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2023.06.01 23:46 shamanowl888 What I learned Today- The Mind Follows Where the Body Goes

Recently, I've endeavored to approach my spirituality with Healing being my main focus.
I believe firmly that this coincides with my intense interest in necromancy, and naturally my affinity towards Death. My unique spiritual DNA, I think, has to do alot with my own personal tower moments. Times in my life where I faced the deepest ravines of my personal shadow, where my ego was cut with a scythe; albeit, allowed to regrow again over time. Friends, honestly, I used to be thick in the gangs, the drugs, and that lifestyle which guarantees never tomorrow. The past, my past, was an eclectic mix of many different social circles.
My path was walking through fire the whole time. Whether self-afflicted, or a casualty of war, it is a miracle I am alive. I testify to Santa Muerte always watching over Me.
I know my addiction is in the past, and I don't mean to always thread it in my reflections.
In deepest conviction, I feel and believe it speaks alot about where you are today ... when can use the past as a focal point for real change. It's like all of the sudden, when I got serious about who I am, where I want to go, and how to become who that man is (the one I visualized for so long, the one I needed to be to myself), the one I visualize in daily meditation; all the sudden... the low notes were transposed into a symphony. I have a real family now, I am going to be a Father. I am a rising pillar in the local recovery community. I've been able to be of spiritual assistance to human family that I meet along my journey. To Be this far and look back, it is humbling. Silently I admit, absolutely, a sign post of the turn around is the Spirits. Belial for sure, Lucifer, Paimon, Abaddon. Absolutely, integral, is Santa Muerte. For real, she is so powerfully with Me; I feel a new level of peace and comfort never before felt in this lifetime.
I feel in my heart, the reason I am sharing all of this previous information, is to help explain to you why I feel it's worthy to share today's experience. All of my sharing, has nothing to do with "my" genius, rather this story stands as a testament to the power of Santa Muerte.
Today I woke up at 5Am, meditated on "restoration" for an hour. I dropped my Sananga eye drops into my eye, slowly breathing and accepting the sting of the medicinal sananga eye drops. Sananga is a power filled medicine imported from Brazil. These eye drops utilize subtle energetic medicine to slowly decalcify the pineal grand. Sananga clears the "panema" from the eyes, panema being an indigenous term to reference "dark energy" or stagnant energies which disinhibit our true vision. Our true vision perceives not only the 3 Dimensional, but also the 4 Dimensional and higher; or in a sense, the fullness of the astral plane and spiritual dimensions.
I dropped the Sananga, and I jogged to the park which was 2 miles away. I was going to be a little late unless I sprinted, so I ran without stopping. The whole time I kept thinking "don't be a bitch" and I hauled ass. My friend, like I said, they are a military veteran and a bad ass so I have the utmost respect for their time and the quality of who they are as a human being. When I arrived at this meeting spot, we dapped up and stretched, and then we got too work.
We ran. It wasn't too difficult for me, and at the same time, I'm thinking about the warrior I was honored to train with today and I'm doing self-talk. "mother fucker, you will not stop" and I'm thinking of how I lost a good friend who struggled with addiction to a fentanyl overdose last weekend. I'm thinking of my future family. I'm thinking of how I want to be as ripped and fit as my little brother who is finishing his training in bootcamp right now. I want him to come home and be proud of me, and I want to earn the respect of everyone I meet; Not by talk, rather through actions. There is an undeniable power that comes with being a ripped beast-mode mother fucker. That is Me and who I am becoming.
The summary of that paragraph is "self-talk" and how I used mental images and strong emotions, both negative and positive, to propel me inside of this flow state as I surpassed the previous mental limitations I had placed on myself, and I broke through that fucking ceiling like a raging bull. There were a couple times we stopped, and during those times I was able to connect with my Brother whom I have the utmost respect for. It was during these moments, the camaderie was built and deeper rapport established. So "Here is my message from Ma - Self Talk is EVERYTHING!"
We are repelled and attracted; on an etheric, mental, subtle level it is important to understand the self, and how the self is pushed away from people, places, and things, and attracted towards pleasurable people, places, and things. You are the one in control of writing the programming regarding what attracts you; I used to be moving towards temporary fleshly desires, and now I am strongly attracted towards beinga beacon of hope, laughter, and love; Do not be fooled, I am not love and light. I am very much in touch with darkness, however through this internal understanding of the shadow I am growing into a spirit within a body who accelerates and enhances the energy of those around me, whatever their path may be.
What Am I repelled from? This would be what has cost me tremendous pain, shame, and dissappointent. What I've overdosed on ten years ago, the drugs which have cost me brothers and sisters - yeah, it's thick where I come from, and the pain is deep. I am repelled by that which would create me to become a hypocrite and disrepect towards Santa Muerte whom has granted me family, safety, peace, love, life, and wisdom. What that looks like, is a glutton for pain who disrespects his family and future daughter by choosing to step away from HIs most perfect self. If you pause and think about what I said, consider what that looks like... Reaistically, I am liberal and maybe you could say "Dutch" in the sense that I don't judge, and me personally, I have done a line of cocaine or two and been cool. As long as you got your fucking priorities straight and you're honest with your "god damned self" you know? It's the repulsion from becoming a straight drug fiend, a liar and thief who denys the self and chooses a false projection to subsist on fake pleasure. I enjoy drugs for inspiration, within moderation, with the exceptions of opiates. I avoid the hard shit in general, this writing is all keeping it A- to the motha fuckin real.
I grew up some of my life with the Hood, and also had the privilege of a middle class lifestyle at the least. When I was 18, I left the midwest and went out west to Nevada/Salt Lake City and I got a real taste of the streets. I was a rebellious, hustling psychonaut hellbent on the truth. I was also susceptible to magicians whom claimed to be "Divine and Chosen", having been raised in a very strict and very abusive religious enviroment. All of this submersion into the reality of the world, and the streets, from the Hood and the homeless shelters and the deepest crevices of societies underbelly (even rubbing shoulders with traffickers of drugs and humans on bulk, never NEVER advocating for that shit.... never really judging as such a young man, practically a teenager even, yet never advocating... just observing as a demonic creature witnessing the world...) all of this immersion, this modern baptism into Darkness, it served to broaden my horizons and open me to the possibilities of healing myself.
See when I started out on this spirtual journey officially, doing dedications and witch craft spells for wisdom and knowledge, more than sex and money, this all began a process which I believed altered my quantum reality. My initial course of reality was shifted, and I made choices more in line with "chaos" than the order predetermined and set for me. How I got to this point was willingly embracing "tower moments" only now, looking back, it is coming full circle and I am able to provide real support to those around me having been throught that darkness, and most importantly support to myself.
So In retrospect, today's run of 7 miles was also an "offering", a sort of proposal to my personal God and Ma, respecting them and inviting them into my spirit. Movement can be a great way to transmute the personal struggle and internal state, and with this in mind, I am also encouraging you to get up and become active. Find a way to participate in creative acts, and co-creation; reflect, encourage, and inspire.
I feel like maybe this post was a bit adhd, so I want to leave you with a few thoughts. No Matter Where You Are At, Santa Muerte Accepts You. She wants to see you Shine, and become all that you are. If you love yourself, or maybe you are struggling to love yourself, do you love Ma enough too ask Her to change you? She will create circumstances in your life, move people around, and you will be faced with temptations and challenges. Maybe even losing things. Where there is loss, there is room to grow. So have hope. Be strong. Life is so fucking temporary. Who you live as, beginning today, that is what counts. When you die, choose to face your God, Goddess, Deities, Self ; choose to face that with clean hands and an open heart.
Today I ran alot of miles, it was more than that. My personal achievements are very, very small in the grand scheme of the cosmos. I believe we are small fractals of the greater cosmos at large, therefore our choices everyday contribute to a small movement that is great when collective, a diretional change towards a better future for our children, and a better earth. If nothing else, we can say that we lived as Gods. Hail To Thee! Hail ThySelf! Hail Santisma!
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2023.06.01 23:30 maturewasp33 Where can I find some red acorns?

Got into a conversation with an Indian girl I am interested in, about the most extreme dowries she’s heard of. As a joke she said she would ask for an red acorn from Yosemite.
Now I certainly don’t have the time today bring back an acorn but if I had more time this weekend I would. Aside from lack of time this weekend I also don’t have the car to use so limited to walking or maybe Ubering around our hotel in Santa Clara. I’m trying to fulfill this not so serious “dowry”. Where could I possibly find some red acorns in San Jose/Santa Clara? Is there a street or park that has a lot of oak trees here?
This is a serious inquiry lol please help!
*cross posted on the Santa Clara Reddit page
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2023.06.01 23:30 Late_Ad8151 Hey Reddit I’m making an update from my recent post about googles email

Hey Reddit I’m making an update from my recent post about googles email
So they responded they sent this in this.
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2023.06.01 23:29 maturewasp33 Where can I find red acorns?

Got into a conversation with an Indian girl I am interested in, about the most extreme dowries she’s heard of. As a joke she said she would ask for an red acorn from Yosemite.
Now I certainly don’t have the time today bring back an acorn but if I had more time this weekend I would. Aside from lack of time this weekend I also don’t have the car to use so limited to walking or maybe Ubering around our hotel in Santa Clara. I’m trying to fulfill this not so serious “dowry”. Where could I possibly find some red acorns in Santa Clara? Is there a street or park that has a lot of oak trees here?
This is a serious inquiry lol please help!
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2023.06.01 23:23 rgbohning Van Horn tabs Hunter Hollan to start opener against Santa Clara

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2023.06.01 22:53 PlayWithMeRiven Anything will help, a family of 3 that’s homeless.

Sorry if I used the wrong flair, I can change it if need be. If anyone can help, it would be greatly appreciated
My family of 3 and I are homeless. We are barely able to afford a roof over my sons head with my full time job and running UberEats all night but we’re barely making enough for gas and food. I’ve had to forego eating, on different days because we just haven’t been able to make enough while waiting for EBT and ELC to contact us so we can make sure our 2 1/2 yr old is fed and hydrated. Any help would be huge as our area just doesn’t tip on UE and it’s becoming a real “think of anything possible to prevent you from drowning while you wait for government benefits”
https://cash.app/$Amberbabyboo
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2023.06.01 22:40 TheOddCrayon F4M - Dark - Crime/Horror Roleplay - NON SMUT.

Hey! I'm a 25-year-old female and I'm looking to roleplay 1x1 with a male on Discord between 19 and 30 years of age. Please note before I speak further, I am a working individual, I'm not available around the clock so if I don't reply immediately, it's because I'm asleep or working and I'll get back to you as soon as I physically can.
This is a long-term roleplay that I've been writing for 11 years so I have a lot of character development in place for certain characters (not the detective, he is completely your own to create, backstory and all). I'm looking for someone detailed and descriptive in their writing; I'm not looking for a Shakespeare novel but I don't want one-three liners either. I play multiple characters so I'm looking for someone willing to do the same so I'm not talking to myself. The only characters you don't need to play are my OC and the boy within the prompt which follows - I take these on board. I do not bite so feel free to ask at any point if you are unsure! My OC is named Rochelle who is 25 years of age, she has long blonde hair and hazel eyes, standing at 5'2" like yours truly. I'm happy to provide any further OC information via PM or just discuss this further there.
I'm sorry, but if you only send me Hi/Hello/etc or one sentence, I will be ignoring the message.
Please be advised that this roleplay has dark subjects which is something I'm willing to discuss further in PM, please let me know of any trigger warnings/sensitive issues that you have if you're willing to do so. Alternatively, feel free to ask for a list of the dark subjects included. This roleplay is futuristic but please don't be a God-modder. My prompt is posted below, please DM me on Reddit if you're interested.
It is the year 2143 and over the past couple of years, but much more recently, there’s been a lot of concern and worry in families around the county/state you live in due to people in their twenties disappearing into thin air. This concern had grown so high that this was now being discussed on a much wider scale. All media outlets were reporting on the disappearances every chance they got in the hopes that one viewer or listener had information on at least one of the individuals and would get in touch. Nobody ever did. Eventually, the police created a detective agency to help themselves out with the cases. Detectives had been door to door multiple times around every single neighbourhood in the county/state and there was still no luck whatsoever. The police were about to give up on their search and make all of their cases cold but your boss Craig, a 54-year-old man, sent you on the final investigation to stake out at a mansion down, what everyone always believed to be, a deserted road overnight. If this investigation came back empty, all the cases would run cold. He knew it would be a dangerous mission, lives were at stake and if anyone who willingly lived at the property found out the police were literally on their doorstep, every single victim could easily be shot and killed. This meant that before you left, Craig gave you a few undercover outfits to wear to choose from, all coming under a homeless-type attire to try and gain sympathy and a room, even if just for one night. One night could be all that stood between you and solving the case. You finally arrived at the creepy-looking mansion after two hours of driving, arriving at 11 pm. The sky was pitch black, rain pouring down from above and very quickly soaking you to the bone. You knocked on the front door of the mansion to see if there was any response or to see if this place truly was deserted but, to your surprise, the door opened after a few minutes. When it did open, you were greeted by a young boy at 16 years old standing in the foyer before you. He wore a full black suit fitted with a white tie in a cravat knot. The boy held confidence in the way he stood but you noticed, after studying body language as part of your intensive training, there wasn't a slither of confidence in his eyes. "Can I help you, Sir?" He asked tiredly. Once he spoke, he glanced up to the beating rain then looked back at you while he awaited your response.
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2023.06.01 22:39 TheOddCrayon F4M - Dark - Crime/Horror Roleplay.

Hey! I'm a 25-year-old female and I'm looking to roleplay 1x1 with a male on Discord between 19 and 30 years of age. Please note before I speak further, I am a working individual, I'm not available around the clock so if I don't reply immediately, it's because I'm asleep or working and I'll get back to you as soon as I physically can.
This is a long-term roleplay that I've been writing for 11 years so I have a lot of character development in place for certain characters (not the detective, he is completely your own to create, backstory and all). I'm looking for someone detailed and descriptive in their writing; I'm not looking for a Shakespeare novel but I don't want one-three liners either. I play multiple characters so I'm looking for someone willing to do the same so I'm not talking to myself. The only characters you don't need to play are my OC and the boy within the prompt which follows - I take these on board. I do not bite so feel free to ask at any point if you are unsure! My OC is named Rochelle who is 25 years of age, she has long blonde hair and hazel eyes, standing at 5'2" like yours truly. I'm happy to provide any further OC information via PM or just discuss this further there.
I'm sorry, but if you only send me Hi/Hello/etc or one sentence, I will be ignoring the message.
Please be advised that this roleplay has dark subjects which is something I'm willing to discuss further in PM, please let me know of any trigger warnings/sensitive issues that you have if you're willing to do so. Alternatively, feel free to ask for a list of the dark subjects included. This roleplay is futuristic but please don't be a God-modder. My prompt is posted below, please DM me on Reddit if you're interested.
It is the year 2143 and over the past couple of years, but much more recently, there’s been a lot of concern and worry in families around the county/state you live in due to people in their twenties disappearing into thin air. This concern had grown so high that this was now being discussed on a much wider scale. All media outlets were reporting on the disappearances every chance they got in the hopes that one viewer or listener had information on at least one of the individuals and would get in touch. Nobody ever did. Eventually, the police created a detective agency to help themselves out with the cases. Detectives had been door to door multiple times around every single neighbourhood in the county/state and there was still no luck whatsoever. The police were about to give up on their search and make all of their cases cold but your boss Craig, a 54-year-old man, sent you on the final investigation to stake out at a mansion down, what everyone always believed to be, a deserted road overnight. If this investigation came back empty, all the cases would run cold. He knew it would be a dangerous mission, lives were at stake and if anyone who willingly lived at the property found out the police were literally on their doorstep, every single victim could easily be shot and killed. This meant that before you left, Craig gave you a few undercover outfits to wear to choose from, all coming under a homeless-type attire to try and gain sympathy and a room, even if just for one night. One night could be all that stood between you and solving the case. You finally arrived at the creepy-looking mansion after two hours of driving, arriving at 11 pm. The sky was pitch black, rain pouring down from above and very quickly soaking you to the bone. You knocked on the front door of the mansion to see if there was any response or to see if this place truly was deserted but, to your surprise, the door opened after a few minutes. When it did open, you were greeted by a young boy at 16 years old standing in the foyer before you. He wore a full black suit fitted with a white tie in a cravat knot. The boy held confidence in the way he stood but you noticed, after studying body language as part of your intensive training, there wasn't a slither of confidence in his eyes. "Can I help you, Sir?" He asked tiredly. Once he spoke, he glanced up to the beating rain then looked back at you while he awaited your response.
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2023.06.01 22:37 Altrot Summer Housing (Incoming Intern)

Hi everyone I am looking for housing near Betsy Ross Dr in Santa Clara. I am interning at a company from June 20th-Sept 8th. I am very tidy and get along with almost anyone. Please let me know if you have anything available. Thank you!
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2023.06.01 22:17 SusuSketches Freedom of choice doesn't mean you're free to be irresponsible

Following a discussion about abortion there's been comments suggesting that supporting the freedom of a woman to have a choice over her own fertility equals supporting irresponsible behavior like consuming drugs/alcohol during pregnancy.
Freedom of choice doesn't mean you can do whatever you want, I deem it immature to even compare this and spread this kind of ill-tempered mindset among the opposite sex. As if women are unable to behave within reason if given any choice. It's simply not true and harmful to say out loud.
Anyone can ignore common sense and do stupid things, this isn't bound to owning a vulva or not. If you are trying to speak for them at least try to understand how it would feel like if you have to carry a mistake for months, changing your body, hormones and future forever while being cornered into a family life you - as an individual - may never wanted. A life you didn't choose, a path that's not yours. This power should lie in the hands of the carrier although some believe this to be the doom of mankind - which it certainly isn't - is also a liability for those who don't have any right to choose what to do with it.
The mental inability to have the right to own your own body is one of the worst I can personally imagine and I fear for the future of children being born into nonexistent families.
I consider family to be about more than just bearing a child and having a partner to support the circumstances. It's about community, security, safe space, personal growth in fruitful environments and growing a bond together with friends and relatives altogether.
If you decide to have children you are also obligated to care for this choice. It doesn't mean you can neglect and treat this being as you wish. A healthy community would try to prevent that, keeping knowledge around and teach younger generations how to behave naturally.
We are witnessing both broken families and single mothers who neglect, men who beat their wives, children with massive mental instability due to having no village behind them that would root for their existence. Instead what we blame is the individuals ability to form desicions. Infuriating!
Its not the fact many of us can choose isn't causing children's suffering, it's the lost bond we have within ourselves. We're divided and lost so much knowledge that we tend to let go of choice and run toward governments and regulations to choose for them while in reality were jumping onto the most comfortable opinion that serves our individual egos.
Trying to force opinions or going after anything that's inconvenient towards oneself has nothing to do with the topic were talking about. The right to have an abortion doesn't destroy your family or attacks your manhood, it shows you how women - the "weak" gender - is outgrowing this very sentiment,this doesn't mean we're taking anything away from men. There's plenty of women who will choose to become mothers, this won't change but what is (hopefully) changing is the conservative believe that we have to endure a lifetime of self dismissal based on others desicions.
Your parents, relatives, friends, boss, clan leader whoever - nobody should be choosing for you. Similar life altering desicions are for example: choosing your profession, hobbies, bodily appearance, religion, speech, social behavior, name, ways to communicate, what you consume, how you identify... None of this is as big of a desicion as carrying a baby. In my humble opinion of course. Sure anyone has these.
I wonder deeply what it is some people fear from the mere presence of choice over ones body, it's not magically brainwashing all women into being against children, there's even been the opposite in recent trends (in my home country), more women are choosing to stay at home, as well as more men swapping a year or two off work to be stay at home dads. Families aren't dying and if there's a decrease in births then ask further, how are things now? Is it because women have access to birth control or financial crisis, raising property values, increase in fuel pricing, rapidly skyrocketing food prices that makes people hesitant about starting families?
About the drug use and irresponsible behavior, ask yourself why people (not exclusive to pregnant women) end up that way, it's not because they want to be pregnant, meth addicted and poor it's very often about circumstances, lack of support system, harsh upbringing, loss, bad influence during young age and as I've talked to many homeless - abuse.
Most people have a story to tell, you might learn a thing or two if you choose to listen.
Other comments prior to this have suggested if women don't want babies we should just not have any sex cause that's the sole purpose of us wanting it. Infuriating.
This is not equal. Those a two different things aswell.
We are not fighting for our species survival anymore, what we fight is mental and physical freedom, cages we can only explore due to our immense success in evolution. Our big brain is basically a huge waste of energy and heat yet we still have it. We can think about out choices and do not have to completely shut out pleasure as punishment for bearing a human maker inside of us.
Its not a punishment for anyone to have a choice, the life that you might want to quote is - imo - not obligated to be carried out. It's a possibility, a great power we can embrace. But we can also choose to embrace our existing self. Growt doesn't ever stop and we can do so much.
I'm not saying it's bad or good to have children, it's yours to decide what it means to you. For me I have decided against it in my life.
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2023.06.01 21:38 Aromatic_Egg_1067 What are peoples opinion on AA/NA in tandum with trying to get sober?

For me i always felt that it wasnt helpful for me.
When i would go to the next city over's detox center because my city doesn't have one, you would have to got a a meeting once a day as a group which was an AA one. Especially AA meetings i found as a opiate addict very problematic, mainly because the lifestyle and life quality of an alcoholic was completely different than that of a "junky" like the 90% of people there had a house, family, car, job, basically stability with a bit of a drinking problem. And when i would talk about my problems, the solutions would be completely incompatible with getting better, and like people wouldn't understand how drastically set back in life the majority of the other addicts there were. They would say things like, you know, you need to focus your attention on the good things in your life, look towards your friends and family for support, start to work towards improving your life etc etc.
meanwhile we were all homeless, traumatized, unemployed, alienated from friends and family, criminal records for simply using, etc etc, where the solutions are so far in teh future that it seems pointless to even try, and if you relapse it is far more destructive then drinking again. with all of the stigma surrounding using opiates it would/could completely prevent/stop any support you might be receiving, and the hoops you have to jump through for social services/housing/other things.
Even NA programs, i also found that the cliental of participants are scary/dangerous, like with a lot of the people also being street people and junkies/meth heads, and i found that the confidentiality aspect didn't really apply for alot of people.
I don't know if this is just me whining and complaining about "poor me"
thoughts?
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2023.06.01 21:23 VegetableBarracuda83 Driver dies after hitting boulders meant to deter RV parking in Fremont- The move to install the rocks along Kato Road, controversial at the time, was an example of what is known as “hostile architecture” that pushed the homeless population living there elsewhere into the county.

Driver dies after hitting boulders meant to deter RV parking in Fremont- The move to install the rocks along Kato Road, controversial at the time, was an example of what is known as “hostile architecture” that pushed the homeless population living there elsewhere into the county. submitted by VegetableBarracuda83 to bayarea [link] [comments]


2023.06.01 21:18 shmeeblybear Interesting locations for family photos

Does anyone have any suggestions for a family photo shoot? 7 people total. My mom really wants an interesting backdrop- not the beach, not some trees. She's into the "rustic", old building look. Prefer to stay in SLO county, maybe Santa Maria/Orcutt if it's a good fit.
Thanks!
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2023.06.01 21:16 turbo_556 CCW santa clara county

Had my ccw interview today, went well just walked in and was myself. I was over thinking it at first but once I walked in I realized there was no reason to be nervous especially if your background is clean. There was some small talk then the interview questions which most of them were the ones on the application with maybe a few extras thrown in the mix then ended with some more small talk. (interviewer was really nice down to earth person) I was told to expect an email in 2 to 3 months for a psych eval, I guess there is a back log on the eval side of things. Just making this post to say don’t over think it just be yourself and the rest will work out.
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2023.06.01 21:04 Seaside2023 Saw this flyer downtown

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2023.06.01 20:55 LonnieJay1 Storytime: explaining Ultra Rapid Opioid Detox with Naltrexone to a fellow Bropiate

I won’t call Kevin again yet. He's the type to tell me he's busy if I need something from him, even though I go out of my way to help him and take care of him every single time he needs me. I stop at one of the red lights in (City name redacted). At least Kevin lives here too, just a few minutes away from Lucky’s mom’s house.
If Kevin isn’t home, I’m going to be enraged, depressed enough to cry, or both. Kevin doesn’t even really lock his door. He never locks it behind us when we walk inside – people like me can’t help but notice things like that. If he isn’t at his house, maybe I can just walk in, take his drugs, and leave.
I called him earlier in the day, so he will definitely suspect that I was the one who robbed him, but what is he going to do?
I’m homeless right now, and I’ll be back in treatment soon – and hopefully not in the cess pool of fraud, corruption, and death that addiction treatment in Orange County has become. I wonder what could possibly be in the little lockbox Kevin keeps in the closet. It is probably a treasure chest full of various drugs and opioids.
I arrive at Kevin’s house and pull into the driveway. I knock on his front door. No answer. I ring the doorbell. No answer. My heart starts to race. My head hurts, I’m nauseous, I’m sweaty. I’m full of anxiety. I can’t stop thinking about dope. I feel like I’m stuck in a cave that is collapsing all around me. I need to get out, right now.
I knock again, loudly, a few more times. I count to 10. Still nothing. I feel a flash of heat and near-panic. My stomach churns, as if threatening to cramp. I need opiates, right now.
Desperation overtakes me. I turn the doorknob. It opens. I walk in the house, my instinct telling me to creep in. I suppress my instinct and walk in casually.
“Kevin?” I yell, from the bottom of the stairs that are right by the front door. I listen for a second. All is quiet. It wouldn’t be good if I am caught sneaking around if he is here, and it isn’t going to matter if I yell a few times before I steal his drugs if he isn’t here.
Junkie feet carry me up the stairs. My ankle hurts with every step – worse since I am in withdrawal.
"Kevin?” I call out. If he isn't here, I’m robbing him. I can't stand this motherfucker, and while I'm not quite the thief I used to be, I'm still an opportunist, and this is a damn good opportunity. Maybe stealing all this kid’s fentanyl is exactly what he needs in order to be able to quit.
That’s right, Lonnie. You’d be doing him a favor by robbing him.
I peek in the first bedroom at the top of the stairs. It’s the guest bedroom I slept in 5 nights ago. It feels like it has been an eternity since I was last here. Time moves more slowly in the realm of opioid sickness. Nobody is in the guest bedroom.
I peek into the office that sits across the hall. I don’t see anybody there. I would search the office, since he might have the lockbox in here, for now, but he might be sleeping in the bedroom.
"Kevin? Marissa?" I call out. Saying her name reminds me of the fact that he is dating her. She is so young and innocent. I can’t believe he got her addicted to these powerful soul-stealing drugs. I would never associate with Kevin if he didn't have so many different uses. He is not a person to me: he is means to the various ends that I have in mind when I contact him. This isn’t Kevin’s house; it’s a house with fentanyl in it.
If I find that carfentanil, I’m going to have a decision to make. It might be so strong that using it would cause changes to my opioid receptors that I would never recover from. Injecting even one drop could kill me. Carfentanil is also identified as a biological weapon since even accidental inhalation of an almost imperceptible amount can be deadly - or so, the police say. The amount of carfentanil that Kevin has could keep me incapacitated and out of pain for at least a year. Finding that bottle would be a curse.
I find myself standing in front of the double doors to the master bedroom.
"Yo, Kevin!" I shout out. Last chance before I go on a little scavenger hunt. I put my ear close to the door. I hear the bed creaking. Somebody is in there.
“Who the fuck is in my house?” Kevin yells from behind the door.
“It’s Lonnie. I tried to call you 3 times,” I shout out the lie, with conviction in my voice.
“How’d you get in here?” he asks, as the double doors to the master bedroom swing inward and open. He is wearing an angry frown, basketball shorts, and no shirt. I try not to look at his pale, untoned stomach.
“Your front door was open. I need some of that furry, bad. I’ll give you (exorbitant price redacted) for half a gram, right now,” I say.
“Say no more. I’ll grab it,” he says, flashing a smile at me, and then running over to his closet. I am suddenly relieved that he is here, and that I do not have to steal from anybody today. Stealing always catches up to me.
“I’m going to go downstairs,” I say.
As I trot downstairs, my sickness starts to subside, since the gorilla in me knows that he will be fed soon. I go into his downstairs bathroom and get a Q-tip, and then run to my car to get a syringe. By the time I get back to Kevin’s couch, he is there.
“You got that hundred?” he asks.
“I’m sending you a Venmo right now,” I say, unlocking my phone, opening the Venmo payment app, and sending him the money, which takes 10 seconds.
“Check it,” I say, nodding at his phone. He watches his phone for a few seconds. A chunk of Furanylfentanyl sits on a scale on the coffee table between us. I eye it hungrily, waiting for Kevin to say the word.
“You’re good,” he says. I pick up the chunk of furanylfentanyl, which is enough to kill 20 opioid-naïve people twice over. I move to the kitchen table, prep the shot, and point the loaded syringe at my arm.
“You know I hate when you do that here,” Kevin says, from the couch.
“I know,” I say, injecting myself in the forearm, quickly.
“1,” I say, capping the syringe.
“2,” I say, putting it in my pocket.
“3,” I say, diving onto the floor.
“4,” I say, feeling a smile creep across my face.
“When does it hit?” he asks.
“5,” I say, laying down on the floor.
“Now,” I add, closing my eyes.
There is a moment of emptiness that is only perceptible if you’re looking for something and find nothing instead: the non-sensations of a barren organism that is completely devoid of any meaning, pleasure, will to live, or basic comfort.
My heart skips a beat – did I miss the vein?!
A weight crushes my chest, like a meteor of light just collided into it. I am unable to breathe as every ounce of pain becomes washed away by the tidal wave of raw pleasure that spreads instantly from my brain and into my spinal cord, transforming my entire body into light as the furanylfentanyl clings to the opioid receptors all over my body. I lay on the floor, mentally clinging to the tightness and pleasure in my chest, wanting it to stay forever.
The rush fades, and I find myself breathing again, unfortunately. I open my eyes and get up from the floor.
“How was that?” Kevin asks, a semi-curious look on his face.
“Awful. You should never do it,” I say, scratching my nose. Kevin laughs.
“I hate needles, anyway,” he says. I laugh twice as loud as he did and begin to pace.
“So did I. So did every IV drug addict. I’ve never met anybody that was like ‘I always loved needles! I just thought stabbing myself looked fun!’. No way. People always start with a habit of sniffing the drugs, just like you.
“They meet somebody who injects the drugs in front of them, just like I am. The person shooting up says: ‘don’t do it, it’s fucking awful’ as they stick the needle in their arm, just like I am. I can understand how this is hypocritical, but it’s truly something I wish I never tasted. You never, ever forget the rush. It becomes the climax and focal point of your life.
“It is a hyper-pleasurable experience that carves itself into the ridges of your memory-scape. It is a traumatic pleasure. You put the needle into your very bloodstream; the chemical you slam into yourself alters your genetic expression. The experience is more intimate than any other experience imaginable. It changes you forever. It haunts you in your dreams. If you give yourself to it for even a moment, The Needle will never let you go,” I say, moving back to the floor. I need to enjoy this shot, before my tolerance skyrockets again, and my body becomes immune to the euphoria.
“Why do you do it, then?” he asks.
“Because I’m hopelessly addicted,” I say, laying down flat on my back again.
“Didn’t you quit before? Weren’t you sober for a year right before we met?” he asks.
“I’ve spent plenty of time sober. I’ve spent more time off opioids than time I’ve spent addicted to them since I found them 10 years ago – but injecting makes it a whole different ballgame. You are injecting a disease into yourself,” I say.
“I don’t think that’s true,” he says.
“Yeah, that’s the fucking conundrum, right there. Did I get the disease when I shot it up, or did I have it before I injected the drugs? Was I born with the disease, or did the drugs cause the disease? We’re both doing the same drugs. How are you able to function and I’m not?” I ask. (author's note: I no longer believe in the disease model of addiction)
“That’s not a conundrum at all. You COULD function, but you’re not. You COULD get sober again, but you’re not,” he says. I start to laugh sarcastically.
“You must be Nancy Reagan’s son – I can just say no! If it’s that easy, why don’t you stop, then?” I ask.
“Why would I stop?” he asks.
“Why wouldn’t you want to stop?” I counter.
“Sounds like you’re projecting. You obviously want to stop. You should stop, then,” Kevin suggests. I laugh at him again.
“Yeah, I’m going to,” I say. He laughs again as well, but the laughter we are exchanging is not friendly and humorous – it is malicious and hateful; borne of the cruel misery that is the flipside of the Heavopioid experience.
“No, seriously, I’m going to stop. In fact, I’m going to call my boy Sean right now, to set up a naltrexone implant and get my opioid receptors blocked,” I say.
“You can’t get a naltrexone implant, that would kill you. You were sick as shit before you did that furry. Your skin was glistening with dope-sweat, your pupils were as big as dinner plates. I saw it myself,” he says.
“I can fake the drug test at the intake appointment and ask the doctor to prescribe me naltrexone pills to ensure a smooth transition and minimize side effects. He will prescribe me oral naltrexone pills gladly, thinking I am being a responsible patient that will take the pills and therefore be safely acclimated to the naltrexone by the time I get the implant.
“Once I have the naltrexone pills, all I need is a small handful of xanax. Take a small handful of xanax with the naltrexone and black out for a night. Wake up, no opioid withdrawal. Tada!” I exclaim, putting my hands out in wonder, still laying on the floor.
“You’re talking about doing an ultra-rapid opioid detox, which is a medical procedure that is done in a hospital, without the supervision of a medical doctor?” he asks, before laughing harshly.
“I’ve done it a bunch before. It’s awesome, actually. Well, one time, it was fucking hell. Twice, actually. It was legitimately the worst thing I’ve ever experienced – an 8-hour terror attack that makes a ‘panic attack’ feel like child’s play. But other than those two times, it’s been all gravy,” I say.
“You’re kidding me. You’re seriously talking about doing an ultra-rapid opioid detox at home with nothing but xanax and a naltrexone pill. That shit could kill you,” Kevin says.
“Not really. Xanax has a really high lethal dose limit by itself, you know that,” I say, referring to the facts that it takes a lot of xanax to kill a person when xanax is taken alone, and that Kevin is a drug nerd like me.
“Yeah, the median lethal dose of xanax alone might be high compared to other drugs, but if you’re blacked out while you’re in severe opiate withdrawal, you don’t even know what’s going on in your body. You could have a heart attack, a stroke. You could break the temperature regulation system of the hypothalamus-” I interrupt him with a laugh.
“I know exactly what’s going on: a bunch of awful, painful stuff that I don’t want to be any part of,” I say. I hear footsteps coming down the stairs.
“What are you guys talking about?” Marissa asks, walking into the living room. She looks worse every time I see her; her youth and beauty are being stolen by Kevin and the drugs he should not be providing her with.
“This kid thinks he’s a doctor. He’s going to wind up killing himself,” Kevin states.
“What?” she asks, walking to the couch to sit next to Kevin.
“It’s not that dangerous. Doctors do it all the time, it’s called ultra-rapid opioid detox. I do it a little bit differently, but it’s the same idea: anesthetize the patient-”
“Himself, he means, when he says ‘patient’,” Kevin interrupts, looking at Marissa.
“Yes, I am both the unlicensed medical provider and the patient in this case. I anesthetize myself with a small handful of xanax while taking a naltrexone pill at the same time. The xanax kicks in, and I black out.
“While I am asleep, the naltrexone clings to my opioid receptors and antagonizes them. This puts me into ‘precipitated withdrawal,’ which is essentially a condensed version of withdrawal from opioids that is triggered by the naltrexone – a hyper-withdrawal, if you will. The hyper-withdrawal reverses the effects of physical dependence on opioids: my natural opioid-producing system, the endorphin system, kicks into overdrive to offset the presence of the naltrexone and get me out of hyper-withdrawal. At the same time, the anti-endorphin system, which pumps out the pain-creating chemical, dynorphin, in response to continuous opioid use, shuts down.
“To put it simply, over the course of a blacked-out night, I go through the equivalent of 7-10 days of withdrawal. I wake up feeling like I’m 10 days clean. Then, I can take another naltrexone pill, which guarantees me another 36 hours clean. It ends the constant and overwhelming war with myself over whether or not I should use opioids. I make one decision to take one naltrexone pill in the morning, instead of having to re-commit to my decision not to use opioids every time I feel depressed or anxious, which is every second at the beginning,” I say, standing up now.
I want to quit again so badly. I want to be free again.
“You have to feel like absolute garbage from starting naltrexone in the middle of a serious habit like that,” Kevin says. I scoff.
“Of course, I feel like garbage! It’s almost unbearable. My brain and spine and gut are overwhelmed by some of the most basic pain-causing chemicals in the biological world. I am quite literally saturating my system with anti-endorphins. Despite the pain, the benefit is simple and incredible: naltrexone speeds the process of return to chemical balance, or homeostasis, in the brain. Opioid painkillers get us high, but they also depress our respiratory, cardiovascular, and nervous systems.
“Our bodies adapt to the constant presence of external opioids by producing chemicals like dynorphin that stimulate us in ways that have the net effect of pain-creation. These pain-creating chemical responses keep us awake and breathing when we’re nodding off – but they also keep us awake and restless when we try to quit opioids, since our brains don’t shut down their production right when we stop ingesting external opioids.
“For example, suppose I start sniffing oxy when I’m 15. My brain starts to notice a ton of painkilling chemicals floating around. It starts to produce these pain-creating chemicals, to offset the painkillers and keep us in equilibrium. Our brains are always seeking to keep us in homeostatic equilibrium – continual regulation of body temperature and blood pressure are two other examples of this equilibrium.
“I skip the oxy for a day. My brain still has the pain-creators floating around, because the human brain is a prediction and adaptation machine that has learned to anticipate an over-abundance of painkillers in my system, and so continues to over-produce the pain-creators as a proactive, predictive response.
“Naltrexone is an extremely powerful pain-creator. There is a huge spike in pain creation unleashed onto my brain by the naltrexone, on top of the already excessive amounts of pain-creators that are being pumped out constantly by my brain to offset the ever-present painkilling fentanyl. This is like a tidal wave of pain-creators hitting the brain.
“Taking naltrexone when you’re already saturated with pain-creators almost feels like swallowing electricity, or fire, or panic. It feels like your entire body is setting off red alarms. Your heart races, your stomach cramps, your guts scream and contract in agony, your skin singes itself with icy-hot sweat. Your brain is telling you to lay there and die but at the same time won’t let you get comfortable for even one second.
“This discomfort cannot be understated: the clouds of heaven would feel like plywood on the street in a Boston winter. Precipitated withdrawal feels like being surrounded by all your worst fears, memories, and nightmares made real and standing all around you, sticking you with cattle prods to get you to jolt,” I say, barely able to avoid a shudder.
“That sounds awful. Why would you do that?” Marissa asks.
“Well, that only happens when you’re conscious during the process. That’s where the small handful of xanax comes in,” I say.
“You’re doing some dangerous shit to your brain by doing that. Creating that much stress and pain in your nervous system has to be ridiculously stimulating to your body. Have you ever been active during the blackout?” Kevin asks.
“Yes, but those are long and frightening stories. The goal is to reach the point where I just barely black out instead of taking enough xanax to be blacked out for a whole day, going grocery shopping and throwing fruit around and making smoothies at 3:00 AM and insulting strangers and crashing cars and whatnot,” I say. Marissa and Kevin start to laugh – at me, not with me.
“Yo, this is funny. You’re wild. So how many extra xanax do you have to take to inhibit the excitatory signals being sent in your brain by the dynorphin and the naltrexone together? I haven’t ever really thought about precipitated withdrawal. It seems like it would be a whole different animal,” he says.
“I used to take 5 xanax bars, but I woke up in the middle of a panic attack despite 5 xanax bars during one of my previous procedures, so now I take 10 xanax bars. It knocks me out for about 8 hours. I wake up in dizzy, disconnected discomfort, but it gets easier as the day goes on. The second naltrexone after waking up is a different story, though. That brings on a fresh batch of symptoms, though nowhere near as intense. I like to take xanax the second night, too.
“I get vicious rebound anxiety from taking so many xanax in such a short period of time. I have to be very careful not to pick up a xanax habit after I induct onto the naltrexone,” I say.
“That sounds like a lot of pain and work,” Kevin says, raising his eyebrows at me.
“It’s worth it. When I come out on the other side, free from this hellish, soul-sucking poison, I feel great. Well, kinda. I don’t sleep for a while. But I do bounce back, and much sooner than I would otherwise.
“When I have 1 month clean on naltrexone, it feels like I have 10 months clean. This is crucial, because when you have only been clean for 1 month, you typically still feel like shit – if you had a serious habit, anyway,” I say.
“I can’t believe you actually do that. You’re a dumbass,” Kevin says.
“It’s actually pretty smart, in some ways. The shocks to the endorphin system of the brain keep it operating smoothly, which in turn keep the immune system and dopamine system operating smoothly. Did you know that William S Burroughs actually recommended going on and off of heroin for the sake of longevity?” I ask. Kevin laughs, loudly this time. He looks at Marissa, smiling.
“You hear that? Longevity. It’ll keep us alive longer,” he says.
“Naltrexone has the potential to be a miracle drug. If you take a low dose of it every day, you can prevent your opioid tolerance from building up. Combine 0.1 MG of naltrexone with 10MG of oxycodone and patent it, you’ve got a billion-dollar pill. That low dose of the artificial, pain-creating naltrexone will prevent your brain from ramping up its’ own pain-creating response to balance out the painkilling effects of the oxy.
“In essence, that would prevent opioid tolerance and therefore the need for increasing daily dosages. You might be able to prevent addiction entirely. I’ve experimented with using naltrexone to diminish tolerance and had some success. It does lessen the painkilling effect a bit, but I’m sure a seasoned pharmacologist could think of a decent opioid potentiator to add to the combination that would increase the painkilling effects of the medication without further side effects,” I say.
“Holy shit. It can prevent tolerance buildup? Can you get me some naltrexone?” Kevin asks.
“Perhaps, but you need to read into it, first,” I say.
“You’ve really piqued my curiosity. Thank you,” he says, pulling out his bag of furanylfentanyl.
“Ah, some hellish, soul-sucking poison. Great idea. I haven’t slept for days, and I need a nap,” I say. Marissa giggles.
“I don’t think you’re going to quit,” Kevin says.
“You’ll see,” I say. I pull the syringe out of my pocket and start walking to the kitchen, to get more water for my next shot. Another shot will knock me right out, and I won’t have to deal with any of this. For a little while, anyway.
“Seriously, I’m going to be free from this shit. Free from these goddamn pills and powders that handcuff my brain and put it in a straightjacket. No more turning my own body and mind into a prison. I hate living like this. I’m going to quit, and I’m going to be playing college basketball soon,” I say, though after I say it, I feel exactly how I feel after I tell a lie.
“Then quit. It isn’t that hard,” he says. I hear the unmistakable sound of somebody sniffing powder through a straw, and it sounds vaguely like weaselly laughter.
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2023.06.01 20:54 Emmie89509 Housing, Education, Furniture, Legal Information

Housing Information
City of boston Rental Relief Program is offering $15000 grant “The Rental Relief Fund provides up to $15,000 in rental and utility assistance for income eligible households for up to 12 months. Eligible households can receive assistance for both back rent and rent going forward. Households receiving assistance for future rent will need to recertify income every 3 months to verify continued need” past due March 13 2020
Homeowners Assistance Fund is offering up to $50,000 “Mass HAF will provide up to $50,000 in financial assistance to eligible homeowners who have missed at least 3 home mortgage payments to help them avoid foreclosure. If a homeowner's application is approved, funds will be provided to a homeowner’s mortgage servicing company (the company that collects their mortgage payments) in order to apply it to the housing loan)”
MASShousing continues to offer up to 50,000 for first time homebuyers in Attleboro, Barnstable, Boston, Brockton, Chelsea, Chicopee, Everett, Fall River, Fitchburg, Framingham, Haverhill, Holyoke, Lawrence, Leominster, Lowell, Lynn, Malden, Methuen, New Bedford, Peabody, Pittsfield, Quincy, Randolph, Revere, Salem, Springfield, Taunton, Westfield and Worcester. For more information and check eligibility :
RAFT Program is offering up to $10,000 “RAFT can cover utilities, moving costs, and overdue rent”
HOMEBASE through DHCD is offering $20,000 for move in cost, household items for those at risk of homelessness
Family Aid also assist families at risk of homelessness (617) 542-7286
Furniture Information
Masshealth MATCH program is offering up to $5,500 for eligible households. For more information
Rosie’s place 617-442- 9322
My Brothers Keeper (508) 238-4416
Inquire with DTA as well as your health center for referral for furniture may need uhaul to pick up
Family aid also offers 3000 for furniture
Education/ Job training programs:
YEAR UP Average starting annual salary for students is 52k a year. You will learn a new skill, intern at one of their 250 contracted companies and they will assist in helping you land a job (617) 542-1533
City Year Job training for those interested in tech job (617) 927-2500
YMCA training inc “The 16-week Medical Administrative Assista training program prepares participants for general registration and front desk administrative office support, including basic medical terminology, overview of billing and claims processing, HIPAA and OSHA guidelines, and health insurance overview. At the conclusion of training, participants will take a certification exam to receive their industry recognized Medical Administrative Assistant credential.” Inquire online :
MASSHIRE continues to offer their ESOL , GED/HISET, ADULT DIPLOMA, PRE GED, Literacy Programs
Automatic technician training program Carpentry apprentice program and other programs Inquire at :
JVS Boston offers the following programs: Animal Care Technician Training Automotive Technician Training Bank Career Training Biotechnology Manufacturing Associate Training Program Bridges to College & Careers - Biotechnology Training Carpentry Apprentice Training Certified Nursing Assistant Training Customer Service Training Early Childhood Educator Training Healthcare Cleaning Training Heating, Ventilation, Air Conditioning and Refrigeration (HVAC&R) Training Hotel Training Patient Care Technician Training Substance Addiction Assistant Training Inquire at :
Legal Services Organizations:
GREATER BOSTON LEGAL SERVICES 197 Friend Street, Boston (617) 603-1807 (Housing Law) (617) 603-1700 (Eastern Regional Intake) Services: Eviction defense; defense of tenants after foreclosure; subsidy preservation; tenant rights; plus other non-housing services Website: l
VOLUNTEER LAWYER'S PROJECT (617) 603-1700 (Eastern Region Intake) Services: Legal services - for renters facing eviction. Filing court documents against landlord. Post-foreclosure eviction. Website:
HOMESTART 105 Chauncy Street, Suite 502, Boston (617) 542-0338 (857) 415-1454 (Eviction Prevention Hotline) Services: Housing court assistance and legal support. Payment for back rent. Moving expenses for relocation. Email: Website: l
LAWYERS FOR CIVIL RIGHTS (617) 482-1145 Services: RAFT or Boston Rental Relief Fund application help; help with eviction discrimination or harassment; no individual eviction cases. Website:
Community Organizations:
CITY LIFE/VIDA URBANA 284 Amory Street, Jamaica Plain (617) 934-5006 (English COVID Hotline) (617) 397-3773 (Español Línea Directa) (617) 524-3541 Services: Eviction prevention; rent relief; tenant rights; community organization services. Website:
JUSTICE 4 HOUSING Services: Help justice-involved individuals who are denied housing opportunities due to a criminal record secure stable housing. As well as justice-involved and domestic violence housing agency evictions. Facebook: @justice4housing Email: [email protected] Website:
NUESTRA COMMUNIDAD 56 Warren Street, Suite 200, Roxbury (617) 427-3599 Services: Housing resource services; housing counseling; homelessness prevention; special expertise for ages 60+. Website:
PROJECT HOPE 550 Dudley Street, Roxbury (617) 442-1880 (ext. 242 for Housing) Services: Provide housing support services including rehousing and case management to low-income women with children. Also education, employment, and emergency services. Website:
CITY MISSION 185 Columbia Road, Dorchester (617) 742-6830 Services: Limited, one-time grants for back rent; various other non-housing services. Website:
ASSOCIATION OF HAITIAN WOMEN IN BOSTON (AFAB-KAFANM) 330 Fuller Street Dorchester (617) 287-0096 Services: Assist newly arrived Haitian immigrants in applying for public housing benefits and facilitates workshops on housing issues such as tenant rights, home buying, etc. Website:
KENNEDY CENTER 15 Tufts Street, Charlestown (617) 241-8866 ext. 1352 Services: Housing or food emergency services. Application assistance and case management. Email: [email protected]. Website:
CASA MYRNA (617) 521-0126 Services: Provide culturally competent and trauma-informed emergency shelter and critical supportive services for adults, youth and families who are homeless due to domestic violence. Email: Website: m
NEIGHBORHOOD OF AFFORDABLE HOUSING (NOAH) 143 Border Street, Boston (617) 418-8260 Services: Financial Assistance - Emergency Housing Assistance Program. Bilingual (English/Spanish) rental housing counseling and. Website:
ACTION FOR BOSTON COMMUNITY DEVELOPMENT 178 Tremont Street, Boston (Numerous locations) (617) 348-6329 Services: Rent assistance; housing counseling. Email: Website:
No person is all bad , hard times do not discminate nor are they schedule, we all deserve to live comfortably and be happy. I hope this helps. Heal, Be confident & stay consistent. Wishing you all the best
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2023.06.01 20:03 infosec-jobs [HIRING] Cyber Security Incident Response Analyst - Remote (3rd Shift Midnight to 12am to 8am EST) in Santa Clara, CA, United States

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2023.06.01 20:03 endeaaring it's hard for me to feel love anymore

brand new throwaway because i don't want my partner seeing this and feeling hurt ..
in december of 2022, my (21f) brother (36m) died. he was homeless, addicted to drugs, and living in new york city without much communication with our family (including my mom). they'd talk every few months maybe, but he had been on drugs since before i was born so the family was sort of used to it. one day in january, i received a text from my estranged aunt telling me to ask my mom to call her. then the phone call came from my dad, telling me my brother had died a month ago but the county didn't know who to call (even though they immediately ID'd him and had his emergency contacts).
now, i have been in a relationship for nearly 2 years. i live with my boyfriend (26m) and have always loved him fiercely. however, since the day my brother died, i can't feel that same love. it almost feels like we are intimate roommates. it scares me, because i am diagnosed with bpd and am afraid that my brain is playing tricks on me by making me think i don't love him. i get easily irritated, and he expressed recently that he doesn't feel appreciated anymore. he also thinks that i am on the edge of breaking up with him. i feel so guilty that i can't just make myself feel the way i used to. i tried googling this, and couldn't find anything. i've spoken about this topic lightly with my therapist but i think it's definitely time to delve deep into it.
is this normal? am i actually falling out of love or is this just a symptom of grief? my childhood cat died in 2021 and was my first ever loss, so my brother is now the second loss i've ever experienced. i don't have much experience with this (gratefully so). i just hope i'm not alone in this. thank you
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2023.06.01 19:48 WeeklyHedgehog9 ISO: two floor tickets for Santa Clara, either day

PayPal g&s only!! Want to take my mom but I want good seats if it’s a stadium concert haha. Would consider good lower bowl tickets too!!
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2023.06.01 19:33 rgbohning VIDEO: Van Horn, players preview matchup against Santa Clara in Fayetteville Regional

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