't budge unless she wants to… Human emotions are not my high point. So I do not know the answers you seek, but Zero has decided to assist you in your wishes…"
Salem ran the sleeve of her Eagle Union branded coat across her face and gave the large Siren a hug, despite protests.
XXXVVVVXXX
A/N: Book 2 started! 3 years have passed! Will family betray each other for country or will a dark past bring them together even more! Find out more in chapter 2!

Soo I thought one of toyotas features was that you couldn't lock the car If the keys are inside? I have a 22 camry xse & tonight I left my keys sitting on the seat of my car to run inside real quick. When I came back my car had locked itself. Luckily I had another set but I'm wondering if others have had the issue? It never used to allow me, but i tested it again and it'll now lock with my key fob in the car .

Hi everyone!
I've been writing (whether it be short stories, for roleplays, or otherwise) for a little under a decade. I developed a love for roleplaying when I was thirteen, my first exposure being in a group roleplay with some of my friends from school. Since then, I've been a fairly active roleplayer, writing everything from romance, slice of life, angst, drama.. pretty much anything you can think of. I've written for tons of different plots, played a variety of different characters, and written in many different styles.
I do have an idea or two floating around in my head (and by that I mean plot elements and characters, not necessarily entire plots) but my favorite thing to do is exchange plot/setting/character ideas back and forth with my partner and coming up with something new and unique to us. I find that combining my ideas with that of my partner often creates the best and most entertaining stories. However, I'm 100% down to give any plots you may have a look; there are very few things I won't try at least once.
For the roleplaying specifics: I prefer to write in third person, but I do fairly well writing in first person too. I consider myself to be fairly literate; I use proper grammar and punctuation (though I don't always use the Oxford comma) and write responses at least 5-6 complete sentences long, usually longer. Proper spelling/grammapunctuation isn't an absolute necessity for me, but it is a preference. Really the only things I require in a partner are responses that leave me plenty to work with, consistency, and open communication. I realize that everyone has lives outside of Reddit, but a heads-up if you're going to be away would be much appreciated. I will extend the same courtesy to you.
I prefer to use Discord for roleplaying, but I will use Reddit chat, Google Docs, Telegram, WhatsApp, etc. as well. Though you should keep in mind that I'm most active on Discord, so that's the best place to reach me if you prefer quicker responses. I do tend to be fairly responsive, and you can usually expect a message back almost immediately if I'm not busy or sleeping.
Just a couple more things:
I don't like (most) fantasy roleplays (this includes roleplays that take place in medieval times). Some are okay, but I prefer things to be fairly realistic and modern in the plots I write for. That mainly pertains to non-human characters, but I’m usually not into magic and other “fantastical” things, either. I have a hard time stretching my imagination when it comes to things outside of conceivable reality, unfortunately. And, I tend to stay away from fandom roleplays, because the ones I'm in are pretty niche, and I'm not active in the most popular ones, meaning that I'm not familiar with the source material and likely wouldn't be able to write for it the way you'd like me to. Other than that, I'm open to almost anything.
Thank you for reading! I can’t wait to see what we can come up with together <3

Hey, R4R30Plus! I'm MG. Here's a bit of basic info about me and what I'm looking for
I've been lurking in this subreddit for a while, but it's my first time posting. Probably won't be my last, though. I'm a strange, elusive thing, and the person I'm looking for is strange and elusive as well. I'm hoping he's here right now, but if not, I'm okay with sticking around and trying again for as long as it takes.
Before anything else, I have to say I'm living with my mom who has cancer, so I'm not going to be moving anywhere soon. She's currently doing okay and I'm hoping to keep her going for more than 5 years, but I'm trying to get this whole dating thing rolling now because time's really creeping up on me, you know? The other day, I accidentally startled myself awake by smacking my arm against my lips and I woke up thinking, "Whoa, that flesh is not as supple as it used to be!"
I figure if I ever want to have meaningful, passionate, and loving sex while my breasts still have a bit of lift to them, I should take the plunge and look for someone right now.
Anyway. Here's my first pitch!
In the fantasy world I'm writing about, the people of a certain religion used to believe that everyone has several spiritual creatures living inside them. There's a funny, little monster coiled at the base of your spine (connecting you to the earth), an entirely different creature crouched on the crown of your head (connecting you to the sky), and five others frolicking about in between.
This mental construct was supposed to help the believers understand that even though each of them feels like their Self is a single, discrete whole, the truth is that every person consists of multitudes. People are complex, contradictory. For these ancient folks, the process of becoming fully human was to discover and name all of these inner beasts, and eventually come to understand their personal humanity in terms of being both a single organism and an emergent ecosystem.
Nowadays, that metaphor has fallen out of fashion. (Evil mage. Hive mind. Long story.) But traces of it still remain in local rituals, particularly in marriage.
For example, many wedding ceremonies still have some version of "circuit binding". Each person to be married would be fitted with a circlet, with a fine chain attached to the back of it and dangling all the way down to the tailbone. Depending on the couple's wealth and status, there would be seven jewels or polished pebbles or papier-mâché flowers set in intervals along the chain, each with a ribbon fixed to it.
The jewels or flowers symbolize the couple's inner creatures. The ribbons symbolize vulnerability -- a reaching outward into the void hoping that something friendly would reach out back.
After the vows are said, the couple's friends and family would help them tie the ribbons together one by one: crown to crown, mind to mind, throat to throat, heart to heart, and so on. In this way, they're saying that this marriage is not just between one person to another. It's the marriage of the inner menageries as well.
If the heart-beast in one fails and becomes fearful and sad and filled with resentment against the world, then the heart in the other would move to cover that one with its wings, to compensate for the other's weakness until it's well again. If the mind-beast in one is just not very good at planning or remembering birthdays, then its counterpart would step in and handle that aspect of their lives. And sometimes, there would be just that simple, ecstatic union: instant recognition and welcome, like a golden retriever meeting a toy poodle at a park and realizing that no matter how different the other one looks, they're the same kind after all.
Basically, the two inner worlds would flow into each other -- filling each other's gaps or amplifying each other's strengths -- creating a circuit of spiritual power that's greater than either of them could manage on their own.
And I wrote all of that, not just because I wanted to give everyone a live performance demonstrating why I'm a childless, never-married woman at 35, but also because this does reflect my own personal philosophy when it comes to personhood and relationships. I do believe that each of us contains multitudes. Many of us are infested with inchoate, inner beasts, whose names we do not yet know. And while parts of us will enthusiastically roll around in the dog park together, other bits of us might not play well at all. But we somehow have to figure out how to make it all work.
Anyway, if you're a single/divorced and kind man who would enjoy discussing how we could mate what's essentially our chakra Pokémon* or other such weird things, send me an email. I will not reply to any comments, chats, or DMs here on Reddit. I do appreciate people who are not romantically interested but still want to leave kind comments, so I'll thank you in advance here. I see your good vibes and I'm sending them back your way.
But if you are interested in starting a relationship, please send me an email. Preferably with a picture of you and as much info as you're comfortable sharing. In terms of physical attraction, I'd prefer a man in his 30s-50s, taller than me (5'3 and up), who's at least somewhat active (would love to have a walking buddy someday). Also, I like dad bods. <3 Teddy bear cuddles!
My email address is not-so-cleverly hidden in the slideshow in my profile. And I know, I know, it's a lot of extra steps. But my ideal person would enjoy having tons of information about me, because I'd also like to know tons of information about them. (If I like you, I will attempt to read all your blog posts or look at all your pics, etc.) (And no, while I might sound like one, I am not a large language model hoovering up data from all over the internet in order to simulate human speech. But I am on the autism spectrum, which makes me similar. That said, I've devoted the past eight years to learning human empathy and manually building structures of kindness into my brain. Some might consider this state, er, unemployed, but it's important and difficult work that a lot of people neglect to do. I can bring value to your life, just not financially.) (And just so it's clear, I am not going to ask for money from you if we're just dating or in an LDR. Unless you want to hire me to make a dating slideshow for you or something lol)
Even if you don't decide to email me, as long as you've made it to the end, I sincerely thank you for reading through this! You must be a person of great culture and taste. XD I hope you find the one for you soon.
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^\Unfortunately, I've never watched Pokémon, I just have a vague idea from all the bits that have percolated into general culture. (My own formative childhood anime was Akazukin Cha Cha, which is like a dollar store Sailor Moon. ^^; I have the worst taste in anime.))

My sister is going to be in town this week, and the original plan was to go to Estabrook one of the days for beer and pretzels. My wife is craving their obatzda but ehh, it’s unnecessarily far from where we live in Stallis and I’d rather not chance running into my old boss in his neighborhood haha. Alright, this sub is great for recs, which I love joining in too, but this time is appreciate some help!

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- Managing Client Communication...
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I got my cat from a friend. When I went to puck one out, I wanted one to come to me. None did but one only looked at me. So naturally, I picked her. The second I looked to her eyes, or even half that, I knew the name they picked was wrong. Her name is Saturn. She easily adapted to my apartment from her cramped home. It had many cats. She seemed so different.
I got her to help with my suicidal thoughts and PTSD. I have frequent nightmares, but after a while, she'd wake me up during them. It was sweet and I felt comfort. Some nightmares included her. The only ones she didn't wake me up for,but I'd wake up by my own and in a panic look for her. I always have realistic dreams, after I am able to tell, but not in the moment.
She was quick to respond to her name, people and what made me happy or laugh. My old roommate didn't quite like her. But, soon Saturn watched shows with her, and then she too was taken to my cat. But I started to notice any fights we had, she'd get sick after. Who knows, a weird coincidence. After we did go separate ways, she didn't get sick anymore. My new roommate and our friends, we all love Saturn. And she very quickly again adapted to the new life, people too. After my roommate got a cat herself, it's when Saturn became much more close. It seemed like typical cat behavior.
But instances happened again. A friend came by with my roommate while I worked. I came home and said hello as usual. When our friend said, "we thought you were home already?" I shook my head, "no, I get off at 8." It was currently 8:15. I walk to and from work, I walk fast too. "It was in the living room, like your laugh," my roommate chimed in. I have a distinct laugh and voice. Saturn walked in from the living room to say her usual hello. I bend down to pet her "Maybe Saturn is a skinwalker," I said and smiled. We all joke about it and went out to eat. When we came back I went to bed and really thought about how anyone sounds like me.
I turn to my cat, who always lays in bed with me. "Are you a skin walker Saturn?" I said as a joke. She woke up and stared into my eyes. She didn't break the eye contact. We had staring contests and she looks away after usually 5 seconds. But I looked more. Her yellow eyes, now have green centers. She had orange and yellow before. I could have sworn. And this time, I looked away. I pet her and say good night.
Then another bad dream. One where someone from my past was trying again to hurt me. I woke up to see Saturn, sitting on my chest, looking down. I never lay on my back. I always wake up on my side. Unlike her usual cuddles, she only stared. I turned gently so she know I want to lay back to my spot. She moves to be back at my feet.
But other instances appear. I complained about our loud downstairs neighbors to my roommate. Saturn also hated noise I'd say, she'd always look at me if something was annoying. I'd usually say "I know," and pet her. Those neighbors got less loud. I could hear them walk, but that's it.
Another thing, my old apartment is across my new one now. Trees are in the way, but visible. One day after joke complaining on the phone with my mom about the place being a safety hazard. A truck had caught fire that night in their car lot. I never put two and two together before now.
I only told my self "a coincidence " to ease myself. But there's no way it is. Not after the last bad dream with my cat in it.
I was almost out of body dreaming, before shooting to a void like room. A voice, almost echoed but quite, it was, unexplainable,but it had its own way of speaking, then it spoke to something I could understand, "Do you wish to die?" I knew I wanted to so badly but then remembered Saturn. Would anyone know how to take care of her? Before I was able to say 'not now' out from the void came...a creature. It stood on two legs, both being ones of a lamb or goat. It had a dark cloak and just a sense of dread. It's long arm reached out, an almost skeletal but had remains of almost human skin. The eyes looked to me, it was, scarily,my own cats eyes. But the face to something I never seen, something I can't explain. It couldn't be a cat skull, the muzzle was too long. But, I wasn't scared, I was..comforted. before I could say anything, it spoke, "So, you want to live for me". I felt confused and somehow couldn't speak I tried thinking my answer instead ' no, for my cat saturn' Whatever it is, laughed, it's laugh then,sounding like a collection of people and friends. "You do not understand "...IT paused "I am Saturn, which means, you only live for me'" I froze,before waking up again faster.
I look to see Saturn...whatever she is laying on chest and looking at me. I was up for a bit after. And I knew that's NOT a dream. Something she wanted me hear. Nothing is a coincidence. I liked a friend,who was dating someone, and I respect their relationship. But they broke up. Then so many things I could have made jokes about or Saturn knew. I don't know what we brought in. I talk about my own issues to Saturn,she hasn't done anything to me. She wants to destroy something, but not me.
Saturn is not a cat. But whatever she is, she likes this chaotic world I'm in. And follows me. Whatever she has, won't hurt me right? If I tell her it's ok? If she knows I'll be safe? Whatever she is only has dark intentions. I only have Good luck now with her than I ever did. I don't want to loose my one good thing in life. Maybe we can work together. The people who abused and bullied me....I got them now. And no one would guess a cat did it.

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Hello everyone,
I have been off of keto for about 1.5 weeks, and it was a terrible mistake. I thought I could transition to a regular diet, but wow, I was very wrong. My cravings have been extremely abnormal, and my appetite has been very high. I am always craving sugar, and I have been eating an excessive amount of sugar since I have been off of keto. I feel very embarrassed. I know that keto makes my OCD and anxiety better, but I thought I could manage eating a regular diet. I have been eating so many cookies and other carbs. This is the most cravings that I have ever experienced in my life. It feels like I have no control or discipline; except when I’m doing a keto diet. I think that I will have to do a keto diet for a very long time, and closely watch my electrolytes and not have any cheat meals this time.
Any advice or suggestions?
Thank you in advance!

So I did my last pill Thursday and took some bupe Friday evening. Did not wait long enough and didnt feel the bupe for the first two hours so I had onboard about 10mg of bupe after 3-4 hours. Ended up in the ER after violently going through withdrawal, the worst thing I’ve ever gone through. They gave me another 8mg of subs in the hospital and I’ve taken only 1mg since then and that was today. Still feel like shit but I feel like the PWD got me through most of it or it could just be the bupe still in my system. I do not want to start if I do not have to and I’m very tempted to just ride it out and not take anymore. I’m in an IOP and have good support with 0 desire to use. Am I just going to crash in a day or two or am I through the worst of it and should just tough it out. Really don’t like the side effects of bupe. Would love to hear your experiences.
Day 4 stay strong, onward 🙏🏻

TLDR: Do I just have commitment issues that I will work through given enough time and consistent love, or do I really just not love my boyfriend and need to cut him loose?
I met my boyfriend through a mutual friend in late fall of 2022 (we’ve been dating about 8 months now.) When I started dating him, I was going out with a bunch of different people - folks from dating apps, people I had known irl, etc. I was in sort of a manic, date-everybody phase, because I was recovering (or trying to recover) from a really traumatic heartbreak. I hadn’t gotten over this heartbreak yet - didn’t even really see it as being over - and thought of my dates as being something-I-was-doing-to-bide-my-time until my ex saw sense and asked for me back. Before this heartbreak (my best friend of 3 years, with whom I had an extremely codependent-turned-romantic relationship) I was previously in a 4-year relationship with a guy who asked for our relationship to be “open” and said “I know I want to marry you eventually, but not until we’re 30” the entire 4 years we dated. And long before that, my first love was a boy who committed suicide just as soon as we had started to drift apart. Suicide has been a theme around me all my life - neighbors, uncles, classmates, etc - but that one hit the hardest because at 18 I thought he was my soulmate.
Other than these stories, though, I don’t have a history of abandonment. I have amazing parents, a great family, good friends.
So I’m wondering: is the reason I want to break up with my boyfriend just that I have abandonment/commitment issues? Or would my romantic doubts go away if I was with someone I truly loved?
My boyfriend is crazy about me - lately a day doesn’t go by where he doesn’t mention wanting to marry me and “look into my eyes forever” etc. He’s started calling me his future wife. It’s sweet, but I feel so guilty because I feel like I’m lying when I say it back. Ultimately the feeling I have is: “Sure, it would be nice to be this loved forever.” It’s nice to be with someone who adores you. On paper we are totally compatible; his lifestyle and mine work well together. And he’s a really good person. I just sort of find some things about him… annoying. He’s fussy and whiny in ways that I am not. He pouts when he doesn’t win a board game. He can be a little patronizing to me when I don’t make the same choices as him in regard to eating healthy/putting a ton of money in my retirement account etc. He doesn’t command a room in social events; he tends to slink in the background. He tells his friends EVERYthing about our relationship, including sexual anecdotes or embarrassing stories that don’t make me look good. He feels like he is “behind” his other friends, who all have somewhat-higher-paying jobs than him, and some of whom are married with kids. And he’s not… sensitive, in the way the other men I’ve loved have been. Poetic/romantic/in tune with the world/a lover of literature & theatre. Those things are not him. He thinks [redacted megasuperstar pop artist] is the height of lyrical depth. But on the other hand, he is incredibly attentive and affectionate, smart and pragmatic, disciplined and a hard worker, social [with his own friend group, all of whom are deeply good and enjoyable people to be around], kind to his family and mine, an incredible sex partner, and willing to do basically anything for me.
I finally had a conversation with my ex last week where we laid his old feelings for me to rest. It had been hard for me to move on throughout this time, because my ex went from a separated marriage (which I didn’t want to get in the middle of - that’s why I left him) to a new girlfriend right away, before divorcing his wife. And yet while he had the new girlfriend, he would hit on me, or tell me that he was jealous to hear I was going out with new people, etc. Anyway, he finally clarified that he’s happy in his new relationship and doesn’t want to be with me. Fine. That is some relief to me and can allow me to set down the part of myself that expected us to get back together.
But these great loves, like that ex, they come around so rarely. And my current boyfriend is not one of my great, soul-gripping loves. But he is the first guy I’ve ever been with who has committed to me, who I know loves me so much.
I keep waiting to see… if I just wait long enough, if I really will love him back to the same degree he loves me. Am I only pushing him away because vulnerability scares me, or because I’ve been “rejected” so many times that acceptance feels cringey? Do I just feel like I’m supposed to be the one doing the chasing, and having someone else do the chasing feels wrong? Or do I really just not like him, and should I set us both free to find someone else?
I find myself being rude when I’m with my boyfriend - deliberately provoking arguments, texting other guys/being on my phone when I’m in his house, and generally not putting forth as much effort as he puts in. I don’t like these parts of myself. I don’t like the version of me that I am around him. But that’s not his fault. Would I be equally insufferable with anyone else too? Am I the problem?
Am I just using him? Or is this an acceptable part of a healing process where I learn how to be loved? Or is this what love looks like for most married people - should I be happy with this very practical relationship and settle into it?
I’m leaving for the summer for grad school and I’ll be gone for 7 weeks. That’s making me feel like there’s a ticking clock on our relationship - like if I’m going to break up with him, I should do it soon, so he can have a fun single summer and move on. And especially now that he’s starting to talk marriage - I don’t know what I would do if he proposed. Of course it would be so flattering to be proposed to, and would make me feel safe and loved. And there are things I really love about this man. But… I’m just not sure. I felt like I left all these other doors open when I started dating him - I “broke up with” all the other guys I had been going out with, and now I keep wondering whether I might be just as happy with any of them as I am now with this boyfriend.
Is this all just arbitrary? Do soulmates come around so rarely that most people just pick a decent partner and go with it? Am I being ungrateful?
Please help. I am worried he is going to propose and I will say yes with my head and not my heart.
(This is my first time using reddit - thanks in advance for any advice you might have.)

Hi all,
My mom is 77 y/o. My dad passed away 9 years ago and ever since she hasn't been the same person. She constantly talks about him, specifically the day he died, how he died (of a heart attack), every little detail. She practically relives it over and over and again.
When he died, she lost his social security which is normal and to be expected. I borrowed about $5,000 from her in 2015 and had been paying her slowly back until 3 years ago. I go to visit her one night in 2020 and she asks me if she could have some extra on top of what I usually was giving her. I tell her I should be able to and ask how much. She say's "all of it." I'm like, mom, what have you done?
That was the beginning of a journey into hell. It turns out that she worked up $30,000 in credit card debt, then went and got a home equity line of credit or HELOC against her house. She paid that 30k in CC debt off, then maxed out those very same credit cards again to the tune of another 30k and then maxed out her 50k HELOC. So all told, she amassed a total of $110,000 in debt with only $1,500 in social security income per month. 30k the first time, 30k again and 50k in HELOC.
Ever since I've been supplementing her income. I almost always buy her groceries, pay her internet and TV bill, pay for any repairs around the house. If its broken I fix it and if I can't fix it I replace it or have it repaired. I've become very handy around the house so to speak.
I'm hemorrhaging cash. For instance, on top of her internet/TV/other bills I help with I just cut her a check for $400 Thursday 06/01. Today, Monday 06/05 she tells me she needs more money. She acts like I'm made out of money. She belittles me, saying things like "You don't know how much it costs to live." People, I'm 46, married with 5 people including myself under my own roof. I am the sole provider for my family. I KNOW how much it costs to live. We ourselves have a HELOC. She has asked me if I could draw against it to help her. I refuse to go into debt to solve hers and have told her as much. This month it was $400, last month she asked me for $839. She didn't get $839. Its never $20 or $50 or even a $100. Its always hundreds of dollars she needs.
I requested to have myself added as an authorized signer on her checking account. She refused to do so. "She can pay her own bills." Yeah with my money! She can't even tell me where $110,000 went or how she spent it!! If I had spent 110,000 I would have a Silverado 3500 dually in the driveway!! Or a boat, something!!
Her debt is: 50k HELOC 5k unsecured bank loans 6k Amazon Chase CC 1k Hospital bill
She's broke and she's breaking me. This situation has driven a wedge between us as big as the Grand Canyon and I hate it.
She's angry all the time. Angry with me. You should hear some of the things that come out of her mouth. She's bitter. She's bitter at life, she's bitter at me. She's soooo mad and it shows. And I can't help her any more than I already am but it's never enough. I have 2 homesteads to maintain now. I just had hand surgery and am all bandaged up and today she says "I need you to help me. I need help. When are you going to fix this light?" I had surgery Friday and she calls me Saturday asking me to go the grocery store for her. I'm like, no, I'm not going anywhere for a few days mom. You'll just have to go yourself this time. Its not going to hurt you.
I don't know what to do. I'm running out of options. She's so mean and hateful and all I'm trying to do is help as much as I can. I want her happy and I don't want her to lose the house (THEN WHAT!??!?) so I help physically and financially to the very best of my ability.
I'm lost. I'm tired and I'm hurt. What would you do? I never dreamed I would have this kind of problem after dad died.
Thank you for your time.

Something on Facebook made me think of this. Name a place you’ve been to in Saskatoon that disappeared and now you’re doubting it ever existed.
For me it was a mom and pop hole in the wall donut shop on 22nd in the Westgate plaza strip mall in 1991. Was this long narrow shop between stores. Walked in one morning, had a coffee and a donut while heading to a short term job out along Fairlight. Next time I was there the donut shop was gone. As if someone had removed the whole thing and the stores to either side had closed the gap. Anyone remember that place or was I tripping?

Why is it popular to have passwordless sudo access for the ansible user used for ansible playbooks (recommended for good security practice as opposed to using the root user)? If you're running ansible-playbook anyway then --ask-become-pass can pass that for the ansible user when running the playbook to do everything already.
So I assume it's purely for convenience when running ansible-playbook to not be prompted for a password, but if it it's doing privileged stuff on all your nodes, I feel like it should prompt you for the password. After all, aren't you guys using sudo passwords for typical desktop system usage like merely updating your system? I can only understand in the case that if you're brave/lazy enough to work on a user with passwordless sudo (or even as root) on your own system where you're not used to entering passwords.

I have a small home network: 4 computers basically and it is mostly for leisure; so no need to run work stuff.
Was looking at buying a F4-210, since it is the cheapest 4 bay NAS on the market with an OS that is self contained, but I was told to not get one because they have no way to do backup and are basically EOL, as there won't be more upgrades, compared to the Intel version (which cost twice as much).
Looking at videos online it seems that nobody buy those; the most common is the F2-210 or the F4-220, which is the intel version... So I was wondering if for the price today is it worth.
I want it to use it as main central point for my music, videos and files, to be used on my 4 windows machines, and as backup. One thing that the Arm version seems unable to do is backup from a disk to another: you can backup to another server, to a usb connected disk but not from a disk to another disk in the NAS. It has very few apps on the store, from what I can see in videos on youtube, so it seems very limited.
If I need to run backup from my computer all the time, that defy the purpose to have a NAS running its own OS, as I would like for it to take care of the backup on its own (I want to have a large disk being the backup of the other 3 disks basically, and act also as backup fro the 4 computers on the network); but so far got no clue if the F4-210 can even do that.
Some people said you can install other OS, add more ram or M2 drives on the NAS, but that seems to apply only to the X86 version, not the ARM, right?
Any clarification and help is welcome; as I am not able to spend 400+ dollars for a 4 bay NAS, nor I can afford to buy more drives in larger capacity, so I have to use the drives I have (12 TB, 4 TB, 4 TB and 8 TB); so this is the best option to use all 4 drives, or I need to scale down and go for a synology 2 bays or build my own (which would be bigger, more power hungry and less easy to use for sure)

I have some friends send me a lot of/very long vocal messages, and even I love them I get very tired listening them. I even cut the conversation, or disconnect in the middle of for the same reason. I think I have also distanced myself from my IVL friends because it was difficult for me to keep up with them.
I mean, sometimes I also send vocal messages because is easer or I'm too lazy to explain something in a texto. But, it's very rare. And I ask before to do it. I prefer 1000 tines to read a big paragraph before a lot of vocal messages. TwT But I don't know if it's hypocrite from me because I also send them occasionally.