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2017.04.22 00:46 danny_b23 Shadow Party
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2020.07.23 04:02 shoemilk The writings and ramblings of a shoe full of milk
I feel like it's 2001 again and I'm making a myspace page...
2023.06.02 00:43 Tentaclaw Local shop with gallowfall, ashes of faith, soulshackle, nachmund
Hey all, There is a local game store near me that has one copy each of soulshackle, gallowfall, nachmund, and ashes of faith being sold at MSRP, if anyone would be interested in going halves on anything ? I would be interested in pretty much any of the different teams but already have a copy of the gallowdark terrain and soulshackle expansion. Alternatively, if someone wanted me to try and pick up the full copy for them by extension (if they cover shipping)?
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2023.06.02 00:42 Altruistic-Dog-5559 Making something out of nothing
Saw my kid’s baby blanket today with his name on it, and it made me smile. Only this community will get it…
Here’s the story. I’ve been a MM fan for well over 20 years (wtf is time; I digress). The first time I heard Dramamine I felt a physical shift, and the ending still lays down a blanket of bliss for me. I definitely kept the older albums on heavy rotation after Good News, and didn’t get into the newer music til more recently.
Well, my husband and I met in Portland and pretty soon after, moved to Grand Canyon National Park. When our son was born, we named him Max Coyote. There was a coyote who would cruise through our yard on the regular, so his middle name is in homage to that creature. We knew we wouldn’t live in the park forever and wanted to give him a name that connected to the place where he was born.
A few months after he was born I saw the video for Coyotes I couldn’t believe the coincidences- the transit the coyote is riding on is called the MAX, the others are pretty obvious- meeting in Portland, living in a national park.
I didn’t set out to connect my kid’s name to my favorite band, but goddamn do I love how that worked out.
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2023.06.02 00:42 Vathy 34 [M4F] NYC/US - I want to find someone to spend time and meeting someone new with!
Hi! They say persistence is key, so here I am again, still out here searching for someone to get to know. Haven't had anyone reach out (or that I've reached out to) in a bit, hoping to change that, and sending messages to people on here that never read them is quite exhausting over and over, so with that being said...
While I have a huge preference to people local to NYC, I'm open to conversation from people outside of it, just would love to meet eventually! I feel like I don't have anyone I can really call my go-to right now in terms of happily looking forward to spend time with doing things we want to do together.
Thus, I'm posting here again because while I've been on the search for a special someone, I've realized that I would love to honestly just get to meet and get to know people here local to the city, without any expectations, that would like to possibly hang out sometime in person if we clicked in conversation online. As a note before reading on, I'm looking for someone to spend more than 1 single conversation with. If you're just "bored and wanting attention", I may not be the guy for you :) With that being said!
I've been working from home for so long, that sometimes I realize I'm missing out on what the city has to offer and I'd like to have a reason to experience the cool things to do here in NYC with someone that lives here, too :)
Essentially, I'd like to find someone that browses here that's looking for someone to talk to online, but wouldn't mind hanging out when the opportunity allows. I'm fine with it being platonic (but if you're possibly looking for more, I'd love to have ya read my profile to see if we align in our interests) as well!
On my free time when I'm not coding at home, I like to go to the park often to play basketball as my way of getting exercise, but I'd love to essentially "re-visit" NYC. I also enjoy more homebody interests such as playing video games (open to basically any, though I play WoW the most currently), board games (I love chess), watching shows (would love to watch with someone irl or over calls), and just talking a lot. I'm generally very open to a lot of things as I enjoy doing something new, even if I know very little about it. Since coming back home 3 years ago after being away for a bit and not having much of a reason to venture out too far beyond my neighborhood (which I've gone around and met some people outside my age range in both directions), I'd love a chance to visit (with someone else looking for something to do) all the places I haven't been to in a while.
If you'd like to join me when I choose to do it myself sometime soon (or if you have places you'd like to go to where you'd enjoy a +1), I'd love to hear from ya. I was thinking of treating myself to a trip through some of the parks in Manhattan sometime just to enjoy the weather here soon and it'd be nice to have company.
Just tell me a bit about yourself, what you're looking for and if you'd like to possibly hang out sometime, let me know!
Hoping to make a new friend (or more)!
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2023.06.02 00:42 KnotInKansas "Beau Is Afraid" as a specific allegory of contemporary America.
The prevalent reading of the film as a personal psychological drama is baffling to me, when the bulk of its bizarre directorial, narrative, and acting choices only make sense if you approach it as a societal allegory and satire. I think the core themes and settings of "Beau" being highly specific to contemporary America may be lost on an American audience. Here's my take:
Mona is the USA. Beau is its people. Their abusive dynamic is a metaphor and parody of the American Condition.
Penis dad is monstrous, single-minded capitalism in bed with the government, thanks to which Mona has established an industrial empire built on lies, exploitation, and imprisonment of dissidents like Harry who question her methods. The recorded therapy sessions and the trial at the end is the surveillance state taken to its logical conclusion, and the twisted video evidence is the most prominent counterargument against the "if you have nothing to hide..." dismissal of privacy rights. There's a clear trend of racial exploitation in the skin colors of the help, the lady who "volunteered" her dead body, and the light-skinned "Uncle Tom" therapist.
We start with a panorama of extreme poverty in the inner cities. Then we move on to a different flavor of insidious oppression in suburbia, and then comes the play, which is remarkably similar to the stories Hollywood likes to tell about the American Dream. Rugged individualism and self-reliance by good, salt-of-the-earth folk, the immigrant myth, a farcical obsession with family values and a specific slant of fatherhood, erasure of women, ... This section ends with a mass shooting -- a phenomenon largely unique to the US, and it draws a jarring contrast with the idealized storytelling about America. The irony is palpable.
Beau's infertility is both symbolic and literal. The promises told in the play clearly do not reflect the reality of Beau's or our lives. If people are too tied down by socioeconomic factors to even have children, how can they expect to have full lives themselves? In the play, Beau pursues his children to the bitter end, only to discover that they never could have existed in the first place. The story was always a lie.
The ending credits places us squarely on the other side of the same spectator-sports stadium/courthouse. There's a projector beam shining, and we watch as people stream out of the "theater." The audience who filled that arena are us, and Beau's fate is a warning. His speech, always slurred, stuttered, and indistinct, is barely even audible by the end despite his shouting and screaming. His actions spoke much louder when he was strangling Mona.
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2023.06.02 00:42 Fit-Extension2827 Looking for a good agility place
Hey, I have a 3 yo jack parson russel terrier that loves agility and I would like to find a place so she gets trained! I need a cheap/ affordable option near Miami Dade.
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2023.06.02 00:42 jhmckee1288 Sole prop bathroom reno company looking for customer feedback.
Can I put a survey here?
https://www.surveymonkey.com/BJXJHVB My story is this: I own a small bathroom renovation company in Monmouth County, NJ. Trying to do research without paying an arm and a leg for surveys. If you can help me, I'd appreciate it.
If this isn't the place for this, if you could direct me to the proper area of Reddit, I'd appreciate it.
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2023.06.02 00:41 jc_time I had a Mental Breakdown Last Night
Last night was fucking awful. My boyfriend of 3 years called while he was out, asked if some of his friends could come over and if I could pick up a little. I told him it was late and that it would take me more than 20 mins than to just 'clean' up. I could hear he was disappointed, and then after he hung up I just broke down and cried.
Everything in my house is a huge mess. I am not mentally okay, and after our long talk last night, my boyfriend yet again reminded me that I needed to lose weight. I know he's just looking out for my health and I tell him I am more than well aware of my health, and I told him through my sobs to read through this subreddit. That you'll find countless stories from other people with pcos and how fucking difficult it is for us to just lose weight, no matter what diet, exercise or lifestyle change we do.
I hate how bad this condition has made me. I've become complacent, if I don't move, it doesn't hurt. I know that it's a bad habit. I barely eat anything for meals now, my mental health and relationship have taken a toll, I don't feel or look the same as I did as when I met him- I told him I'm trying, I'm actively doing something (taking new birth control and upped my metformin dose). I feel so ugly, gross, like a waste of human space. I don't feel feminine anymore- I have no motivation to do anything, and it's destroying the place I live in, affecting others around me.
I don't know what to do. I've tried therapy through Cerebral but that was a mistake, I'm on effexor for antidepressant and also it controls my chronic migraines. Apparently I've become very hateful towards my parents (truth be told, they are a bit narcissistic and they've told me time and time again that I've always hated them) And bless his heart, my bf is a strong family man, close ties with his family, and he tries to understand, and I tell him I don't try to be hateful, I don't want to be angry, I want a good relationship with my family, but when they constantly critique this, critique that-
I'm tired. I'm so exhausted, I hate explaining myself, I hate looking like a crazy person.
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2023.06.02 00:41 danisoffthewall Question about paid training?
I just started at Petsmart near the end of last month. I did my videos that I needed to do and did the training for Pet Care recently. Does PetSmart do paid training? If it is paid, when do I receive the money? And will it be what I am going to be making an hour?
I haven’t asked anyone at my location and nobody has said anything to me about it.
I am a part-time Pet Care Specialist.
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2023.06.02 00:41 theTdot I got out
I've worked in a kitchen or some related role since i was 16 (nearly 30 now). I love to cook, I love to eat, I love the community and comradery that working in a face paced kitchen provides. I never had dreams of working in fine dining or owning a spot. Just polishing my skills and crushin that cold one with the staff after a grueling shift was always enough motivation to keep goin. After covid, like many of us, going back was hard for me. The owner was more of a douche bag, the orders more annoying and after having a taste of a good work life balance I knew my days were numbered. So i did what any proper self destructive chef would do and worked harder lol Got my first management role, my first sous role and took more on than I ever had. I hated it. I fell in love and had someone close to me for the first time tell me how angry I was after work. That coupled with getting fired back to back showed me I just wasnt in it anymore. I knew I could never be happy in the kitchen. After a massive identity crisis I landed in an electricians apprentice job. I still love the kitchen and dream of going back but after getting a 9-5 with weekends and holidays ALL for just a few dollar pay cut im stuck into my new life. Maybe I was just never cut out for it but I think a lot of fellow chefs have felt similarly to me. Cooking is not the only thing you are its just a part of you. Maybe someone needs to hear this maybe I'm just ranting. But if you ever need to gtfo entry level labor jobs pay great, work your ass like i know you like and have a great schedule. Still miss blastin it out with the boys on the line tho god damn lol
Keep rippin yall
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2023.06.02 00:41 elle-bathory I feel like my doctor doesn’t know what she’s talking about.
After my 24 week sonogram she diagnosed me with a marginal placenta. She explained it to me that it meant the cord was on the side of the placenta instead of in the middle and said they would just have to keep a close eye on it, but besides that it isn’t a big deal. I just did some research on it and it has nothing to do with the chord. It has to do with the placenta partially blocking the cervix. Also In some cases you have to go on pelvic rest and she didn’t tell me anything about that.
She’s a Medicaid doctor and she’s always super short with me and in a big hurry. I always feel very rushed and I never get to ask all the questions that I wanted to know. I’m just scared because I read that I could bleed out if it ruptures. I know I didn’t misunderstand her about the placenta because she drew it out on a piece of paper to explain it to me and drew the cord to the side. She didn’t mention my cervix at all. she didn’t give any in depth explanation besides the chord being in the wrong place which seems to be completely wrong.
I guess maybe I should look into finding another doctor that understands what they’re talking about. I don’t really want this lady delivering my baby if she doesn’t even know what a marginal placenta is.
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2023.06.02 00:41 myalbatr0ss No reason to stop drinking?
burner account bc I'm paranoid lol
tw: loss, alcoholic logic
I've been reading on this community for a few months and reading everyone's stories has been very helpful for me. I just need to vent a little and thought this might be a good place. sorry if this is more of a stream of consciousness I just need to get things off my chest
I'm 23, and I've been drinking almost daily for the past 2-3 years. Right now I'm averaging eight beers a night, sometimes 9 or 10. Objectively, I know I need to stop. I'm rotating grocery stores out of embarrassment, and I'm falling apart. I'm so depressed, my house is disgusting, and I sleep most of the day until I either go to work or start drinking. the problem is I feel like I don't have a good reason to stop. I live alone after multiple traumatic family deaths in the last year and a half. as a result I basically have no family left. I never really made many friends either so I'm really on my own. I go to work, work on my online classes, and drink. no one is concerned about my drinking because there's no one who would know. In my (probably addict) mind, why would I give up having fun getting drunk by myself at night when my other option is to have panic attacks? I couldnt' sleep sober at all for a year after my mom died. Now I can sometimes but it's really hard. I'm struggling so much with grief and probably ptsd that the only time I can even laugh at something or relax is when I'm drinking.
the ironic part is that I feel like I should know better. I'm a nurse, and my dad was an alcoholic the whole time I was growing up and I watched it wreck my family. I just feel like since I don't have any family left, it doesn't matter if I'm a drunk. I know I have a lot of issues at play here and should probably seek some kind of professional help haha but like I said I just wanted to vent a bit to some people who might understand. if you've read all this thank you, I support all of you!
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2023.06.02 00:40 MaWiVo Is it acceptable to ask the seller what their occupation is?
The seller works from home in the flat that I am in the process of buying.
I had arranged for an electrical report to take place. The only time the property was available was one afternoon when the seller had finished with their client. I assumed this would be Zoom/Team calls, that sort of thing.
The electrician hadn't found anything too alarming regarding the electrics, but did tell me in conversation, that the seller was in the flat during the report, clearing a large amount of tissues up from the living room. There was also a large bin in the kitchen containing what the electrician described as hypodermic needles.
I am a little concerned by this and not sure how to approach it.
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2023.06.02 00:40 ThyRoyalJuice Shen W needs a change on how it interacts with certain features
I just find it annoying how I have play perfectly and it still doesn't work half the time. On perfect w activations Fiora is still able to proc vitals and Gwen is still able to get her q stacks. I feel that W should be able to prevent interactions like this from happening since we are essentially dipping into the spirit realm to dodge autos. It would be nice if it doesn't proc anything that stacks with autos since they never hit us in the first place.
I am just making this ranting since I just faced against Gwen and she won every fight with barely any hp left even though I had perfect timings and dodge every ability she threw at me (she missed all 3 ults and barely hit me with her q on the sides as I stepped out of them soon after) and in the end just beat me with her autos. It is just frustrating knowing you can't do anything because of the whole top lane champion diff gimick.
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2023.06.02 00:40 ThrowawayDay2023 I took an important step today. Finally.
TW: Brief mention of Suicide
I am depressed. I have been for a long time. I can't remember when it started, exactly but it's been, by a rough estimate, about 9/10 years now. It's been bad. I isolated myself nearly completely. For a time, I was a total shut-in. I flunked out of college and, on one particularly dark day, I nearly tried to end it all. I ended up not going through with it but the situation never really improved. I moved back home, settled in to a minimum wage, dead-end job and continued just... existing. Not living... just existing. Wake up, go to work, come home, wait until it gets dark enough to sleep and repeat.
It's been several years of this. Occassionally I go for job interviews for better jobs but it's lead to nothing so far. I have no friends. I live in a pretty rural area so it's a small community. I've never had a girlfriend or anything close to that... I just can't bear the thought of putting myself out there like that. It's been so long like this that I have trouble believing that things will ever change.
But today... today I finally did something that I wasn't sure I was ever going to do. I called and made a doctor's appointment. It's still a couple weeks away but I'm cautiously optimistic. I don't know what's going to happen from here on. Therapy? Meds? I really don't know but it's something. I don't have anyone in my life I can tell about this but it's a really important step for me and, I dunno, I guess I feel a little proud of myself? If I can even allow myself to feel like that.
Realistically, I know this won't fix all my problems and I've got a long way to go before I'll be genuinely satisfied with life. This isn't the end of the race... I'm just glad to have made it to the start line.
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2023.06.02 00:40 No_Cardiologist_911 The differences in our [34M] [28F] sex drives is becoming a deal breaker. What should we do?
I read and was told online that men in Muslim countries commonly have sex with other men due to sexual repression and gender segregation, where women are unavailable
I was also told the women in those situations don't have sex with other women anywhere near as commonly
This made me think that male sexuality depends almost solely on the sexual availability of women while female sexuality depends on so much more than the sexual availability of men
I asked my psychologist, parents and sister. They said that it would be a minority of men who would do that and that in most cases (like prisons) women do it with other women as often, even more. My psychologist said she worked in both men's and women's prisons and that the women do that with each other much more than the men do it
What do you think?
Because if it's not somewhat equal between men and women and if it is so one sided, then that puts me off men as a gender completely because it would show that women like men more, in a more well rounded way and that take sex away and men turn to men. So their attraction and interest in women is paper thin.
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2023.06.02 00:40 uareimportant Just looking for suggestions :)
I am a big fan of fictional paranormal/horropsychological thrillers/just overall spooky and unputdownable books, YA or adult!
Here are some of my favorites:
Between the devil and the deep blue sea by april genevieve tucholke
Between the spark and the burn by april genevieve tucholke
Wink Poppy Midnight by april genevieve tucholke (I really adore this author and her way of storytelling!!! Her books do happen to be all YA.)
come closer by sara gran
penpal by dathan auerbach (I LOVED THIS BOOK SO MUCH)
rock paper scissors by alice feeny
verity by colleen hoover
things have gotten worse since we last spoke by eric larocca (weird as hell but did it for me)
rosemary's baby by ira levin
i'm thinking of ending things by ian reid
the dead house by billy o-callaghan (this book as well as the first two I listed by april genevieve tucholke have rather large oceanic/nautical themes weaved throughout- anything like this is appreciated- I find something about it to be incredibly soothing)
the woman in the window by aj finn
the exorcist by william peter blatty
sometimes coming-of-age stories are nice as well. I very much enjoyed the perks of being a wallflower, me, earl and the dying girl, and palo alto.
I have also been on the lookout for some time for any book that feels like the month of octobehalloween/autumnal season (or takes place during said time! Think along the lines of R.L. Stine, but not for kids.)
Thank you for any suggestions !!!!!!! :)
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2023.06.02 00:39 ToxicStallUmbreon [US, US] (H) Axew BW16, Ex era holos/RHs, Trade Binder, Slabs w/ Error slab (W) Moonbreon, Raichu & Alolan Raichu alt, Wantlist, Paypal
Hi everyone!
Looking to fund a moonbreon purchase in the near future so almost everything is open to offers! Please let me know if you have a desired condition in mind when asking about a card as the vintage leans more towards played with some LP and NM
Axew sold listings are super few and far between, only listing on TCGPlayer is "LP" but creased. Last sold on ebay was for around $170, I'm leaning towards $125 PP or $150 TV to move quickly. Also open to trades including eeveelution alts and my wantlist so make an offer!
Aside from the axew, the first page of my trade binder is trade only atm. I've also decided to include my ex era holo/rh collection to feel out interest. Not in any hurry to move so will be picky on trades and would probably only sell as a lot
Pricing based on TCGPlayer and Ebay sold listings except for red/green giftset moltres error slab which I'll start at $150
Trade Binder and axew:
https://imgur.com/a/vcZ3YKk Ex era:
https://imgur.com/a/Jzuqr7N Slabs:
https://imgur.com/a/Xiot3OU High priority wants: Moonbreon and other eeveelution alts Raichu/Alolan Raichu alt Ex era exs I still need Yu Nagaba eeveelutions (mainly umbreon/espeon) Neo shinings I still need Interesting vintage
As always thanks for looking!
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2023.06.02 00:39 eggdrops Best cruise lines/ships for lots of fun activities for a group of 21-23 year olds?
Looking at taking a cruise with a group of friends, a few couples and a few singles all together. I was looking at VV as they're 18+ and seem to have a good party atmosphere (although it does look like a bit much even for our tastes, we're more of a drink and play video games and pool or darts in a basement type) but most videos I see showing the amenities of VV are just gym, lounge areas or places to "hang out" and restaurants on both cruise ships Scarlet Lady and Valiant Lady. The pools look small and like there aren't many hot tubs, and from what I've read all seem to be really crowded. The arcade also looked pretty small. Not to sound like I'm hating but if I wanted to just drink and sit in Instagramable places I'd go to the fancier bars in my area instead of paying $1500+ for a cruise with little else to do. If I'm wrong about this, please let me know.
Maybe it's just because I've never taken a cruise before so maybe this is normal and the main attraction is the countries/places you stop at but I'd like there to be lots of things to do on the ship as well. We're not really the type that would go to shows but stuff like a surf machine or a large pool, bars with games and stuff is probably more our thing. Y'know, stuff you can't usually do at home.
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2023.06.02 00:39 torrentialsnow Nightmare containment might’ve lacked variety but it excelled in enemy density, something salvage desperately lacks.
I know people didn’t like nightmare containment all that much as it got fairly dull pretty quickly, but I have to give credit for having plenty of enemies to shoot at for a 6 player activity and for having a great flow to each stage to keep things moving at a good pace.
There were plenty of mini bosses and enemies and coupled with being under levelled, there was always things to shoot at for everyone. The activity also took place in a small area so it was easy to move around to different objectives with little downtime.
Salvage on the other hand is the complete opposite. You have these huge areas, very predictable enemy spawn points and not nearly enough enemies to go around. It also Doesn’t help that just looking in the general direction of an enemy kills them. I love the environments of Salvage but it’s an incredibly boring and frustrating experience. I think making enemies 5 levels above our level will help alleviate a lot of the issues but more enemies would also help.
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2023.06.02 00:39 jacknikedisamotracia "what do you mean by functioning?" someone asked few time ago, but in the meanwhile i was banned for 2 days 🤦 so i couldn't answer. now maybe it's been deleted i don't find anymore...
anyway, as a person that previously commented under older posts: about functioning as a key to understand when it's the right moment to start tapering functioning as the sign that my trt was my right journey... but it can be translated in your personal context as well, that "doing a certain thing" is beneficial for your heal.
(i point my TRT just because, as i don't remember almost any username, rather than images, i expect it could be the same for a large part of the other users on this social... and healing while taking a steroid is an unusual thing; - i don't feel special, - neither need to celebrate this month,
considering that now it's an ideology rather than a condition that belongs to medical topic, for the trans part.
- and as it wasn't enough ive been BANNED for hate speech because i said literally "those who haven't dysphoria towards sexual features are CIS whatever pronouns they use" (something similar, now it's removed and the post wich i was commenting probably deleted, banning the OP as well! i would bet.) cis it's not an insult, as you all see.
but this goes of topic, i just needed to vent a bit because it's unfair, moderation is largely hyjacked and depends on the number of reports, and usually automated. and this is my first post, so you'll swallow my bile acid in the place of my analyst 😌🤝)
so, going back IN topic, what is MY definition of funtioning? i started being functional in life when i started being the protagonist of my life, this isn't a direct symphtom of schizo, it's rather disconnection due to dysphoria, BUT being "inside my body", in turn, thanks to the work with the analyst, helped me recognizing delusion and discarding them as real. to help this process (if you have persecution's mania, thats what i had), whenever it happens, my line of thought is "how many possibilities there are that a real person would do it? especially, either spending a lot in technologies, or spending a lot in studying it in order to mock me/ share my personal information and make people who walks under my street's home, or around in the town, gossip about me, recognizing me? and if there is a possibility (a stalker, a great criminal) what is their motive? the conclusion is always that there isn't. so, this is for the "delusion/paranoia" 's part. for what concerns auditory hallucination (my other main symphtom), i was putted on risperidone, and then olanzapine, after my last recovery in the psychward. i have a bit of holes in all the story, but shortly, february 2022, i started a man dose of testosterone. and this slowly improved, so in march i started tapering. i mean, functioning: either under antipsychotic or after quitting them as they weren't mandatory anymore, since 2018 i can see, in hindsight, that: i worked, but my detach from my body and my mind (maybe i have also a context of hypogonadism in both thyroid and sexual axis so it's always tricky to blame only one disease, rather than a series of coincidences) made me slow, less focused, "brain fogged", with a shorter attention span, with a weaker ability of will, ( i struggled to don't let other's opinion condition my own action and even opinion). these factors, together with the voices and persecution paranoia symphtoms, (they were louder and frequent some times, and some other times less, but constantly present), obviously made my ability to work (therefore autonomy, money), to relationate with others, and even to learn something, in general, a slower and harder process. i always had contracts such little period of substitution, fixed term, obvioulsy, also not schizo people have the same contracts, the same struggle, but then, 1) they get quicker more easily as they learn. i struggled to learn, and it was a big lack of ability. as they have accumulated some experience, bosses usually delay the end of the fixed contract, and l, after years, maybe they would obtain an indefinite one. so, they were open to put trust in me, if i demonstrate to deserve it. ... i had a lot of these mini-contract, and for some reason i always ended discarded, without a call: the contract ended and i was no more an employee. no delay of the end of contract.
IN SHORT, non-functioning :
- detachement from reality
- brain fog
- shorter attention span
- weaker willness (conditioned from others)
- poorer ability to learn/ inability to go quicker in manual activity.
- poorer income (from 0 to 300. i started seeing 600 when i did deliveroo, but it's a lie because of taxes and fuel: net, it's at least a half) and this is my personal objective criteria
these factors, together with voices relapses and persecution paranoia, were the perfect recipe to not be autonomous, to reach my personal goals in life.
so, what is functioning? as i started seeing the masculinizating changes, i started being more active both in gym that at work, this could be explained with the chemical properity of testosterone... but also more present inside myself, more conscious that i'm not living my life like a first-person videogame. dht (conversion of testo in the body) is known to help with the positive mood (thats why a lot of men on trt aren't aggressive, it's a myth), and this leaded to be less passive and more "active" in making things work. the fact that i had better progession in the gym, and a human income to buy my own things with the rider work and sometimes cleaning service, created a virtuous circle. in the meanwhile, i think in march, i started tapering olanzapine, because i noticed it let me sleep too much (12h) and i needed to go working for a cleaning service that started early in the morning... and so loweder the dose by 2,5 a month. when it became too small of a dose, i preferred to take it only when needed, instead of counting days (eod, every 2 days...) yesterday i took again a 2,5 after months, because staying at home (i had a crash and i need a new moped, plus, i had a surgery and i couldn't workout... ) without a "mission" to complete, creates a great hole for voices to introduce themselves again... and i was struggling to fall asleep. at least the ban has been beneficial because i couldn't comment on reddit, and therefore voices hadn't the pretence to mock me... my personal objective criteria to define my "functioning" is the fact ive been able to learn the map of my city, to learn how my works "work", and as a result, the better income, in terms of money. because i used my own time instead of let it passing me by.
... idk if it can be helpful for someone. it took me a lot to write, and at least i didn't do an angry post or comment under the sub where i've been reported UNFAIRLY.. not for now 😁🤗
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2023.06.02 00:39 sidedishx need help deciding
I would say I am intermediate hobbyist bassist with the interest to take lessons and grow.
That being said, I had a beautiful bass that I loved to play and felt and sounded amazing to me.
It was a Fender player series jaguar bass with flatwounds. I played mostly the P pup and I loved the feel and sound. Unfortunately that guitar was involved in an accident with which I don't care to discuss the details. Getting it repaired is an option, but getting a new one is a more immediate and guaranteed one, so I have been shopping around.
I tried a mid range musicman bass, but the neck was driving me crazy and I'm not sure if I want or need one with just the bridge pickups or one with both neck and bridge pickups.
SO I went shopping online. Two basses caught my eye, with p or pj config.
One was the Sire Marcus Miller P5 (4 string). Looks good, not sure how the sound would compare to the pickups from my jag though.
The other one was a Charvel Pro-mod san dimas PJ IV. It's an active bass which I have never played with, and I heard that playing it in its passive mode is lackluster.
Unfortunately, the Charvel is the only one I can visit a shop near me to actually play, so I am looking for a little advice. I am planning on test driving the Charvel, but the Sire has me more interested. Looking for any info from anyone with experience with either.
I am also considering just getting a squire or MIM P-bass, but I figured if I am going to get a new bass, and possibly repair my jag, I'd try something from a different manufacturer. Just want to hear some thoughts.
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2023.06.02 00:39 KxxpaKabra A clan for everyone!
Happy early launch day everyone!
With launch being 20 min away, I wanted to let the community know that we’ve put together a discord for folks with no one to play with. The idea is to give everyone someone to play with or at least a clan to benefit from. As someone with pretty high anxiety, LFG’s or finding help can be pretty soul crushing at times and my hope here is to make that easier for some folks. If your a parent, student, first responder or have other responsibilities that don’t allow you to play very often, then we’d like to offer a place to make the most use of your time and have people to run with so you can enjoy slaying your way through Sanctuary.
To avoid getting trolled by those who just enjoy being trolls and already have troll friends to play with, I’ll be posting the discord link once the game goes live and once posted I probably won’t be checking this post again. If you have questions before hand then please send me a DM and I’ll answer as I can. Good luck and take care of yourselves everyone!
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