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A completely hypothetical tinfoil detached from all reality, just intending to have an interesting discussion… What if Bed Bath & Beyond we’re to give out a digital dividend… it would have no monetary value so they could theoretically get away with giving it to shareholders without creditors arguing shareholders were receiving something due to them first.
This would make the most sense if the Bed Bath portion of the company were purchased by a company that already had NFTs as a part of their business model (*cough Gamestop). Again, there is nothing whatsoever to make anyone believe this would ever happen in a million years…. but… what if it did? Could it theoretically expose the naked shares and cause shorts to close their positions, causing the stock price to rise and allowing Bed Bath to pay its debt by selling some shares?

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In 2017, Youtuber "Ahoy" made the video "POLYBIUS - The Video Game That Doesn't Exist". In it, he tracks down the origins and influences of popular video game urban legend, Polybius. He concludes that Polybius was started by Kurt Koller, who owns the website coinop.org. Ahoy concludes this because, among other reasons, the earliest known reference to Polybius is an article on the game on coinop.org. When Ahoy emailed Kurt asking if he was responsible for the addition of the game to the site, he responded "[Polybius's entry's] wording on coinop.org is very specific. That is all [he] is allowed to comment on." Ahoy tries to see if there is code hidden inside of the article, taking note of the fact that "disappeared" is spelled "disappeard". He tries to see if there is code that can fit into a Polybius Square, a popular method of encoding. A Polybuis Square works by having a 5 by 5 letter grid be the recorder. Every square in the grid has a letter inside, the code is a group of numbers with both digits being through 1-5. For example, in a grid with a standard alphabet code, the code "44 23 15 41 45 24 13 25 12 42 34 52 33 21 34 53 24 45 32 35 43 34 51 15 42 44 23 15 31 11 55 54 14 34 22" outputs to "the quick brown fox jumps over the lazy dog". Anyway, Ahoy ultimately turns up fruitless. I tried to see if I could decipher a code hidden inside as well. I took note of the fact that "disappeared" has three letters that appear twice in the word while "disappeard" only had two. I made a C++ program that would take in the article and see all the words that had multiple pairs of letters and produces a code. Every time I ran the program, I changed a factor (the number of letter pairs in each word, whether to delete duplicate words, what information contributes to the code , etc.) What I found interesting, is the case when the code was that for every number of the code, the first digit is the index of the first mention of the first duplicate letter in the word and the second digit is the index of the first mention of the second duplicate letter. In that case, both the first and second digits of the numbers are between 1-5. Still, after experimenting and playing around with the parameters for a couple of days, I have turned up blank. I am at the end of my rope. Below I have left a C++ algorithm as well as a few other resources if someone else wishes to try to decipher this. Obviously, it is possible that there is no secret message at all and that I am on a wild goose chase.
C++ algorithm :
#include #include #include #include

Hello again! I hope you all had a great day. As always, here's a summary for new readers:
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This journal is intended to keep me accountable on my journey of healing and self-improvement. I'm determined to climb out of a deep hole, and I believe this journal is a crucial step. I can't promise that reading this will be interesting or fun, but it will be real. With that said, let's begin.
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Today was pretty average, and nothing interesting happened, which is okay. Not every day can be an adventure, right?
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I woke up early, did a 10-minute meditation, and attended my online class. I had to do a presentation about the marketing process, and it went well. After that, I received a letter from the city informing me that there will be no water supply until 5 pm tomorrow due to construction. So, I prepared myself by filling a couple of thermos with water, I think I'll be good.
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After that, I smoked a joint and chilled in my room for a couple of hours. Then, I cooked rice with meat and beans for the whole week. I find it easier to prepare meals in advance. It was really good, and I shared some with a roommate who loved it.
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Later, I searched for places to take pictures this weekend and found a beautiful park in my city with a great view of the sunset. I decided to go there on Sunday and challenged myself to invite friends to have a picnic. I'm not used to doing that, but I read somewhere that the best way to make friends is to take the initiative and invite them. So, I took a step out of my comfort zone and invited them. I haven't received their response yet, but I'm pretty sure they will accept.
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I've noticed that I've been wasting a lot of time on my phone in the afternoons for the past two days. Tomorrow, I'll challenge myself to go running as a way to exercise and break that habit. I want to start building the habit of running, so I'll start small with 20-30 minutes of running and maybe try jumping rope for 10 minutes afterward (I'll have to figure out how to do that tomorrow, though).
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That was my day, not too interesting. See you all tomorrow!
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P.S. OMG, I just realized it's been a week since I started this journal! Thank you so much to everyone who reads it daily and supports my journey. You're truly saving someone's life. Love you all.

I (67f) and my fiancée (74m) first met when we were in our early twenties. While I did think he was pretty cute, I wanted to keep my options open for a bit, and though his five brothers were all pretty good looking, I decided that I might as well settle down with him. We ended up starting to date in our late twenties to early thirties and moved in together in our mid-thirties. We later got engaged right after I found out I was pregnant with our firstborn O (17f). Now, I've always been a health nut, and my husband has some.. deformities.. that I overlooked because I love him, but I was worried about how it might affect my kids, and by extension, my bloodline.
O, even as a baby, had a very evil look to her, mainly due to her inheriting her father's eyebrows, but seemed otherwise unharmed throughout her life, and when she was 4, we had twins, P and C (13m) They seemed even more normal than their sister, though P did have a bit of an angry eye, it was nowhere near as bad as his sister's and fathers.
I originally planned on leaving a majority of things to my youngest (by a few seconds) C, and this stayed the plan until their birthday.
O had already had her teenage birthday, and had a really squished face, inherited from her father. This worried me for her siblings, as well as to her health, but I hoped for the best. Then came P and C's birthday earlier this morning. I made them a nice cake before I went to work, (Level 8 fitness career, almost 9) and when I returned, I realized the horrors I had casted upon my bloodline by marrying for love.
P looked very- lumpy- to say the least, and I don't even mean in an overweight or buff way, I mean he was weirdly- lumpy- especially in clothes, plus, he was a mid of scary AND hideous! He would never find love like that, but I had still held out hope for my future- until his brother walked out of his bedroom looking like a tube of mostly used toothpaste in human form. I was devistated. My kids were most likely going to pass on their father's deformities onto their kids, my grandkids, IF they managed to find love, and I didn't want to risk the bloodline because of my heart.
Luckily for me, along with having five brothers, my fiancée also has a sister (73) who had two kids, J (19m) and S (16f), who both took after their father rather than their mother, who like all of their siblings, was a bit on the deformed side. This meant her kids looked, NORMAL! I was ecstatic and immediately changed my plan to leave everything to S when she had her birthday. The issue comes when I told my fiancée about this. He lost it on me, saying all sorts of mean things and calling me an asshole because not only had I known the risks of this before ever having kids with him, but also because I was about to leave my own flesh and blood out to rot for someone not even related to me by marriage (we just never got around to it, but did want a ceremony) or blood (I was orphaned as an infant, have no living family). I tried explaining my side of things, with the heath concerns for my grandkids, but he shot back that if I loved my kids, I would never think about replacing them with someone I'm not even related to just because they don't look like the average sim.
I still feel like I might leave everything to S when she turns 20, and since we never married, my fiancée would have no say in it, but his words really got to me, and now I can't stop wondering, WIBTA if I left everything to my fiancée's niece?

He’s been with me for 10 years already but I would’ve never known, based on how energetic he always seems to be! Plus, his blood work and all other samples, perfecto! They sent me home with a bunch of stuff for him and his other normal medications, so we’re all good there. But after finding out, I started to notice a little more closely…he’s slower to get up and get going in the mornings…he’s quicker to lay down and sleep at night…he needs 10x more rubs and cuddles than he usually asks for…I notice a change and now, I can’t stop thinking about how limited our time left with each other may be 🥺 but what hasn’t changed is my love for him and the fact that I got him until his very last breath. I told him that the very first time I ever held him after adopting him and I stand on that 💯❤️💕🐶 For now, I’ll continue to enjoy the bond we have for what it is, for as long as we have it.

July 7th Excerpt From the Journal of Violet Stone
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I don’t remember much. Just the scenery flying by me as I ran from the train station. I didn’t see anyone chasing me. But I felt chased. I didn’t know what to think, what to feel, or even where the hell I was going. The only thing I felt was fear.
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When I finally stopped, it was because I just couldn’t run any further. My lungs burned, begging me for air. So I ducked into an alley, trying to catch my breath, and organize my thoughts. The rain pounding down around me was too loud. The street was too quiet and every car that passed by sent another fresh jolt of terror through me as I replayed what had happened at the train station over and over again in my mind. The way that he’d fallen, the look on his face in the instant before he’d gone under the train. Oh God… I couldn’t get it out of my head! I couldn’t stop seeing it in my mind!
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I wanted to go home, but was that even an option? How the hell does someone just go home after something like that? I couldn’t just waltz through the door like nothing was wrong! If Sam and Lisa didn’t notice, Rose sure as hell would and that assuming that the police weren’t already there. Someone could have recognized me! That Marilyn Monroe looking girl on the platform had gotten a good look at me. What if she told someone? It didn’t matter whether I’d meant to push the guy or not! It didn’t matter how much I’d fucking hated him at the time. He was dead. I was responsible. I’d pushed him. It was my fault.
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‘I’ve just fucking killed a man!’
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That thought… that reality didn’t feel real. It hadn’t truly hit me yet.
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‘I’ve just fucking killed a man!’
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I felt sick. If I actually had anything in my stomach, I might have even thrown up. Moving made me feel even worse, so I just stood there, letting the rain soak me to the bone, shaking from the horror and the cold while I tried to figure out what the hell I was going to do next. But all I could think about was the way he looked as the train went over him, and wondering if anything would have changed if I’d at least tried to grab him. Could I have caught him? Could I have saved him? What then? What would happen next? As far as I knew that motherfucker had murdered my goddamn parents! Should I really have even bothered trying to save him? Maybe I should have felt vindicated by all of this? Maybe this was some kind of justice, right? It sure as hell didn’t feel like justice. It’s not like I knew beyond a shadow of a doubt that this had been the guy! There were doubts! There were a lot of fucking doubts!
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I heard the sirens in the distance. But nobody came for me. I saw a police cruiser pass my alley. It didn’t stop for me, but it did make me think about my sweater. The goddamn sweater… it would probably be enough to identify me, right?
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For a moment, I thought about turning myself in to the police. I mean, maybe once I told them that it was an accident, then maybe they’d be cool with it and let me go? I mean, the police are just known for being trustworthy and reasonable, right? What did I possibly have to worry about with them? I could just turn myself in and everything would be hunky fucking dory! ‘Oh, you just threw a man in front of a fucking subway train! Yeah, no big. Go home! Take a load off! Get some coffee! Try not to think about the man you just threw under a fucking subway train!’ Yes! Go to the police Violet! Great idea! And while you’re at it why don’t you do it in the fucking nude too? GREAT IDEA VIOLET! ALMOST AS GREAT AS THE TIME YOU THREW A MAN IN FRONT OF A FUCKING SUBWAY TRAIN! REMEMBER THAT?
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I took off the sweater and abandoned it in the nearest dumpster. I hid it under some trash bags and hoped to God that nobody would ever find it, then, after standing in the rain like an idiot for several minutes with no idea on where to go next, I started walking home.
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Nobody noticed me.
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Nobody followed me.
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The city was just… quiet. Not quiet, quiet. But nothing felt out of place. The world around me almost felt normal, and it was my own fault that the normalcy felt wrong somehow.
I entered my old bedroom through the fire escape, just like I used to back in high school when sneaking out at night to drink was the worst thing I’d ever done. I could hear people in the apartment, and I listened to see if any of the voices were unfamiliar. I heard Sam and Lisa talking over breakfast, and I could hear the TV. Nothing out of the ordinary. It satisfied me enough that I was safe. I locked my bedroom door and crawled into bed, pulling the covers over my head and listening to the rain and the voices outside. But I heard nothing out of the ordinary. It was like nothing had happened. Like it was all just a bad dream. Eventually, I fell asleep.
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I stayed in bed until well after noon, staring up at the ceiling when I couldn’t sleep anymore. Sam and Lisa both left for work. I could hear Rose going around the house. She’d said that she had the day off, save for classes in the evening. She only bothered me once, though. Knocking on my door to check on me. I told her I was sick, and she didn’t pry. She didn’t sound suspicious. Just concerned.
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I kept replaying what had happened at the subway station over and over again in my head. I couldn’t stop thinking about it and I couldn’t stop hating the quiet around me.
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Sometimes, I wondered if it was just a bad dream. If maybe I’d never even left my room at all. Maybe I just wanted to believe that. It was better than thinking I’d just killed someone. There was a part of me that didn’t really seem to care. It still hadn’t fully hit me yet. After all, no one had come for me. So maybe it really was just a bad dream? Even if it hadn’t been, how had that man known who my Mom was? What about the things he’d said? Was it just a weird coincidence, or a horrible mistake? Maybe it was both.
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I checked my phone when the afternoon began to slip into evening. The whole event was getting hazier in my mind. I was starting to convince myself it hadn’t happened. Lisa had messaged me, asking how I was feeling. Rose must’ve told her I was sick. I lied and said I was feeling a bit better, then I checked the news.
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When I read the story I felt sick all over again. No name for my victim, no information at all. The man who’d gone under the train was just identified as ‘a man.’ That was it. Nothing else. There wasn’t even a picture of him.
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There was however a picture of me… kinda.
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It was blurry as hell. I tried to make out my own face amongst the black and white pixels but I couldn’t. It might have been me as I entered the station, although my hood was over my head, my hair was covered, and the only thing I could sort of identify was my lips, which aren’t exactly that distinct. Really, it could have been anyone in that picture. Anyone at all.
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‘An unknown possible suspect’ It said under the picture. Followed by: ‘The suspect is believed to be male, approximately 6’2 and was last seen wearing a grey hoodie and jeans.’
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They got the outfit right, and were only a little off with the height by two inches.
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All in all… I can’t say that any of this really seemed damning to me. Although the idea that the police (or at least the news) had no idea who I was didn’t do a whole hell of a lot to calm me down. The idea of ‘getting away with it’ seemed just as bad as being caught.
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For the second time that evening, I wondered about turning myself in to the police. I mean, this wasn’t exactly first degree murder. It was an accident! That had to be at least manslaughter, right? I mean, it was still a crime but it wasn’t first degree murder, right?
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Christ… I was probably committing an even bigger crime by not coming forward! Why wasn’t I going to the nearest police station? What the hell was stopping me? Fear? Fear of what, consequences? You don’t fucking kill a man and not suffer any consequences! Even if it was an accident, there had to be some kind of consequence, right?
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Was it justice? Assuming that this guy really had been the one who’d killed my parents all those years ago, did he really deserve to die like that? Thrown screaming under a train and… and…
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God I didn’t even know if it was really the guy or not! It could have been anyone! He could’ve just randomly known my Mom and just so happened to look like her killer! It wasn’t even a perfect resemblance! I mean, fuck, how many fucking people in New York have blond hair, blue eyes and glasses? Thousands at least! Justice wasn’t a valid excuse! It just wasn’t!
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I wanted to continue to lie there and stew, but I don’t know if that was really an option anymore. Slowly, I forced myself to get out of bed and head into the kitchen. I’d eaten nothing all day, which wasn’t all that healthy of a diet. As a further fuck you to my digestive system, I rummaged through the cupboard. There was a box of off brand pop tarts that I jammed them in the toaster for breakfast, if you could still call it that at five in the evening.
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While I waited for my sugar enriched breakfast to ‘cook’ I raided the fridge for a drink. I found some OJ, and wandered into the living room. Rose had already left for class, but I knew Sam and Lisa would have been home soon.
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When they did come home, they found me in the living room, under a blanket and finishing my shitty off brand pastries. Lisa fussed over me, like I knew she would. Sam just took over the TV and changed the channel to something other than the news.
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I went to bed early last night, checking the news stories again on my phone before lying awake in bed. I might have slept a little. I couldn’t really say. I was just alone with my thoughts.
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I’m not supposed to go back to Toronto for another day or so. But maybe I could leave early? Fuck off, leave all of this behind me and try to move on with my life? Sam and Lisa wouldn’t question it… much. That sounded like a horrible idea though. Just… fucking off, forgetting, pretending that this didn’t happen. It sounded like a mistake. Running away seemed like the exact kind of thing that would come back to bite me in the ass… and then what would I do? Was I supposed to just keep running from it? I knew in my gut that this would only ever make things worse. What would that do to Sam and Lisa? What would it do to Rose? I didn’t want to find out. I didn’t want to put them through that!
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As I lay in bed a quiet resignation settled over me… and oddly enough, with it came a bit of peace. I guess even if no one else ever found out about what had happened at Prince Street, even if I took that secret to my grave, it would still gnaw at me. I’d still be looking over my shoulder, waiting for the day to come when it caught up with me. I didn’t want to deal with that. I didn’t want to put my family through that!
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So I made a decision.
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I don’t know if this will be my final entry or not.. I might not be coming back after this. Sam, Lisa, Rose… if any of you are reading this, I’m sorry. I swear to God, I didn’t mean for any of this to happen.
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I’m going to go to the police in the morning and I’m going to turn myself in. So if this is it… well… goodbye.
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I hope you don’t hate me too much.
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***
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Okay, so what the fuck?
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I did the right thing! I turned myself in to the police! I was ready to go to jail over this!
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Instead, I’m back in my old bedroom at Sam and Lisa’s and I’m 99.9% sure that I’m off the hook.
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I went to the police station. I told them that I was there to confess and up until that point, things went as expected. They took me to an interrogation room and I waited for someone to come and talk to me. I was in there for about an hour, fidgeting aimlessly with my hands and waiting for some kind of judgment before someone finally bothered to show up.
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The guy who walked through the door had a sort of ex military look to him. His eyes were intense and he had a muscular physique with a neatly trimmed goatee. He didn’t say a word to me as he came in. He just looked down at the file in his hands before sitting down at the desk.
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“Violet Stone, right?” He asked. Straight to business. I always thought that Detectives were supposed to come off as friendly at first. This guy seemed like he’d come in with the express purpose of kicking my ass.
“Yeah, I’m Violet.” I said.
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He looked up at me, sizing me up for a moment before huffing.
“Alright… well Violet, well my name is Vincent Bennett. I’m the Detective assigned to the Arthur White case. I understand you’re here with information, correct?”
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Arthur White? Was that the name of the guy I’d killed?
“Yeah… I was… I was the one on the subway platform with him.”
“The one who pushed him?” Bennett asked.
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I hesitated for a moment before nodding.
“It… it was an accident!” I said, “He’d grabbed my arm, I was just trying to get him off of me!”
“Right… tell you what Violet, why don’t you walk me through what happened yesterday morning, okay? Tell me everything that you remember.”
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I did just that. I told him about how I’d run into Arthur and his daughter while I’d been out on a jog, I told him about how he’d mentioned my mother and how I’d followed him, and finally I told him about what had happened on the subway platform.
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The whole time, Bennett just took notes and nodded quietly, only pausing a few times to ask a question.
“So - you attest that it was an accident, that Mr. White fell into the path of the oncoming train?” He asked.
“Yeah… yeah, it was.” I said.
“Okay. You mind if I ask why it took so long for you to come forward?” He asked, “I mean… this happened yesterday morning. It’s been at least twenty four hours.”
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“I was panicking!” I said, “Look, I didn’t know what to do or if I should come forward or what!”
“A man was killed,” Bennett replied. “And you fled the crime scene. You also took a while to come forward. Forgive me if I find any of that suspicious.”
“Well, I’m trying to do the right thing now!” I argued although Bennett’s stony expression didn’t seem to change much.
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“Miss Stone… are you aware of who Arthur White is?” He asked. “Do you know much about the White family?”
That question of his seemed awfully loaded.
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“No, why are they important?” I asked.
“Depends on which circles you run in,” Bennett replied. “I’m gonna be honest with you… Arthur White was a real piece of shit. I wouldn’t really call him the worst member of the White family. Arguably he made the rest of them look saintly in comparison. But he was still a man with a… history. You say he resembled the man who you believed killed your parents… was that your only motivation for following him to the Prince Street station?”
“He mentioned my Mother by name!” I said, “He said he knew Diana Stone!”
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Bennett paused, before looking up at me again.
“You’re Diana Stone’s daughter?” He asked.
My brow furrowed.
“What, you knew her too?” I asked.
“I’ve… heard the name before.”
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My heart skipped a beat.
“So he did kill them…” I said softly, “You’re telling me that he did kill them?”
“Arthur White was not a suspect in the Diana Stone murder, no. His-”
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Bennett’s phone started to ring before he could finish whatever it was that he was trying to say. His ringtone was the opening riff of ‘Phantom of the Opera’ by Iron Maiden.
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He paused, tensing up a little at the sound of the ringtone. Then he quietly reached into his pocket to take his phone out. He stared at the screen, which depicted a big red X on it, before quietly standing up.
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“Excuse me,” He said softly as he left the room, and for a few minutes, I sat there in the uneasy silence, waiting for him to come back. I found myself fidgeting with my hands again as I looked over at the mirror that dominated the wall to my left. I figured that there had to be someone behind it, watching me. Maybe it was Bennett? I squinted, trying to see if I could see him behind the glass, but there was no luck.
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The only thing I saw was my own reflection, squinting back at me like an idiot and the security camera in the corner behind me. I looked back up at the camera, staring into it for a moment. I wondered if maybe Bennett was watching me through there. Maybe nobody was watching me? It was hard to say. I stared back into the iris of the camera for a moment, before the door opened again and Detective Bennett came back in. I saw him stuffing his phone back into his pocket.
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Something about his demeanor had changed, but it was hard to say exactly what. When he spoke to me again, his tone was much quieter.
“Thank you for your time, Miss Stone. We have all we need. You’re free to go.”
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Free to go?
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“Wait, what?” I asked. “I… I just killed a guy! What do you mean I’m free to go!”
“You indicated that Mr. White’s death was an accident, correct?” Bennett asked. “That’s all we need. Go home, kid.”
I stared at him in disbelief. He was just letting me go? I’d fucking killed a man and they were just letting me go? That didn’t make any sense!
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“So that’s it?” I asked, “You’re not going to arrest me or… or press charges or…?”
“No. We’re not,” He said. “You’re free to go.”
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He picked up his folder and headed for the door again, pausing before looking up at the camera and then back to me. He held the door open for me, and after a moment, I got up and followed him.
“Do I need to get a lawyer?” I asked.
“That won’t be necessary,” He replied as he led me back through the police station. Once we were back at the front door, he pushed through and gestured for me to follow.
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Once we were outside, I watched him take out a pack of cigarettes and a lighter.
“So that’s just it, then?” I asked. This whole thing still confused me.
Detective Bennett still didn’t reply. He just looked up toward the building, before taking a drag on his cigarette.
“Take my advice, kid… don’t ever look a gift horse in the mouth. It might not always be so pretty on the inside,” He didn’t look at me as he said that. He started down the steps of the police station, before pausing. “And do yourself a favor, keep your head down for the next little while.”
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“What’s that supposed to mean?” I asked, but Detective Bennett was already walking away from me.
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I’m not an idiot.
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Something isn’t right here. I just don’t know what.
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I keep thinking back to the phone call Bennett got. I’ve got a feeling that it had something to do with my sudden release. What I don’t know is what or why and to be honest, I’m not sure that I want to find out.
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Bennett told me to keep my head down, and I’m smart enough to take his advice.
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I’m leaving tonight.
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I’m going to let Sam, Lisa, and Rose know over dinner. I’ll think of some bullshit excuse. Maybe I’ll say that it’s a work thing, or something. They’re not going to check. I’m supposed to be heading home in a couple of days anyway, so they’re not going to think too much of it if I leave early.
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Either way, whatever the hell I’ve gotten myself into, I want to get out of it sooner rather than later.

At around 1 AM on May 16th I lost my dad to cardiac arrest and I watched it all go down in the hospital with my mother, my aunts, and my older brothers (who are in their thirties). Earlier, he was diagnosed with liver silicosis, he was quite a drinker.
During his last days he told me he was sick and was suffering from a ton of back pain, so of course I made sure he was comfortable as possible, and came to his service whenever he needed me. On his last day he could barely stand up and my mom and I didn't know what to do, as he was taken to the hospital (Kaiser Permanente) the day before his death and they said the tests all came back negative, then pretty much kicked us out the room. The day after, he fell unconscious and was unresponsive for the rest of time, and we did call 911. Later though he died in the hospital.
These past few days I've been trying to figure out if he knew he was dying. On his last day (just an hour before he fell unconscious) he asked me to give him a cigarette and walk him to the front porch, so fulfilling his order I did. The thing was, smoking on front porches isn't allowed in our neighborhood. That led me to thinking he wanted to look outside for one last time perhaps. But I'm not sure. At the same time he wasn't eating the food we offered either. But he looked up at me and very personally said "Thank you." Those were his last words to me.
I miss my dad very much and he always told me he cared for me the most. One year prior to his death he told me that if he ever left us that I would be the man of the house.
I just want to know if he knew he was going to die. It makes me sad to think he wasn't embracing it. I think it would make me feel better if I know he knew.

Hello again! I hope you all had a great day. As always, here's a summary for new readers:
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This journal is intended to keep me accountable on my journey of healing and self-improvement. I'm determined to climb out of a deep hole, and I believe this journal is a crucial step. I can't promise that reading this will be interesting or fun, but it will be real. With that said, let's begin.
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Today was pretty average, and nothing interesting happened, which is okay. Not every day can be an adventure, right?
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I woke up early, did a 10-minute meditation, and attended my online class. I had to do a presentation about the marketing process, and it went well. After that, I received a letter from the city informing me that there will be no water supply until 5 pm tomorrow due to construction. So, I prepared myself by filling a couple of thermos with water, I think I'll be good.
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After that, I smoked a joint and chilled in my room for a couple of hours. Then, I cooked rice with meat and beans for the whole week. I find it easier to prepare meals in advance. It was really good, and I shared some with a roommate who loved it.
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Later, I searched for places to take pictures this weekend and found a beautiful park in my city with a great view of the sunset. I decided to go there on Sunday and challenged myself to invite friends to have a picnic. I'm not used to doing that, but I read somewhere that the best way to make friends is to take the initiative and invite them. So, I took a step out of my comfort zone and invited them. I haven't received their response yet, but I'm pretty sure they will accept.
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I've noticed that I've been wasting a lot of time on my phone in the afternoons for the past two days. Tomorrow, I'll challenge myself to go running as a way to exercise and break that habit. I want to start building the habit of running, so I'll start small with 20-30 minutes of running and maybe try jumping rope for 10 minutes afterward (I'll have to figure out how to do that tomorrow, though).
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That was my day, not too interesting. See you all tomorrow!
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P.S. OMG, I just realized it's been a week since I started this journal! Thank you so much to everyone who reads it daily and supports my journey. You're truly saving someone's life. Love you all.

Ever scammed someone out of their baal quest for a g rush?
Well I have... many times.
Remember, in legacy D2, you can't see normal games after killing normal baal for the quest... you can't see nightmare games after killing nightmare baal for the quest. People grinding levels wanted to stay in normal until about level 40 doing normal baal.. and then do NM baal until eh... 50 or so... People didn't stay in NM long.
Well.. I'd g-rush my friend with no consenting bumper by doing this:
I'd rush my friend to normal act 5... he's level 1 still.
I'd tell him to make a public baal game... "normal baal -3" or something.
So I'd have him sit in a5 .. I'd go kill all of Baal's minions... and static baal all the way down...
So then we wait (which, back in the day in 2003, didn't take long)... When someone joined the game... you KNOW they don't have the baal quest... because they wouldn't have seen it in the list if they did.
So, then we start our act.
Me: Man FUCK this game... I quit... I can't believe he took that entire account from me....
Him: Dude don't sweat it man... you still have like 300+ sojs..
Me: .. nah fuck it... i'm dropping everything in worldstone... TP up.
Him: DUDE STOP .. I CAN'T JOIN... I DON'T HAVE ANCIENTS
**at this time... my chat is blown up with "PP" ... even whispers**
so he keeps hyping it up... maybe a minute or so
Me: 6 SOJS ON THE FUCKING GROUND... AT LEAST HE CAN'T STEAL THESE
I invite the random baal questless fucker... he enters tp... baal dies... friend bumped.
Yeah... been waiting almost 20 years to come clean. I think I probably did this to 20+ people.

27m No gallbladder History of stomach pains Hital hernia Acid reflux
2015 - started getting stomach pains, which began my life of constant throwing up to this day
2017 - first endoscopy came up nothing
2018 - found blood on stool and after a colonoscopy it came out to be a benign juvenile polyp which they removed, second colonoscopy in 2020 shows im chillin
2021 - still having horrible stomach pains, In December 2021 I had emergency surgery to remove my gallbladder
2022 - living life still struggling, I do another endoscopy and they see an ulcer and hiatal hernia which after a couple months of protonix and strict diet. Ulcer went away after a follow up endoscopy
2023 - still throwing up from pain, burning feeling in my stomach, constant acid reflux. Diarrhea and days where I feel so sick, 1/2023 did a ultrasound endoscopy and saw no sludge in bile duct but did find an accessory spleen, and my hiatal hernia.
April 2023 I do a pill endoscopy and they find a ulcer deep inside my small intestine you can see the image here
https://imgur.com/a/4oKffut
He mentioned I need to do a push entroscopy and will see if he can find it,
May 2023 he couldn’t find the ulcer and doesn’t feel like he should do a balloon endoscopy. He said it was way to deep and leant wanna do a colonoscopy and put a breathing tube in and find it that way. He checked biopsies for chrons disease and SIBO, celiac, UC, and others and came back negative. Blood works came back elevated which you can see link below
https://imgur.com/gallery/atiSAFs
He mentioned he isn’t concerned about it being chrons tho because it’s slightly elevated. And he said I will take protonix at night. He also prescribed me mesalamine to take 4 times in the morning.
How do I treat the ulcer? Is it cancer? Tumor? I’m lost and it’s hard to get answers. I don’t wannna wait and I’m scared to know if it’s something bad

y'all prolly don't care but I did it anyway so ¯(ツ)¯
Rank Song
1 Michael Jackson - Ghosts
2 afi - Miseria Cantare - The Beginning
3 a-ha - Take On Me
4 Journey - Separate Ways (Worlds Apart)
5 Pearl Jam - Future Days
6 Evanescence - Bring Me To Life
7 Alter Bridge - The Other Side
8 Queen – Bohemian Rhapsody
9 Killswitch Engaged - This Fire
10 Motorhead - the game
11 Nirvana - Smells Like Teen Spirit
12 Michael Jackson - Earth Song
13 Michael Jackson - Remember the Time
14 Saliva - I Walk Alone
15 Linkin’ Park - Crawling
16 Michael Jackson - Stranger In Moscow
17 Michael Jackson - Man In The Mirror
18 Michael Jackson - Bad
19 Imagine Dragons & JID - Enemy
20 Michael Jackson - Blood On The Dance Floor
21 BANKS - The Devil
22 Eminem - Godzilla ft. Juice WRLD
23 Elton John - Goodbye Yellow Brick Road
24 Billie Eilish, Khalid - lovely
25 Luniz - I Got 5 On It
26 Dr. Dre - ETA (with Snoop Dogg, Busta Rhymes & Anderson .Paak)
27 Michael Jackson - They Don’t Care About Us
28 grandson & Jessie Reyez - Rain
29 The Cranberries - Zombie
30 Linkin Park - BURN IT DOWN
31 Bruno Mars, Anderson .Paak, Silk Sonic - Smokin Out The Window
32 Earth, Wind & Fire - September
33 Doja Cat - Woman
34 Linkin Park - Numb
35 Shakespears Sister - Stay
36 Michael Jackson - The Way You Make Me Feel
37 Britney Spears - Toxic
38 Michael Jackson - Billie Jean
39 Michael Jackson - Beat It
40 Michael Jackson - Thriller
41 Michael Jackson - Smooth Criminal
42 Bray Wyatt – Shatter
43 Doja Cat - Vegas
44 Linkin Park - In The End
45 Dr. Dre - The Scenic Route (with Rick Ross & Anderson .Paak)
46 Imagine Dragons - Natural
47 Michael Jackson, Janet Jackson - Scream
48 Imagine Dragons - Cutthroat
49 Coolio - Gangsta's Paradise (feat. L.V.)
50 Nirvana - Something In The Way
51 Limp Bizkit - Rollin'
52 Katy Perry - California Gurls ft. Snoop Dogg
53 Doja Cat ft. SZA - Kiss Me More
54 Lady Gaga - Bad Romance
55 Post Malone, Swae Lee - Sunflower )
56 Bring Me The Horizon - Can You Feel My Heart
57 Living Colour - Cult Of Personality (Official Video)
58 Queen - Killer Queen
59 Queen - Another One Bites the Dust
60 BANKS - Skinnydipped
61 Doja Cat - Say So
62 Michael Jackson - In the Closet
63 Rev Theory - Voices
64 Disney - We Don't Talk About Bruno
65 Michael Jackson - Rock With You
66 Britney Spears - Circus
67 Madison Beer - I Have Never Felt More Alive
68 Dua Lipa - Physical
69 Eminem - River ft. Ed Sheeran
70 Jefferson Airplane - White Rabbit
71 Imagine Dragons - Bones
72 Britney Spears - Oops!...I Did It Again
73 Lil Nas X - MONTERO (Call Me By Your Name)
74 Doja Cat - Get Into It (Yuh)
75 Dua Lipa - New Rules
76 Gotye - Somebody That I Used To Know (feat. Kimbra)
77 Michael Jackson - Wanna Be Startin' Somethin'
78 Michael Jackson - Jam
79 Eminem - Lose Yourself
80 Queen - I Want to Break Free
81 Childish Gambino - This Is America
82 Joji - Glimpse of Us
83 Linkin Park - Somewhere I Belong
84 Hamilton - The Room Where It Happens
85 Snoop Dogg - Gin And Juice
86 Michael Jackson - Heal The World
87 Louis Armstrong - What A Wonderful World
88 NF - The Search
89 Hamilton - Satisfied
90 Ren - Money Game
91 Queen - We Are The Champions nn
92 Tech N9ne - Face Off (feat. Joey Cool, King Iso & Dwayne Johnson)
93 Jessica Darrow - Surface Pressure
94 Michael Jackson - Money
95 Motionless In White - Demons in Your Dreams
96 Joji - SLOW DANCING IN THE DARK
97 BANKS - Gimme (Official Video)
98 Dua Lipa - Break My Heart (Official Video)
99 Idina Menzel, AURORA - Into the Unknown (From Frozen 2)
100 Warriors (ft. Imagine Dragons) Worlds 2014 - League of Legends
101 Dr. Dre - The Next Episode (Official Music Video) ft. Snoop Dogg, Kurupt, Nate Dogg
102 Eminem - Venom
103 Céline Dion - Ashes (from Deadpool 2 Motion Picture Soundtrack)
104 I Want You Back - The Jackson 5
105 Imagine Dragons - Sharks (Official Music Video)
106 Joan Jett & The Blackhearts Bad Reputation - Official Music Video (1983)
107 Guns N' Roses - Welcome To The Jungle
108 FOZZY - Judas (OFFICIAL VIDEO)
109 Waterproof Blonde - Just Close Your Eyes
110 Sam B - Who do you Voodoo, Bitch
111 Skillet - Legendary
112 Billie Eilish - bury a friend
113 Ren - Money Game part 2
114 Guns N' Roses - Sweet Child O' Mine
115 Kevin Sherwood - Where Are We Going?
116 twenty one pilots - Heathens
117 Eminem - Without Me
118 Heavy - Linkin Park (feat. Kiiara)
119 Lady Gaga - Paparazzi
120 As The World Caves In - Sarah Cothran
121 Dr. Dre - Still D.R.E. ft. Snoop Dogg
122 Obie Trice ft. Eminem & Dr Dre - Shit hits the fan
123 Eminem - Big Weenie
124 Michael Jackson - Black Or White
125 SZA - Kill Bill Feat. Doja Cat
126 Clean Bandit - Symphony (feat. Zara Larsson)
127 Dua Lipa - Levitating Featuring DaBaby
128 Imagine Dragons - Believer
129 Mario Judah - Die Very Rough
130 Dua Lipa - IDGAF
131 Sabrina Carpenter - Thumbs
132 Ed Sheeran - Bad Habits
133 Imagine Dragons - Radioactive
134 Ariana Grande - thank u, next
135 D'LOURDES - How Did You Get So Good?
136 Queen - We Will Rock You
137 Imagine Dragons - Thunder
138 Eminem - White America
139 Olivia Rodrigo - good 4 u
140 Lorde - Royals
141 Billie Eilish - bad guy
142 Wiz Khalifa - See You Again ft. Charlie Puth
143 Leonard Cohen - Hallelujah
144 Michael Jackson - Who Is It
145 Hamilton - We Know
146 Michael Jackson - Speed Demon
147 BAD BUNNY - CHAMBEA
148 K/DA - MORE ft. Madison Beer, (G)I-DLE, Lexie Liu, Jaira Burns, Seraphine
149 Shaman’s Harvest - Broken Dreams
150 Michael Jackson - I Just Can't Stop Loving You
151 Skillet - Hero
152 Michael Jackson - Leave Me Alone
153 Lil Wayne, Wiz Khalifa & Imagine Dragons w/ Logic & Ty Dolla $ign ft X Ambassadors - Sucker for Pain
154 Ava Max - Sweet but Psycho
155 RISE (ft. The Glitch Mob, Mako, and The Word Alive)
156 Downstait - Kingdom
157 Hamilton - Say No To This
158 Eminem - Survival
159 Backstreet Boys - I Want It That Way
160 Alter Bridge - Metalingus
161 Britney Spears - ...Baby One More Time
162 Michael Jackson - Dirty Diana
163 Michael Jackson - P.Y.T. (Pretty Young Thing)
164 Super Smash Bros. Ultimate Main Theme - Lifelight
165 PinkPantheress, Ice Spice - Boy’s a liar Pt. 2
166 Bee Gees - Stayin' Alive
167 Motorhead - line in the sand (Evolution)
168 K/DA - POP/STARS (ft. Madison Beer, (G)I-DLE, Jaira Burns)
169 Dua Lipa - Don't Start Now
170 Sam Smith, Kim Petras - Unholy
171 Imagine Dragons - Bad Liar
172 Ed Sheeran - Beautiful People (feat. Khalid)
173 Imagine Dragons - Birds
174 BANKS - Deadend
175 Mark Crozer and The Rels - Broken Out In Love
176 NWA - Gangsta Gangsta
177 Bon Jovi - Livin' On A Prayer
178 Toto - Africa
179 Michael Jackson - Don't Stop 'Til You Get Enough
180 Ariana Grande - 7 rings
181 Eric Reprid - Vam
182 Imagine Dragons - Demons
183 Halsey - Without Me
184 Calvin Harris, Dua Lipa - One Kiss
185 Mark Ronson - Uptown Funk ft. Bruno Mars
186 Jim Johnston - Domination
187 K/DA - DRUM GO DUM ft. Aluna, Wolftyla, Bekuh BOOM
188 Lil Candypaint & Bhad Bhabie - 22 (Remix)
189 Dr. Dre - Gospel (with Eminem)
190 Lady Gaga - Applause
191 Shawn Mendes, Camila Cabello - Señorita
192 Billie Eilish - when the party's over
193 Phoenix (ft. Cailin Russo and Chrissy Costanza)
194 K/DA - I’LL SHOW YOU ft. TWICE, Bekuh BOOM, Annika Wells
195 Idina Menzel, Evan Rachel Wood - Show Yourself
196 Ash Costello - Brutality
197 The Gentle Men - Obsession
198 Imagine Dragons - Whatever It Takes
199 Demi Lovato - Sorry Not Sorry
200 Ed Sheeran - Perfect
201 BANKS - Beggin For Thread
202 2WEI and Edda Hayes - Warriors
203 Queen - Don't Stop Me Now
204 Dr. Dre ft. Snoop Dogg - Nuthin' But A G Thang
205 Fall Out Boy - Centuries
206 The Greatest Showman Cast - The Greatest Show
207 Lady Gaga, Ariana Grande - Rain On Me
208 Valerie Broussard - Awaken
209 Eminem - Rap God
210 The Weeknd - Blinding Lights
211 PVRIS - Burn It All Down
212 Fall Out Boy - My Songs Know What You Did In The Dark (Light Em Up) (Part 1)
213 Michael Jackson - Will You Be There
214 K/DA - THE BADDEST ft. (G)I-DLE, Bea Miller, Wolftyla
215 twenty one pilots - Stressed Out
216 Tears For Fears - Everybody Wants To Rule The World
217 K/DA - VILLAIN ft. Madison Beer and Kim Petras
218 Loren Allred - Never Enough
219 Carly Rae Jepsen - Call Me Maybe
220 One Direction - Drag Me Down
221 Endeverafter - No More Words
222 Eminem - Fall
223 Zendaya, Zac Efron - Rewrite The Stars
224 Lil Nas X - Old Town Road ft. Billy Ray Cyrus
225 Disney - Remember Me
226 Bone Thugs N Harmony - 1st of tha Month
227 Lukas Graham - 7 Years
228 Whitney Houston - I Wanna Dance With Somebody
229 Ed Sheeran - Shape of You
230 Camila Cabello - Havana ft. Young Thug
231 Selena Gomez, Marshmello - Wolves
232 ZAYN - Dusk Till Dawn ft. Sia
233 The Greatest Showman Cast - This Is Me
234 Lewis Capaldi - Someone You Loved
235 Lil Nas X - STAR WALKIN'
236 Dove Cameron - If Only
237 U.S.A. For Africa - We Are the World
238 Dr. Dre - Fallin Up (with Thurz & Cocoa Sarai)
239 Tyler, the Creator - SORRY NOT SORRY
240 Nicki Taylor - Worlds Collide
241 Taylor Swift - Blank Space
242 Maroon 5 - Girls Like You ft. Cardi B
243 The Gentle Men - 2019 Guy
244 The White Stripes - Seven Nation Army
245 Eminem ft. Rihanna - The Monster
246 Charlie Puth - Attention
247 Bruno Mars - Grenade
248 Queen - Radio Ga Ga (Official Video)
249 Julia Michaels - What A Time ft. Niall Horan
250 The Greatest Showman Cast - A Million Dreams
251 Rihanna - Umbrella ft. JAY-Z
252 Lady Gaga - Poker Face
253 Clean Bandit - Rockabye feat. Sean Paul & Anne-Marie
254 Eminem - Love The Way You Lie ft. Rihanna
255 Sam Smith - I'm Not The Only One
256 The Chainsmokers - Closer ft. Halsey
257 Eminem - Not Afraid
258 BAD BUNNY - BOOKER T
259 Ellie Goulding - Love Me Like You Do
260 Lady Gaga, Bradley Cooper - Shallow
261 David Guetta - Titanium ft. Sia
262 E-40 - Captain Save A Hoe ft. The Click, D-Shot, B-Legit, Suga T
263 Sofia Carson - Love Is The Name
264 Christina Perri - A Thousand Years
265 Maroon 5 - Moves Like Jagger ft. Christina Aguilera
266 Against The Current - Legends Never Die
267 Eminem - Like Toy Soldiers
268 Abba - Dancing Queen
269 Eminem - My Name Is
270 Shawn Mendes - Stitches
271 Malia J - Smells Like Teen Spirit
272 One Direction - What Makes You Beautiful
273 ZAYN, Taylor Swift - I Don’t Wanna Live Forever
274 Lil Nas X - Panini
275 Fergie - Glamorous ft. Ludacris
276 Ke$ha - TiK ToK
277 Sabrina Carpenter - Can't Blame a Girl for Trying
278 Shawn Mendes - Treat You Better
279 Shawn Mendes - There's Nothing Holdin' Me Back
280 Marshmello & Anne-Marie - FRIENDS
281 Pitbull - Timber ft. Ke$ha
282 CORPSE - E-GIRLS ARE RUINING MY LIFE! ft. Savage Ga$p
283 Hudson Mohawke - Cbat

This is more of a curiosity question than anything. So I did some Googling, and couldn't find information, but does anyone by chance know how they record the sounds for Roland V-Drum modules? Have they every released information about what drums and cymbals they used? I assume they definitely altered it digitally, but I thought the sound must have originally been acoustic.

hi i’m transmasc and 18 and my first ever job interview is on wednesday for walmart. i’ve never had a job before, so i’m wondering what kind of clothing i can wear to work everyday so customers and coworkers don’t misgender me. incase it’s needed for reference, im either going to be a stocker or one of those people who have to choose groceries for customers who make online/app orders. also, to any other trans person who’s worked at walmart, did you come out as trans to your higher ups and coworkers? if you did, were you treated well and were they respectful of your identity, name, and pronouns? i’m nervous about facing problems because of my identity. thank you in advance to anyone who responds!

Idk why I’m posting. We just got our 3 year old home from the emergency room and everything just hit me.
It wasn’t my car. It was a U-Haul pick up truck. We’ve had a car in the shop for 3 months (that’s it’s own shit show) and have been renting cars which costs a fortune. This week tho I really only needed a car today to take our daughter speech at 11:30 and PT at 2pm. I also have a huge load of stuff in my basement that’s been waiting to go to the dump/goodwill/thrift store. So I thought it would be a two birds one stone to get a pick up truck and it was only $50 for the day, extra insurance, and the miles I’d be using.
We picked up the U-Haul and I realized it didn’t have a back seat. I panicked because I needed to be able to put a car seat it in, it had tethers and a picture so I did some research. It’s legal in my state, our car seat manual had instructions, the car manual had instructions, and I double checked what else you should do with the Red Cross website. I did all of that and felt uneasy but it was the middle of the day on a Monday we rarely encounter many other vehicles during our drives to therapy appointments and never have any traffic so I brushed it off.
Leaving PT we had been on the interstate maybe 2 minutes when a blue SUV rams into us.
No air bag deploys for me, it was a large jostle but in that moment I was calm. Pulled over, called 911, called my husbands work, called my mom and waited. My daughter is screaming bloody murder. I orginally told 911 I didn’t need an ambulance but she didn’t calm down, she has autism and doesn’t always answer questions. 30 minutes go by and she hasn’t calmed down at all so I call 911 again and say I do want EMS to come look at my daughter while we wait for the police. But I am calm.
The other car is folded up like an accordion. But I still wanted to get out of the truck and beat the shit out of him but I wasn’t panicking just a calm quiet anger.
EMS arrives they say my daughter doesn’t need an ambulance but we should take her for an X-ray just to be sure everything is okay. Then the police and my husband arrive. I am still calm
I drive to the next exit and my husband puts the car seat in my car that he drove today and he takes over driving the U-Haul and follows me making sure no one besides him is behind me. I still feel calm.
We drop the U-Haul off, head to the pediatric ER. We tell them we were in a car accident and they call it in as a trauma alert, we go back to a room filled with people. I am calm.
They do a bunch of tests and she’s completely fine so we go home. I am no longer calm. I can’t stop thinking about how bad it could have been if he was going faster when he hit us or how absolutely devastating it would have been if I was driving my own vehicle. My car is so small that SUV would have destroyed my car and I doubt we would have gotten out without injury. It would have been so bad. I know it wasn’t I know my daughter is fine and I think I am fine but as whatever calm focus I had leaves my body I now notice how bad my back hurts.
I had just started to get over how anxious I was driving my daughter around. I use to have panic attacks when I drove her more that 15 minutes. I was almost back to normal. Now I don’t ever want to put her back in a car. I don’t want to drive on the interstate ever again or anywhere for that matter. I don’t know how I’m going to drive that same section of interstate every Monday for PT. I don’t want to.
U-Haul was understanding that with the ER visit I couldn’t return it tonight and are waiving the fee for an extra rental day. But I think I’m going to call them tomorrow and ask if anyone can come pick up the truck because I cannot get back into it. I feel so dramatic, everyone is fine, I won’t have to pay for the damage to the truck, I won’t even have to pay for my daughters ER visit, by all definitions I don’t even think this counts as a moderate collision on my end. But it was so scary. He hit us at 75mph. We were going 55 which was the speed limit. I just can’t stop thinking about how bad it could of been.

Heya folks,
I don’t think I’d be the appropriate person consulting advice here, but there’s just a lot on my plate and mind, right now. And I need some serious help. Long post!
So, my mom (36) and pop (40), have been married for well over ‘20 years’, and I was never the one to really pay close attention to the stability of the relationship, but I think it’s all finally crashing down now. So I just need some advice on what I can do, as a son or a third-party. For a bit of background, both my parents are foreign citizens residing in Australia, now as Australian Citizens, who now both ‘hate’ each other? I don’t have the full scope of the circumstances involved, but it’s gotten pretty serious, and I’ll try detailing what’s been happening.
So, my mom apparently met this new guy during work about 1.5 months ago, and they’ve been talking; texting; opening up to each other ever since. Because of the late night drives, and busy schedules during the day (even though she recently has been unemployed), it aroused my dad’s suspicion, in saying that, he confronted her yesterday revealing all the texts and even ended up talking to the dude. Needlessly to say, I was pretty livid because, this made dad cry. Even a police report was made regarding the whole situation, where the dude my mom was conversing with, got a ADVO. But the real issue arises, where, this dude was/is an emotionally manipulative shit. I don’t know, how superficial this dude is, but his words are stringing my mom’s heart pretty well.
He’s ‘sad’ or betrayed apparently, and keeps brining points about suicide or coerces her to some degree. From my understanding, he’s a student to some capacity, who’s already in a relationship? Again, my understanding of this whole debacle is vague. I feel like things are going to escalate way too quickly, if something isn’t done. As for me, I’m currently living with my parents, and my dad has given me the final verdict of what they should do. Divorce or no. I’m having mixed opinions because I’m seeing new evidence, but also stressed about how this is going to affect the family, and am worried about my little sister (5). I thought maybe family/marriage counselling would be appropriate, but I don’t think one of the party will comply, so I really can’t force it.
A bit of insight into the relationship is, mom won’t open up to me, though I try to be neutral as possible, keep denying every facet of her relationship with the bloke—stating things like, how I wouldn’t understand, or that it’s over (clearly isn’t). Dad, who is a hard-ass but does loves us, he’s just not very emotionally adept. I am trying to understand everyone’s thought, opinions, but again no one is listening. The relationship between mother and father, would be toxic, as they do bicker and argue a lot due to mom’s financial habits. But the toxicity has culminated to the point where it’s either divorce or remaining stationary. Advised dad to be more understanding, and mom to be a bit more open, but they’re both on each other’s throat. This dude who my mom’s also been talking too is making everything way worse, even trying to convince her to run away and marry him???
I don’t want to assume anything, but maybe it’s my mom’s way of letting loose? Her form of escapism, maybe finally finding someone who understands her? I don’t know. But what I do know is there is a serious problem. Also, divorce isn’t really that easy of a process, variables such as my dad not being fluent in English, finances and emotional impact on my sister’s well-being are just some I’d list.
I am so lost, please help. I have also have had responses to stay out of it at all cost, which fair be it, this really shouldn’t be my problem. But I’m either guilt tripped or stressed about how the implications may impact my little sister’s wellbeing.

So I'm fed up with motorsport games and all the bull shit 😒 like what the fuck is going on. One minute they say oh we are working on the next big nascar game for people who don't have iracing..... Then the next fucking thing is its not coming were sorry we don't have the resources and etc.
Well I'm to the point here where if iracing the company or who ever owns them needs to find a way to buy them so we can't a fucking legit 😤 playable game. I can't even turn on heat 5 without getting pissed off and turning it off anymore. Nascar needs to grill motorsport games and give it to iracing/monster games look how popular the world of outlaws game is.
Per Steam db everything has stopped on development for nascar ignition and heat 5 unfortunately what is everyone on vaction? Where is the IndyCar game does it even work. 🤔 Hell HALF OF THE PEOPLE WHO WORK THERE PLAY IRACING HMMM SPEAKS VOLUMES IMO. NASCAR DOESNT EVEN KNOWLEDGE A CONSOLE GAME JUST IRACING TINGS.
Even the pro league guys are on iracing that should speak about what has happened to console Nascar games.
Are we just supposed to wait around and see what Mr. Hood can do or jump to iracing for a simulation experience we are doomed for nascar gaming imo. It's run its course I guess 🤷
They promised us a next gen on the heat 5 well apparently its canceled plus they closed to smaller studios including the Orlando location apparently its sad nascar gaming is fell off the rails.

My dad had 10 upper crowns done in 2001 from the best cosmetic dentist in the city at the time - all intact 22 years later. They still look incredible, better than veneers of today but they cost a fortune (literally). In 2001 it was worth the money because so many dentists did unconvincing "chiclet" block teeth. IMO his only issue was doing uppers only, so the lowers were a different shade. My genetics isn't "pearly white" it's a "natural bone" colour so I'd get 10 upper + 10 lower. His were crowns but I'm only referring to veneers in the rest of the post.
I'm seeing amazing work for as little as $1k and up to $6k. I'm finding hard to distinguish $6k vs $1k per tooth, especially in different countries and currencies. Obviously theres many options inside that range. BTW I'm only considering legitimate regulated practices!!
Are technique/technology improvements bringing costs down? I've always understood cosmetic dentistry to be among the most expensive cosmetic work you can have done.
I know experience is a major cost factor, but even skilled dentists vary. What risks come with less experienced dentists (veneer longevity, enamel loss, etc)?
Something that confused me was looking at veneers from well-regarded prosthodontists... the veneers looked good, but not as natural/complicated/artistic as many from normal cosmetic dentists. I thought prosthodontists were supposed to be masters of restorations like this. This surprised me.
When I asked about veneers my dentist shut it down completely and told me to do Invisalign instead, which I did. I took this as a sign he's a good dentist putting the patient before money (4.5k/tooth). If the costs are justified, I'll definitely go with him... but that's roughly $90k for 20 veneers which I could put towards some other things I also want done.
TLDR; Basically I'm seeing some really amazing porcelain veneers (especially on instagram) in the 1-2k range now and I'm finding it really hard to justify (or at least understand) $5-6k per tooth with today's advancements in dentistry.

DRAG RACE!
Rachelle Mirage struts the runway wearing a pantsuit in orange and red.
“Hello world!”
“Welcome to Drag Race.”
Rachelle smiles.
“Ms Michaels, how you doing?”
“I’m fabulous baby.” Floss grins. “How YOU doing?”
“Amazing. Let’s kick out Chronologica!” Rachelle cackles.
Floss winks.
“Tanvi Lioness, are you ready to see these comedians shine?”
“It’s time for them to exit the house.” Tanvi smirks.
“For our Challenge, our racers were tasked with competing in the BIG MOTHER improv challenge!”
“And on the runway, they’ll be wearing Red Velvet looks.”
“It’s TIME!”
~
“Category is… Red Velvet!”
Crayola Boxx struts out in a red ball gown, uttering the shape of a cake. She’s got a big, swirly skirt, and she spins around and around, with little bits of ‘frosting’ spurting out of the stage. She’s got a big red updo and a smile on her face.
“Not the spurting.” Floss looks around awkwardly.
“It reminds me of what you used to-” Rachelle stops after looking at Floss’ rageful face.
Aguacate struts out in a full ball gown, with multiple layers of luscious red velvet cake. She twirls down the runway, revealing a big slice has been taken right out of her backside, exposing the real cake, which is completely bare. Aguacate takes a lick of her delicious frosting, and licks her fingers clean!
“Oh… Aguacate did it so much better than Crayola.” Tanvi whispers to Rachelle.
Wearing a surprisingly high-fashion number, Jaslene Bangus walks down the runway. Her hair is dark and slicked back into a high pony. The outfit itself, however, is a two-piece suit made entirely out of red velvet. The collar and front of the suit jacket is made to resemble the red curtains of a theater. As she walks, her face showcases class and poise.
“Thank God it’s not another cake look.” Rachelle says.
Zazu Nova arrives in a Lightning Mcqueen inspired form-fitting red velvet catsuit, hugging the her curves, with black accents in the form of lightning bolts paying homage to Lightning McQueen's design, and red velvet jacket with racing patches adding an edgy and rebellious vibe to the look as she struts with a smile.
“Vroom Vroom.” Floss smiles.
Granny Gorgeous enters the stage in a red velvet cape, a huge one that covers her entire body and makes her frame not so visible. With a long red wig, Granny is serving caftan velvet realness with a smirk.
“Oh, she’s giving Granny.” Tanvi smirks.
Fiore Stravaganza shines in a sleek velvet dress that hugs her body tight. She’s got a massive red headdress, made of the same red velvet material, replacing a wig like Fiore would normally rock. Her face is expressively painted, and Fiore looks like a star.
“Gorgeous.” Rachelle smiles.
Yasmin Raiz oozes sex appeal, strutting the runway in a deep red velvet bodycon dress that hangs low off her shoulders, with a little cream flower pin on her bosom. She wears sheer cream nylon gloves with a small ruffled bow at the wrist, a perfectly coiffed cream-blonde wig, small deep red glasses with flower-shaped frames, and carries a cream fur coat, as if she doesn’t even need the reveal.
“Delicious.” Floss winks.
King Omari Star stuns as he enters the stage in a red velvet kilt, with an asymmetrical shirt that has a matching long, flowy cape along with it. He’s got a massive pair of red platform boots, and as he walks, he gives every inch of royalty with a smirk.
“He loves a cape.” Rachelle chuckles.
~
“Hi Racers.” Rachelle purses her lips. “Nobody is safe.”
“First up… Yasmin.”
Yasmin smiles.
“You really have a soulful vibe, and I enjoy it.” Tanvi nods. “You hit the marks comedically, you enjoyed yourself and I was really quite pleased to see it.”
“Thank you!” Yasmin grins.
“It was a real fun time, and I do think you really were one of the highlights to see. Solid work, girl.” Rachelle smiles, “You have been consistent these past couple of weeks, and you only leave me wanting a little bit more, and I must say that I do think this look is a good switch for you. Keep up the good work.”
Yasmin bows.
“Fiore.”
Fiore smiles.
“You look gorgeous.” Racehelle grins. “Like, wow.”
Fiore flicks back her invisible hair and smirks.
“In this challenge, I did wish I got to see MORE from you in the challenge, though. It feels as if something is keeping you from fully going out like you did in, let’s say, the Snatch Game..”
Fiore nods.
“Just need- more engagement. I feel as if you’re hardening up, going back into that inner shell, when I want you to let us see even more of you. Pretty will only get you so far, Fiore.”
“I can assure you, this is me.” Fiore looks at Rachelle.
“Well…” Rachelle nods.
“Moving on, Jaslene.”
Jaslene looks at the judges.
“YAS! Girl, this look is great.” Floss smiles. “I damn love it.”
“Thank you.” Jaslene nods.
“I feel you have been middle of the road for a few weeks. But this week, I saw the effort baby. But it is not quite enough. I’m going to need you to keep driving- because at this point, I feel as if you’re lagging behind.”
“Noted.” Jaslene says.
“Zazu.”
“Hii…” Zazu says awkwardly.
“I think we know.” Rachelle says.
“Yes.” Zazu responds.
“This wasn’t quite the best performance. Well, you stumbled. I wanted to see you do well, but unfortunately- it wasn’t quite enough, and I’m going to need you to fight for this.”
“I do want to do this.” Zazu purses her lips. “For me, I feel challenged here. But I will always take every single critique and fight for the crown.”
“That is what I need.” Rachelle looks at Zazu. “Keep it going.”
Zazu nods in agreement.
“Omari.”
Omari adjusts his cape.
“You have a royal presence to you.” Tanvi says.
“King Omari Star.” Omari smirks. “Is my full name.”
“I can see it.” Tanvi responds. “I think you had a good balance of funny and real. I enjoyed you this week.”
Omari smiles.
“I wanted you to push yourself out of your comfort zone this week, and you did. And for that I have to commend you” Rachelle responds. “Well done.”
“Thank you.” Omari grins.
Granny.
“Hello.” Granny says.
“I am loving this look.” Rachelle looks at Granny. “It’s giving- a bit generic, but also- I do feel like you’re reinforcing that idea said a few weeks ago- I am seeing a lack of brand.”
“Okay…” Granny smiles, ever the pleaser.
“I want you to get dirty this week, but you did not.” Rachelle says. “And I'm going to need you to further think on what your drag is- what you bring. Because again- at this point, that’s really important.”
“I understand.” Granny smiles.
“Aguacate.”
“¡Hola!” Aguacate winks.
“You’re pure chaos!”
“AHHHHH!” Aguacate screams.
Tanvi giggles.
“That is what I liked.” Tanvi says. “Well and truly, you stole the show.”
“Thank you.” Aguacate smirks.
“I feel like unlike others, you do know who you are. My advice? Keep doing you.”
“I will.” Aguacate adds. “I can tell you that.”
“Finally, Crayola.”
“Hello dear.” Crayola smiles.
“You weren’t funny, baby.” Floss frowns.
“Oh.” Crayola looks surprised.
“As in- you know, I was expecting haha. But I got- oh, nah.” Floss laughs. “Like, damn, there was nothing fun- and I wanted to see you make me laugh!”
Crayola nods.
“For me, it came off- just like you were trying too hard, it wasn’t the smooth sailing we were looking for. And it just wasn't a very clever delivery, or very funny either. It was a shame.” Rachelle adds. “…And this gown doesn’t do you any favors- it looks frumpy.”
“I apologize.” Crayola responds.
“Racers, before we deliberate… I have a question to ask.”
Everyone looks at each other.
“Who should go home tonight and why? Starting with… Crayola.”
“I think this week I disappointed.” Crayola frowns. “And I do really enjoy this, but I am not delivering, and I will be truthful with that. I wasn’t the best, and I’m sorry.” Crayola says.
The others look surprised.
“Okay.”
“Zazu.” Aguacate says. “Ms Boxx at least has two wins. This is what, her… 4th time in the bottom 3?” Aguacate laughs.
Zazu frowns.
“I do agree, Zazu.” Granny sighs. “Sadly, at this point, she is not delivering as consistently as the others.”
“For me, Crayola.” Omari says. “I see a fighter in Zazu. I do not see that in Crayola, as… clearly, neither does she.”
Aguacate giggles.
“I think, Crayola.” Zazu nods. “I’m sorry, but I will not say myself- I can never...”
Rachelle nods.
“For me, Crayola.” Jaslene responds. “At this point, she is not showcasing herself at her best.”
“Now, Zazu is clearly at the bottom.” Fiore purses her lips. “But if I’m being honest, at this point, Jaslene isn’t delivering anything new either, I don’t think.” Fiore nods. “Like you have said she has been, for a lack of a better term… flat-lining these past several episodes.”
Jaslene looks surprised, as well as Rachelle.
Jaslene Bangus: “What the fuck?”
“Let her fight for the bottom.” Fiore shrugs.
Jaslene rolls her eyes.
“I do agree with Zazu.” Yasmin nods. “Unfortunately.”
“Thank you, racers. Whilst we deliberate, you may untuck backstage in the Crystal Lounge, sponsored by Princess Papaya Tropical Drinks.”
~
The racers enter the platinum lounge.
Jaslene stomps in, grabbing a drink before turning to face Fiore.
“What the fuck?” Jaslene says.
Fiore raises an eyebrow. "What's the matter, Jaslene? Did I say something wrong?"
Jaslene clenches her fists, clearly pissed. "You think it's okay to throw me under the bus like that? Saying I should fight for the bottom? What the hell girl? I thought you were my sister?”
Fiore smirks, taking a sip of her drink. “Please, Jaslene. I was just stating m ytruth, what I have been seeing these past few weeks- If you can't handle a little critique, maybe you're not cut out for this competition. I feel as if you haven’t been delivering, and to me, you’re dead weight, right now."
Fiore Stravaganza: “Real talk, I said her name because simply put, at this point, I feel the AE girls have been holding me back. I need my brand focused on me.”
Jaslene's trembles. "You have no right to judge me, Fiore. You act like you're better than all of us, but you're just a mean-spirited queen hiding behind a pretty face."
“Darling, you came up with the name PRETTY GIRLS, I’m not just pretty, I’m gorgeous.” Fiore growls. “I was just being honest.”
“Honest?!” Jaselene rolls her eyes. “You’re acting nasty.”
Fiore's eyes narrow, her composure slipping for a moment. "Watch your words, Jaslene. I may be straightforward, but at least I'm not deluding myself like some queens here. I speak the truth, and if you can't handle it, that's your problem. Now go fix your hair."
Jaslene looks as if she is ready to scream, as Omari raises his hand in between them. “Let’s not.”
“I just..” Jaslene rolls her eyes. “Whatever.” Jaslene walks off.
“Beef.” Aguacate giggles.
“...Can I ask, what is going on Fiore?” Omari asks. “Like, there’s this switch..”
“There’s no switch.” Fiore responds quickly, looking at Omari. “I’ve always been competitive here, and clearly you haven’t been paying attention.”
Omari rolls his eyes. “Alright.”
“How is everyone else?” Granny asks.
“I am disappointed to be in the bottom again, but girl- I love to perform.” Zazu puts in an earphone. “So, I'm going to give my all.”
Zazu Nova: “A stage is where I shine. That- I am not scared of.” Zazu grins.
“For me, it’s-” Crayola sighs.
Crayola pauses, and looks down. "I don't know, guys. I'm just... I'm really struggling right now. I feel like I'm not good enough, like I don't belong here. And seeing myself disappoint week after week, it's really taking a toll on me."
“You won last week, girl.” Fiore adds.
Yasmin puts a hand on Crayola’s shoulder. "Hey, hey, none of that talk, okay? You are talented, Crayola, and you absolutely belong here. We all have our off weeks, but that doesn't define who we are as queens. You have so much more to offer, and I believe in you."
“I just wish you didn’t say your own name.” Omari says.
King Omari Star: “I would never say my own name. I will always fight. And Crayola… it is a strange response.”
Crayola looks up at Yasmin, tearing up. "Thank you, Yasmin. I'm just scared of going home, you know? I don't want to let myself down or let anyone else down."
Yasmin pulls Crayola into a warm hug. "I understand that fear, but remember, this is just a moment in our journey. It doesn't define our worth or our future. We've come so far, and we're all here to support each other. You are loved and valued, Crayola."
Granny smiles. “We're a family here, and we lift each other up. Don't let negative thoughts bring you down. Embrace your uniqueness and shine."
Granny Gorgeous: “I feel the same, though. This is… scary.”
Aguacate chimes in with a grin. "Exactly, mija! We all have our strengths and weaknesses, but together, we make this competition fierce. Keep your head high and remember why you're here."
“Vroom vroom.” Zazu winks.
Jaslene looks in the mirror, combing her hair before sitting next to Omari.
Jaslene Bangus: “Well, I guess that’s over.”
Fiore and Jaslene look at each other for a second.
Jaslene Bangus: “Full steam ahead.”
~
“Welcome back, racers. We’ve made some decisions.”
…
“Fiore, Jaslene, you’re safe.”
The two look at each other before walking separate sides of the stage.
“Omari. Yasmin. Great work. You’re safe.”
The two grin.
“Aguacate, this week you made us CACKLE. Condragulations, you are the winner of this week’s challenge.”
Aguacate jumps for joy. “WOOHOO”
Aguacate: “Another one.” Aguacate winks. “I I think I’m a frontrunner.”
…
…
“Granny, you’re safe.”
Granny bows.
“That means Zazu Nova and Crayola Boxx, I’m sorry my dears, but you are up for elimination.”
“The time has come… for you to lip sync to your life!”
**Conga by Gloria Estefan starts to play**
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=54ItEmCnP80
“Good luck… and don’t fuck it up!”
Zazu Nova: “I know this is my fourth time, but lip syncing is what I do. I’m never going down without a FIGHT!”
Crayola Boxx: “I’m giving my heart. That’s all I can do.”
~
Next Time!
Racers, it’s time to makeover your loved ones!
“My WIFE!” Omari yells, tearing up.
“Woah.” Aguacate stares awkwardly.
“I’m going to shit on these bitches.” Jaslene smirks.
“Oh, another bodysuit?” Fiore looks at Jaslene.
Fiore Stravaganza: “This is MY moment.”
~
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