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2023.06.07 11:22 _latino_heat Canadian knife laws
Me and my girlfriend will be travelling to the Philippines later in the summer. I wanted to purchase a butterfly knife while I was there and bring it back to Canada. I'm aware they are illegal but trainers are not. My thinking is that if take the knife apart and separate the blade and handle, and then put the blade in my checked bag and the handle in my girlfriends that would be legal.
Would that work?
Out of curiosity would I be criminally charged if a butterfly knife was found in my checked bag or would it just be confiscated?
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Would that work?
Out of curiosity would I be criminally charged if a butterfly knife was found in my checked bag or would it just be confiscated?
2023.06.07 11:22 boomchickaboom After yesterday's rant and the amazing messages - wanted to share this what I listened to today.
This American Life's podcast this week was about delights that we find everyday. It resonated with me because yesterday someone said something about adhd's superpower or positives and I think one thing it gave me was the ability to remain curious and find wonder - because I was so daydreamy!
The episode (called The Show of Delights) is a great reminder to look for the positives everyday - even when things are sucky.
They refer to a book called The Book of Delights, by Ross Gay, which is a series of essays where the writer wrote about a delight a day. I am no writer, but I just bought myself a new gorgeous journal (I did look through the 20 journals I already have - (what is it about adhd and stationary?) - but they are all mostly filled) and am going to try to at least write a sentence about what delights me each day.
I know gratitude journals are a thing - but for some reason delight speaks to me. Gives me that giggly feeling of an 8 year old, running after the ice cream van . . .and it actually stops!
Anyway, hope it helps someone today - as you all helped me immensely <3
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The episode (called The Show of Delights) is a great reminder to look for the positives everyday - even when things are sucky.
They refer to a book called The Book of Delights, by Ross Gay, which is a series of essays where the writer wrote about a delight a day. I am no writer, but I just bought myself a new gorgeous journal (I did look through the 20 journals I already have - (what is it about adhd and stationary?) - but they are all mostly filled) and am going to try to at least write a sentence about what delights me each day.
I know gratitude journals are a thing - but for some reason delight speaks to me. Gives me that giggly feeling of an 8 year old, running after the ice cream van . . .and it actually stops!
Anyway, hope it helps someone today - as you all helped me immensely <3
2023.06.07 11:22 spineWise12 SpineWise - Chiropractor & Physiotherapy Bowmanville
 | submitted by spineWise12 to u/spineWise12 [link] [comments] https://preview.redd.it/2tvfhr08dk4b1.jpg?width=407&format=pjpg&auto=webp&s=504689339038c170aac053ac0edf7ec48f70bc28 Laser Therapy is a non-invasive and painless technique that uses focused light to stimulate healing in the body. It has been used in Chiropractic Care as a complementary treatment to help alleviate pain, inflammation, and promote tissue repair. The expert Bowmanville Chiropractor, Dr Amit Sharda from the SpineWise clinic also performs Laser Therapy Bowmanville to help his patients. #Chiropractor Bowmanville #Chiropractor in Bowmanville #Chiropractor Near Me #Best Chiropractor Near Me #Chiro Bowmanville #Laser Therapy Near Me #Laser Therapy Bowmanville #Chiropractic Adjustment Bowmanville #Chiropractic Treatment Bowmanville #Chiropractic Care Bowmanville |
2023.06.07 11:22 RobJHayes Self Published Fantasy Releases – June 2023
 | submitted by RobJHayes to Fantasy [link] [comments] https://preview.redd.it/y71r0t8gdk4b1.jpg?width=2069&format=pjpg&auto=webp&s=28b6c1617e39d6e9d534b7ae5a49457ee7814c23 You can find the original blog post, complete with all the shiny covers, here. If you would like to be kept up to date with the upcoming lists, please subscribe to my newsletter by clicking this link. I don’t send out letters too often, pretty much once a month when this list goes out… and occasionally if I release a book or something. As always, this is not a comprehensive list, but only includes all the books I have heard about so far. If you have a fantasy novel you are self publishing in June or beyond, let me know by filling out THIS FORM, and I shall add it to the page. There are but 3 requirements: 1) It must be a self published fantasy novel. 2) It must have a Goodreads page. 3) It must have a cover. -- 1st June – The Pyres of Vengeance (Swords of Dominion #2) by N.C. KoussisEpic Fantasy, GrimdarkAfter losing everything she knew, Selene struggles to keep hope alive. Terrifying threats from the capital test her in ways she never thought possible. Richter can’t destroy himself or the corruption that lives in his body. He won’t let anything stop him from his mission, though – to kill every other werewolf on the Continent. The Order of the Golden Sword cares not for the laws of men. They’ll do anything to wipe the lycanthrope haven of Palerme from existence. But no one has ever faced an army of werewolves before. Goodreads -- 1st June – Tristan’s Regret (The Return of King Arthur #3) by Jacob SannoxUrban Fantasy, Sword & Sorcery, Historical FantasyIn the 5th century, Tristan and Isolde are at the mercy of the scheming Morgana Le Fay, who seeks to undermine King Arthur’s alliance with Cornwall. The consequences of their actions echo down the centuries and, in 2021, Arthur, Tristan and the Knights of the Round Table desperately hunt the last remaining followers of Malagant, an immortal ally of the dead sorceress. Will Arthur finally live up to his own legend, and can anything put an end to Tristan’s regret? Goodreads -- 1st June – The Exile of Zanzibar (Railroad to Zanzibar #1) by Daniel MaidmanEpic Fantasy, Historical FantasyClaire built a device to fold space and time. It had a flaw… When the smoke clears, she finds herself halfway across the world, thousands of years in the past, and no device in sight. In bronze-age Florence, war has lasted for generations. All Claire wants to do is get home, but she’ll need help from the locals. She wins an ally in Marcus Diophantus, a pickpocket turned soldier turned general, who hopes to turn into something more than just her champion. Together, they broker peace between Florence and its enemy. If Marcus is going to help Claire, he’ll have to survive. Peace has upset the balance of power in the capital city. The king stands increasingly alone against: the Constantines, a commercial enterprise as much as a clan, who aim to profit from peace as they have from war – the warrior nobles, descended from the founders of Florence and quick to turn against a weak throne – and Reburrus, the high priest of Florence, convinced Claire answers to hostile foreign gods. As the city comes to a boil, Claire and Marcus – and Marcus’s formidable army – will have to decide where their allegiance lies. Claire becomes a reluctant participant in a savage campaign. While Marcus leads the battles, she tries to gain control of the unimaginably powerful Ctesiphôn – a ghost tower in the heart of Florence, shrouded in magic and myth. Goodreads -- 1st June – Captain (All that Glitters #2) by Shalaena MedfordGrimdark, GaslampMere weeks have passed since Tsingsei “Song” Gould’s world fell into ashes. Now she must accept her role as captain of the Stars’ Bounty. The crew returns to the skies to do what they do best: piracy. They travel the world, visiting new countries and finding an adventure wherever they go. In the frigid south, Song finds there are answers to her questions about kijæm…with a caveat. In the trading country, she gains confidence in her notoriety. In the exotic west, she makes a terrible mistake. However, one of Song’s dearest friends has become a wanted man, and they must find a way to free him of the price on his head. Will she commit the highest crime in the world, or will she lose him to the gallows? Goodreads -- 1st June – Buzzard’s Bowl (Tragedy of Cedain #2) by John PalladinoEpic Fantasy, GrimdarkCedain continues to collapse. Ashmount’s destruction shatters the Magicai while the culprits responsible continue sabotaging the world. All the while, the next season of Buzzard’s Bowl begins and Edelbrock, in his constant fight for survival, desires a vengeance he can only find in the arena. Seradal and Villic find themselves in the middle of a war between Remeria and the Camel Clans, and may end up on opposing sides, while the threat of Calrym looms over all of them. At the behest of the woman he loves, Demri finds himself thrown into the Elkavich, a not-so-secret order of Magicai who are intent upon fixing the world. Ashen, a former urchin rescued by a noble with selfish aspirations, works to dismantle the nobility of Calrym. Death is assured to all who walk the world, the only unknown is when they will perish. Goodreads -- 1st June – On Winds of Ruin (The Deimachy #2) by Lincoln LawA friendship betrayed. An unfamiliar land. The winds of ruin blow.Roisin is still reeling from events at the end of A Crown of Blood. She feels lost, broken and alone in the world. Torn with what to do next, Roisin chooses to make the fateful trip across the Skybinder border into enemy territory in the hopes of gaining new allies for the fight against the Soulmongers. At her side is her fox companion, Vulpo; the last of the Bloodsingers, Mei; and a Skybinder of questionable allegiance named Giack. However, Roisin’s actions draw the attention of the Skybinder nobility, entrapping her into political machinations with deadly outcomes. Piritta, newly reborn Soulmonger, is tasked with the search for the final member of the Soulmonger Triumvirate to lead the army to victory. And Kaori, leader of the Soulmongers, is given her own task, granting her more power than she could have ever imagined. The choices these young women must make will tear them apart, fracture them all, leaving cracks for something darker to seep in. And in the end, only the one with the strongest resolve will endure. Goodreads -- 1st June – The Nameless Restaurant by Tao WongUrban Fantasy, Cozy FantasyThere is a restaurant in Toronto. Its entrance is announced only by a simple, unadorned wooden door, varnished to a beautiful shine but without paint, hidden beside dumpsters and a fire escape. There is no sign, no indication of what lies behind the door. If you do manage to find the restaurant, the décor is dated and worn. Homey, if one were to be generous. The service is atrocious, the proprietor a grouch. The regulars are silent, brooding, and unfriendly to newcomers. There is no set menu, alternating with the whim and whimsy of the owner. The selection of wine and beer is sparse or non-existent at times, and the prices for everything outrageous. There is a restaurant in Toronto that is magically hidden, whose service is horrible, but whose food is divine. This is the story of the Nameless Restaurant. Goodreads -- 4th June – Gold, Lock and Key (Grimdark Fairytales #1) by E.J. DobleGrimdark“All it needs, is a bit of tenacity… and three little bears.” Goldie, an outlaw and contract hunter of the Baron’s State, accepts a new assignment from her employer to find an old cabin in the woods, home to three ‘shapeshifters’ who can morph into bears. Considered to be little more than a myth, Goldie assumes at first that the shapeshifters are an exaggeration – but with the sizeable bounty her employer is offering, she soon realises there may be more truth in it than she realised. And that isn’t the only thing on her mind: she discovers her main rival – a manipulative and incredibly cunning trapper named Southey – has also taken on the contract, and will be contending for the same bounty she so fervently desires. Having waited many long years to have her revenge and outsmart Southey for past mistakes, Goldie sees the new contract as a perfect opportunity to do so. All she has to do is play her cards just right. And kill three bears… Goodreads -- 4th June – Waybound (Cradle #12) by Will WightProgression/Cultivation, Epic FantasyYears ago, Lindon left his home as a powerless Unsouled. Now, he goes to war with the most powerful beings in the world over the future of Cradle itself. The Weeping Dragon has a grudge to settle, and Lindon intends to take out the Dreadgod with his friends by his side. But rival Monarchs know his plans, and they won’t let things end so easily. If Lindon does win, he will ascend to the heavens. But he may not find a safe haven there either. In the worlds above, Suriel and Ozriel face off against the Mad King to determine the new shape of the cosmos. The victor will decide the fate of countless universes. Whether he wins or dies, Lindon will soon leave this life behind. Goodreads -- 6th June – Champions of Light (The Light Series #1) by Althea DamgaardEpic FantasyRhoanda runs away when her father betrays her trust by arranging her marriage without telling her. She had freedom to be herself, unlike her sisters, but in the end, she should have expected this. Winter still hangs on in the mountains, unlike the beach she left, and it could be another month until the pass to the west opens. Her funds run out and the city guard catches her stealing. Instead of a cell, they take her to the Cathedral of Light, which rivals a fortress. There she learns the truth about the Light while trying to hide who she really is. Her parents, who embrace the Dark, have the power to take over the mountain kingdom and could use her as the excuse to do so. Sergeant Vern can’t shake his desire to drink nor his anger at the Lord of Light for the disease that crippled and killed his sister at a young age. The cathedral lets him work with the class of deviants under his alias, but time is running out. The worse spring thaw of the century arrives and despite the great Cathedral of Light, the Dark has found a deep root in the kingdom. Worse, prophecies of the spiritual war manifesting in the physical come true as a mural changes before their eyes and its images step into their lives. Vern needs to accept the truth that sets him free of the curse cast upon his family so he can step into his true role. A truth that his sister professed about the Light through all her pain unto her last breath when angels took her home. Will their faith in the Light be enough to overcome their trials and save a kingdom? Goodreads -- 6th June – imPerfect Curse (The imPerfect Cathar #2) by C.N. RowanUrban FantasyI’m exhausted. Done in. Needing a stiff drink and about a week’s sleep. But that’s not going to happen. Because Franc is dying, struck by a curse placed on him by the Sistren Of Bordeaux, one of the most powerful groups of Talented in France. And because of our deal, it’s on me to find out what the hell is going on, and how Franc has offended the Sistren. Apart from by simply existing, of course. Except a simple trip to Bordeaux turns into a living nightmare as the past comes back to not just haunt me but to kick me square in the nuts, and I’m sent to the one place no Talented ever wants to go. Where those with magic either vanish or get ruined, left as nothing but empty husks. This time, it might not be the world at risk. It might be my very soul. Goodreads -- 6th June – Lira by Armanis Ar-FeinialGrimdark, HorrorLira is an innocent little girl, struggling to survive in a cruel, heartless world. As her father dies, she is left to fend for herself. Each day is a desperate and exhausting search for food, scouring through the Abyss, the only home she knows. Acute awareness does not always protect her from the very real risk of cannibalization or worse– being abducted. This is a horrifying reality that no child should have to face in a brutally poetic tale Goodreads -- 6th June – Girl Squad Volition (Volta Academy Chronicles #2) by Maya Lin WangProgression/Cultivation, YAMagical girls, mystery, and martial arts! After transforming for the first time, Wren starts class at Aurin Academy, a floating school where students from across the dimensions train to defend the sovereign planets of the Kiloverse from the Cosmic horrors beyond. From learning to fly, to discovering her magical aptitude, to dealing with a trident-wielding water Volta who inexplicably wants her dead, to navigating the fraught politics of her first mission with the squad, Wren has her work cut out for her! Goodreads -- 13th June – Fat Witch Summer – Lizzy IvesYA, Cozy FantasyDumplin’ meets The Craft in this body-positive fantasy novel for fans of summer road trips, female friendship, and magic. Sixteen-year-old Thrash doesn’t enchant eyeliner over her lids or clear her acne with magic. She is plus-size, but she doesn’t hate what she sees in the mirror—that’s the realm of her mother, Osmarra, a slim and elegant Glamour witch. When Thrash unexpectedly breaks a mirror with her mind, she discovers she has a knack for magic and will receive one of the three sanctioned Gifts: Glamour, Growth, or Sight. The only problem is that mothers choose the Gifts, and Osmarra is convinced that the Gift of Glamour will fix her daughter’s looks. When Thrash fails to persuade Osmarra to accept her as she is, a trio of cool witches who call themselves The Lunes offer her an out. Their leader, fiery and charismatic Cresca, recruits Thrash for a road trip to New Salem University, where the girls plan to steal their own Gifts. As Thrash crosses the magical Thirteen States of America, Osmarra hot on her heels, she discovers bewitched diners, haunted tourist traps, and a secret about the Gifts that will change the Thirteen States forever. Goodreads -- 16th June – When the Stars Alight (The Essence of the Equinox #1) by Camilla AndrewGaslampA maiden of the stars. A monster from the shadows. A collision that rewrites their worlds. Princess Laila Rose is a fallen star in human form. A beloved guardian to humanity. Yet in spite of these fantastical origins, she has never much believed in prophecies. That’s why when a demon of apocalyptic legend is presented to her in a block of ice, she feels fascination rather than fright. Curiosity kindles into mutual desire once he breaks free of his captivity. Far from the rampaging beast of mass destruction everyone expects—he is monstrously handsome, deviously articulate and alluringly mysterious, a prince among his kind. Eager to discover his origins, Laila travels from her idyllic seaside realm into a land of unspeakable horrors, relying on her wits to survive her journey. She arrives aiming to establish peaceful contact with the aid of the besotted prince. However, it becomes clear that the heartless demon king does not desire peace at all, only war and conquest. When diplomacy fails, Laila turns to the king’s suave and manipulative bastard son in the hopes that she can inspire both him and his trueborn brother to go against their father. But soon it is her heart she must keep from being torn between their centuries-old dangerous rivalry. Goodreads -- 16th June – The Orb and the Airship (Turrim Archive #1) by Jenelle Leanne SchmidtSteampunk, Cozy FantasyA rogue airship captain. An ambitious youth. A clash of powers beyond their imagination. With scholarships to a prestigious military school, Grayden and Wynn are thirsty for adventure. But the night before they leave, they discover the mysterious Dalmir and his arcane orb in the forsaken tower outside of town. The old man, who seems to have a wealth of knowledge of what came before and yet so little of the now, insists on accompanying them as they travel to the academy. Meanwhile, all pirate Captain Marik wants is to keep to the skies, take his due, and care for his crew. Then a straightforward pillaging mission on a ship of fresh academy students leads to betrayal from one of his own and an unlikely friendship forged by necessity. Yet this new alliance stirs up ancient foes and a conflict too terrible to ignore. Despite Grayden’s inexperience and Marik’s skepticism, working together with Dalmir is their only option. The fate of the world depends on it. Goodreads --17th June – Molten Flux (Flux Catastrophe #1) by Jonathan WeissEpic Fantasy, Sci-FantasyAs the freshest conscript aboard the walking fortress of Revance, Ryza forges a name for himself in battle. The enemy are the smelters, bandits that trade in reanimated corpses. But for Ryza, the bloodshed represents a path of redemption for an upbringing he’s just escaped. His prowess with a rifle draws the interest of the Locusts, a clandestine faction within Revance’s ranks. It turns out that not all aboard the fortress seek to stamp out the plague of molten flux, the mysterious liquid metal that fills the bodies of the dead and makes them walk again. Some seek to profit. The reanimated corpses —known as autominds— are used to control enormous contraptions of magnetically enchanted metal, forming the backbone of The Droughtland’s factories. The only thing stopping the smelters from expanding their illicit industry is Revance. The Locusts make Ryza an offer. Either help overthrow Revance to do the smelter’s bidding or reveal his father’s legacy as the very thing Ryza now fights against. The former is unthinkable. The latter means death. Ryza resolves to infiltrate them and expose the mutiny, plunging him back into the murky underworld of the smelters, testing his convictions, and even leading him to the ancient origins of molten flux itself. Goodreads- -- 18th June – Enchanted Flames ANTHOLOGY (Enchanted Anthologies #3) by Various AuthorsYAIf you play with fire, you might get burned… Dig into this magical collection of short stories and discover among the embers ten fiery fantasy tales to set your heart ablaze. Sneak past the ancient dragon as you steal from his hoard of gold and escape with the crown jewels. Journey deep into the Salamander Kingdom and follow the wyverns as they help the woodwitch to find the cure. Walk over earth scorched by a post-apocalyptic sun on a quest for survival, and find out why the firebird only eats golden apples. Watch the phoenix rise from the ashes and root for the golden dragon to woo his demigoddess in the Magic Kingdom. Goodreads --20th June – Guild of Magic (NYC Questing Guild) by Jon AuerbachUrban FantasyJoining the Guild was only the beginning. Now Jen’s next quest could spell life or death. Jen Jacobs thought she was in over her head when she first discovered the secret Quest Board and the world of alchemy and magic hiding just out of sight in New York City. But after a ghost from her mentor Beatrice Taylor’s past nearly kills the two of them, Jen finds herself on the cusp of joining the fabled Guild. Except now Beatrice has gone missing, leaving Jen alone to face the shadowy organization and its 11 members by herself. If that wasn’t enough, the Guild’s chairman forces Jen to complete yet another dangerous quest to prove that she belongs: stealing a long-lost vial of Dragon’s blood that is the key ingredient to recreating the legendary Philosopher’s Stone. As Jen’s past mistakes begin to catch up with her, she’ll need to muster all of her ingenuity to survive in the cutthroat world of ancient Relics, magical dynasties, and a possible immortal secretly directing things from behind the scenes. Goodreads -- 21st June – Hierachy of the Unseen by B. Pigeon & Fell A. MarshEpic FantasyDemons and humans are locked in endless struggle. This is an intrinsic fact of nature. The demons believe their salvation lies in bleeding humanity of the life-force called light, while the humans are equally determined to defend it. Within the sprawling empire of Lu-nevet, the two sides have settled into an uneasy peace, employing less violent tactics. But this peace can only hold for so long. The state religion of Lukeira sends devout demon hunter Mitzli deep into the borderlands to bless the victims of demonic pranks. Once they arrive, however, they find unexpected signs of violence. They team up with irreligious hunter Veleiry to investigate—and the destruction the two uncover is an ominous sign of what’s to come. Meanwhile, shiftless demon Kor falls under the scrutiny of his vampiric commander, Mant—meaning he must actually do the work of tormenting humans, rather than taking credit from his now-ex-partner Yez. Slowly, he begins to realize that the demons’ strategy is shifting, and may be heading down a path he cannot follow. Mitzli and Kor will have to betray their respective factions if they want to put an end to the violence before it escalates. But the two of them, both outcasts among their own kind, are the only ones who know the truth. How can they protect the world if no one will listen? Goodreads -- 27th June – Temper the Dark by L. Ryan StormsEpic Fantasy, YAServant girl Alaris Kahlanik finds out about her family’s gift the hard way when she discovers her ability to dreamwalk after being condemned to the Cells. With thoughts of escape, she uses her newfound ability to spy on the emperor and his secret search for something important. Nothing the emperor wants could possibly be good for the people he rules, and so whatever the emperor is looking for, Alaris must find first. Throlani Guardsman Kagan Liis has served the Empire since Emperor Patuk’s reign began eight years ago. He can also communicate with a vicious oracle referred to only as the Darkness. When the Darkness tasks Kagan with investigating the Servant girl in the Cells, Kagan takes on a special mission that will require more than his usual interrogation methods of brute strength and intimidation. From vastly different echelons of the same tribal society, Alaris and Kagan are surprised to learn they share one important goal—ensuring the best for the people of their island nation. Alaris discovers what the emperor is looking for — a dragon! But warning a senile dragon against impending danger is no easy task. Together, Alaris and Kagan must save a forgetful dragon and a divided nation…which may mean giving up any hope of saving themselves. Goodreads -- 30th June – Quin of Light (The Quins of Sarcaren #1) by Mark ParkerEpic Fantasy, YAThe quins of Sarcaren have awoken. . . Auri. Gifted with power over lightning that fascinates and frightens her in equal measure, power she must bring to the fore when horror strikes her people. Torren and Aaran. Twins with growing mastery over the physical and the mental. A potent mix of brains and brawn, both vying for the approval of the kingdom’s greatest warrior. Koshi. Beset with sickness caused by the fire that threatens to burn her from the inside. And Caetan. The youngest prince of Sarcaren who bends water to his desire but whose will and words are shackled by a devastating sorceress. Alone, they pose little threat. Separated at birth – mere pawns to be used by the city of Sarcaren as an unknown enemy rumbles in the north. Alone, they are mere children caught in a dangerous and confusing world of betrayal and fear. Together, they are bound by a curse that will one day kill them all. Together, they will devastate kingdoms. Goodreads -- Space for more... |
2023.06.07 11:21 djOP3 Boost your revenue by providing your PCs on a cloud platform.
Hi everyone,
I'm a co-founder of a cloud gaming startup that aims to provide physical gaming machines on our platform. For this, we have turned to LAN centers, and now we are adding their PCs to the platform, in order for gamers to connect to and use them, remotely.
The current state of technology allows gamers to connect remotely when no one is using their PCs, but in the near future, we will make some features that will allow gamers to simultaneously play both in the LAN center and remotely at the same time.
I'm inviting you to have a chat with us because together we can boost your revenues and provide new opportunities for your business's expansion.
Feel free to contact me with any questions you might have, and let's bring something new to the gaming community worldwide!
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I'm a co-founder of a cloud gaming startup that aims to provide physical gaming machines on our platform. For this, we have turned to LAN centers, and now we are adding their PCs to the platform, in order for gamers to connect to and use them, remotely.
The current state of technology allows gamers to connect remotely when no one is using their PCs, but in the near future, we will make some features that will allow gamers to simultaneously play both in the LAN center and remotely at the same time.
I'm inviting you to have a chat with us because together we can boost your revenues and provide new opportunities for your business's expansion.
Feel free to contact me with any questions you might have, and let's bring something new to the gaming community worldwide!
2023.06.07 11:21 learninoneweek People should Choose the “Driver Course Near Me
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2023.06.07 11:21 Suspicious_Driver761 Why you use Nodejs and depends 95% on third party libraries which only last of a year or two and don't use something like asp.net which is maintained by Microsoft?
Really I have been searching for this topic , I have about two years of experience with nodejs , I can handle most of its disadvantages , but what really bothers me how we highly depend on third party libraries even the critical parts in the app like ORMs .. look for example .net has Entity framework for about 20 years and Spring has hibernate for like 20 years too , but with node in 3 or 4 years .. sequelize. Then typeORM then prisma !!
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2023.06.07 11:21 _____keepscrolling__ Today (June 7th) is a trauma date of sorts for me, it was extremely painful and complicated as a kid, as I was alone with it; as an adult now, am I going about today correctly? Any thoughts opinion are greatly appreciated, I don’t want to be alone with this anymore.
Today (June 7th) has been a difficult day for me since I was about 11, it is an associated trauma date from extremely painful and strong emotions I associate with my longest disassociated memory gap. I didn’t want to explain this to my T because I didn’t want to give it more power than it already has on me and has for so long, I just wanted to try and skate by today without thinking about it. I used to go through so many rituals every June 7th, there was so much fear and helplessness and an attempt to escape from filth and dirtiness(association around sexual stuff) all the time, but on June 7th it felt like life or death. Wherever I was at 2:36am(technically June 8th) during the night of June 7th was a filthy place, anything I heard, did, tried or ate in that day and surrounding days would be added to the associated filth forever.
I thought everything as a kid and teen was dirty but one thing I’ve realized in therapy is that actually I was dirty and made everything feel filthy; wherever I went would become rotten over time by my mere presence(that sounds bad but it’s actually a healthy realization for me, as it makes me face that this wasn’t outside of myself). All of this association was so strong I would start to become depressed starting in early spring by the looming feeling that it all has, the association of humidity and becoming sweaty and the sounds of bugs at night to name a few would just bring me down with all these emotions. I try not to give all this power by just ignoring as best I can but I still feel this pit in my stomach and this horrible inescapable guilt about all of it. I’m good at detaching from my emotions and I’m good at telling myself whatever I need to think or feel in order to get through things. That’s one way I would handle growing up in an abusive environment. The other way is I dissociate and forget things very quickly. I try to use all of that to combat this by just trying to cut off from it all and try not to remember anything year to year because if I did I would associate that thing and where I was with all of these horrible feelings.
I’m 25 and it just hasn’t escaped me. I’ve remembered a lot in therapy, my T is a trauma specialist and it’s trauma therapy, I’ve remembered being physically abused, that as a matter of fact is where the dissociation started, I’ve also remembered being icky gross abused at the age of 9. This is different than those things. These things I haven’t faced yet because it’s like remembering and seeing them through a fish eye lens looking outside of myself, it’s sufficiently distant 90% of the time until it’s not and I start reacting or just shutting down.
I don’t really know what to ask for, but this is the first time I’ve talked about this so openly, especially on the date itself. I’m trying to make today as normal as possible in order to not give it all that much power. Maybe even try and replace some of the associated emotions with more positive or constructive ones. Even now with what I’ve already talked about, I’m trying to be contained about it all and not react, but it’s gnawing at me as it always does.
I don’t know if any of this makes sense, but I would really appreciate some input, feedback, support etc. I don’t want to feel alone anymore with this.
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I thought everything as a kid and teen was dirty but one thing I’ve realized in therapy is that actually I was dirty and made everything feel filthy; wherever I went would become rotten over time by my mere presence(that sounds bad but it’s actually a healthy realization for me, as it makes me face that this wasn’t outside of myself). All of this association was so strong I would start to become depressed starting in early spring by the looming feeling that it all has, the association of humidity and becoming sweaty and the sounds of bugs at night to name a few would just bring me down with all these emotions. I try not to give all this power by just ignoring as best I can but I still feel this pit in my stomach and this horrible inescapable guilt about all of it. I’m good at detaching from my emotions and I’m good at telling myself whatever I need to think or feel in order to get through things. That’s one way I would handle growing up in an abusive environment. The other way is I dissociate and forget things very quickly. I try to use all of that to combat this by just trying to cut off from it all and try not to remember anything year to year because if I did I would associate that thing and where I was with all of these horrible feelings.
I’m 25 and it just hasn’t escaped me. I’ve remembered a lot in therapy, my T is a trauma specialist and it’s trauma therapy, I’ve remembered being physically abused, that as a matter of fact is where the dissociation started, I’ve also remembered being icky gross abused at the age of 9. This is different than those things. These things I haven’t faced yet because it’s like remembering and seeing them through a fish eye lens looking outside of myself, it’s sufficiently distant 90% of the time until it’s not and I start reacting or just shutting down.
I don’t really know what to ask for, but this is the first time I’ve talked about this so openly, especially on the date itself. I’m trying to make today as normal as possible in order to not give it all that much power. Maybe even try and replace some of the associated emotions with more positive or constructive ones. Even now with what I’ve already talked about, I’m trying to be contained about it all and not react, but it’s gnawing at me as it always does.
I don’t know if any of this makes sense, but I would really appreciate some input, feedback, support etc. I don’t want to feel alone anymore with this.
2023.06.07 11:19 majorminer969 MGS5 Appreciation Post
So with the MGS3 Remake and seeing Pomu Rainpuff's Metal Gear streams, I got curious about going back to check out MGS5 again (since I had started it but stopped right after getting into Africa), and man. I see what people meant with this game being unfinished.
It's a perfectly fine game, but there's so much empty space. Mother Base in particular feels like it should've had more to do there, while the open world feels pretty barren outside of the outposts dotted around. It's a shame too, because it's an absolutely amazing base (if you decide to experiment outside of the silence tranq pistol) that deserved to be polished with DLC or a sequel that will likely never happen. And that's not even mentioning how great and pretty the Fox Engine was.
Metal Gear's definitely a series near and dear to me, so I'm glad I was able to finally come around on this game, despite its downsides. Truly the real phantom pain is knowing the series will likely never reach these highs again.
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It's a perfectly fine game, but there's so much empty space. Mother Base in particular feels like it should've had more to do there, while the open world feels pretty barren outside of the outposts dotted around. It's a shame too, because it's an absolutely amazing base (if you decide to experiment outside of the silence tranq pistol) that deserved to be polished with DLC or a sequel that will likely never happen. And that's not even mentioning how great and pretty the Fox Engine was.
Metal Gear's definitely a series near and dear to me, so I'm glad I was able to finally come around on this game, despite its downsides. Truly the real phantom pain is knowing the series will likely never reach these highs again.
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2023.06.07 11:16 The-Doctor-- First time here, figured I'd give it a go.
Sadness
Why are we sad? It is strange for I should be glad. Yet over my joy, sadness throws a veil.This, for I am alone, so alone. The mind starts to wander, synapses fire rapidly and I wonder do people really care about me?
Back and forth to the doubts fly by. Afor' too soon these eyes will cry.
For it is when things drop from my hands that my mind will start to stand, stand up in a doubting roar. A sound a lonely man has heard before.
No cure is there for this lonesome heart nowhere
near nor miles apart.
For the sadness is so real yet it's origin unknown.
Is this the doing of a wicked evil crone?
For I have faced many a challenge as the years went by,
but times change and so must I.
2023.06.07 11:16 Throwaway8781937 After 1.5 years: Gradually doing better but still feeling inadequate
So im almost 1.5 years out of my first relationship that lasted nearly 4 years. I can go into details if anyone in curious but lets just say it was…harsh and unexpected. I got blindsided and she moved less than a week later. I took it really hard.
Well, i dont wanna jinx it, but the last month or two i have actually felt better for once. I have gotten to the point that i dont need 4 hours of self-loathing time everyday. I have gotten to the point that i can drink to have fun with friends like i used to, not drink to feel better and drown my sorrows. I have made some changes in my life for the better. However, i cant get passed this feeling of inadequacy. Everyone i know is either in a relationship, going on dates, getting hookups, etc. which is something i just cant really do due to my appearance, which sucks because, without saying my age, this is prime time to do those things. Im not ugly, but im not good enough looking to really get myself anywhere. This isnt really a self esteem issue, (though it was nearly nonexistent for a year, still getting it back gradually over time) its more of an “i was objectively not genetically gifted” issue. The fact of the matter is, it could take years for me to find someone who finds me attractive like my ex did, which is a long time to wait. I really miss the human connection of having someone there, whether its only for one night or for one whole year. The other night a bunch of friends and i were out drinking and my one friend kinda ran her hand up and down my back as she was talking to me and it gave me a flashback to what it was like to have something like that. (We are totally platonic but it still felt nice)
I guess im just gonna end my rant here i dont really know what else to say.
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Well, i dont wanna jinx it, but the last month or two i have actually felt better for once. I have gotten to the point that i dont need 4 hours of self-loathing time everyday. I have gotten to the point that i can drink to have fun with friends like i used to, not drink to feel better and drown my sorrows. I have made some changes in my life for the better. However, i cant get passed this feeling of inadequacy. Everyone i know is either in a relationship, going on dates, getting hookups, etc. which is something i just cant really do due to my appearance, which sucks because, without saying my age, this is prime time to do those things. Im not ugly, but im not good enough looking to really get myself anywhere. This isnt really a self esteem issue, (though it was nearly nonexistent for a year, still getting it back gradually over time) its more of an “i was objectively not genetically gifted” issue. The fact of the matter is, it could take years for me to find someone who finds me attractive like my ex did, which is a long time to wait. I really miss the human connection of having someone there, whether its only for one night or for one whole year. The other night a bunch of friends and i were out drinking and my one friend kinda ran her hand up and down my back as she was talking to me and it gave me a flashback to what it was like to have something like that. (We are totally platonic but it still felt nice)
I guess im just gonna end my rant here i dont really know what else to say.
2023.06.07 11:15 MissionDosa Banglore PG and life
Okay nenu banglore potunna. Office is near Wipro park Koramangala. Comes in block 1 and 3. My doubts: A area lo PG prices enta untai? Koramangala lo kanna vere nearby area lo pg tesukovadam better a? But i need to travel then. Bike lekapothe ibandha? Ma friend edho locl colive and work ani chusadu 15k for 2 sharing (15k per person). Idhi Baga costly kadha? Tesukovachu antara?
Thanks you. Also any life suggestions for me are appreciated.
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Thanks you. Also any life suggestions for me are appreciated.
2023.06.07 11:15 12g_slug_ Polish ice cream sus
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2023.06.07 11:15 meowmmoth Recommendations for a moisturiser like Clean Skincare Moisture Plus?
Hi, everyone. I was recommended this moisturiser by an employee at Clean Skincare and it was really good for my skin. However, for a 30g cream, it costs $35, which is a bit expensive for me. Just wondering if anyone has experience with a similar moisturiser that they can recommend for me? I have dry-ish skin. Thank you!
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2023.06.07 11:15 muntalgunt Why would you not believe me?
From the start, I told you I have memory problems. That I rarely remember what happened yesterday, or three weeks ago, longer. I’ve not found anyone on OLD who wants a ticket for this ride, because of my disability, and I don’t blame them — I’m always in agony. Had I no kids, I’d have ended it years ago. Nearly did a few years back, when I dry-fired both of my dad’s pistols for a solid half hour, one for the heart, one for the head.
Treating the myriad symptoms is hell, and efficacy hovers around 40% on my best day, night. The drugs are so heavy and mind-altering, which would fuck anyone’s memory, but in this forced nocturnal schedule, or lack thereof, it takes so much time and effort to jog a memory obliterated by insomnia and heavy duty drugs that make pharmacists think I have three cancers and severe osteoporosis. You wouldn’t believe me. It hurts. Even now, interrogating what’s left of my brain to write this, the stress has symptoms climbing my extremities, burning away all coherence, and fully half my personality. I want you, stars. Thought I’d found my only, stars. I’m lying here, fresh ice packs made tepid in minutes, unsure, unwanted, unnecessary. Probably no one will ever be able to be around me, but that capricious bastardly flicker of hope for one more love drives me to seek you here, now. But I can’t keep up; attempting to find you posting here is futile because everyone says the same thing, and there are more heartbroken primates posting than I can keep up with. It’s you or no one. It’s been you or no one this whole time, but my addled, shit mind won’t operate properly, and though I do forget a lot of things, it’s only been you. I feel often that you routinely pushed me away out of fear. We all fear, but it’s been you and only you, this whole time, and nothing I could say would convince you otherwise.
It’s probably for the best that I cease all attempts to find my partner. I feel sick at the thought of even attempting to chat with someone new, to make clear that I am a severely wounded primate meatsack, and I am and have been unable to be for anyone this last decade of debilitating illness. The steel trap that was once my mind is now a block of swiss cheese, part of it molding and oozing, the other, left in the microwave too long then tossed out. I’m sorry. I did my best, truly. Goodnight, stars. ❤️.
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Treating the myriad symptoms is hell, and efficacy hovers around 40% on my best day, night. The drugs are so heavy and mind-altering, which would fuck anyone’s memory, but in this forced nocturnal schedule, or lack thereof, it takes so much time and effort to jog a memory obliterated by insomnia and heavy duty drugs that make pharmacists think I have three cancers and severe osteoporosis. You wouldn’t believe me. It hurts. Even now, interrogating what’s left of my brain to write this, the stress has symptoms climbing my extremities, burning away all coherence, and fully half my personality. I want you, stars. Thought I’d found my only, stars. I’m lying here, fresh ice packs made tepid in minutes, unsure, unwanted, unnecessary. Probably no one will ever be able to be around me, but that capricious bastardly flicker of hope for one more love drives me to seek you here, now. But I can’t keep up; attempting to find you posting here is futile because everyone says the same thing, and there are more heartbroken primates posting than I can keep up with. It’s you or no one. It’s been you or no one this whole time, but my addled, shit mind won’t operate properly, and though I do forget a lot of things, it’s only been you. I feel often that you routinely pushed me away out of fear. We all fear, but it’s been you and only you, this whole time, and nothing I could say would convince you otherwise.
It’s probably for the best that I cease all attempts to find my partner. I feel sick at the thought of even attempting to chat with someone new, to make clear that I am a severely wounded primate meatsack, and I am and have been unable to be for anyone this last decade of debilitating illness. The steel trap that was once my mind is now a block of swiss cheese, part of it molding and oozing, the other, left in the microwave too long then tossed out. I’m sorry. I did my best, truly. Goodnight, stars. ❤️.
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2023.06.07 11:14 favela4life Fruitless smoothies?
I have trouble keeping my daily carbs below 20g, and cutting the fruits on my protein shakes would help with that. I use frozen strawberries from Costco because I saw they had the least carbs per cup from all their frozen fruit options.
I tried using just my vanilla whey for flavor with whip cream for texture this morning, but the taste of whey by itself really disgusts me. It takes me back to a horrendous scene from college when I puked vanilla whey in a dirty bar toilet at 4am.
Do you have any fruitless smoothie suggestions? I was thinking of taking up leaf smoothies.
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I tried using just my vanilla whey for flavor with whip cream for texture this morning, but the taste of whey by itself really disgusts me. It takes me back to a horrendous scene from college when I puked vanilla whey in a dirty bar toilet at 4am.
Do you have any fruitless smoothie suggestions? I was thinking of taking up leaf smoothies.
2023.06.07 11:14 lry10 Quitting weed when ur friends smoke
Hey everyone. I’m quitting weed for the 1000th time because ever since I’ve gotten taken off my anxiety meds I can’t handle weed at all. Just makes me extremely anxious. The problem is my friends who I hang out with damn near everyday are heavy smokers (one of them is the plug lmao). I love them and want to be around them but it’s so hard to be around it and not do it. Obviously I know that I’m going to have to separate myself from them because it’s not like they’re just gonna stop smoking because I want to. I’ve quit before so I know I can do it but every other time I stayed away from people who I knew would disrupt my progress so I just don’t know how to go about this.
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2023.06.07 11:13 Alternative_Law_2804 Not ok
I was Having a dream about Ethan and we were care free running and laughing, joking and it felt so real. I woke to my 5 year old yelling from the hallway "mom Ethans here!!" The confusion of sleep slowly lifting as my mind processed and the reality slamming back into me with the absolute weight of the world as I realize the light in the hall is just flickering again. I don't say much about this, and I haven't because there are no words and nobody wants to hear it. But I do want to get into it a bit on a different level. We look at people and think they look like they have these perfect lives, they look happy. You don't see the problems just under the surface. I had an older gentleman at the gas station hold the door for me- he had to have been about 80. His face a map of where he had been, kind eyes that smiled with his mouth. I'm sure I looked shell shocked, a blank expression on my face, in a daze and there was no way he had of realizing I had just held my dead son in my arms and seen his brains through the top of his head and his chest loosely stitched together. I'd had to sign a waiver to see him, but I had to. My brother had asked to go look first and asked me to not go myself if he thought it was too bad. I let him go in first and heard him beg me please don't go when he walked back in the room. A marine war vet who I'm sure had seen worse, yet his face looked pale, his lips pressed tightly together and his eyebrows were furrowed together and his eyes wouldnt quite meet mine as he came out imploring me no, "Ethan would not want you to remember him like this please, dont go in. Just trust me." I asked my brother if it was bad- was his face gone? Thinking about a 45 hollow point entering someone's head and just decimating it. He shook his head and said his face was ok. I remember needing to see Ethan, it still wasnt really real to me- i mean maybe they had a mistaken identity or he wasnt really dead or it was all a sick prank. I just had to see and nothing would have stopped me from walking in the room and actually seeing it was him. It was finally my turn. When you are ready i was told. I thought to myself, when would i ever be ready? Who wakes up and says they are ready to see the little boy that they rocked to sleep, that they watched take their first steps, say their first words, smile for the first time, who could be ready to see them dead. I was not entirely sure what i was about to see. I started to walk through the door and he was there on the other side of the empty room. The room was bigger then the one they gave you at other viewings and he was against the opposite wall laying on a gurney with a blood drop splattered sheet covering him up to his chin. I think of it and the feelings come rushing back to me. The way my knees almost buckled and the way I felt dizzy with bile coming up in the back of my throat. The way I could only choke out the words "oh, bubba.. what did you do?" As i felt the oxygen suddenly sucked out of my body. The room suddenly hot, the air too thin the silence so loud you could hear it. I walked over to him reaching out to smooth his hair off of his face. His head seemed oddly misshapen and his eyes were sunk into his head. I remember hearing a sound that sounded like a hurt animal as i stared down, into the sight that greets me now everytime I close my eyes. vaguely being aware that I was making the sound and willing it to stop. Then I just felt overwhelmed knowing that absolutely nothing I could say or do, could get him to stand up and smile at me. That I was helpless and this was definitely my child. There was no mistake. I could see the top of his skull was gone and tried not to look at the gore where the top of his head was missing. I saw bone and brains yet, I didn't feel grossed out as I touched him. Just helpless. This was a booboo I could not slap a bandaid on. I flashed back to a few days before he died when he had come to work with me and cut his finger and i teased him as i put a bandaid on my brave little guy at the same time i had been grossed out and couldnt look at the scratch. He had laughed and looked at me semi amused and semi appalled. I walked around searching and not seeing the entry wound on him so I when a mortuary employee came to check in on me i asked her if she knew. she knew right where it was and reached out and turned his head and I was honestly kind of shocked because I thought dead people were always hard after rigor mortise set in- I'd touched dead people before but never tried to move them. His head turned with kind of a rubbery, heavy, unnatural look and there it was. Smaller then the hickey next to it he had had that last day I saw him. The size of the tip of my pinkie and pretty anticlimactic to what I'd thought it would be. Just a tiny almost bruised looking dot- having done less damage at the entry site then the exit. Pulling the sheet down a bit and seeing him loosely stitched across his chest and seeing the image of sewing a chicken breast back together when cooking (just add the jalapeños and cream cheese and cranberries and stitch it closed then bake at 350).... The rest of the visit is really between me, him and God. But back to the guy at the gas station.. who while well meaning, told me smile, it's not that bad. And it's funny because I in no way, feel that I am alone. I know so many of us have had moments that just rocked their universes. So many of us have had moments whether it be personally, or while at war, that just broke us. Yet, on the surface looking people would never know. This stranger just trying in his way to spread happiness had no idea that yes, it was that bad. For me today, yes it was that bad and worse. It's been several months, but my suffering didn't end there. I still had to watch the news reports read the comments of strangers opinions that didnt know me, didnt care if his family read their judgements, still had to field phone calls from the detectives, the Investigators. Still had to watch the video of my son dying (obsessively over and over trying to find a clue). I still had to receive his clothing he wore (and im slowly working on opening each of the 27 bags of evidence i was given), read reports and cremate him and make his urn, go to the scene where he died that was poorly cleaned up with chunks of blood and flesh strewn around (in a very public spot so that people were walking and stepping unknowingly on chunks of him that had been missed , read the autopsy report where it described cutting out his tongue and calling after hours to the coroner for about the 25th time, crying and questioning.. for the love of God, why? And choking back rage- how? How did you get it out? Did you give it back? Doing full on obsessive research learning our eyes turn black shortly after we die, watching cremation videos and staring at the clock as he was being burned and mashed up and then trying to process it all. Past that the dreams. I dont dream often that i remember, but the dreams lately are frequent and vivid. But on the flip side I have not had one day off to grieve. Not one full day of help with the kids to process. Not one full day of my phone not ringing for work or not having to make dinner and take care of 4 smaller kids who are counting on me. Honestly, things are compounding and the more time goes by, the further I am withdrawing and shutting down. The ability to deal with small stressors and something as simple as my phone ringing is throwing me back to the beginning where the voice on the other end started this nightmare with "ethans dead" . Logically I know that's not the case but I hear messages beep across, I hear it ring and anxiety and dread fill me and I just can't look. Nothing can force me to look. But it's funny how we have to be OK. NO one knows or wants to hear because it's too much, or they don't understand or it's been a week, a month... aren't you better yet? I see other people out there and know they've dealt with the same, and it changes you. You WANT to be OK. You would trade your life to have that particular situation not have happened. And I do. I want to be OK. I want to be the person people think I am. I want to be able to run my business or answer my phone but I can't be. I'll never be again and the dreams, nightmares and that hope as I wake up that it's not real, that will never fade. In some western cultures, after a death they will wear a black arm and to signify they are in mourning. I almost think it would be easier if we did that here. Then, maybe people would not be so quick to judge. You never should assume that just because someone looks normal that there is not a whole lot of trauma boiling up, I want to apologize to all my clients who haven't been able to make it through, that I haven't communicated well with and that don't or can't understand. This isn't a choice. This isn't what I want. This is what is pushed upon me and no words can change the fact that I am Stilll tired and confused and shocked at the loss of my son, and I am trying to be whole, I am trying to put on a smile and answer my phone and be the business people need but is it ever OK to be not ok? The answer I'm seeming to get is not during peak season its not! I'm processing kind of a lot and granted, I obviously need to work to pay my bills so am grateful for the work, on the flip side getting screamed at from a lady that our mow guy is a day late because it rained or the crew is not at their house we had said wed be there in the afternoon and its now 3:15, that compounds into me just staring blankly at the phone as it rings wondering how I can keep running a business if these small stressors are so debilitating right now, thinking of the past few years that my son worked for me as I realize I'm short staffed and how I started this company because of him. With him wanting to earn money so we shoveled together then he had people wanting weeding while he was at school so I jumped in and it went from there. So I am wondering what life I have now when such a huge piece of me is dead and I do blame myself because I didn't realize it at the time but my actions, parenting style and reactions had everything to do with his death and even though what I did made sense looking back- instead of calling the police on him when he showed me he had a gun- and knowing he'd run from his sober living, I just lectured him and told him I knew he'd make the right choice. I had a truck I wanted to give him but didn't because he had a gun and had run from sober living. If I'd given him the truck he would not have stolen the car. I could have traded gun for truck. If I'd called police they would have taken him to jail where he was safe. My version of natural consequences didnt factor in that I'd be the one alive to suffer them not him.
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2023.06.07 11:12 hijesushere I'm God's Son and you're all stupider than fuck
All of you can go fuck yourselves. I've been trying so hard... for fucking years... and who, in my life, listens to me. I'm surrounded by people with the mental fortitude of a piece of cheesecloth yet I'm- ME- yeah, I'm the mental case... what, because I told you that I'm Archangel Michael? Hey, guess what shit stain? It's over. This is game, alright? We're finished. I don't give a fuck who sees, i don't give a fuck who saw. I don't give a fuck what you think about anything. I don't want to hear your bitching when you receive what's coming to you, whatever it's gonna be, you earned it. Fuck this shit hole man... yall can save the earth yourselves, you're all so smart. Oh because you're all doing such a greaaaat job standing up to the psychopaths that are literally going to kill every single one of us... like hello, climate change... the money lenders just keep on herpaderpadoo here we are burning fucking trash to destroy the atmosphere and pol... listen to me. I am God's Son. God's Son has rank. They can't tell me what to do, they can't threaten me, they can't control me. I want what's best for us, the innocent, the lovers. The ones that love life. I'm the king of the angels you guys... I'm useful, use me. Do something... I can't do anything else. I've done all I can, if noone will listen to me,- here's a bunch of shit you won't understand, here https://youtube.com/playlist?list=PLXNOSglNXHxcX9NbxYta-nvwIpakFHo_u. You won't get any of it, I wouldn't waste your time. You're all to stupid to understand any of the symbolism, or what they're literally just saying out loud. Fucking We Came As Romans for Christ's sake... Sumerian Records, Capitol Records. Avenged Sevenfold, Katy Perry, Twice, Everglow, Black Pink, Jack Black, Cole and Dylan, like what the- fuck it, none of you are worth my time. None of you are worth the blood and sweat and tears that I have poured in to this for what- for goddamn ridicule, man. So you guys can act like you're smarter than me for a couple seconds on a web page. So you can downvote my desperation, ohhhh, you must feel so powerful. Yeah, we'll see, let's wait until we get back to my house, how about that, you guys? You wanna see power? Oh but... noo... because you knowww... you knoww I'm delusional, well aren't you just so very well versed in all of the mental illnesses on the earth? You need me, I could care less about you. You worship me, you thought that went both ways? Do whatever you're going to do, I don't give a fuck. I don't want to talk to any of you idiots anyways, so don't comment, or fine, do comment, say whatever you want. Come on smart guy, whatve you got to say? You're all so much smarter than me! Come on you guys! Tell me about reality! Tell me about God you guys! Tell me about heaven! Tell me about bipolar, wanna tell me to take my meds and call me schizo? Here's your chance! Ohhh, all you can tell me about is fucking DARK SOULS man... oh NICE you got the new DEMON SOULS? Titeee tite tite tite tite tite. I'm fucking done. You can handle it yourselves. Bunch of worthless trash. I'm embarrassed I made any of you. Goodbye.
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